90 Day Fiancé Season 11 Episode 12
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00:00:00Hey, Jane's ex-girlfriend to Mark, because she's the only person who can tell me the truth.
00:00:07Everybody say, can you sign the sign up? And Mark, it don't help me.
00:00:12You didn't have your back during that?
00:00:14No!
00:00:15Mina is in for a long road with that family.
00:00:19If they don't like somebody, they just don't like them.
00:00:23I love you more.
00:00:24Ani told Amini that she loves her more than me, and it took her many of two days to tell me that.
00:00:32I just feel like it's slowly getting away from me.
00:00:35You gotta be careful, because you lose everything. Your family, your kids.
00:00:40Remember the good days, Ma.
00:00:42I remember the good days.
00:00:43Do you?
00:00:44Try to bring me in. Don't try to push me out.
00:00:49Oh, my God!
00:00:50So, how have you been showing Jessica that she can trust you again?
00:00:57How about putting my job and coming here?
00:01:00With everything going on, it's not hard to think about the bold and the life I had before.
00:01:06I feel useless here doing nothing all the time.
00:01:09He's taking care of your child.
00:01:11He really just needs to step into the role of being a dad and just suck it up.
00:01:15I do have some good news.
00:01:19I have an interview.
00:01:20If you don't get that joke, I'm done.
00:01:23I'm just so tired of this s***.
00:01:25I really am.
00:01:26Very nice.
00:01:27How much is that package?
00:01:29$8,900.
00:01:31It's just a lot of money.
00:01:32And I really need this s*** job.
00:01:36Are there any decorations y'all are going to incorporate?
00:01:39What represents me?
00:01:40Your paintings!
00:01:41Like the one of me.
00:01:42The pentecost there.
00:01:44Are you serious?
00:01:45Yeah.
00:01:46There are so many things that made me think she's bisexual.
00:01:50So you're not going to say yes or no?
00:01:52Oh my gosh, I'm not talking about this.
00:01:55If I just keep getting big answers, I feel ready to postpone the medicine.
00:02:01Here's to a healthy and happy journey.
00:02:04Thank you so much.
00:02:06She's young.
00:02:07She's had a very short, open gay life.
00:02:11And to be married, is that really the best thing for you?
00:02:14If I really let all the doubts creep in bed, of course, I think it could get cold feet and not want to continue.
00:02:21So you had a little bit of an anger issue?
00:02:24Yeah.
00:02:24But most of the guys have it.
00:02:26No, that's not true.
00:02:27And that doesn't make it okay.
00:02:28The next conversation that I will move in there has to be, we are okay or it's over.
00:02:43It's up there.
00:02:44It's up there.
00:02:45It's up there.
00:02:45The next conversation is, it's up there.
00:02:46Yeah.
00:02:47It's up there.
00:02:47It's up there.
00:02:48It's up there.
00:02:48Yeah.
00:02:49Yeah.
00:02:49That's not true.
00:02:50Yeah.
00:02:50That's not true.
00:02:50Yeah.
00:02:51That's not true.
00:02:51It's up there.
00:02:51Yeah.
00:02:52Oh, hello.
00:02:53Oh, I see you in the booty.
00:02:53All I see is a booty.
00:03:08Hi.
00:03:15You look amazing.
00:03:17I like this outfit.
00:03:17I like this outfit.
00:03:22I missed you.
00:03:24Me too.
00:03:25I'm so sorry, but I need work.
00:03:27I feel bad.
00:03:29After I revealed to Matt that Ani told me in the winery outside that she loves me more than him,
00:03:36I feel like I drove a wedge between him and Ani.
00:03:39He felt like he couldn't trust her and he felt like he didn't belong in this relationship.
00:03:45I have to acknowledge his feelings.
00:03:47There's work to be done there.
00:03:49We have to show him, we as in me and Ani, we have to show him that he is equal in this relationship,
00:03:54that he manages this relationship.
00:03:55So I set up this cute date between Matt and Ani, and I am looking forward to seeing how it turns out.
00:04:03But I was also, like, nervous because it's the first time ever I had my husband on a date with another woman that I planned for.
00:04:13Sounds weird saying it, but part of being a problem.
00:04:17Cheers to, like, one-on-one times?
00:04:22One-on-one times.
00:04:25I gotta go.
00:04:27I love you.
00:04:31I'll see you guys in a bit.
00:04:32Have a good time.
00:04:33Okay?
00:04:33Bye.
00:04:34So you ready?
00:04:49You hungry?
00:04:50I may hungry.
00:04:51I'm trying to put it behind me when I see Ani, that she told how many that she loves her more than me.
00:05:02Look, I know she probably meant to, but I don't want any hostilities.
00:05:05I want to let all this go and just build a relationship, you know?
00:05:07Like, where do we stand?
00:05:09Let's find out where we stand.
00:05:10Because I care about you, and it seems like you care about me in some kind of way.
00:05:15Let's find out where we're at.
00:05:16You need to learn this, uh, how do you make it?
00:05:31Learn it.
00:05:31Learn it.
00:05:32Make the taco for me.
00:05:34Okay.
00:05:36I sure mean, I'll add it to my repertoire.
00:05:46What are you thinking about?
00:05:49Hmm, well, since you mentioned, I'm going to get you some information.
00:05:56Um, she said that you told her that you love her, but not so much me.
00:06:09To tell you the truth, I got a little jealous.
00:06:12You're a little jealous?
00:06:13A little bit.
00:06:14I know that we have not had what you and Amitya have yet.
00:06:21Oh, honey.
00:06:23All the time I have time with her.
00:06:26I think so, I love her.
00:06:29Um, she showed me, uh, many things, you know?
00:06:37I need to tell you first.
00:06:39You understand, she's your wife, but you need to show me.
00:06:47You need to get me.
00:06:51Wow.
00:06:52What reaction about me?
00:06:56That's what I'm here for.
00:06:57I want you to know that I'm here for you.
00:07:03She's my wife, but you may one day, too.
00:07:07Of course.
00:07:08And I've opened up my life for you in that way.
00:07:11Of course.
00:07:11Do you see that?
00:07:15I care about you deeply.
00:07:17Me too, baby.
00:07:20I need to be with you.
00:07:23I'm sure you'll talk with me.
00:07:26You'll open your head.
00:07:28Always.
00:07:28I want to try, never broke your hair no more.
00:07:50Um.
00:07:52I meet sometimes with you.
00:07:56I get that.
00:07:58I don't think, I don't think I was receptive enough to understand what you were saying.
00:08:06You remember the rules?
00:08:08Yes, don't, don't.
00:08:10Don't remind me.
00:08:12In the back of my mind, I understand the possibilities of, you know, what could happen.
00:08:17And I know that I should give her a little bit of faith, even though I feel a little unsecure.
00:08:24The sunshine.
00:08:25The sunshine.
00:08:28Oh, nice beach.
00:08:30I felt good with you this time.
00:08:39Oh.
00:08:41I mean, for the first time, I feel like I'm making steps to catch up in this relationship.
00:08:46And that feels really good.
00:08:47You know, it makes me really optimistic about this.
00:08:49I mean, should we talk?
00:08:58I mean, should we talk?
00:09:11if you have something to say i'll listen to you
00:09:17we have to both say whatever we think i don't mean
00:09:22i am so nervous to talk to shigana because i don't have a clue
00:09:39how she will react to me this relationship deserves better
00:09:45it doesn't mean that it deserves marriage or something but
00:09:49we cannot keep living this way you know i mean we have to solve it we have to break up
00:09:55or we have to get well again i mean nothing in between
00:09:58do you have anything to say to me or do you want me to say
00:10:07i just want you to speak first
00:10:11okay i mean i still believe that we are one in a million
00:10:17that match that swipe to right on that side is one in a million
00:10:23and it brought us to here big problem i feel myself weak
00:10:29i mean i cannot work here i cannot think that i'm
00:10:35hundred percent myself i am just right now dog sitter
00:10:41but do you realize that it's not me making that rule
00:10:45yeah then why am i the one that's being punished
00:10:48because you've been acting like a freaking asshole
00:10:50you don't like me anymore are you aware of this i don't like the server that you've been showing
00:11:01me lately no what is the lately shown server distant cold rude dismissive i was in depression
00:11:10depression why don't you understand because of what because of everything i mean the change
00:11:16we are in u.s we went to many places i met with your family members i mean everything is
00:11:23all of that put you in a depression yes and the biggest you've been loving la
00:11:27oh my god and then all of a sudden the past two days i'm hard to live with the dogs are hard to
00:11:33live with i'm bringing negativity into your life when i'm angry i don't know what i say normally
00:11:39but you know what i cannot recognize you this is not the girl that i met in turkey
00:11:46oh please one and a half years together oh my god you're so dramatic i'm not dramatic
00:11:52you're so dramatic i'm just real
00:11:54she was obsessed with me when we were in turkey i mean she was listening to me a lot
00:12:00more right now i mean that harsh tone she barely used that in turkey we had small problems but here
00:12:10everything changed the version of me that you get depends on how you treat me
00:12:17and how you've been treating me the past few days is the reason why you're seeing this face now and you're
00:12:22hearing this voice now it's because of you so it's a choice that you make i didn't make any choice you
00:12:30made a series of choices that have put us in a bad situation now where i don't even know if i want
00:12:34to get married what yeah
00:12:43sarper is used to being very independent and here in los angeles everything is separated he doesn't have
00:12:48his own car he doesn't have a u.s license he doesn't have a routine he doesn't have his certain
00:12:52spots that he knows and likes and always goes to so i understand that it's difficult but i think he was
00:12:58taking his frustrations out on me but i'm not gonna put up with it you're being super reckless with our
00:13:06relationship you know what if you know that if you break up you will cry for years for me oh my god
00:13:16i'm not are you kidding please it's not ego i know you i am the perfect match for you i'm not some
00:13:22helpless woman that can't survive without you that's gonna cry for years give me a break
00:13:28the thing that keeps us together is the connection between us maybe we are so different as personality
00:13:35but she is my soulmate like a puzzle piece we are completing each other but right now it's totally
00:13:41different she is not listening to me she is not healing me she doesn't do anything i want i mean
00:13:50everything is up everything is so messy and i don't know how to solve it it is like walking on an egg
00:13:57shell you know with you if it's too hard then leave wow i don't want you to walk on eggshells
00:14:04threat that's not a threat it's an out you can't handle it then no one's forcing you to stay
00:14:19hello yes this is him oh yes new york state i've been praying every night for him to get a job
00:14:26i guess we'll all be in these seats getting a little bit snow drizzled it's gonna be cold i've
00:14:38been feeling stressed about the wedding coming but on top of that i got a call from work there's
00:14:44nothing wrong with the place it's just i don't see any colombian thing around here
00:14:48it's something that i need to tell jessica i don't know what am i gonna do
00:15:02what's up little babies
00:15:19all right all right so you ready
00:15:24i want to grab this i've been with the dogs for some time so now i'm learning like to love them
00:15:35to be with them but i'm doing this for the first time i just put a little bit like down
00:15:41their back like that and i just rub it in
00:15:46just make sure you get it in
00:15:47john's technique giving the dog a bath is kind of like how she massages me terrible no i'm kidding
00:15:54i'm kidding you don't care you got to make sure you get a part of the legs
00:16:02this is like the same technique you want to use yeah with the soap make sure you don't get me to sleep
00:16:08you having fun
00:16:09one yeah yeah those dogs are the luckiest dogs on the planet i want to be right there
00:16:17you want me like to give you a bath yeah
00:16:21get more action than me these past few days
00:16:24if i know maybe you can also get one
00:16:29so what i like to do maybe is just take them and just get underneath them
00:16:33great your phone's been ringing like crazy yeah baby you got a ladder in both
00:16:39a while i don't even manage to walk
00:16:45i gotta go i gotta
00:16:52hello yes this is him no yes yes yes what's in your state
00:16:58i think these dogs are offended because i refuse them to sleep on our bed so now they're like
00:17:10okay we're going to make you run i'm lazy i'm lazy i'm crazy dogs
00:17:21i've been good been good man just been uh waiting for this phone call
00:17:24okay thank you very much
00:17:30how's it going baby crazy you had a good time with that i had four meals
00:17:39yeah it looks like they need another bed huh should i tell you something so you know who just called me
00:17:46and that's what i want for the interview
00:17:50i got a job baby
00:17:53wow
00:17:55i got the job
00:18:01i was a little nervous kind of
00:18:03to break a little bit i feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders
00:18:07i just made sure that i'm not going back to uganda
00:18:10yeah it's amazing it's amazing god has answered right
00:18:14i am i'm really happy you met you did it
00:18:20i've been praying every night for him to get a job
00:18:23i know now we are going to save we're not going to get our house immediately but i can't wait for us to
00:18:29have our own space just me and him just as enjoying everything just us
00:18:51so this is for collins colorado
00:18:53i'm actually curious to see the wedding venue now in winter because when i saw it everything was
00:19:01still alive and green and now everything's dead
00:19:07so
00:19:23today we're going to look at the wedding venue which i booked this wedding venue about six months ago
00:19:28because if i waited until last minute it would probably be impossible to find something
00:19:32if i would have had the choice i would have picked it in like the fall but i don't get that choice
00:19:37you only have 90 days so we have to make the best of the situation and it is going to be a winter
00:19:41wonderland wedding hi hi how are you i'm good hi how are you liam nice to meet you nice to meet
00:19:49you well welcome back thanks yes are you excited yeah i'm excited can't wait to see the places it's
00:19:54beautiful cool everything's pretty good out here yeah welcome to winter um the fire pit will be on all
00:20:04night for you oh that's nice yes so you can make s'mores you've never had a s'mores okay we'll make
00:20:12a s'more for your wedding day for sure then a wedding is really important but i think a guy and a woman
00:20:19kind of feel it different for me just make sure everybody comes so whoever's going to come and
00:20:25everything's fine this is where cocktail hour will be oh this is a cocktail bar although i don't know
00:20:32if we actually get a partake in the cocktail hour because i think we do things you'll do photos and
00:20:36stuff yeah well for the woman then they gotta make sure the dress the hair the roses it has to be the
00:20:44bright color it's just a big deal for them you know all right so on your wedding day this is where
00:20:53you're going to get married outside so when you are ready to go out down the aisle we're gonna pull
00:20:58the doors open and the view we'll walk down your aisle beautiful that's pretty you'll go first i'll go
00:21:07first i'll go very last oh you go very last
00:21:13and then i'll walk down this pretty aisle of my special day i love it featuring one jessica's special
00:21:21day featuring one and then our guests will all be in these seats getting a little bit snow drizzled
00:21:29so it's gonna be cold it's okay they will all have a blanket see they have blankets we'll make them
00:21:35as comfortable as we can and if it does crazy snow we'll give all of your guests clear umbrellas
00:21:41so they're not going to be sitting in the snow okay thanks a lot colombian weddings are a little bit
00:21:48different they have big parties going on it's almost like a carnival nice weather especially
00:21:54on the coast i mean my family's coming from colombia they've never experienced this type
00:21:58of weather if you're young maybe you can take a little bit but i can't imagine my aunties or my
00:22:03or my uncles dealing with the cold sitting outside so it's a little bit different from colombian weddings
00:22:12we don't have the cold weather anymore yeah and we have like a carnival going on big festival people
00:22:18you know laughing drinking we'll have the laughing and drinking we won't have the carnival
00:22:24all right just all american you know there's just nothing wrong with the place it's just
00:22:28i don't see any colombian thing around here
00:22:35what do you need to make it more colombian we wear this white shirts we call them guayaberas in spanish
00:22:42but they like being being really thin and this is super cold freezing my butt off out here bye
00:22:47if all else fails and it is a blizzard and negative 60 degrees we will move it inside for you
00:22:56okay perfect juan brings up he's kind of disappointed that there's not enough of his
00:23:00culture in the wedding which is kind of irritating because we've been planning this wedding for like
00:23:04two years all right well this is where i leave you drive safely yes thank you have a good one
00:23:10and so now we're a few weeks from the wedding and he's telling me all about like these carnivals
00:23:15and these dancers which are great i would have loved to incorporate some of those things had he
00:23:20communicated these things like a year ago would have been nice maybe two
00:23:25i'm happy that you're happy um it's a beautiful place okay yeah and i know you love it but i just
00:23:38don't see any of my culture in it what's frustrating is we've been engaged for like two years
00:23:46you had like two years to vocalize traditions that you might want
00:23:51it's just it just look boring to me it's just we need to be more colorful i mean there'll be
00:23:56flowers and stuff around we're gonna have like floral decorations around the whole place it's not
00:24:01gonna just be like how it was today there's gonna be decorations there's gonna be pictures of us
00:24:06on all the tables from all of our different adventures i thought about bringing different
00:24:11things from all of our trips which is amazing but i'm talking about my culture we're not talking
00:24:16about our trees i know you want to be positive and you want to use okay well i just need you to tell
00:24:20me what you want the hard part is we only have 90 days so it's like i feel like we have to really
00:24:30buckle down and set on a place and i wanted somewhere that was within our budget and you want that too
00:24:38you know we have to pay for it and then yeah and i'm not even working i'm broken that makes me even more
00:24:47stressed and i'm just
00:24:49i've been feeling stressed about the wedding coming me being at home and not working
00:25:00but on top of that a few days ago i got a call from the cruise ship and well i love my job so this is a hard
00:25:10and tough situation for me it's something that i need to tell jessica i'm sure if i tell her she
00:25:18might get mad but if i don't tell her it might be worse so i don't know what am i gonna
00:25:25i lost my friend i lost my job i love everything coming here i have never seen to make me cry
00:25:41position you are in i don't care for my feeling first my feeling first is for my kids
00:25:47i also want to reassure that the contract is not for the family it's also for me i say i don't have
00:25:54problems with signing this but i give it to me what would i do what
00:26:08do you want to make me cry
00:26:10finish
00:26:10how
00:26:12what
00:26:14give me
00:26:16stop drama
00:26:25luna
00:26:26luna
00:26:28the return to new hampshire after our
00:26:31course of his journey in florida
00:26:35and so Mark had his job for five days and I'm alone with Maria for the first time in the US, it's very strange.
00:26:53It's already annoying to be in this big house and also to see the photo of his ex-wife all the time.
00:27:04I have an impression she... she watched me.
00:27:09Now I live in here. I think it's time for the love of this.
00:27:14Ex-wife, new wife. Time to say goodbye. Au revoir.
00:27:24Oh wow.
00:27:26Where's this woman with Mark?
00:27:37Maria, you know this woman?
00:27:39I think he's from here. You need to explain to me where he's this woman.
00:27:46What's this woman?
00:27:55There's another woman who invited me to go to her.
00:28:01I'm surprised that she invited me to do the crochet.
00:28:06Everyone might make a new friend and you, I'm sure.
00:28:13You see the house?
00:28:14Oh, I forget the house.
00:28:21Oh, dear.
00:28:23I think it's this way.
00:28:30Okay.
00:28:31Baby.
00:28:35Yeah, baby, I lose the house. I don't know where's the place. I forget.
00:28:40I don't know where you are, so I don't know how to tell you from where you are.
00:28:44It's blue, it says Bob's nest. I think it says Bob's nest.
00:28:47Yeah, I know Bob's nest.
00:28:50You go a gauche, a gauche, and it's like, trois, maison, en deux.
00:28:57You know what?
00:28:59Yeah, try.
00:29:01This way, I see.
00:29:06Yeah, who's this house?
00:29:11And it's young, who's here?
00:29:13Hi.
00:29:15Come in.
00:29:17Sadie?
00:29:18Sit.
00:29:23Sadie, come.
00:29:24Hi, Sadie.
00:29:27When I heard Nina was moving into the neighborhood, I thought,
00:29:31she needs a stitching bitch.
00:29:34We just have a few sips and crochet.
00:29:38The reason we are sitting here stitching and drinking,
00:29:41it's community and we get together.
00:29:42And we started this because some people crocheted, but other people drink, so I was called stitch and bitch.
00:29:49Okay.
00:29:50Women have to come together and you have to be able to talk and you have to be able to bitch about things and you have to be able to complain.
00:29:55Remember, all the men in this neighborhood are type A personalities.
00:30:00Because they're pilots.
00:30:01They have to be a pilot.
00:30:02And the women just have to deal with it.
00:30:04So you're going to find people that feel the same as you.
00:30:07That's all.
00:30:08You're going to open this for your mama.
00:30:10So how are you doing?
00:30:11How is it coming from Paris to being in the woods of New Hampshire?
00:30:15It's different.
00:30:16This is big different for me.
00:30:19I stay home alone.
00:30:21It's almost stuck in home.
00:30:23So what are you doing while he goes to work?
00:30:25I stay home.
00:30:26I watch TV and I sleep.
00:30:30So it's very strange.
00:30:33It's different than you expected.
00:30:35Yeah.
00:30:39So what else have you guys been doing?
00:30:41Have you guys been traveling and seeing people?
00:30:43Yeah, have you seen the United States?
00:30:45Yeah, I see the Mark family and North Carolina.
00:30:51Do you get along with his family?
00:30:53Yeah.
00:30:54Yeah.
00:30:57No.
00:30:58It's like no.
00:31:00No.
00:31:02Everybody said you need to sign the prenup.
00:31:06A prenup?
00:31:07His family said you need to sign a prenup.
00:31:09Yeah.
00:31:10No.
00:31:11That is absolute bull****
00:31:12because they want to make sure she doesn't touch any of his money.
00:31:17I'm just a small, seven small cats.
00:31:20I'm sorry.
00:31:21I'm terrified.
00:31:22That's the thing about the prenup.
00:31:23You need to protect yourself because you deserve more.
00:31:26But you have this little girl.
00:31:27And any other children you have, that those children are taken care of.
00:31:31And he needs to take care of them because right now he's the money maker.
00:31:36I'm also reassured that the contract is not only for the family, but also for me.
00:31:43It's also for me.
00:31:44It will now be sure of what I sign.
00:31:48That's important.
00:31:49It's important.
00:31:50Because I can make a signature for the family.
00:31:53Maybe it will be pejorative for me.
00:31:58I say I don't have problems for signing this, but I give it to him.
00:32:02What would that be?
00:32:03What?
00:32:04He adopt my kids.
00:32:06Legally.
00:32:08Exactly.
00:32:09He takes care of me too.
00:32:10Because I don't know.
00:32:11Tomorrow, maybe you'll find the Mark family side.
00:32:15He broke my wedding, my family, and me.
00:32:21I don't know how everything.
00:32:22He tells me don't work.
00:32:23You keep me alone here.
00:32:24Right.
00:32:25You need to have a plan.
00:32:26You don't have any control right now.
00:32:27But I have never seen until right now.
00:32:30It's going to make me cry.
00:32:31The position you are in as a woman who has now two children.
00:32:40You are counting on him, and there are no guarantees.
00:32:44Yeah.
00:32:48I lost only my life.
00:32:50You've lost everything.
00:32:52Yeah.
00:32:53You have.
00:32:54I lost my friend.
00:32:55I lost my job.
00:32:56I lost everything.
00:32:57I come here for the new family.
00:33:00And my friend is coming here.
00:33:02And you coming in my life.
00:33:08Mark needs to have your back.
00:33:09Is this the need I need for my kid?
00:33:11I don't care for my feelings first.
00:33:12My feelings first is for my kid.
00:33:14I'm a kid.
00:33:17The fact that I have the conditions to sign this contract.
00:33:21I hope Mark will be open to the proposal to be able to adopt Clayton legally.
00:33:33But if he says no, it means his family.
00:33:35I don't see what I would do.
00:33:38You have to make sure that your children are taken care of.
00:33:45Both of them.
00:33:47And that you are taken care of.
00:33:49I hope so.
00:33:50You've always been supportive of everything that I do.
00:33:57So this is not like you.
00:33:59I just want her to be honest with me.
00:34:01If she's really sexual or not.
00:34:03Let me just be honest.
00:34:04Oh my gosh.
00:34:05There is something that I need to know.
00:34:07Okay.
00:34:08And you know what question is that?
00:34:10Maybe she wants us to just get married.
00:34:12And after that, she tells me something like that.
00:34:15I feel like you trapped me or you set me up.
00:34:19This is the very first time that something is like a total problem to me.
00:34:42But it's super okay for her.
00:34:44So, I don't know what they're going to do about it.
00:34:55Last night Maddie found out that I had painted my friend Claire nude.
00:35:16And I think he got upset about it.
00:35:19Or I know he got upset about it.
00:35:21Maddie, I don't really argue much.
00:35:24So, I would say this is probably the first time that we've kind of gave each other a silent treatment.
00:35:30But in this situation, I don't feel like I did anything wrong.
00:35:33So, it's a little bit harder for me to apologize for something that I don't feel like I did anything.
00:35:40I went and grabbed Maddie a smoothie with some protein in it and I'm hoping that we can at least try to talk about what happened yesterday and maybe come to some sort of common ground so that we won't stay upset at each other.
00:35:55Hey Choo Choo Choo, come here.
00:36:02Stevie thinks that she didn't do anything wrong and people just said no painting and everything was fine.
00:36:10But to me, I feel like betrayed or something.
00:36:17Choo Choo Choo.
00:36:19Come here.
00:36:21I just want her to be honest with me if she's bisexual or not.
00:36:26Because sometimes I feel like maybe she wants us to just get married and after that, she tells me something like that.
00:36:36I feel like you trapped me or you set me up.
00:36:42So, I just need her to be honest with me even if it's something that I wouldn't mind.
00:36:54Hey.
00:36:55Hey.
00:36:56Do you want to come out?
00:36:57I got some smoothies and maybe we can go for a walk and talk about things.
00:37:02Alright.
00:37:12I forgot your bag.
00:37:20You're welcome.
00:37:21I didn't think about it.
00:37:26Are you feeling any better?
00:37:29Huh?
00:37:30Be safe.
00:37:42what are you watching soccer wait is it our team against the rivals
00:37:50yeah so this is the biggest game and you didn't tell me
00:37:55yeah so you really are mad at me i am buddy
00:38:01even though maddie was growing up in a really conservative household he's always been very
00:38:11open-minded so i'm just really surprised that he's so hung up on this whole like sexuality
00:38:16concept i love women's bodies and i paint portraits to celebrate them if he would call
00:38:23our wedding because of that i don't know that he's someone i would want to spend the rest of
00:38:27my life with either this one's yours has protein in it we're getting married in two weeks and he
00:38:37either needs to trust me or leave me because i'm not gonna have this hanging over my head for the
00:38:41rest of my life you've always been supportive of everything i do so this is not like you
00:38:48he would just be heard from me that he didn't tell me anything about him i understand that
00:38:55you would always tell me anything you would do so i'm sorry if i hurt your feelings but that
00:39:00really was not my intentions
00:39:01so you're not gonna okay so let me just be honest there is something that i need to know okay and
00:39:10you know what question is that and this is the last time i'm asking you i know what you're gonna ask
00:39:15me and i'm just gonna tell you that i think it's ridiculous that you're even asking me that
00:39:18i would like saying that the person i'm in a relationship with we just realized that i'm in
00:39:24a relationship with them so it really doesn't matter whatever i preferred whether that be men
00:39:28women right so you're not gonna say yes or no right i can say no but if i say no then you're
00:39:36just gonna make assumptions anyway and there's just gonna be a continuous argument when you say
00:39:40no so that's your final answer yeah can you just leave me alone about it you're bothered i am
00:39:49bothered because i think it's crazy no sorry stop i think it's crazy i don't want it to keep being
00:39:54brought up every time i'm painting somewhere every time i'm doing something you have an assumption
00:39:58about me it doesn't matter okay so let me just tell you something if i had some other sexual
00:40:07desires and i haven't told you about it no if i had okay would you like to know with them now or
00:40:14after everybody i can tell you like i like this let's i just told you no you're still talking to me
00:40:19maybe i have some oh you don't care say later on down the road i do feel some sort of way don't you
00:40:28think i would talk to you about it yeah i wouldn't but i don't have anything to talk to you
00:40:31about right now i don't want it to be after a wedding there's nothing i don't want anything but
00:40:36you i don't we're gonna have a wedding really soon i swear if you could stay fiance for like months
00:40:44i would have never like insisted like this i just don't understand why i am being made to feel
00:40:51like i want to do anything other than me with you i understand that you're enough and i said that
00:40:56i just want to be enough forever you're not gonna get anything more out of me other than me saying
00:41:03that i love you and i want to be with you and that's it
00:41:06i know stevie for a long time and if she wants me to believe something a hundred percent she would
00:41:18insist on it she would swear she would like do so many things to make me believe that this is the
00:41:24answer but when it comes to if she's bisexual or not she always says no are you happy now just let
00:41:32it go you can choose what you want just like i can choose what i wanted and i've already told you
00:41:38a hundred times i wanted you so take it or leave it
00:41:42i just got a job we're feeling good joe's not leaving she's not getting on a damn airplane
00:41:58i just want you to know that i really want to move forward in my transitioning it's been very hard and
00:42:22it also affected our intimacy
00:42:24if she transitions fully then i'm losing things i enjoy and i think the marriage wouldn't survive
00:42:35i'm really excited to show you me down baby anywhere in the world you go people know new york city
00:42:48like when you're walking through somebody beeps at you but i'm walking here
00:42:51can you say i'm walking here forget about it forget about it
00:43:00all right here we go
00:43:10new york city
00:43:18ever since i knew she was coming to the u.s going into manhattan was definitely one of the things that
00:43:24like it's on the top of the list should i be spending money no should i you know be saving for a house yes
00:43:30but you know what man it's new york city we're going
00:43:34i just got a job we're feeling good joe's not leaving she's not getting on a damn airplane
00:43:40let's go let's do it let's go
00:43:45all right so we're going into the midtown tunnel we're going to be completely submerged
00:43:50i have to hit a button on the car and this car turns into a submarine
00:43:54no that's all standard in american cars
00:43:59your name yes i'm lying i'm joking
00:44:04tell look up you'll see a lot of tall buildings
00:44:12i've spent a lot of time in the city i used to work out here for a bit
00:44:17four or five years to show her some big buildings and hustle and bustle i mean it's really cool
00:44:23i mean she's from the actual jungle this is the concrete jungle
00:44:26i said the hotel's up here we're in the central park
00:44:30nothing i can do guys
00:44:34tonight we're leaving all the worries of long island behind to show her this other side of new york
00:44:43we're 45 minutes from the city just because we live in long island doesn't mean we can't come
00:44:47out here enjoy at night go to a fine restaurant or enjoy a good slice of pizza i mean this is possible
00:44:53anything is possible
00:44:54wow look at this one
00:45:07the stone like how it's carved the stone is carved
00:45:11yeah yeah
00:45:13it takes a long time to do all that so we're coming into time square this is one of the most iconic places in new york city
00:45:24see all the flashy lights
00:45:26wow
00:45:27and then like when the new year's comes in i believe that's that's the ball right there for the new year's
00:45:36wow when the countdown starts
00:45:39this is new york city maybe this is this is new york city this is beautiful right
00:45:43it's not square it's like that time
00:45:46it's like
00:45:47yeah i know right it's like the sun the artificial sun
00:45:50you can never find such buildings in uganda
00:45:54you can never find such buildings in the new york city in the new york city for the first time i feel like even you can be like knocked out because you have to look and see everything
00:46:11see those young cops i'm like oh is this a movie
00:46:18so whenever i'm watching a movie and you see new york city those cops
00:46:21okay yeah yeah everybody's hailing them down and everything yeah
00:46:24so i want to stand over here right like a real new yorker
00:46:29here take the pizza you fold it and then just
00:46:34like this
00:46:36here's finger in here
00:46:39or your middle finger your pointer finger in there
00:46:43this finger right here
00:46:45all right and then you take the other two fingers and you fold it
00:46:48just like that
00:46:51what do you think baby
00:46:58that's pretty good huh
00:46:59i've had pizza in uganda
00:47:01but i feel like new york pizza is the best pizza i've ever had in my life
00:47:06oh yeah raise the roof one for new york
00:47:09like this is honestly like a dream come true like i can't believe this is really happening right now
00:47:15you're here in new york eating a freaking new york slice of pizza we've always just been talking about it
00:47:20the expression of excitement on her face it was awesome you know her eyes were going a mile a minute in time
00:47:27square just looking at all the signs all the lights having some new york pizza together like we've always talked about
00:47:33wow it's it's it's it's amazing
00:47:36let's go back to the hotel
00:47:38let's continue to rock your world right
00:47:40oh i can't wait
00:47:41i just need this time to just get out of the house
00:47:46just be asked without your mom
00:47:48or the dogs
00:47:49just to
00:47:50have a long time
00:47:51this way
00:47:51and now i got this beautiful
00:47:54canhattan hotel room
00:47:55waiting for us
00:47:56i'm really gonna score tonight
00:47:58i put the chickens outside already
00:48:12and do you have the merchandise
00:48:16the dazzle
00:48:18the what
00:48:20i don't know what is that
00:48:23gluing on
00:48:24brown
00:48:25shiny
00:48:27whatever
00:48:28my dad all starts to shine for the wedding
00:48:30so now we just gotta make the dog
00:48:32shine
00:48:33oh my god you have a lot of stuff here
00:48:43i know i can't prepare
00:48:44so it's been a few days since we've been back from sonoma county
00:48:49and now the wedding's less than a month away which is crazy
00:48:52just the thought of this whole
00:48:54even if you started at 90 day to plan the wedding it's not enough time but less than a month is crazy
00:49:01so what's the idea with the jean jacket
00:49:05i think maxwell needs an outfit for the reception of the party
00:49:10yeah so he has a costume
00:49:13so yeah he can wear heels and then he can turn for the ceremony
00:49:17will you be doing the same thing
00:49:19no
00:49:20okay just a dog
00:49:22well good better him than you
00:49:23everything's getting a little closer and more organized
00:49:30how are you feeling
00:49:31i'm feeling like excited and anxious at the same time
00:49:39not having second thoughts
00:49:41second thoughts
00:49:43that's an american expression
00:49:45which means you're like
00:49:46you know
00:49:47oh no am i doing the right thing
00:49:49that's taking forever to answer
00:49:56no
00:49:59i think i'm not doing the wrong thing
00:50:02but i think actually there is some things
00:50:06they're not like settle or figure out
00:50:10now that i'm living like my transitioning process
00:50:16it's been very hard and confused
00:50:20and i have like a lot of pain seekers and it also affect us and affecting our relationship
00:50:29our intimacy
00:50:30i agree
00:50:34right now
00:50:39right now our sex life
00:50:41things are wonderful
00:50:42sometimes i just don't feel totally open
00:50:48i still have my own insecurities with myself and my body
00:50:53they want to look more feminine and i i'm not like able to be intimate
00:50:59completely
00:51:01i feel pressure because i want to give you amazing sex life
00:51:10and i want to see you happy
00:51:13but in the same time i'm trying to just be complete feel complete and be myself
00:51:19but sometimes i just feel that i need to do some changes to make that happen
00:51:28i just want you to know that i really wanted to move forward in my transitioning
00:51:41actually i made an appointment with a doctor
00:51:48i think alias at a point in time where she's doing a lot of research about all this
00:51:56and looking at the internet and learning more about all the options and
00:52:00she's not really talking to me about that
00:52:03and that probably was one of my issues about the whole
00:52:07transitioning in the first place she just kind of dropped the bomb
00:52:11so i'm fearful that she could come home one day and say oh in six weeks i'm getting
00:52:16some sort of surgery and you know that's just what it is
00:52:20i just want like to talk about
00:52:25and i think you need the opinion of like professional
00:52:34is that something that you want me to go with you too
00:52:39yes
00:52:40i think that's a good idea i've got questions also so
00:52:45we can uh hear some answers together
00:52:50i'm trying to roll with everything that's been going on and i think there has to be some sort of limit to
00:53:01you know what i'm comfortable with
00:53:03you're trying to find your way and i'm trying to find my way
00:53:06and i guess at the end of the day we need to figure it out
00:53:10even though i want to support alia and everything that she wants to do with
00:53:14their life i think the marriage wouldn't survive that
00:53:18i just wish i could just do another contract on the booth and save more money and that would
00:53:30take us a little farther ahead you know
00:53:32didn't she already say like no go to any workers like
00:53:36my boss has been texting me asking me if i could go back to my old job as soon as possible
00:53:43i think she'll be outside you're even thinking about it
00:53:45hi how you doing
00:53:56very good good seeing you
00:53:58i love working out i've been working out
00:54:27since i was 21
00:54:28when i was a kid and a teenager i was really skinny you know not good looking
00:54:34like no girls would look at me ever you know i was like really really ugly
00:54:39then i started working out everything changed especially with girls
00:54:44so yeah i love it
00:54:47perfect timing
00:54:53yeah
00:54:53herbie and i have gotten a lot closer together and besides his wife making i think it's a
00:55:04little bit crazy he's such a fun dude and we work out together and that give us a chance
00:55:10to unwind
00:55:11you can get your set ready for the bachelor trip i mean you're gonna tell me what's going on or
00:55:18no the surprise is the best part we have some stuff in store uh going to deadwood um which is in
00:55:26south dakota just just wild enough that you're gonna have fun but not wild enough that jessica
00:55:31hopefully doesn't get mad at me so
00:55:33deadwood this gambling town party town basically he's gonna be able to cut loose hopefully and
00:55:40you know the cruise ship was always a party for him so it's gonna be a little bit of that so it's gonna be a good time
00:55:45do you gamble
00:55:49yeah i know how to gamble but i don't have money to gamble with but
00:55:52you don't have to worry about that it's your bachelor party so you don't have to worry about
00:55:59anything past showing up
00:56:00yeah but you want money
00:56:02i don't have any jobs
00:56:03when you make people get a job
00:56:05i don't know the process so
00:56:07it's like we basically need to get married first and then a couple months after i get like a work permit
00:56:12yeah it seems like it's gonna be easy to find a job around here there's a lot of jobs it's just
00:56:17is it something you're gonna enjoy doing you know because it's a lot of agriculture farming ranching
00:56:23to be covered in who you'd be outside when it's zero degrees out something you're gonna have to think about
00:56:30you don't have any jobs around here either no
00:56:33there's not and it's not like the cruise ship you don't get to i don't think really good here either
00:56:38no
00:56:39the cruise ship is really important for me because
00:56:44the first time i did this cruise job i didn't know what to expect
00:56:48but when i got there everything was just so amazing to me
00:56:53that i kind of developed a huge passion for it
00:56:57and for a young dude who's trying to find his way in life
00:57:00finding a job that makes you feel like you're complete
00:57:04is more than a job
00:57:06and i thought when i would come here i could find a job that i would enjoy as much
00:57:12but i don't think that's gonna happen
00:57:14i just wish
00:57:17i could just do another contract on the boat and say about
00:57:20more money and that would take us a little farther ahead you know
00:57:24didn't she already say like no go to any more cruise life
00:57:33no i mean it's not like she said you can go but she don't want me to go for sure and i know that
00:57:37it's good money
00:57:38yes exactly i mean but you'd have to be away from jessica
00:57:43you'd have to be away from the
00:57:44from the beginning
00:57:47and then jessica would have to take care of everything
00:57:53the end of my last contract i went home but i never
00:57:58sent an email telling them i'm quitting
00:58:02i thought it was smart idea to just leave the doors open in case
00:58:06i couldn't find a good job here in america
00:58:09i haven't told jessica that my boss has been texting me asking me
00:58:14if i could go back to my old job i can't work now until i get my work permit
00:58:19so i tell them i have like a couple issues with my documentation but once i get
00:58:23my work permit i will be able to go back as soon as possible
00:58:27i'm sure jessica will be like kind of sad but i also know that i'm miserable here
00:58:33not having a job and staying out you haven't have you told jessica no she will be mad and sad
00:58:41and that'll be a whole conversation i want to have now and i don't need it now yeah or you're
00:58:46gonna have to talk to her about it at some point
00:58:51i think she'll be upset you're even thinking about it
00:58:53so i've been texting ray like her ex-boyfriend yeah i want us to meet him
00:59:05ray is one of ony's exes i'm so nervous we've been sending her money through the course of the
00:59:10relationship through this man my heart is pounding i need to figure out what the hell's going on
00:59:16i need to know what the hell is going on
00:59:41honey i'm home
00:59:46how was it it was good you know i felt like we got through it seems so radiant well i was glad
00:59:58that it went the right direction let's just say that oh was she like mad or disappointed that i
01:00:06told you no she was happy you know i think she cares about you and she just really hasn't been able
01:00:10to develop that with me somehow that felt like the cards were falling in line i'm relieved about
01:00:18an audience feeling more of a connection i was happy he didn't come back and say i'm packing you
01:00:24know but i have to be honest because of her hiding things from us and her hiding me from her family i had
01:00:31to go through all the red flags in the relationship and one of them is her x-ray i already have ray's
01:00:37cell phone number that's how i sent the money to the joint account and i was like you know what i did
01:00:44what any wife or girlfriend do which i reached out to the ex so i've been texting ray like her ex-boyfriend
01:00:54yeah what's going on well he's in mexico i want us to meet him i feel like every single time she's
01:01:04just saying some different stuff about ray and i i'm like in love but not dumb you know like there's
01:01:09just things they're not checking and i feel like i haven't gotten the answers i needed from her
01:01:18sure sure ray is one of annie's exes he's the most recent ex they worked together for a year
01:01:27i know that he's an american and we've never really known what their deal is
01:01:32there's a bunch of dudes in here what's the story with that who are all these people
01:01:37this is right when was the last time you told your daughter about a serious relationship
01:01:42before you yeah when she's sitting right we found out about him recently because we've been sending
01:01:51her money through the course of the relationship through this bank account that they opened when
01:01:56they were like dating but i always wondered why do we have to send money through this man why can't we
01:02:04send it to her directly like it feels like something is missing of the story right and i don't think we're
01:02:09gonna get that from her we have to get that from him we're meeting tomorrow so we're gonna go go
01:02:16meet up with him me and you yeah she's not gonna be there of course not that's the point
01:02:25i needed to close that chapter before i go to where i meet her family otherwise i'm gonna be thinking
01:02:29about ray in the back of my head
01:02:31for me to get the full truth i need to talk to ray without ani i don't want her to influence his
01:02:41answer or anything like that or to prep him i don't know if i'll get the truth out of him but i know i'll
01:02:48get another version i hope the version of truth match i have no choice but
01:02:54let's do this behind her back and plead for forgiveness later i guess
01:03:08you're ready to do this honey just about as ready as i'll ever be she's gonna be hella pissed about
01:03:24this yeah i mean i know i would be if i were her i mean we were just talking about you know rules and
01:03:33stuff and well there was no rule that says do not talk to my ex she should add it later just saying
01:03:40all right let's go i'm ready to do something behind your back really really tugs at my moral heart
01:03:47strings but we're going to guadalajara in a couple days to meet her family these are grown-up decisions with
01:03:56drastic drastic drastic measures on the line you know like i have children and i don't want this
01:04:05to hurt my family
01:04:09i know she's gonna be pissed and she's gonna say we betrayed her or whatever but
01:04:24if anything she needs to understand we're trying to bring you into our into our lives you know
01:04:37i'm nervous
01:04:50i'm nervous not to meet this in my language it's more like what i'm gonna find out from him like
01:04:56there's so much rushing through my head i want to know what he knows about this relationship what he
01:05:01knows about us hi thank you i want to know like the finances like why is he doing this for her
01:05:09what's his intentions oh okay
01:05:16i'm like shaking
01:05:17this is not who we expected at all
01:05:45never popped a bottle of champagne before somebody else did it
01:05:56hey i am definitely a romantic person i know it's just simple little gestures
01:06:00it's kind of going what i've seen on movies i guess here i will do these things to make her smile and
01:06:05make her feel good about our situation
01:06:14i want to do things like procedures or something that can help me to look more feminine
01:06:21alia contemplating surgical procedures it is difficult for me i'm just more worried about
01:06:28aesthetically like possible downside i fell for a man and i don't know how i'm gonna feel once that
01:06:36the person that i found my wife has been crazy
01:06:56maybe you want to just stand here for a second i want to set something up
01:06:59two seconds two seconds two seconds i promise
01:07:10cool man this is nice
01:07:14to be able to enjoy this moment together and just be alone be intimate with each other um not so much
01:07:19just making love but just being just holding on being intimate not worrying about being home with my
01:07:24mom the dogs walking up the stairs and barking at us and just enjoying a long time don't tell lucille
01:07:30i'll tell my mom so i have uh some rose petals here i'm gonna sprinkle them around a little bit
01:07:36i try to be a romantic person i don't i mean i'm learning ways to be more romantic i guess
01:07:41it's about learning and see what works but i want to be i want to be a romantic person
01:07:46i'm just kind of going what i've seen on movies i guess here never really popped a bottle of champagne
01:07:53pain before i've always just uh somebody else did it
01:07:59i'm surprised yeah yeah yeah yeah you want a glass of champagne of course yeah
01:08:27raise the glass to how much i love you how beautiful you are i don't want you to go back
01:08:34to uganda i don't want you to ever think about that ever again unless we're going on vacation and uh
01:08:39we're just going to make the best of this baby we're going to kill it you know
01:08:47i really appreciate everything you do for me i know you're trying i know i over push you like you
01:08:54have to work you have to get a job you have to say i want to be like a street girlfriend a street
01:08:59fiance but my wife just wants i'm concerned but all i do it for the better middle of our future
01:09:06you know that yeah but you know i love you you're the man i want to spend my life with
01:09:11i love you i love you so much
01:09:25i feel less now me trying to push work to get a real job i was really motivating him
01:09:30but now thinking about it i feel like i was really hard on him
01:09:34so sorry for that
01:09:47babe you nailed it you know what it is
01:09:52greg had to put in a law like to bring me here it's a lot of money it's not an easy process
01:09:57him flying to uganda every year for four years like i'll always be grateful for everything he has done for
01:10:03me all couples have their ups and downs but what really matters is as long as we're together
01:10:10everything can't work to us
01:10:21okay now let me go
01:10:23all right
01:10:34all right you guys gotta go get out of here
01:10:41shoot you ain't gotta go home but you can't stay here all right get out of here bye-bye
01:10:47let's see if it melts
01:11:13Let's go.
01:11:31The doctor that I found works for the trans community, so we can ask about whatever
01:11:40procedures she knows about everything I hope so today we're going to a doctor and I'm feeling
01:11:50very excited because it's like a big step in my transition
01:12:01okay so we're here
01:12:04Sean's come with me and that's something important to me. I hope that he will be excited like I am,
01:12:13but I also know that's something hard for him to deal with.
01:12:21Hi, I'm Aaliyah. I have a doctor appointment today.
01:12:24What doctor are you on?
01:12:26Um, I forgot, didn't I? I'm so tired. Sorry.
01:12:32Don't worry, you're in the best hands. I'll get you checked in. Have a seat.
01:12:35She'll be right with you.
01:12:43Aaliyah contemplating surgical procedures, it is difficult for me because I think every move
01:12:51that she makes closer to Aaliyah is a move further from the original relationship and that sometimes
01:13:01feels hard for me.
01:13:05Aaliyah? Hi, nice to meet you. I'm dropping you on.
01:13:07Nice to meet you. All right, Michelle.
01:13:09Nice to meet you. Come on over if you're ready.
01:13:11Welcome, have a seat. Thank you. Can you see that? Mm-hmm. I don't know about the floor.
01:13:26Just, you know, before we get into the details about different surgical options, let's talk about
01:13:31just picture-wise, where would you say you are right now in your transition process?
01:13:36I want to do things like proceedings or something that can help me to look more feminine. So when
01:13:42I look in the mirror, I look to myself and I feel happy before I see. Had you not talked about
01:13:49surgery before coming here? In the beginning, there was just the, I'm going to add a little
01:13:55something to my butt. Now we're doing a lot. I mean, I think she's beautiful just the way she is,
01:14:02but if this is, you know, little more and more and more towards her eventual goal of being 100% her, then I'm here for it.
01:14:16Yeah, I think in my face, the thing that it's like bugging me, it's this bone here.
01:14:23Mm-hmm. And now they're here, I really want to know also about breast implants. Yeah, let's talk about that.
01:14:29Because something that I have no information. As we have some sample implants right here.
01:14:33Yeah. Have you thought about if you were to get breast augmentation, what kind of a look
01:14:39you're going for? If you're doing your hands, would you be doing like this, this, this, this?
01:14:47I don't know. I would definitely call myself a butt man, but I haven't been a boob man in a while.
01:14:55I've been a pec man for a long time now, so that transition might be a little different.
01:15:02I just have some questions about the gender assignment. It's how you call that? The bottom surgery?
01:15:11You mean bottom surgery? Yeah, for genital surgery. Uh-huh.
01:15:13One of the major techniques that we use is called penile inversion vaginoplasty, where we use
01:15:18the genital tissues that you already have there to create female anatomy.
01:15:25I'm just more also like worried about aesthetically, like, you know, like the scars
01:15:31and the incisions and the possible downside. I need the information for everything because I'm just...
01:15:39Okay. It's everything new for me. And that's our job as the doctor to kind of
01:15:42discuss with you the options, but remember the surgery itself. That's not what's making
01:15:46you a woman. You're already a woman. Yeah.
01:15:50If she really is thinking that she wants to have gender reassignment surgery, like, if that's where
01:15:58we're going, then I should know that that's where we're going. I just want to make sure that I'm
01:16:05doing the right thing. Absolutely. Yeah, just keep in mind there's no one right answer. Whatever you
01:16:10choose, that's the right answer for you. Yeah. Even if she's, well, you know, I'm not 100% sure,
01:16:20but I'm pretty sure you should tell me that now. Ultimately, I fell for a man and I don't know
01:16:31how I'm going to feel once every nuance of that person that I fell in love with has been erased.
01:16:38People argue no problems, but you are so bad at fixing it. Why do I need to fix this?
01:16:54Compromising skills, zero. This is what server is showing me. I just feel foolish. I should have
01:17:00just stuck with what I originally wanted, which was to never get married. I mean, I'm sitting here
01:17:05thinking I could find a relationship better than this. What?
01:17:24I think you should have thought about what you were going to say a lot more before you came in here.
01:17:27I don't know what to say, you know, because if I say something, don't say that, don't say big words,
01:17:48don't say romantic words, you are like this. Well, I guess that tells me everything I need
01:17:53to know. The man that I'm with doesn't know what I need to hear in this moment. He doesn't know what
01:18:00to say. He doesn't know how to behave. He doesn't know how to treat me right. He doesn't know how to
01:18:04listen to me. So that's all I need to know. You actually don't need to say anything else.
01:18:10People argue, people can fight, no problems. But you are so bad at fixing it. You have
01:18:19Why do I need to fix this?
01:18:20Compromising skills, zero, zero.
01:18:23Yes, I do. But why do I need to fix this? What did I do wrong in this situation? Tell me. What did I do wrong?
01:18:29I'm not homesick, but I'm missing sometimes the freedom that I had. It's not about freedom going with yours.
01:18:35You have so much freedom. Like, I, you, you leave for hours. I don't even know where you go.
01:18:42It's killing me. When Shikada came to Turkey, my home was hers, more than mine. And my family
01:18:51treated her just like their own daughters. That's why she doesn't understand what I'm going through
01:18:57right now. I sacrifice a lot of things to be here in the U.S. with her. And when she's mad and upset,
01:19:05only she thinks herself and she doesn't see any of this. I just genuinely want to know what's in
01:19:14your heart to say to me. I'm not going to sit here and tell you. I don't want to lose this
01:19:18relationship. That's all the thing. Because this is a one in a million and I won't catch it anymore.
01:19:23If I break up with you, I don't want any real relationship from now on because it's so difficult.
01:19:29I mean, it is like an examination every day. Then why are you in this relationship?
01:19:36I love you. That's why. I mean, I'm sitting here thinking I could find a relationship better than this.
01:19:41What? Like, I could find somebody that I'm more compatible with than this.
01:19:48Oh, you can't find. What are you? Some like perfect man?
01:19:53I'm a perfect match for you. What?
01:19:55Honestly, I'm your type. You love bad boys and I'm a bad boy.
01:19:59No, I love masculine men, not bad boys. I'm a masculine man.
01:20:03I like a real man. Perfect chemistry, sex chemistry between us.
01:20:07Yes. I mean, what do you want? What do you want for her?
01:20:11I want to be treated well. I don't want to be treated like just because you're having a bad day.
01:20:15It is human. This is human. Why aren't you sitting here telling me you're sorry?
01:20:20I always say everything. You never have said that ever since this fight happened.
01:20:25Two and a half days ago, you've never said sorry. It was nothing about you.
01:20:29Okay, I'm trying to make you understand that even though it wasn't about me, I suffered.
01:20:34Do you understand that? You are rude to me. That's our problem.
01:20:40We're not going anywhere, so I'm going to excuse myself from this conversation because it's literally going nowhere.
01:20:45And it's bad for my mental health to keep going around the circle with you.
01:20:48Except that you are... So I'm actually done. No.
01:20:50Come back and use something better to say because this is pointless.
01:20:53I hate this. I hate it more. I hate this.
01:20:56I never wanted to get married. And then I met Sarber and we came to this point where it's like we do
01:21:10have to get married or we can't be together. And that was a huge decision for me to make to go from
01:21:18never wanting to be married to like agreeing to marry someone. And now this is what he's showing me.
01:21:23I just feel foolish and I feel like I should have just stuck with what I originally wanted, which was to never get married.
01:21:31Next time on 90 Day Fiancé.
01:21:40We are having our joint bachelor and bachelorette party.
01:21:43You know, a great game having fun. Reminds me of the good old days when I was on the boat.
01:21:50We never have a surprise for our bachelorette.
01:21:54It just made me feel alive. And I really wanted to go back to work.
01:21:58Can you have a good night?
01:22:00Let me have a drink.
01:22:02Oh, it's fun.
01:22:04Oh, there's good.
01:22:05What's the matter?
01:22:09I signed the plan.
01:22:12Sign?
01:22:13But one condition you adopt officially Clayton Samuels signed.
01:22:28You guys are just like making me drunk or do something like that.
01:22:31I'm just concerned about my friend getting into married life with an American girl.
01:22:37He barely knows.
01:22:38Matthew has left everything behind. Honestly, I don't see any, well, much sacrifice on your side.
01:22:45Our wedding is in just a few days and I'm just hoping he doesn't mess things up.
01:22:49I love her so much.
01:22:53I'm not sure how long love can justify all the terrible feelings you're having.
01:23:02Where did you meet her?
01:23:03I met her at the club.
01:23:06I think they want me here to find out who she is.
01:23:09We saw Annie, but you know where's Brenda?
01:23:12I don't need a s***, Brenda.
01:23:17She's a completely different person.
01:23:20Hi, Brenda.