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00:00I'm not working, just somewhat I have to do.
00:22I've got some kids you need to run over, pensioners you need to terrify.
00:25It wasn't even my idea, I didn't even want to do it.
00:28Erm, am I supposed to start guessing, because if there's something I should know...
00:34No, it's not just...
00:37Jacob.
00:38He starts milding off at me and he's obviously needing to prove something.
00:41Cos next thing he's calling me out for a race.
00:43A race?
00:44What, you're five years old and the winner gets what?
00:47Right, not Sarah.
00:48No, it's not like that.
00:50He's just in my face.
00:51He won't back off.
00:53And you won't back down?
00:55Would you?
00:56Does she know?
00:57Cos if she did, she should be giving you both a slap.
00:59Well, yeah, she found out and started kicking off.
01:02Alright, so you're just carrying on anyway?
01:05I know what people think of me.
01:07What charity thinks of me.
01:09They want me to mess up, show what a loser I am.
01:12I can't let that happen.
01:13Jacob needs shutting up.
01:15And shutting down.
01:17It had to be Mac, didn't it?
01:22He absolutely loved it.
01:24I get it.
01:25He's an irritant.
01:26But it's not him that you should be stressing about.
01:29He tried to pretend he was alright with me, but I always saw through it.
01:33You've mentioned that a few times.
01:35Just forget about him.
01:36Aaron you need to talk to.
01:38I keep telling myself we can work things out, but what if we can't?
01:43What if we are done?
01:45You just, you need to explain it to him like you did with me.
01:49Yeah, but you wanted to listen.
01:50He doesn't.
01:51He's already pretty much slammed that door in my face.
01:53And if he loves you, that door will get opened again.
01:57I know you're pretty down on yourself at the minute.
02:00Yeah, because, because all of my life I've got things wrong, so I just stopped trying.
02:10And then Aaron finally got it right.
02:20Do you want some help with that?
02:21No, you do not want the answer to that.
02:23I feel like wrapping it around Liam's neck.
02:25This position is just short term until they can afford to find someone else.
02:29Yeah, yeah.
02:30He'll probably have a name badge for me today.
02:31Receptionist.
02:41I take I've ever ridden a bike before.
02:43Not my problem, is it?
02:45Well, it is your problem if you lose, because that would be embarrassing.
02:48Ain't gonna happen.
02:50I just wanted to say, erm, thanks for this.
02:55I really appreciate it.
02:56Well, I'm expecting you to win, because that way Charity's probably gonna lose.
03:01I don't even know why she hates me so much.
03:03Growing up, Charity made a lot of mistakes.
03:05She doesn't want Sarah to make the same ones.
03:06So I'm a mistake?
03:07Only one person can prove it wrong.
03:09All right.
03:10I don't need to prove myself to anyone.
03:12Sarah's coming behind.
03:15What?
03:16You're not opening up today?
03:18No.
03:19Boss gave me a day off.
03:20Think I might ask her for a pay rise.
03:22Feel free to ask if I can have one too.
03:24Ha!
03:25Good luck with that.
03:26Did she suspect anything?
03:30Why would she?
03:31I doubt she even thinks you two are stupid enough to be carrying on with all this behind her back.
03:36Well, she won't know.
03:37Won't hurt her.
03:38But she'll definitely hurt you if she finds out.
03:40I know that.
03:41Right, come on, get in the van.
03:42You've got a race you need to win.
03:52I know that face.
03:54Probably one that doesn't want to be disturbed by me.
03:56Honestly, I wish I was lesbian too sometimes.
03:59Okay, er, this conversation suddenly went in an unexpected direction.
04:03Whatever stupid thing girls and women do, it will never be as stupid as what men do.
04:08Are all roads leading back to Cammie.
04:11And Jacob.
04:12Well, I thought that road had closed.
04:14Yeah, so did I, but they've now got into this pathetic feud with each other.
04:17Oh, that doesn't sound good.
04:19Things like that never end up well.
04:20Oh, it gets worse.
04:21They actually were planning on having some stupid motorbike race thing against each other.
04:25Because racing on motorbikes is always the best way to solve a problem.
04:28I think they were just trying to prove something, but...
04:30What, something to you?
04:31Yeah, but all they've proved is that they're both idiots.
04:33I'm just glad I shut it down, shut them down.
04:35But why is Jacob even getting involved?
04:37I thought you and him...
04:38Yeah, we're done.
04:39Over.
04:40But no, now he's suddenly telling me that he misses me.
04:42And that's not gonna mess with your head at all.
04:45I just don't even know what to think or feel anymore.
04:48Well, when we're done here, back to mine.
04:51For a proper chat.
04:52Woohoo!
04:53Oh!
04:54Jakey, can you smell that?
04:55Petrol?
04:56No!
04:57Not petrol.
04:58Victory!
04:59It's in the air!
05:00Come on, breathe it in!
05:01What are you doing?
05:02Selfie.
05:03Smile!
05:04Right, come on, off you go.
05:05What, now?
05:06Yeah!
05:07Last minute practice.
05:08Just...
05:09Don't be scared of it or out.
05:10I'm not scared.
05:11He's not scared.
05:12He's well up for this.
05:13Totally.
05:14Maybe tell your face that then.
05:15Right, go on.
05:16I'll tell you what, Sammy, he's a fast learner.
05:17About because I should ask if we've got insurance.
05:19This would need to be legal for us to get insurance.
05:20Oh, you've got...
05:21I'm not scared of it or out.
05:22Sorry.
05:23I'm not scared.
05:24I'm scared.
05:25He's not scared.
05:26He's well up for this.
05:27Totally.
05:28Maybe tell your face that then.
05:29Right.
05:30Go on.
05:36I'll tell you what, Sammy, he's a fast learner.
05:39Thanks.
05:40I should ask if we've got insurance.
05:41This would need to be legal for us to get insurance.
05:44Oh, you've got... What are you doing here?
05:47Same as you. Watching this, who ride round a track for apparently no good reason.
05:51Yeah, well, I've got a dog in this fight, so...
05:53So do I. But mine's got a bigger bite.
05:56Are you serious? You're actually backing Cammy? Siding with the enemy?
06:01It's not my enemy, Charity. Just because you've given a kick in doesn't mean, say, I need to kick him, too.
06:05Where is he, then?
06:07Hey, what do you think you're doing, you clown?
06:22Bro, you're the clown. My man would go faster than that.
06:37Oh, you're on time. I'm impressed.
06:55It's a score run.
06:57Yeah, no, sorry, I didn't mean them.
06:59Lucas, Clemmie's here!
07:02Get your shoes and coats on!
07:06I did tell them five minutes ago, but you know what they're like.
07:10How's the cottage?
07:11It is what it is.
07:13I know it's not what you...
07:15Look, I'll just go and wait in the car.
07:16Billy!
07:18I'm just trying to keep it normal, Don.
07:20Don't.
07:28Don't what?
07:30Beat yourself up.
07:32This is killing him.
07:34Yeah, and it was always going to, but this guilt that you're putting yourself through?
07:38It won't go away.
07:41Yeah.
07:42If I miss feeling sorry for him, it's not going to make things easier, is it?
07:45It's going to make it worse.
07:47He didn't deserve any of this, Joe.
07:49He is a good person.
07:50That you used to be in love with?
07:51With me and Jacob, I genuinely thought it was over, but then when he was talking and
07:56saying all the regrets that he had...
07:58And Cammy, where does he fit?
08:00I don't know.
08:01I like him, I really like him, and he's different, you know, something new.
08:06And your grandma loves him.
08:07Yeah, added bonus.
08:09Look, this is going to sound bad, and I actually hate saying it.
08:13Don't worry, he's not here to hear it.
08:15When I was with Jacob, I just had this future plan in my head, and he was in it.
08:21You know, it just felt right and normal.
08:23Long term?
08:24Yeah.
08:25But with Cammy, I don't think it's ever really felt like that.
08:29But then again, he's never hurt me, and all the things he's done for me, he really cares
08:32about me.
08:33The thing with the future, it can change in a heartbeat.
08:36Oh, look, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to.
08:38Oh, no, no, don't worry, it's fine.
08:40I'm just saying, we try to paint all these perfect pictures, but sometimes life comes
08:46along with a big red marker pen and puts a line through it all.
08:51So, if you had to choose right now...
08:55I don't know, it's so hard.
08:57Maybe if you made a couple of lists.
08:59Pros and cons.
09:00You know, what's really good, what's really bad.
09:03What you hate, what you love.
09:08Oh!
09:09Good morning, sleepyhead.
09:11How was your lying?
09:12Can't really call it a lying when you've been awake all night, can you?
09:16Are you still doing it?
09:18Well, I stayed in your spare room.
09:20And just so you know, you've really got to look at that wallpaper, cos...
09:23I also wanted to make sure that you were okay.
09:30Yes, I'm fine.
09:32Yeah.
09:33Yeah, you lick it.
09:34There were so many questions I need answering, and these two spiners to even come and face
09:39me.
09:40Right.
09:41Please don't go off your head.
09:43Why would I go off my head?
09:48I was just trying to protect you.
09:50Oh no.
09:51Oh no.
09:52Now what have you done?
09:53Nothing.
09:54I'm not...
09:55John did come and see you, though.
09:58What?
09:59When?
10:00Yesterday.
10:01I just thought...
10:02You just thought?
10:03You just thought?
10:04What do you mean?
10:05You just thought what?
10:06Did you send him away?
10:07I didn't know what he was going to say to you.
10:08I've been thinking he's avoiding me.
10:09Aaron, he...
10:10He lied to you!
10:11Yeah, well it seems like everyone lies to me.
10:13Move.
10:18It's not too late to change your mind, bro.
10:20None of this is new to me.
10:21You can keep talking, but no one's listening.
10:24Twenty quid says Jacob wins.
10:26I'm not going to steal your child's support off your charity.
10:29Your kids have got to wait.
10:30Sammy!
10:31I think Kay might have lost his spine.
10:32Shall we help him look for it?
10:33Have a think, where he had it last.
10:35Yeah, yeah.
10:36You'll make it interesting when you call it fifty.
10:38I'll make it double interesting.
10:39Hundred and fifty.
10:40That's not double, but dumb.
10:43Deal.
10:44Right!
10:46Up to the line.
10:47Start them up.
10:48Give me a minute, Sammy.
10:49Here.
10:50Jacob?
10:51You alright?
10:52Yeah, I'm alright.
10:53It's just you don't seem alright.
10:54Seriously, can we just do this?
10:55Can someone take his batteries out?
10:57It's getting very irritating.
10:58Okay, listen to me.
10:59Don't let him get inside your head.
11:01Okay?
11:02You stay in the moment.
11:03You shut out the noise and you stick to your guns.
11:05Okay?
11:06Mm-hmm.
11:07Thank God.
11:08Let's do this.
11:10Okay, so I'm not gonna bang on about rules.
11:13Because there are none.
11:14You just go when I say go.
11:16But...
11:17Devil's leap.
11:19Just don't get daft.
11:21Some bloke went mad up there and ended up smashing his skull and now he eats through a straw, so...
11:26Joyful little anecdote for you there.
11:28Great.
11:29Thanks, Tom.
11:30Okay, on your bikes!
11:35Ready!
11:37Steady!
11:39Go!
11:40Go!
11:41Go!
11:42Go!
11:43Go!
11:44Go!
11:45Go!
11:46Go!
11:47Go!
11:48Go!
11:49Go!
11:50Go!
11:51Go!
11:52Go!
11:53Go!
11:54Go!
11:55Go!
11:56Go!
11:57Go!
11:58Go!
11:59Go!
12:00Go!
12:01Go!
12:02Go!
12:10He was outside. I didn't think you'd want to see him. But we had words and he took off.
12:31I thought I was doing the right thing. I can't believe he'd do that.
12:34What, I told you. I was trying to protect you. Protect me? I don't need a guard, Doc.
12:38I was being a mate because I know how good he is at talking people round.
12:41Oh, right. So I'm a mug then. Is that what you're saying?
12:43No, that's not what I'm saying at all. I'm saying that you were upset and that your head was all over the place.
12:48That's what you're called to make. No, it probably wasn't.
12:51But tell you what, Aaron. Given the opportunity, I would do it again.
12:54Because he was lying to you. So God knows what else he was lying about.
12:58Oh, yeah, because you always tell the truth, don't you? Proper open book.
13:00This isn't about me. This is about John and all the red flags that he's got above his head.
13:05And look what's happening right now. You're defending him.
13:07I'm not defending him. You're not even listening to him. I'm not defending him.
13:10I'm just trying to get the answers that I need. And if you hadn't been such an idiot, maybe I would have got him.
13:13Or you would have heard exactly what he wants you to hear.
13:16Are you being serious?
13:17Yes, I'm being serious because we both know exactly how it's going to go.
13:21I'm really sorry, Aaron. I wasn't lying to you, but this is just my truth.
13:24Stop.
13:25What happened when I was playing soldiers, it's just left so many scars.
13:28It just sets it.
13:29I didn't want my past to scare you away.
13:30Right, okay, you need to go.
13:32We both know it's coming.
13:33Now.
13:34Fine.
13:35Fine.
13:36Aaron, you only get this good at lying if you've had loads of practice at it.
13:47I'm not stupid, you know. I know you're here just to wind me up. It's got nothing to do with Jacob and Cammie.
14:08You're right, and you're wrong, but not in that order.
14:12Aye?
14:14Oh, so she is stupid and you are just there to wind her up.
14:20Thanks for clearing that up, Sam.
14:22Well, do you know what? You'll all be laughing when your money's going in my pocket.
14:26All winnings donated to charity. Thank you.
14:29The only chance Doctor Perfect had of winning is if Cammie would have turned up on a pedal bike with two punctures and a broken chain, and even then, I'd have backed him.
14:39What a mess. Honestly, if you ever hear me say the words, let's decorate ever again, please lock me in a cupboard.
15:05That's a bit extreme, isn't it?
15:07I don't even know what I was thinking. It just sort of stinks of paint.
15:11Yeah, that's the thing with paint. I mean, you know, it tends to smell like paint.
15:14Yeah, well, it's not very good for Thomas. So you don't mind having him again today, do you?
15:18Yeah, I'm meant to be working.
15:20Yeah, but you choose your own hours. Practically your own boss.
15:23Yeah, well, like, you're practically your own boss.
15:25Yeah, but I don't get to choose my own hours.
15:27Right.
15:28But if it's a problem...
15:29It's not.
15:30Well, clearly it is. Come on, spit it out.
15:32Just leave it, Cammie.
15:33Leave it, Cammie.
15:34Leave what? You've got something to say, Vinnie.
15:36I don't want to be a dad.
15:38What?
15:39I don't want to be a dad. That's what I'm saying.
15:46I brought lunch. So there's one less thing to worry about.
15:53Oh, sorry. Have I interrupted the flow?
15:55No, there wasn't much flow going on.
15:58It's not always going to be like this.
16:01Like what?
16:02Are you feeling guilty?
16:04I knew it'd be hard, but...
16:06It'll be even harder if you keep blaming yourself.
16:08Who else do I blame?
16:11Me?
16:12I mean, things haven't changed, have they?
16:14We're together, but we're not together. We're still pretending.
16:18Yeah. I know it's going to be hard.
16:21It's going to be worth it.
16:23I promise.
16:24PHONE RINGS
16:26Oh, it's the school.
16:28PHONE RINGS
16:30Hello?
16:31Not bad.
16:32Excuse me?
16:36How is this in zona?
16:37How good?
16:38How is this in as though?
16:39No, just half a early part of the track off the track off the track off the track off the track off.
16:45There is a one that's in standing for the track off the track off the track and running is that later…
16:49And nicely turning off the track off the track off the track off them.
16:52I was just sorry, I'm sorry.
16:54I've beenWhy is it now.
16:56I didn't have to come back off as time before, you know, and it didn't havecept on any charge here.
16:59So, do you want the good news or the bad news?
17:08Bad news.
17:10It's a tie, which means they're both as bad as each other.
17:13Right, and the good news?
17:14It's a tie, which means they're both as good as each other.
17:18Oh, I'm sorry, that wasn't funny.
17:20No, the thing is, it should be, though, but nothing about my life is funny,
17:24cos I never know how long of it I've got left to live.
17:26Oh, Sarah.
17:28And I get it, nobody really knows,
17:30but I do know that there's this thing hanging over me all the time,
17:33and whatever choices I have to make, big or small,
17:36they always just become bigger, because I have to make it matter.
17:39I can see why you feel like that.
17:40Yeah, because it's true.
17:41Girls my age, they can date who they want, they can get it wrong,
17:44and they'll always be someone else,
17:45but I can't afford to get it wrong,
17:47because what if there isn't someone else?
17:49You're getting yourself all worked up, and it's totally understandable,
17:53but there is probably a third option,
17:55that neither of them are right for you,
17:57so I've been them both.
17:59You have still got time to make choices,
18:02to make mistakes, to get it wrong, to get it right.
18:05Yeah, sorry, I must sound so...
18:07I hate feeling sorry for myself.
18:10We all feel sorry for ourselves sometimes.
18:12Do you fancy a refill while you figure this out?
18:14Why am I not boring you?
18:16Do you know nothing about my life?
18:18Um, whatever decision you were about to make,
18:28I'd hang fire something you might want to see first.
18:31There is an obvious misprint on the menu.
18:53There should be two S's, not one,
18:55otherwise people aren't eating dessert,
18:57they're eating desert.
18:58Hey, no, don't put that in your mouth.
19:01Sorry, no, I'm not talking to you,
19:02I'm talking to my son.
19:03Look, can you just get it reprinted and sent out to me ASAP?
19:08It doesn't rain.
19:10It pours.
19:11Have you got a spare umbrella?
19:13Well, I'm guessing because we've got the little man here,
19:15it's not just work-related.
19:17Come here.
19:18Tell me if I'm sticking my arm in where it's not wanted.
19:20If it's about Vinny,
19:21you can stick your arm in wherever you like.
19:24So he has talked to you, then?
19:26Yeah, he's talked to me.
19:27This morning, he told me that he didn't want to be a dad.
19:29What?
19:30Where did that come from?
19:31I've just asked him to look after Thomas.
19:33Well, sorry, he's your son.
19:34I mean, should he have moved in if he didn't want to be part of that?
19:37Yeah, but he hasn't actually said where it's coming from.
19:39Well, I'm guessing it's from me.
19:40No, no, no, no, no, no.
19:42It's definitely not you.
19:43It's absolutely him.
19:45He just...
19:46He's just terrified that he's not going to be the dad that he wants to be.
19:50What?
19:51Vinny is great with Thomas.
19:52He has him loads of times.
19:54Someone has had Thomas loads of times.
19:56Oh, my God.
19:57Oh, hang on.
19:57What's he so scared of?
19:59History repeating itself.
20:00You know what his dad did to him.
20:02Look, you might not see the scars.
20:04But Vinny is not his dad.
20:05Same blood, same DNA.
20:07You know, he's just desperate that he's not going to be anything like him.
20:10Yeah, I do.
20:10But you know what Vinny's like.
20:12You know, when he gets something in his head,
20:13he just keeps overthinking it.
20:14Why didn't I see this?
20:17Because he didn't want you to see it.
20:21Look, I'm going to need to go and talk to him, if you don't mind.
20:24Well, it's not like I...
20:25Yeah, you take as long as you need.
20:27It's not like he's not going to be anything like that.
20:57You OK?
21:24I thought...
21:25Fine.
21:25If you need any help...
21:27I don't need your help.
21:29Just leave me alone.
21:31Mess about.
21:33Fine now.
21:45Proud of yourself, are you?
21:46You giving yourself a big pat on the back?
21:48Oh, you're talking to me.
21:51Good.
21:52Right.
21:52Well, I don't see anyone else who's obsessed with putting themselves in other people's relationships.
21:57Oh, little sister stomping her foot.
21:59Please don't be mean to my big brother.
22:01I know where I'd like to stomp my foot.
22:03Can you not fight his own battles instead of making them up and lying about who died on them?
22:08He was on his way to tell Aaron the truth.
22:11You had to get in there first, didn't you?
22:13And I bet you loved that.
22:14Right now, why would I love that?
22:16Oh, come on.
22:17We both know how you feel about him.
22:18You hate him.
22:19Victoria, do you not think it's even a little bit weird that he lied about someone being dead when they were very much alive?
22:26Very much alive.
22:28He's been in a coma for years.
22:30So he's in a bed, not a coffin.
22:32And Johnny Boy had plenty of opportunity to tell him that, only he didn't.
22:36Did he?
22:37And do you know what I think?
22:38I think that you're too scared to ask him the questions because you might not like the answers.
22:42Because the truth of the matter is, Victoria, you don't know who your shiny new brother is either.
22:47I know who he is, and I know that he loves Aaron.
22:51But maybe after everything you put charity through, you've forgotten what love looks like.
22:54Wow, so we're reducing ourselves to tit for tat now, are we?
22:58Are we just going to stand here and call each other names?
23:00Nope, because I'm off to fix what you tried to break.
23:09Hey, what are you doing here?
23:11More like, what are you doing here?
23:13This stupid race wasn't supposed to be happening.
23:15Well, I'm pretty sure it is, otherwise we're just three people hanging around in a wood.
23:19Right, look, this isn't funny, you know, I told them to call this off.
23:21Well, Sarah, boys would be boys, and the more you try and stop him doing something,
23:24Oh, don't pretend like you didn't want this to happen, you were actually helping Jacob.
23:27Only because I don't want him getting injured.
23:29And you really wanted him to beat Cammy, you even had a bet on it, didn't you?
23:32Eh?
23:33All winnings are donated to charity.
23:35Are you serious?
23:36Hang on, if you didn't think this was happening, what are you doing here?
23:40Because I saw the picture.
23:41What picture?
23:42The ones I'm posted.
23:43Eh?
23:44You didn't post that picture online for all the world to see.
23:48Well, for the whole world, just for friends and family.
23:50I'm beginning to think you're trolling me some.
23:52Well, you couldn't have timed it any better.
23:59Oh, you've got to be kidding me.
24:01Look, Clemmie, what happened today in class, playing up like that?
24:22I know that isn't you.
24:26Look, maybe we need to talk.
24:28Okay?
24:29Because I know that everything feels really different right now.
24:33But it's important you know this.
24:35Everyone still loves you.
24:36Okay?
24:37And Billy, you're going to see him all the time.
24:38That's not going to change.
24:39Everything's changed.
24:40Billy doesn't love us anymore.
24:42Oh, Clemmie.
24:48He'd hate it if he knew I was here.
24:51So why are you here?
24:52Because if I hadn't started digging, none of this would have happened.
24:55So blame me.
24:57Blame you?
24:57I should be thanking you.
24:58He isn't somebody that opens up easily.
25:01So when he started telling me about his past, it was a pretty big thing for him.
25:04We've all got pasts, Vic.
25:06And I thought we'd shared everything.
25:10So what stuff has he made up now?
25:11Nothing.
25:12Nothing.
25:13John was on his way to tell you the truth, and Mac stopped him.
25:16I should have known the truth from the start.
25:17You should.
25:18You're right.
25:19And until he explained it to me, I thought it was all a bit weird too.
25:23If he could go back.
25:24Yeah, but he can't go back, can he?
25:25He can't just put it all back in the bottle.
25:27I've got no clue who he is anymore.
25:29Yes, you do.
25:30You do.
25:30He's the person that you fell in love with.
25:32And he loves you, Aaron, more than you know.
25:35I just wanted him to be straight with me.
25:38How am I supposed to trust him now?
25:39But you're getting married.
25:41Are we?
25:42Please.
25:43Please, just give him a chance and let him explain.
25:46Before you decide whether it's over or not.
25:50Before you go off on your head?
25:51You didn't listen to a word I said, did you?
25:52Of course I listened, but...
25:53But you thought you'd have your stupid race anyway.
25:55He got in my face.
25:56I don't want to know.
25:57It's pathetic, all of it.
25:58I didn't start this.
25:59But I was always going to finish it.
26:00Oh, why?
26:00Because you're the big man?
26:01No, because that's just the way it is.
26:03Are you going to stomp your feet at Jacob, too?
26:04Do you know how cringe all of this is?
26:06I like you, Sarah.
26:07I really, really do.
26:08But this wasn't about you.
26:09This was about me and Jacob and shutting him down.
26:11So where is he, then?
26:12Jacob?
26:13Because he should definitely be here by now.
26:16Well, he should be, but he won't be.
26:18He had a little accident at the leaping and flying off his bike.
26:20What?
26:21Always the leap.
26:22I warned him.
26:23And you didn't stop to help him?
26:24Of course I did.
26:25I asked if he needed any help.
26:26He told me to do one.
26:26I wasn't going to ask twice.
26:28Oh, and why would you, eh?
26:29Well, would I...
26:30Sarah?
26:35How come you're not at work?
26:38Because I needed to see you.
26:40Your mum's got Thomas.
26:42And what did she say to you?
26:44Look, I'm really sorry, Vinny.
26:45I had no idea.
26:47But before I, um...
26:48I shouldn't have said what I said to you.
26:51And I was palming Thomas off on you without even asking if it's okay.
26:54Well, it's not about Thomas.
26:55I know.
26:57But you are not him, Vinny.
26:59You are not your dad.
27:00I know I'm not, but...
27:02It's just sometimes I start thinking things and then I can't stop thinking them.
27:06Yeah, and that's probably normal.
27:07Is it normal?
27:08You know, being worried about saying, doing the wrong things.
27:10Vinny.
27:10And being scared about even being, you know, the slightest bit angry in case it turns into something else.
27:14Or I turn into something else.
27:17I mean, you probably think I'm being paranoid, but...
27:19A little bit?
27:20All parents get angry.
27:21Yeah, well, not every parent had a dad who couldn't control his anger.
27:25Who would literally, you know, beat his son up, apologise, and then do it all over again.
27:29I know, and it must have been awful.
27:31But that isn't you, Vinny.
27:33You're nothing like him.
27:34You are a good man.
27:35Yeah, well, he gambled.
27:37Couldn't control it.
27:38And then, you know, I gambled, so...
27:39Yeah, but you could control it, though.
27:41I just think about the future, Gabby.
27:43And it scares me.
27:45Look, I'm going to say it again.
27:51Because you are a good man, Vinny.
27:55A man I want in my life and my son's.
28:04How is she?
28:05Well, I have just left her bawling her eyes out, so how do you think?
28:09That's a stupid question, sorry.
28:10Jo, she's just a little girl who has had so much to deal with before the age of seven.
28:16I mean, all she's ever known is trauma.
28:18She was in home after home, care.
28:21She didn't know what love was.
28:22And now she has got what she finally wanted, a family.
28:26And it's been ripped apart.
28:28All because I've put...
28:30myself...
28:31us...
28:33before my own kids.
28:36I could talk to her.
28:37What? Seriously?
28:38I'm just trying to help her.
28:39Why? Because you know what it's like to grow up without parents.
28:42That's not exactly the angle I was going to take.
28:44Well, maybe you could talk to her about how lonely it is
28:46with only servants and horses to talk to.
28:50Sorry. Sorry.
28:51I get it. It's fine.
28:53You need to stay away from this, Jo.
28:56It's way too confusing for them.
28:57I just don't like seeing you like this.
28:58I know.
28:59But you've got to understand I am a parent first.
29:02I always will be.
29:03I know.
29:04And me and you, it's at the back of the queue, okay?
29:06I know you think you've got a role to play, but...
29:09you really don't.
29:09Jacob?
29:18You okay? You're not hurt or anything?
29:23Jacob, you okay? You're not hurt or anything?
29:37What are you doing here?
29:39Cammie told me something had happened to you. I was scared.
29:41Don't be.
29:43Let me just text my gran because she was worried.
29:51So what actually happened?
29:54Nothing. I'm just an idiot.
29:56Right, now tell me something that I don't know.
30:01I thought I had something to prove.
30:04I am not that person, Jacob.
30:07Not to you. To me.
30:09Right, well, you're okay. That's all that matters, right?
30:12Could have been so much worse.
30:16Yeah, I could have ended up dead like my mum.
30:20She died on her own.
30:21In an ambulance.
30:27The only people around her were strangers.
30:29Hey.
30:29I think about it all the time.
30:32I wasn't there, but I still see it.
30:36Imagine it.
30:37I see her face.
30:44And she knows she's dying.
30:48Well, I'm sorry.
30:50No, what are you saying sorry for?
30:51It's always there.
30:57When I go to sleep, when I wake up.
30:59Have you talked to anyone about this?
31:01You shouldn't have to go through this on your own.
31:03Eric?
31:04No.
31:04Oh, he's been great.
31:08I'm supportive, but he's got enough going on.
31:11Jacob, there's people who can help you.
31:15I try and shut it down.
31:19Get it out of my head.
31:20But in that split second, when I came off the bike...
31:25I didn't know what was happening.
31:32It's like everything just stood still.
31:34A little old guy rushing back at me.
31:40A little old guy rushing back at me.
32:04You've just got to let me in, Vinny.
32:07If I knew you were feeling like this...
32:08I was scared you'd run a mile.
32:10I'm not the one doing the running.
32:12I'm never going to run away from you.
32:15Do you know, I've never been stupid.
32:17Or I'm on the ledge again, please.
32:19But the one who talks me down.
32:22I know I should have just spoke to you.
32:23Because I always want to be in your life, Gabby.
32:27You and Thomas.
32:28You know, that's the future I want.
32:30It's the future I want, too.
32:34Okay, so what's stopping us?
32:36What?
32:36Well, when two people want to spend the rest of their lives with each other...
32:39They get married, right?
32:43Yeah, I guess.
32:44Okay, so why don't we?
32:46Why don't we get married?
32:49I shouldn't be putting all this on you.
32:52It's embarrassing.
32:53I'm not your problem anymore.
32:55Gabby, you can still talk to me about anything.
33:00I'm never not going to be sorry, though.
33:02The way I've been with you, that wasn't me.
33:04I know.
33:05With everything you had going on.
33:08And I took it all out on you.
33:12It's okay.
33:14No, it's not.
33:16I'm better than that.
33:20Because of it,
33:21me and you have messed it up.
33:25I mean, look at me now.
33:26Doing stupid stuff like this.
33:30I know I've blown it.
33:36You've got a better option now.
33:38Yeah.
33:39I never said I wanted a better option.
33:48I really do hate myself, you know.
33:51For hurting you like that.
33:54I think about the way you looked when I ended things.
33:58Yeah, well, it was...
33:59Because I...
34:02I thought I was pregnant.
34:05What?
34:10Sarah.
34:12When you broke up with me,
34:13I thought I was pregnant with your baby.
34:15You might think it's come out of nowhere,
34:20but when you know, you know, don't you?
34:22So it just, you know,
34:23sort of makes sense.
34:26Or it doesn't.
34:27No, no, Vinny.
34:28No, I'm sorry.
34:28Of course you don't want to marry me.
34:30Just forget I said anything.
34:31No, I don't want to forget it.
34:32I was getting ahead of myself, okay?
34:33I'm stupid.
34:33I've just messed it up, haven't I?
34:34You haven't messed anything up.
34:36It's just...
34:37caught me by surprise, that's all.
34:41Just...
34:41everything that I've...
34:43been through.
34:44You know, with Jamie and Nicky,
34:46it's taken me a while to...
34:47get past what they did to me.
34:49Yeah, well, I'm nothing like them.
34:50No, I know you're not.
34:52The sad part is I wanted to be.
34:54Because they were more than me, weren't they?
34:55They were more cool.
34:57Whereas me, I'm just...
34:58I'm just Vinny from the scrapyard, aren't I?
35:00I love Vinny from the scrapyard.
35:06I don't think you understand how much I love you.
35:09Look, have you been just saying this to make me feel better?
35:10Okay, well, maybe you're going to believe me
35:13when I become your wife.
35:17What? I thought...
35:18When you know you know.
35:20Oh, my God, right, okay.
35:21But...
35:22You need to ask me properly.
35:23Right, yeah, but don't... don't I need a ring for that?
35:25Oh, well, rules are made to be broken.
35:28Come on, just ask me.
35:29Well, do I have to get down on one knee still?
35:30Obviously.
35:30Right, okay, okay.
35:32Gabby, Gabby, Gabby.
35:35Will you marry me?
35:37No.
35:38Oh, right.
35:39I'm kidding.
35:39Obviously I'm going to marry you.
35:41Come here.
35:41We're getting married.
35:44Go, Gabby!
35:46Go, Gabby!
35:53Doesn't suit you, that look.
35:54What look?
35:55The one where you look happy.
35:57One hundred and fifty quid, Richie.
35:59I don't really care about the money, to be honest.
36:01I care about Jacob and Sarah.
36:03She might have texted saying he's okay, but where are they?
36:05So, do I get half the cash?
36:06No, you don't.
36:07Hang on, that's not fair.
36:08So's baldness, mate, but there's a lot of men without her.
36:11I don't know why you're looking so hard done by.
36:13Whatever's happened to Jacob, that's on you.
36:15On me?
36:16Hang on.
36:16No!
36:17Mouth, you hang on.
36:18Anything could have happened to him.
36:20I told you, I checked on him.
36:21Thought you couldn't wait to ride off, though.
36:24None of you were even there.
36:25You're wasting your time.
36:26She just doesn't like it when she backs the wrong horse.
36:28Oh, he got lucky.
36:29Not going to be lucky all the time.
36:31I don't even care what you think.
36:32Me and Sarah will be good.
36:34And what happened today won't change that.
36:35You won't change that.
36:36And I'm not giving up on her.
36:46I, um...
36:48I really didn't expect you to call.
36:51Yeah, neither did I.
36:54There is so much I need to say to you, Aaron.
36:56What I don't understand is why you didn't just say it before.
36:59Why did you have to lie to me?
37:00Let's start from there, shall we?
37:02Aidan didn't die.
37:03But I pretty much killed him.
37:07In my own mind.
37:09That is what I had to do to get my life back.
37:12I had to tell myself every day that he was dead so I wouldn't spend every moment praying that he would wake up.
37:20This...
37:20This man that I loved.
37:25That I would have taken a bullet for.
37:27He was lying there in a coma and there was nothing I could do to help him.
37:31I'm still not Aaron why he didn't just tell me the truth.
37:33Because this was my truth.
37:36I could go to some pretty dark places.
37:39Guilt.
37:40Shame.
37:42Self-loathing.
37:44I don't want you going to them too.
37:45You have got your own wars to fight.
37:47I do not want to drag you into mine.
37:49Oh, will you just stop it?
37:50Wars?
37:52I've never hidden anything from you.
37:54What I am.
37:55Who I am.
37:56I thought it was supposed to work both ways.
37:58It does.
37:58I just didn't.
37:59What?
37:59You didn't want to scare me off.
38:06I am sorry.
38:09I should have told you the truth but these are my demons not yours.
38:13Demons.
38:14Or just secrets.
38:16I thought I'd prove myself to you.
38:20That you can trust me with anything and everything.
38:22Yeah.
38:24The man who knows all my secrets.
38:28And I don't know if I can trust him at all.
38:30Oh, still ask it then, eh?
38:36Might have got bored of that yesterday at the salon.
38:38Obviously not.
38:39No.
38:39I tell you what, anybody that works in the nursery, they're heroes.
38:45They need a gold clip.
38:47Oh, looks like the cavalry had around.
38:49Oh, thank God for that.
38:50No offence, Tommy.
38:51It looks like the cavalry.
38:53You've sorted things out.
38:54Oh, look at you two, eh?
38:56Anyone looking that happy always makes me worried.
38:58You look like you want something.
38:59Oh, no.
39:00Better than that.
39:01We're getting married.
39:03What?
39:04I'm sorry.
39:04I don't know about that.
39:05That's what I meant.
39:06What?
39:06Are you serious?
39:07I know.
39:07I know you're shocked.
39:08I mean, so are we.
39:10Oh, it's not important, Mum.
39:12Okay, we're looking forward now, not back.
39:14Which is, it's obviously, you know, it's brilliant.
39:17But as far as U-turns go, if...
39:18I know, it's a pretty big one.
39:20Big, it's the size of Fleming Boz.
39:21But we love each other very much.
39:23And we know what we want.
39:24And that's all that matters.
39:25I know I've made mistakes, a lot of them,
39:32but it's because I love you.
39:33You made such a big deal about getting married.
39:35And you'd already been engaged.
39:37Did you just forget to tell me?
39:39No, it's just a part of my past
39:40that I didn't think you'd want to know about.
39:42Are you still in love with him?
39:43What?
39:44Are you still in love with him?
39:46No.
39:47Of course not.
39:48I still care about him,
39:49but that is a different time in my life.
39:51And what if he wakes up from this coma?
39:53He won't.
39:53Yes, but if he does wake up from the coma,
39:55he's going to wake up to his old life
39:56thinking he's still engaged to you.
39:58Then he'll realise life didn't stand still.
40:00It couldn't be put on hold.
40:04You're still in love with Robert?
40:07Oh, Mike.
40:09Are you serious?
40:10Do you really want to go there?
40:11Just saying, we both have pasts.
40:13Yeah, and you know everything about mine,
40:14but this tells me nothing about yours.
40:16It tells me nothing about you.
40:17You live your life travelling around on your own
40:19like some little hermit.
40:20And for what?
40:21Are you running away from something or some what?
40:23No.
40:23Vic wanted to invite a load of your mates
40:24to the stag do and to the wedding.
40:26And you said you didn't want him there
40:27because you were scared they would start brawling.
40:29Was that another lie?
40:30Only because I'm ashamed of the truth.
40:32Ashamed?
40:33I don't have any friends in the army anymore, Aaron.
40:35I had to leave that life behind
40:36to try and heal.
40:40And no,
40:41I am not running away from anything.
40:43The person standing in front of you now
40:45is still me with flaws.
40:46And honestly,
40:47there are so many things
40:48I wish I could change about me.
40:50But that's just the thing, John.
40:51I don't want you to change.
40:52But I am fighting things all the time.
40:54And we're supposed to fight them together.
40:56I get it.
40:57I get it.
40:58There's probably things that have happened to you
40:59in the past that I don't need to know about.
41:01Yes.
41:02I have scars that do not need reopening.
41:05That is my old life.
41:06You are my new life.
41:07But if we're going to get married, right,
41:08if we're going to do this whole marriage thing,
41:10how many more secrets and lies
41:12am I going to find out about you?
41:14If?
41:15You've not answered my question.
41:17Well,
41:18is there any point
41:19if you're already having second thoughts?
41:21Trust me,
41:21I'm having more than just second thoughts.
41:22Right.
41:24Right, well,
41:26sounds like you're calling off the wedding.
41:28That's because I don't know
41:28who I'm marrying anymore.
41:32Okay?
41:34So what happens now?
41:36I don't know.
41:40I don't know.
41:41I just need time to think.
41:46Look,
41:47we can, um,
41:48we can work this out.
41:49No.
41:52Just go.
41:55Please,
41:56not like this.
42:02It was never really a
42:14right time
42:15and then I couldn't get my words out
42:17and you
42:17broke up with me.
42:20I turned my back on you
42:21when you needed me the most.
42:23You didn't know.
42:24But if I wasn't being so selfish...
42:26I didn't want to make things worse for you.
42:28I knew what you were going through.
42:30My mum would be ashamed of me.
42:33No, she wouldn't.
42:35All I was doing
42:36was thinking about myself again.
42:38You were grieving.
42:40Look,
42:41I shouldn't have said anything.
42:43Yes,
42:44you should.
42:46You haven't told me
42:47how you actually felt
42:48when you thought you were...
42:51Scared.
42:52I felt scared.
42:56But then there was also
42:57a part of me,
42:58a big part of me
42:59that was excited,
43:00you know.
43:01I never thought
43:02I'd be able to get pregnant
43:03and then all of a sudden
43:04I was thinking of this future
43:05with you and I.
43:08Crazy.
43:10It's not crazy.
43:14Come here.
43:19I'm so sorry
43:20I wasn't there for you, Sarah.
43:22You just had to stay alive,
43:44didn't you?
43:44There isn't a moment
43:48of any day
43:49I don't wish you were dead.
43:52You know, right now
43:52someone else needs
43:53putting out the misery.
43:56That'll be my friend, Mac.
44:00He's going to find out
44:01what happens
44:01when people push me
44:02that little bit too hard.
44:04I hate it.
44:17I hate it.
44:18I hate it.
44:18I hate it.
44:19I hate it.
44:21He's a little bit.
44:24Okay.
44:25Okay.
44:26Okay.
44:26Okay.
44:27Hey,
44:28let's go there.
44:28Okay,
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