Emmerdale 24th April 2025
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00:30I'm not working, just something I have to do.
00:38Some kids you need to run over, pensioners you need to terrify.
00:41It wasn't even my idea, I didn't even want to do it.
00:45Erm, am I supposed to start guessing? Because if there's something I should know...
00:49No, it's not just...
00:51Jacob. He starts mouthing off at me and he's obviously needing to prove something.
00:56Cos next thing he's calling me out for a race.
00:58A race? What? You're five years old and the winner gets what?
01:02Right, not Sarah.
01:04No, it's not like that. He's just in my face.
01:07He won't back off.
01:08And you won't back down?
01:10Would you?
01:11Well, does she know? Cos if she did, she should be giving you both a slap.
01:15Well, yeah, she found out and started kicking off.
01:18Alright, so you're just carrying on anyway?
01:20I know what people think of me. What charity thinks of me.
01:24They want me to mess up, show what a loser I am. I can't let that happen.
01:29Jacob needs shutting up. He's shutting down.
01:36It had to be Mac, didn't it?
01:38He absolutely loved it.
01:40I get it. He's an irritant.
01:42But it's not him that you should be stressing about.
01:44He tried to pretend he was alright with me, but no. I always saw through it.
01:48You've mentioned that a few times. Just forget about him. Aaron you need to talk to.
01:53I keep telling myself we can work things out, but what if we can't? What if we are done?
02:00You just, you need to explain it to him like you did with me.
02:04Yeah, but you wanted to listen. He doesn't. He's already pretty much slammed that door in the face.
02:08And if he loves you, that door will get opened again. I know you're pretty down on yourself at the minute.
02:15Yeah, because, because, all of my life I've got things wrong so I just stopped trying.
02:25And then, Aaron, finally got it right.
02:35Do you want some help with that?
02:36No, you do not want the answer to that. I feel like wrapping it around Liam's neck.
02:40This position is just short term until they can afford to find someone else.
02:44Yeah, yeah. He'll probably have a name badge for me today. Receptionist.
02:56Check I've ever ridden about before?
02:58Not my problem, is it?
03:00Well, it is your problem if you lose, because that would be embarrassing.
03:03Ain't gonna happen.
03:05I just wanted to say, erm, thanks for this. I really appreciate it.
03:11Well, I'm expecting you to win, because that way, Charity's probably gonna lose.
03:16I don't even know why she hates me so much.
03:18Growing up, Charity made a lot of mistakes. She doesn't want Sarah to make the same ones.
03:21So I'm a mistake?
03:22Only one person can prove it wrong.
03:24All right.
03:25I don't need to prove myself to anyone.
03:29Sarah's got in high.
03:30What?
03:32You're not opening up today?
03:33No. Boss gave me a day off.
03:35Think I might ask her for a pay rise.
03:37Feel free to ask if I can have one too.
03:39Ha! Good luck with that.
03:44Did she suspect anything?
03:45Why would she?
03:46I doubt she even thinks you two are stupid enough to be carrying on with all this behind her back.
03:51Well, she won't know.
03:52Won't hurt her.
03:53But she'll definitely hurt you if she finds out.
03:55I know that.
03:56Right, come on, get in the van. You've got a race you need to win.
04:07I know that face.
04:08Probably one that doesn't wanna be disturbed by me.
04:11Honestly, I wish I was lesbian too sometimes.
04:14Okay, er, this conversation suddenly went in an unexpected direction.
04:18Whatever stupid thing girls and women do, it will never be as stupid as what men do.
04:23Are all roads leading back to Cammie?
04:25And Jacob.
04:26Well, I thought that road had closed.
04:28Yeah, so did I, but they've now got into this pathetic feud with each other.
04:32Oh, that doesn't sound good. Things like that never end up well.
04:35Oh, it gets worse.
04:36They actually were planning on having some stupid motorbike racing against each other.
04:40Because racing on motorbikes is always the best way to solve a problem.
04:43I think they were just trying to prove something, but...
04:45What, something to you?
04:46Yeah, but all they've proved is that they're both idiots.
04:48I'm just glad I shut it down, shut them down.
04:50But why is Jacob even getting involved?
04:52I thought you and him...
04:53Yeah, we're done. Over.
04:54But no, now he's suddenly telling me that he misses me.
04:56And that's not gonna mess with your head at all.
04:59I just don't even know what to think or feel anymore.
05:02Well, when we're done here, back to mine.
05:05For a proper chat.
05:15Oh!
05:16Jakey, can you smell that?
05:18Petrol?
05:19No!
05:20Not petrol, victory!
05:21It's in the air!
05:22Come on, breathe it in.
05:23What are you doing?
05:24Selfie.
05:25Smile!
05:26Right, come on, off you go.
05:27What, now?
05:28Yeah!
05:29Last minute practice.
05:30Just...
05:31Don't be scared of it, Al.
05:32I'm not scared.
05:33He's not scared.
05:34He's well up for this.
05:35Totally.
05:36Maybe tell your face that, then.
05:37Right, go on.
05:39I'll tell you what, Sammy, he's a fast learner.
05:54I reckon I should ask if we've got insurance.
05:56This would need to be legal for us to get insurance.
05:58Oh, you've got...
06:00What are you doing here?
06:02Same as you.
06:03Watching these who ride around the track for apparently no good reason.
06:06Yeah, well, I've got a dog in this fight, so...
06:09So do I.
06:10Well, mine's got a bigger bite.
06:12Are you serious?
06:13You're actually backing Cammy?
06:15Siding with the enemy?
06:17It's not my enemy, Charity.
06:18Just because you've given a kick in doesn't mean, say, I need to kick him, too.
06:21Where is he, then?
06:36Hey, what do you think you're doing, you clown?
06:49Bro, you're the clown.
06:51My nan would go faster than that.
06:53Oh, you're on time, I'm impressed.
07:10It's a score run.
07:12Yeah, no, sorry, I didn't mean them.
07:14Lucas, Clemmie's here!
07:16Get your shoes and coats on!
07:19I did tell them five minutes ago, but you know what they're like.
07:24How's the cottage?
07:26It is what it is.
07:28I know it's not what you...
07:29Look, I'll just go and wait in the car.
07:31Billy!
07:32I'm just trying to keep it normal, Dom.
07:34Don't.
07:35Don't.
07:36Don't what?
07:37Beat yourself up.
07:38This is killing him.
07:39Yeah, and it was always going to, but...
07:41this guilt that you're putting yourself through?
07:42It won't go away.
07:43Yeah.
07:44I miss feeling sorry for him, it's not going to make things easier, is it?
07:47It's going to make it worse.
07:48He didn't deserve any of this, did you?
07:49I'm sorry.
07:50I'm sorry.
07:51I'm sorry.
07:52I'm sorry.
07:53I'm sorry.
07:54I'm sorry.
07:55I'm sorry.
07:56I'm sorry.
07:57I'm sorry.
07:58I'm sorry.
07:59I'm sorry.
08:00I'm sorry.
08:01I'm sorry.
08:02I'm sorry.
08:03He doesn't deserve any of this, Joe.
08:04He is a good person.
08:05That you used to be in love with?
08:08With me and Jacob, I genuinely thought it was over, but then when he was talking and
08:12saying all the regrets that he had...
08:14And Cammy?
08:15Where does he fit?
08:16I don't know.
08:17I like him.
08:18I really like him, and he's different, you know, something new.
08:21And your grandma loves him?
08:22Yeah.
08:23Added bonus.
08:24Look, this is going to sound bad, and I actually hate saying it.
08:28Don't worry, he's not here to hear it.
08:30When I was with Jacob, I just had this future plan in my head and he was in it.
08:36You know, it just felt right and normal.
08:39Long term?
08:40Yeah.
08:41But with Cammy, I don't think it's ever really felt like that.
08:44But then again, he's never hurt me and all the things he's done for me, he really cares
08:47about me.
08:48The thing with the future, it can change in a heartbeat.
08:51Oh, look, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to.
08:53Oh, no, no, don't worry, it's fine.
08:55I'm just saying, we try to paint all these perfect pictures, but sometimes life comes
09:01along with a big red marker pen and puts a line through it all.
09:06So, if you had to choose right now...
09:10I don't know, it's so hard.
09:12Maybe if you made a couple of lists.
09:14Pros and cons.
09:15You know, what's really good, what's really bad.
09:18What you hate, what you love.
09:23Oh!
09:24Good morning, sleepyhead.
09:26How was your lying?
09:27Can't really call it a lying when you've been awake all night, can you?
09:31Are you still doing it?
09:33Well, I stayed in your spare room.
09:35And just so you know, you've really got to look at that wallpaper, cos...
09:43I also wanted to make sure that you were okay.
09:46Yes, I'm fine.
09:47Yeah.
09:48Yeah, you look it.
09:50There's so many questions that I need answering,
09:52and these two spiners to even come and face me.
09:55Right.
10:01Please don't go off your head.
10:02Why would I go off my head?
10:03I was just trying to protect you.
10:05Oh, no.
10:06Oh, no.
10:07Mary, what have you done?
10:08Nothing.
10:09I'm not...
10:10John did come and see you, though.
10:12What?
10:13When?
10:14Yesterday.
10:15I just thought...
10:16You just thought?
10:17You just thought?
10:18What do you mean?
10:19You just thought what?
10:20Did you send him away?
10:21Well, I knew what he was going to say to you.
10:23I've been thinking he's avoiding me.
10:24Aaron, he lied to you!
10:26Yeah, well, it seems like everyone lies to me.
10:28Move.
10:33It's not too late to change your mind, bro.
10:35None of this is new to me.
10:36You can keep talking, but no-one's listening.
10:38Twenty quid says Jacob wins.
10:41I'm not going to steal your child's sport off your charity.
10:44Your kids have got to eat.
10:45Sammy!
10:46Think Kay might have lost his spine.
10:47Should we help him look for it?
10:48Have a think where you had it last.
10:50Yeah, yeah.
10:51You'll make it interesting when you call it fifty.
10:53I'll make it double interesting.
10:54Hundred and fifty.
10:55That's not double, but dumb.
10:57Deal.
10:58Right.
10:59Up to the line.
11:01Start them up.
11:02Give me a minute, Sammy.
11:03Hey.
11:04Jacob?
11:05You all right?
11:06Yeah, I'm all right.
11:07It's just you don't seem all right.
11:09Seriously, can we just do this?
11:10Can someone take his batteries out?
11:12It's getting very irritating.
11:13Okay, listen to me.
11:14Don't let him get inside your head.
11:16Okay?
11:17You stay in the moment.
11:18You shut out the noise and you stick to your guns.
11:20Okay?
11:21Mm-hmm.
11:22Thank God.
11:23Let's do this.
11:25Okay, so I'm not gonna bang on about rules.
11:28Because there are none.
11:29You just go when I say go.
11:31But...
11:33Devil's leap.
11:35Just don't get daft.
11:37Some bloke went mad up there and ended up smashing his skull
11:40and now he eats through a straw, so...
11:42Joyful little anecdote for you there.
11:43Great.
11:44Thanks, Pam.
11:45Okay, on your bikes!
11:51Ready?
11:52Steady!
11:53Go!
11:54Go!
12:22He was outside.
12:23I didn't think you'd want to see him.
12:24But we had words and he took off.
12:25I thought I was doing the right thing.
12:26I can't believe he'd do that.
12:27What, I told you.
12:28I was trying to protect you.
12:29Protect me?
12:30I don't need a guard, Doc.
12:31No.
12:32I was being a mate because I know how good he is at talking people round.
12:35Oh, right.
12:36So I'm a mug then.
12:37Is that what you're saying?
12:38No, that's not what I'm saying at all.
12:39I'm saying that you were upset and that your head was all over the place.
12:41That's like your call to make.
12:42No!
12:43It probably wasn't.
12:44But tell you what, Aaron.
12:45Given the opportunity, I would do it again.
12:46Because he was lying to you.
12:47So God knows what else he was lying about.
12:48Oh, yeah, because you always tell the truth, don't you?
12:49Proper open book.
12:50This isn't about me.
12:51This isn't about me.
12:52This isn't about me.
12:53This is about John and all the red flags that he's got above his head.
12:54And look what's happening right now.
12:55You're defending him.
12:56I'm not defending.
12:57Are you not even listening to me?
12:58I'm not defending him.
12:59I'm just trying to get the answers that I need, and if you haven't been such an idiot,
13:01maybe not to be a fool, maybe not to be a fool.
13:02You haven't been a fool.
13:03What are you saying?
13:04What are you saying?
13:05No, that's not what I'm saying at all.
13:06I'm saying that you were upset and that your head was all over the place.
13:07That's like your call to make.
13:08No, it probably wasn't.
13:09But tell you what, Aaron.
13:10Given the opportunity, I would do it again.
13:11he's got above his head and look what's happening right now you're defending him i'm not defend are
13:15you're not even listening to me i'm not defending him i'm just trying to get the answers that i need
13:18and if you haven't been such an idiot maybe i would have got him or you would have heard exactly
13:22what he wants you to hear are you being serious yes i'm being serious because we both know exactly
13:27how it's gonna go i'm really sorry aaron i wasn't lying to you but this is just my truth stop what
13:32happened when i was playing soldiers it's just left so many scars i didn't want my past to scare
13:37your way okay you need to go we both know it's coming now fine fine
13:48aaron you only get this good at lying if you've had loads of practice at it
14:07i'm not stupid you know i know you're here just to wind me up it's got nothing to do with jacob
14:14and cammy you're right and you're wrong but but not in that order right oh so she is stupid and you
14:24are just there to wind her up thanks for clearing that up sam well do you know what you'll all be
14:30laughing when your money's going in my pocket all winnings donated to cherry thank you the only chance
14:37doctor perfect had of winning is if cammy would have turned up on a pedal bike with two punctures
14:42and a broken chain and even then had it back to him
14:58that's what a mess honestly if you ever hear me say the words let's decorate ever again please
15:12lock me in a cupboard that's a bit extreme isn't it which i just i don't even know what i was thinking
15:16just sort of stinks of pain yeah that's the thing with pain i mean it you know it tends to smell like
15:20paint yeah well it's not pretty good for thomas so you don't mind having him again today do you yeah i'm
15:26i'm meant to be working yeah but you choose your own hours practically your own boss yeah well like
15:31you practically your own boss yeah but i don't get to choose my own hours right but if it's a problem
15:36it's not well clearly it is come on spit it out just leave it cammy leave what have you got something
15:42to say finney i don't want to be a dad what i don't want to be a dad that's what i'm saying
15:48i brought lunch so that is one less thing to worry about
16:00oh sorry have i interrupted the flow no there wasn't much flow going on
16:05it's not always going to be like this like what are you feeling guilty
16:10i knew it'd be hard but it'll be even harder if you keep blaming yourself who else do i blame
16:16me i mean things haven't changed have they we're together but we're not together we're still
16:24pretending yeah i know it's going to be hard it's going to be worth it i promise
16:30oh it's the school
16:37hello
16:49so do you want the good news or the bad news
17:14bad news it's a tie which means they're both as bad as each other right and the good news
17:21it's a tie which means they're both as good as each other oh i'm sorry that wasn't funny
17:27no the thing is it should be though but nothing about my life is funny because i never know how
17:32long of it i've got left to live oh sarah and i get it nobody really knows but i do know that there's
17:38this thing hanging over me all the time and whatever choices i have to make big or small they
17:43always just become bigger because i have to make it matter i can see why you feel like that yeah
17:47because it's true girls my age they can date who they want they can get it wrong and they'll always
17:51be someone else but i can't afford to get it wrong because what if there isn't someone else you're
17:57getting yourself all worked up and it's totally understandable but there is probably a third option
18:02that neither of them are right for you so i've been them both you have still got time to make
18:08choices to make mistakes to get it wrong to get it right yeah sorry i must sound so i hate feeling
18:15sorry for myself we all feel sorry for ourselves sometimes do you fancy a refill while you figure
18:20this out why am i not boring you do you know nothing about my life um whatever decision you were
18:34about to make had hang fire something you might want to see first
18:58but there is an obvious misprint on the menu there should be two s's not one otherwise people aren't
19:03eating dessert they're eating desert hey no don't put that in your mouth sorry no i'm not talking to
19:09you i'm talking to my son look can you just get it reprinted and sent out to me asap thank you
19:15it doesn't rain it pours have you got a spare umbrella well i'm guessing because we've got the
19:22little man here it's not just work related come here tell me if i'm sticking my arm where it's not
19:27wanting if it's about vinnie you can stick you in wherever you like so he has talked to you then
19:32yeah he's talked to me this morning he told me that he didn't want to be a dad what where did that
19:37come from i just asked him to look after thomas well sorry he's your son i mean should he have moved
19:43in if he didn't want to be part of that yeah but he hasn't actually said where it's coming from
19:46well i'm guessing it's from me no no no no no it's definitely not you it's it's absolutely him
19:51he just he's just terrified that he's not going to be the dad that he wants to be what
19:58vinnie is great with thomas he has him loads of times someone has had thomas loads of times oh my
20:03god oh hang on what's he so scared of history repeating itself you know what his dad did to
20:09him look you might not see the scars but vinnie is not his dad same blood same dna you know he's just
20:15desperate that he's not going to be anything like him you know what vinnie's like you know when he gets
20:20something and he said he just keeps overthinking it why didn't i see this because he didn't want you
20:26to see it look i'm gonna need to go and talk to him if you don't mind well it's not like ab yeah you
20:33you take as long as you need
20:50you
21:03you okay i thought fine if you need any help don't need your help just leave me alone mess about
21:33fine now
21:45proud of yourself are you giving yourself a big pat on the back
21:50oh you're talking to me good right well i don't see anyone else who's obsessed with putting themselves
21:55and other people's relationships oh little sister stomping her foot please don't be mean to my big
22:00brother i know where i'd like to stomp my foot can you not fight his own battles instead of making them
22:06up and lying about who died on them he was on his way to tell aaron the truth you had to get in there
22:12first didn't you and i bet you loved that right now why would i love that oh come on we both know how you
22:17feel about him you hate him victoria do you not think it's even a little bit weird that he lied
22:23about someone being dead when they were very much alive very much alive he's been in a coma for years
22:30so he's in a bed not a coffin and johnny boy had plenty of opportunity to tell him that only he
22:35didn't did he and you know what i think i think that you're too scared to ask him the questions
22:40because you might not like the answers because the truth of the matter is victoria you don't know who
22:45your shiny new brother is either i know who he is and i know that he loves aaron but maybe after
22:51everything you put charity through you've forgotten what love looks like wow so we're reducing ourselves
22:56to tit for tat now are we are we just going to stand here and call each other names nope because
23:01i'm off to fix what you tried to break hey what are you doing here more like what are you doing here
23:13this stupid race wasn't supposed to be happening well i'm pretty sure it is otherwise we're just
23:17three people hanging around in the wood right look this isn't funny you know i told them to call this
23:21off well sarah boys will be boys and the more you try and stop him doing something oh don't pretend
23:25like you didn't want this to happen you're actually helping jacob only because i don't want him getting
23:28injured and you really wanted him to beat cammy you even had a bet on it didn't you hey all winnings
23:34donated to charity are you serious hang on if you didn't think this was happening what are you doing
23:39here because that's all the picture what picture the one sam posted hey you didn't post that picture
23:46online for all the world to see for the whole world just for friends and family i'm beginning to think
23:51you're trolling me sam well you couldn't have timed it any better oh god i'll be kidding me
24:05look clemmy what happened today in class playing up like that i know that isn't you
24:26look maybe we need to talk okay because i know that everything feels really different right now
24:31but it's important you know this everyone still loves you okay and billy you're gonna see him all
24:38the time that's not gonna change everything's changed billy doesn't love us anymore clemmy
24:48he'd hate it if he knew i was here so why are you here because if i hadn't started digging
24:54none of this would have happened so blame me blame you should be thanking you he isn't somebody that
24:59opens up easily so when he started telling me about his past it was a pretty big thing for him
25:04we've all got pasts vic and i thought we'd shared everything so what stuff has he made up now nothing
25:12nothing john was on his way to tell you the truth and max stopped him i should have known the truth
25:16from the start you should you're right and until he explained it to me i thought it was all a bit
25:22weird too if he could go back yeah but he can't go back can he can't just put it all back in the bottle
25:26i've got no clue who he is anymore yes you do you do he's the person that you fell in love with
25:33and he loves you i mean more than you know i just wanted him to be straight with me
25:37how am i supposed to trust him now but you're getting married are we please please just give
25:43him a chance and let him explain before you decide whether it's over or not
25:49before you go off on your head you didn't listen to a word i said did you course i listened but
25:53but you thought you'd have your stupid race anyway he got in my face i don't want to know
25:56it's pathetic all of it i didn't start this but i was always going to finish it oh why because you're
26:01the big man no because that's just the way it is are you going to stomp your feet at jacob too
26:04do you know how cringe all this is i like you sarah i really really do but this wasn't about you
26:09this was about me and jacob and shutting him down so where is he then jacob because he should
26:14definitely be here by now well he should be but he won't be he had a little accident at the
26:19leaping flying off his bike what always the leap i warned him and you didn't stop to help him
26:24course i did i asked if he needed any help he told me to do and i wasn't gonna ask twice
26:28oh and why would you eh why would i sarah
26:35how come you're not at work because i needed to see you your mom's got thomas
26:40and what did she say to you look i'm really sorry vinnie i had no idea before i am i shouldn't
26:50have said what i said to you and i was palming thomas off on you without even asking if it's
26:53okay well it's not about thomas i know but you are not him vinnie you are not your dad i know i'm not
27:01but it's just sometimes i start thinking things and then i can't stop thinking them yeah that's
27:06probably normal is it normal you know being worried about saying doing the wrong things
27:10and being scared about even being you know the slightest bit angry in case it turns into something
27:14else or i i i turn into something else i mean you probably think i'm being paranoid but a little
27:19bit all parents get angry yeah well not every parent had a dad who couldn't control his anger
27:25who would literally you know beat his son up apologize and then do it all over again i know and it must
27:29have been awful but that isn't you vinnie you're nothing like him you are a good man yeah well he
27:36gambled you can't control it and then you know i gambled so yeah you could control it though i just
27:42think about the future gabby and it scares me look i'm gonna say it again because you are a good man
27:53vinnie a man i want in my life and my sons
27:57how is she well i have just left her bawling her eyes out so how do you think that's a stupid
28:09question sorry joe she's just a little girl who has had so much to deal with before the age of seven
28:16i mean all she's ever known is trauma she was in home after home care she didn't know what love was and
28:22now she has got what she finally wanted a family and it's been ripped apart all because i've put
28:30myself us before my own kids i could talk to her what seriously i'm just trying to help why because
28:40you know what it's like to grow up without parents that's not exactly the angle i was going to take
28:43well maybe you could talk to her about how lonely it is with only servants and horses to talk to
28:47do sorry sorry i get it it's fine you need to stay away from this joe it's way too confusing for
28:57them i just don't like seeing you like this i know but you've got to understand i am a parent first i
29:02always will be i know and me and you it's at the back of the queue okay i know you think you've got a
29:07role to play but you really don't
29:20jacob you okay you're not hurt or anything what are you doing here cammy told me something
29:39that happened to you i was scared don't be let me just text my grand because she was worried
29:51so what actually happened nothing i'm just an idiot right now tell me something that i don't know
30:01i thought i had something to prove
30:02i am not that person jacob not to you to me right well you're okay that's all that matters
30:11right could have been so much worse
30:16yeah i could have ended up dead like my mum
30:20she died on her own in an ambulance
30:23the only people around her were strangers hey i think about it all the time i wasn't there but i
30:33still see it imagine it i see her face and she knows she's dying
30:45oh i'm sorry no what are you saying sorry for it's always there
30:57when i go to sleep when i wake up have you talked to anyone about this you shouldn't have to go
31:01through this on your own eric
31:06he's been great supportive but he's got enough going on jacob there's people who can help you
31:12i try and shut it down
31:19get it out of my head
31:22but in that split second when i came off the bike
31:28i didn't know what was happening
31:32it's like everything just stood still
31:33did it all get rushing back at me
31:50you've just gotta let me in vinnie if i knew you were feeling like this
32:03no i'm scared you've run a mile i'm not the one doing the running i'm never gonna run away from you
32:10do you know from ever being stupid or i'm on the ledge again please
32:14but the one who talks me down
32:16i know i should have spoke to you because
32:19i always want to be in your life gabby you and thomas you know that's the future i want
32:25it's the future i want too
32:26okay so what's stopping us what well when two people want to spend the rest of their lives with
32:33each other they get married right yeah i guess okay so why don't we why don't we get married
32:44i shouldn't be putting all this on you it's embarrassing i'm not your problem anymore
32:49but you can still talk to me about anything
32:54i'm never not gonna be sorry though the way i've been with you that wasn't me
32:59i know with everything you had going on
33:03i took it all out on you
33:07it's okay
33:08no it's not
33:11i'm better than that
33:12because of it me and you have messed it up i mean look at me now doing stupid stuff like this
33:27i know i've blown it
33:31you got a better option now
33:33i never said i wanted a better option
33:42i really do hate myself you know
33:46for hurting you like that
33:49i think about the way you looked when i ended things
33:52you know it was
33:55because i i thought i was pregnant
34:00what
34:05sarah
34:06when you broke up with me i thought i was pregnant with your baby
34:12you might think it's come out of nowhere but
34:15when you know you know don't you so it just you know
34:17sort of makes sense
34:20or it doesn't
34:21no no vinnie
34:22no i'm sorry of course of course you don't want to marry me just just
34:25just forget i said anything
34:26no i don't want to forget
34:26i was getting ahead of myself okay i'm stupid i've just messed it up haven't i
34:29you haven't messed anything up it's just
34:32caught me by surprise that's all
34:35just everything that i've been through
34:39you know with with jamie and nicky it's taken me a while to
34:42get past what they did to me
34:43i'm nothing like them
34:44no i know you're not
34:46the sad part is i wanted to be
34:49because they were more than me weren't they they were more cool
34:52whereas me i'm just i'm just vinnie from the scrapyard aren't i
34:55i love vinnie from the scrapyard
35:00i don't think you understand how much i love you
35:03look you'll be just saying this to make me feel better okay well
35:06maybe you're gonna believe me when i become your wife
35:11what i thought when you know you know oh my god right okay but you need to ask me properly
35:17right yeah but don't don't i need a ring for that oh well rules are made to be broken
35:22come on just ask me well do i have to get down on one knee still obviously right okay okay
35:27gabby gabby gabby
35:27will you marry me
35:32no oh right i'm kidding obviously i'm gonna marry you come here
35:38we're getting married
35:47doesn't suit you that look what look the one where you look happy
35:52150 quid richer i don't really care about the money to be honest i care about jacob and sarah
35:57she might have texted saying he's okay but where are they so do i get half the cash no you don't
36:02hang on that's not fair so it's baldness mate but there's a lot of men without her
36:05i don't know why you're looking so hard done by whatever's happened to jacob that's on you
36:09on me hang on no mouth you hang on anything could have happened to him i told you i checked on him
36:16but you couldn't wait to ride off though none of you were even there you're wasting your time she
36:21just doesn't like it when she backs her on course oh he got lucky not gonna be lucky all the time
36:25i don't even care what you think me and sarah will be good and what happened today won't change
36:29that you won't change that and i'm not giving up on her
36:32i am i really didn't expect you to call yeah neither did i there is so much i need to say
36:50to you aaron what i don't understand is why you didn't just say it before why did you have to lie
36:54to me let's start from there shall we aiden didn't die but i pretty much killed him in my own mind
37:04that is what i had to do to get my life back i had to tell myself every day that he was dead so i
37:09wouldn't spend every moment praying that he would wake up this this man that i loved
37:17that i would have taken a bullet for he was lying there in a coma and there was nothing i could do
37:25to help him i'm still not here am i he didn't just tell me the truth because this was my truth
37:31i could go to some pretty dark places guilt shame self-loathing i don't want you going to them too
37:40you've got your own wars to fight i do not want to drag you into mine oh you just stop it wars
37:45it was i've never hidden anything from you what i am who i am thought it's supposed to work both
37:52ways it does i just didn't what you didn't want to scare me off i'm sorry i should have told you
38:05the truth but these are my demons not yours demons or just secrets i thought i proved myself to you
38:13that you can trust me with anything and everything yeah the man who knows all my secrets
38:23and i don't know if i can trust him at all
38:24oh i still asked it then yeah i might have got bored of that yesterday at the salon obviously not no
38:36tell you what anybody that works at nursery they're heroes they need a gold clip oh looks like the
38:43cavalry have around oh thank god for that no offense tommy and it looks like the cavalry you've sorted
38:48things out look at you two eh anyone looking that happy always makes me worried you look like you
38:53want something oh no better than that we're getting married what i'm sorry no i don't know about that
39:00that's what i meant what are you serious i know i know you're shocked to me so are you oh it's not
39:05important okay we're looking forward now not back which is it's obviously you know it's brilliant but
39:12as far as u-turns go i know it's a pretty big one big it's size a flaming buzz but we love each other
39:17very much and we know what we want and that's all that matters i know i've made mistakes a lot of them
39:26but it's because i love you you made such a big deal about getting married and you'd already been
39:30engaged did you just forget to tell me no it's just a part of my past i didn't think you'd want to
39:36know about are you still in love with him what are you still in love with him no of course not i
39:43still care about him but that is a different time in my life and what if he wakes up from this coma he
39:47won't yes but if he does wake up from the coma he's gonna wake up to his old life thinking he's still
39:51engaged to you then i realized life didn't stand still it couldn't be put on hold you're still in
39:59love with robert oh my are you serious do you really want to go there just saying we both have
40:07passed yeah and you know everything about mine but this tells me nothing about yours it tells me
40:11nothing about you you live your life traveling around on your own like some little hermit and for
40:15what are you running away from something or somewhat no vic wanted to invite a load of your mates to the
40:19stag do into the wedding and you said you didn't want them there because you were scared they would
40:22start brawling was that another lie only because i'm ashamed of the truth ashamed i don't have any
40:28friends in the army anymore aaron i had to leave that life behind to try and heal and no i'm not
40:36running away from anything the person standing in front of you now is still me with flaws and
40:41honestly there are so many things i wish i could change about me but that's just the thing john i
40:45don't want you to change i am fighting things all the time and we're supposed to fight them together
40:51i get it i get it there's probably things that have happened to you in the past that i don't need to
40:55know about yes i have scars that do not need reopening that is my old life you are my new life
41:02but if we're gonna get married right if we if we're gonna do this whole marriage thing how many more
41:05secrets and lies am i gonna find out about you if you've not answered my question
41:12well is there any point if you're already having second thoughts trust me i'm having more than just
41:16second thoughts right all right well sounds like you're calling off the wedding that's because i
41:23don't know who i'm marrying anymore okay so what happens now i don't know i just need time to think
41:36look we can um we can work this out no just go please not not like this
42:06it was never really a right time and then i couldn't get my words out and you broke up with
42:12me i turned my back on you when you needed me the most you didn't know but if i wasn't being so
42:20selfish i didn't want to make things worse for you i knew what you were going through
42:25my mum would be ashamed of me no she wouldn't
42:28all i was doing was thinking about myself again you were grieving look i shouldn't have said anything
42:38yes you should you haven't told me how you actually felt when you thought you were scared i felt scared
42:50but then there was also a part of me a big part of me that was excited you know
42:55i never thought i'd be able to get pregnant and then all of a sudden i was thinking of this future
43:00with you and our crazy it's not crazy come here i'm so sorry i wasn't there for you sarah
43:25you just had to stay alive didn't you
43:42there isn't a moment of any day i don't wish you were dead
43:46you know right now someone else needs putting out the misery
43:48that'll be my friend mac
43:54he's going to find out what happens when people push me that little bit too hard
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