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00:00I've been coming on close to 30 days of being in the mud.
00:22This is when you think about tapping out, nothing's right.
00:26This is like my FBOSS card out here.
00:29I haven't had a feeding phase, really.
00:34And that's so disappointing.
00:37We've got to make some shit happen.
00:39Annette could change the game, I reckon.
00:43My morale is usually good.
00:46But then when I've got food in me,
00:49positivity out my arse.
00:51Oh, my God!
00:54Rhea! Rhea!
00:56I've lost a lot of jerky.
00:58You've got to sleep with us tonight.
01:00Get! Get!
01:02I've only got two feeds left.
01:04Because I haven't caught any off in a few days,
01:06because I haven't had bait.
01:07You beauty!
01:08Check this shit out.
01:09That's made the treat worthwhile.
01:11Woohoo!
01:12Man, I've never seen that before.
01:14That's a fair hole.
01:16I've lost more than 25 kilos,
01:19so I don't know if that is kind of classifying as starving.
01:24Ah!
01:26That was the closest I've come to passing out.
01:30That was pretty!
01:32I was sensations in the sea.
01:34What?
01:40Sawyer!
01:41Aw!
01:43might be.
01:44buen!
01:45wallpaper
01:46To be continued...
02:16Oh, the sun's come out.
02:22I reckon today's going to be a sunny day.
02:26That's exciting.
02:28I might wash some socks and undies.
02:33And myself.
02:36Which I'm pretty excited about.
02:43You have fire?
02:46So, tea tree and Tasmanian pepper both have antifungal, antimicrobial properties.
02:57Plus, they smell really good.
02:59I'm going to wash my shirt.
03:00Is it funny how we take hot running water for granted?
03:06That's why I love doing stuff like this, because it really puts things into perspective.
03:11And it smells so good.
03:16So I'm filthy.
03:18After digging for worms and going to bed with dirty clothes, you know, five weeks.
03:26Everything dirty is now washed apart from me.
03:34I'm getting in.
03:37Oh, I'm so excited.
03:39I'm going to be clean.
03:40I'm going to be clean with.
03:45Oh, my God, you're a whale.
03:52Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha.
03:57Okay, that's it.
03:59I can't do it.
04:00I'm no good at cold water.
04:01That has got to be one of the highlights of my entire time here, actually.
04:10This is just bliss.
04:28But, sitting on this beach, looking at the sun, actually some company would be nice right now.
04:36I don't want to leave here, but I just want to go back just for a day.
04:41I just want to go back and get some hugs.
04:47I've tried so hard all my life to be independent.
04:51I thought being alone would be the easy part.
04:57But the longer it's going, the harder I'm finding it.
05:04Craving connection.
05:06To the point where last night, instead of dreaming about having cravings for certain food,
05:15I was having cravings for certain people.
05:19And just wanting people.
05:26Isn't that...
05:28I didn't expect that.
05:29I hope I can carry this feeling with me back home, that when I was out here a month,
05:38because all I wanted was a hug.
05:52It's kind of nice.
05:54Morning.
06:14Morning.
06:15I can't say last night was hugely successful, but we did catch an eel, but it's only about
06:29that round.
06:30That's the smallest one I've ever seen.
06:36Oh no, that part's done.
06:39It's the smallest little eel I've ever seen, but anyway, it's better than nothing, almost.
06:52But yeah, it's definitely not going nuts out there, but I think I'll just enjoy my last
06:59meal.
07:00I've got a few fiddly little food scraps, got one little scrawny little eel, and that's
07:06about it.
07:08And then we are going hungry.
07:10All right, first job this morning, process the smallest eel in history.
07:28Can't see him.
07:33Who the quals got in there?
07:40He's definitely not under here, is he?
07:45I hope you find him all stinky.
07:52Fuck.
07:54Yep, he's gone.
08:00All right.
08:07That is very disappointing.
08:13So the least.
08:15Shit.
08:16Righto.
08:17We won't make that mistake again, was he?
08:23Just, you know, when you're getting low on food, it just becomes a bit of a worry, you know,
08:30like it's something that just won't leave you alone.
08:45Weigh up some bones.
08:46Looking at it, it's not a lot of food, is it?
08:48Anyway, that's all I got.
08:49I reckon I can feel I'm losing a bit of weight now.
08:52I can go and eat.
08:53Right.
08:54Crispy eel bones.
08:55Food's just driving you nuts.
08:56Especially at night.
08:57Christ.
08:58And I've been eating, Jesus, a bit anyway.
09:02So it's going to be interesting when I go in there.
09:05It's not a lot of food, is it?
09:07Anyway, that's all I got.
09:08I reckon I can feel I'm losing a bit of weight now.
09:10Go and eat.
09:11Right.
09:12Crispy eel bones.
09:13Food's just driving you nuts.
09:14Especially at night.
09:15Christ.
09:16And I've been eating, Jesus, a bit anyway.
09:23So it's going to be interesting when I go into not eating at all.
09:26See what happens.
09:29So I've thought of everything I can to procure food.
09:32Catch bait.
09:33Catch fish.
09:34Catch eels.
09:35But it's definitely not enough.
09:38It'd be good to stock up me pantry.
09:44Keep trying to come up with better ideas.
09:47Jesus, man, I'm running out now.
09:52I was just hoping if I could just keep fishing, you know, it'd be great if I could get an eel
09:57tonight or tomorrow night.
10:01And if not, we start counting the days I don't eat.
10:08Because we haven't done that really yet.
10:12If we don't catch anything tonight, it could be the beginning of the end.
10:19So I've woken up.
10:20Didn't really sleep.
10:21Don't know why.
10:22I'm just...
10:23I'm just...
10:24I'm just...
10:25Just a bit restless.
10:26Had my first little vibe of life.
10:27Yeah.
10:28Yeah.
10:29Yeah.
10:30Yeah.
10:31Yeah.
10:32All right.
10:33So I've woken up.
10:34Didn't really sleep.
10:35Don't know why.
10:36I'm just...
10:37Just a bit restless.
10:38Had my first little vibe of loneliness when I wake up.
10:43That I've had out here.
10:44First little feeling, you know, just like...
10:45That empty...
10:46That empty feeling in your stomach.
10:50It's the first time I've felt it out here.
11:03First little feeling, you know, of just like, that empty, that empty feeling in your stomach.
11:17It's the first time I've felt it out here.
11:25It's definitely a feeling that, um,
11:28pulls you, you know, it's like a feeling that makes you want to go.
11:38I'm going home.
11:43You know, it's the vibe it gives you.
11:48It really is.
11:50There's no two ways about it.
11:53Abby and our two daughters.
11:57That's how I'm missing the most.
12:03How I met Abby, my wife, was living in the bush when I was 19.
12:08She had her own trap line and I had mine, and we'd go out in the bush during the day and then come back and meet up at camp every night.
12:15Are we going to dig up some potatoes?
12:18It's definitely a rare thing to find someone who can do that, so I realised pretty quick that she was a keeper, so yeah.
12:27Are there any spuds in there?
12:31You know, the fact that I have a wife to a lot of people, I went to high school, it was crazy.
12:36Because I never talked to girls or anything like that when I was in high school.
12:42We got them all?
12:44Alright, let's take them inside.
12:46I was super awkward.
12:48Probably had a bit of social anxiety.
12:51I don't know why, but I did.
12:55We really are soul mates.
12:58Oh, you've got the spud in one hand.
13:01Meeting Abby.
13:02And I feel very, very lucky to have done that.
13:09As much as I'm missing my family, I'm also trying not to wish away this amazing adventure that we're on,
13:17because this is something to cherish as well, you know.
13:21Oh, we're up and take her down to the river.
13:23You know, that opportunity to take home quarter of a million dollars, it's this sort of once in a lifetime for my family.
13:38Let's get in the water.
13:40See how we go.
13:41There's a few weights on the bottom.
13:45Today, I want to get my gill net in the water.
13:49Stayed up late last night, finishing it off.
13:58Catching more trout.
13:59We've had some success with the sphere, but it's pretty on and off, and it depends on the weather.
14:08I need to figure out another way so that I can get food out here, so that I can stay out here longer, you know.
14:16If I don't get food, I'm pretty much buggered.
14:19I see a gill net. I'm watching it like a hawk.
14:30And I feel better about the gill net because it doesn't take as much energy, you know.
14:35God, that neck can change everything for us, eh?
14:39If we start catching a few trout.
14:49It looks like there's a bit of colour over there, Miami.
15:08Surely not.
15:14Surely not.
15:15It's probably just the pole reflecting off the water.
15:24The pole's not moving much.
15:27But I can definitely see something there.
15:41Oh, yes.
15:42We've got it, mate.
15:46Holy heck.
15:48That's a nice trout.
15:52It worked.
15:54We're doing it.
15:55It does work.
15:57Yes.
15:59Chicken.
16:03Holy cow.
16:04Oh, that's why it's not there.
16:09And he's got a net wrapped right around its gill.
16:14Yes.
16:16Holy shit, man.
16:19Look at that.
16:22Yee-hee.
16:24Man, I can't believe that.
16:26The net works.
16:27I reckon that's probably the biggest one we've caught so far.
16:35This is a game changer, man.
16:38Holy shit.
16:39All right.
16:40See that?
16:41Look what I found.
16:42Little moth.
16:43Mm-hmm.
16:44A little bit of protein.
16:45A little bit of fat.
16:46A little bit of fat.
16:47Yeah.
16:49All right.
16:51See that?
16:52Look what I found.
16:53A little moth.
16:54A bit of protein.
16:55A little bit of fat.
16:56Don't taste that bad moth.
16:58I think today's 13 or 14 days.
16:59All right, see that? Look what I found. A little moth. A little bit of protein, a little
17:13bit of fat. Don't taste that bad moth. I think today is 13 or 14 days since I've eaten.
17:27That's ridiculous. So the whole idea is to take one or two rods and just put some worms
17:46out there and just see what happens. This is the weakest of cells. Like I've actually got
17:56aches in my stomach right now. I could vomit almost. It's a hunger I've never felt. My
18:04mouth dry. I don't know how much longer I've got in terms of everything. Something that
18:15keeps me here is a chip on my shoulder to prove something all the time. To prove that
18:22I am just as capable as any other man. And that's something I've had for a very long time and
18:28stems from having one hand, I think. Sometimes it's to my detriment. What I'm throwing way
18:36up is when do I go enough's enough? Am I being a bit soft talking about this? I don't know.
18:58Guys, I'm going to check that line over there. That looks a little bit tight.
19:05The line looks taut.
19:10All right, here goes. Hey. Oh my God. Jeez, I caught a trout. Yes. Look at that. It's the
19:33best thing. Yes. Oh, no, she's covered in mud. Thank you. Thank you for giving your life
19:42to me. The biggest brown trout I've caught. She's just beautiful. You are going to be so
19:52good tonight. Oh, my goodness. Food. So happy. Smells absolutely just incredible. Oh, man. Is
20:13that good. I always start with the head. And I eat the whole head, hey. All these bones,
20:19I eat everything. Brains. Yum. I've never been so desperate for food in my life. Oh, I lost an eyeball. It's in my beard.
20:46This trout means I can be here longer. I'm going to keep working through my emotions. I'm going to keep
20:53trying. I'm going to keep appreciating nature. I'll do what I've been doing. Oh, skin. Oh. My movement for my
21:11four, three, ten.
21:18So, looking up at the moon. It's not full, but it's only a day or two off. I'm sort of thinking,
21:43because the fishing's been really shit. I think they like it dark. They don't like the full moon.
21:49Fish again tonight. Let's see what happens, eh? Let's get her all set up again.
21:55Tiny walk on. Tough times. Really tough times. Run out of food.
22:05All right. That's good. This one's all still okay. Right. You know what? We live in hope.
22:20He's all just a monster. Run out of food.
22:28It's gone off. The line's tight.
22:39Oh, yeah. Big eel.
22:42Big heel.
22:47That's exactly what I want.
22:52Oh, that was a daddy.
22:54Oh, yeah.
22:58Hip, hip, hip.
23:00Oh, we got him.
23:04Oh, shit.
23:09Oh, fuck me.
23:12Oh, shit.
23:40Big heel.
23:42That's exactly what I want.
23:49Shit.
23:51That wasn't good, was it?
23:56Oh.
23:58I need this fish.
24:07Oh, I've got you this time.
24:08You are a thumping heel.
24:11You are a thumping heel.
24:12You are a thumping heel.
24:20Hell in, you dickhead.
24:23Wet jocks.
24:24The gun bleats full of water.
24:27Check that out.
24:32That is the biggest heel off court.
24:36You're going in the bag.
24:37Nothing's pinching you, Colt.
24:38You're all going in the bag.
24:39Nothing's pinching you, Colt.
24:41And then, we're going in the bag.
24:42And then you're going to pinch your me, Colt.
24:44And then you're going to pinch your new Colt.
24:48Well, that was an interesting night.
25:07So I'm going to have to process the eel this morning, get the fire going, have a feed.
25:14So that's the plan.
25:15And there's maybe four days of food in that eel.
25:19That is a thumper.
25:23Right, where are we going to skin you?
25:28You know, physically I feel really good.
25:31And mentally, this doe is really crap.
25:35On my last meal again.
25:37But one eel on the top of the world again, and away we go.
25:41Oh, I'm a happy boy.
25:45And we'll get back and get him smoked up.
25:48What a night.
25:50What a morning.
25:54Awesome.
25:55Look at all that meat.
25:59And let's eat.
26:02Oh, this is going to be good.
26:06You know, I've eaten every day, except for the first five days.
26:15A bit of char is good.
26:17So I've been able to feed myself every single day that I'm out here.
26:21I think that's a hell of an achievement.
26:22And I'll continue to.
26:25I'm happy with that.
26:26I'm really proud of that achievement.
26:29You were worth going for a swim for it, aren't you?
26:34How lucky am I to be here.
26:36Fun, I tell you.
26:58I'm having fun.
27:01Fun, fun, fun, fun, fun, fun, fun, fun, fun.
27:03This is a place.
27:06A time to enjoy myself.
27:09Oh, look at those muscles.
27:11I look like a bodybuilder.
27:13I've eaten trout and I can't believe it.
27:30Food in my belly, but I'm on top of the world.
27:34Thomas, get up.
27:35Thomas, get up.
27:43Huh.
27:48Let's have a look at my bird traps down.
27:53All right.
27:54Something's happened.
27:59There's no bird in it.
28:04Worms are gone.
28:10What's going on here?
28:13Let's see what you tell us.
28:18Oh, wow.
28:20Wow.
28:22A spotted tail crawl.
28:24Oh, that's awesome.
28:26Oh.
28:28No way.
28:31You cheeky little bugger.
28:34Oh.
28:36He's coming back.
28:37Oh.
28:39I have never seen one in the world.
28:41I've worked with him.
28:43That's so cool.
28:44That's why I love ecology.
28:45Oh, you awesome thing.
28:47I'm trained as an ecologist because I genuinely am interested in the way the natural world
28:54functions.
28:56Oh.
28:56Oh, yeah.
28:56Oh.
28:57Oh, yeah.
29:01Oh.
29:03Yes.
29:04That's cool.
29:05You know, that stuff, that's exactly what I live for.
29:09I love that.
29:10Oh, mate.
29:11That gets my heart.
29:13That is the stuff that I love.
29:17It's a discovery.
29:18It's a discovery.
29:18It's a discovery.
29:18It's a discovery.
29:19It's a discovery.
29:20After such a hard day yesterday, and then that trout, and then seeing this, my mood's
29:27at 10.
29:28Okay.
29:30I'm trying to reset this trap.
29:31The best I can do now is just keep going.
29:39Being alone, honestly, it's the adventure of a lifetime.
29:44This is the ultimate adventure.
29:47Oh, look at that.
29:49Trap set nicely.
29:53Oh, I'm so happy.
29:55I'm so goddamn happy.
29:56Day 37.
30:22My body's weak at the moment.
30:26Had no food hanging in my shelter since day 25.
30:35It's an eel.
30:36It's an eel.
30:37Fish came on two weeks ago.
30:40I got eel.
30:42How does it feel?
30:45Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.
30:49There's a rainbow trout in my neck.
30:53Oh, my goodness.
30:54An eel on the, on the bush pole.
30:59A trout, pretty sure it's a brownie.
31:02What a blessing.
31:03Thank you, God.
31:04Thank you, God.
31:06That, since then, no luck on the fishing front.
31:12You know, my body's just getting to the end of its limits.
31:14I'm more prone to having some stumbles.
31:21That's dangerous.
31:25Probably to do with getting skinny and not eating much.
31:30Body kind of, you know, consuming muscles.
31:41I'm worried about, you know, blood pressure, heart rate, and all that.
31:45But I'm not hitting the self-destruct button here, uh-uh.
31:56I'm still keen to, you know, keep making improvements to my shelter.
32:02I think I'll start with this door.
32:04I think I'll start with this door.
32:08Okay.
32:10So, this is what I need to fix.
32:14To be honest, I'm feeling just nauseous.
32:19Just that it's not that good.
32:21They wait.
32:23I'll have to stop and rest.
32:26I'll try my back.
32:29Oh.
32:29Oh.
32:29Oh.
32:31Oh.
32:31Oh.
32:31Oh.
32:32Oh.
32:32Oh.
32:33Oh.
32:33Oh.
32:34Oh.
32:34Yeah, I'm to shift myself over to that rock for any moment now.
33:04It's funny about the notion of tapping out.
33:10Just those words, they just don't sit right with me.
33:15Just equates to giving up.
33:19Nothing can defeat me because God is with me, Isaiah chapter 54 verse 7.
33:29I don't know where I'd be in this experience without my faith.
33:38Not in as good a spot as I am, like I've just got a surge of, you know, hope and happiness
33:44in me.
33:45When that scripture came to mind then, and with that, I reckon I've got enough energy
33:50to move over to my rock, slowly, slowly.
34:03What?
34:16I don't know.
34:46Oh, shit.
34:53Oh, shit.
34:54No, that hurts.
34:58Just starting to get some pain in my left ankle.
35:01Only hit me probably half an hour ago.
35:07Oh.
35:15Oh.
35:17Feels like I've rolled my ankle, but I know I haven't.
35:21So it could be gout, something that I suffer from.
35:25And when I get it acute, I can't walk.
35:28I've had it so bad that I've been laying in bed and the toilet was just there and I couldn't
35:37even get out of bed.
35:38It was just so painful.
35:39It'll piss me off.
35:42And that's how bad it can get.
35:45It just won't go away.
35:46It's not like a pain.
35:47It comes and goes.
35:48It just comes and just stays there and just gets worse, worse, worse.
35:52But the gout could be coming from the eels too, you know, really rich food.
35:59I don't know.
36:03Ow.
36:04You know, it could be just a twinge and it'll go away.
36:16It feels like I've broken the ankle.
36:30Well, that's gout.
36:32It's a buildup of uric acid, which is like smashed up glass, basically.
36:37I only get acute gout like this maybe twice a year.
36:41So it had to be now, didn't it?
36:48Well, I'll try and get this gumboot off.
36:55Oh, come on.
37:00Ow, ow, ow.
37:02I can barely get the boot off.
37:07Come on.
37:11Oh, fuck.
37:19Oh, it's a shock.
37:21It's a shock and thick.
37:23I'd rather have broken fucking ankle and gout.
37:27Oh.
37:30Fuck.
37:37I haven't had one of these for probably ten months.
37:40Maybe longer.
37:42Oh, but when they come.
37:44Fucking hell.
37:48Let's see how puffy the ankle is.
37:51It's a big one.
37:54Just like I've sprained it.
37:59I'd have to shove it.
38:07Fuck out.
38:08Fuck.
38:10Fuck.
38:10Fuck.
38:15So tonight's not going to be a good night.
38:17It's going to be fucking hell.
38:19Hell on earth.
38:19One thing I never thought about was getting bloody dragged because of gear
38:28I'm not ready to go home
38:35I just hope it goes away
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38:58I couldn't help myself
39:06I couldn't help myself
39:20I came down here, put the net in and put the line in
39:26You can't say we're not trying anyway
39:29I just really don't want to eat worms again today
39:34The longer time goes on, the less patient I am with waiting between decent meals
39:44Because of the lack of food
39:48You know, I can see my time slowly whittling away
39:54God, I would love a fish again
39:58Holy shit, that was a trap
40:12I just saw a trap
40:16I just saw my trout jump right there
40:20Where I've got my line in
40:24Oh, I'm gonna take my pants off
40:28Because there's that many snags out there
40:30With all the old trees in the water
40:32Holy shit, you see that?
40:40Okay, then I'll go back to show a minute
40:44This isn't really something I can pass up, you know
40:51Oh, shit, that was cold, though
41:03Oh, shit, I can feel a fish
41:09Oh, what's going on?
41:14Is it inside the log?
41:17What are the chances?
41:19I'm trying to sort of reach under here
41:23Oh, shit
41:30It's like underneath the root
41:34It is trippy
41:36I'm gonna reach in there
41:40See if I can get my hand around a girl
41:42See if I can get my hand around a world
41:44Let me get my hand around a man
41:46In there
41:48I need to start with me
41:49I wanna die
41:50Oh, shit
41:51Come on.
41:53Come on.
42:07Water.
42:11I'm gonna have to get that wet.
42:15Oh, it's another brown.
42:17We're not eating worms today, team.
42:19We're gonna be eating trout.
42:21Yes!
42:23Oh, man.
42:25That makes me so happy.
42:27Oh, yes.
42:29That is awesome.
42:31Bloody Winston, I'm happy as.
42:33We can celebrate and have a little feast.
42:37Things are looking up, man.
42:39They really are.
42:41We are not leaving.
42:43We are not leaving.
42:45We are not leaving.
42:47We are not leaving.
42:49Day 40, you know, it's a big mark for me.
42:53Because that's, of course, how many days Jesus was tested for in the wilderness.
42:59Before he started his public ministry, he was led into the wilderness for 40 days.
43:09And it says in the Bible he was tested in every way.
43:13Every way.
43:15Every way.
43:16Physically, emotionally, spiritually.
43:17You know, sexually, psychologically.
43:19Every form of temptation.
43:21Every testing possible.
43:23You know, you didn't eat one bit of food the whole time.
43:33I've been thinking about that a bit, because obviously there's some parallels out in your life.
43:37You know, I'm being tested.
43:39And maybe me seeing how far I can go physically is part of that.
43:49You know, I ain't coming here to test your limits.
44:07I need a morale boost, so it's, um, time to go beat up.
44:20See what happens.
44:22I've got my shuffle on.
44:26It's my default.
44:28Number one rule.
44:30Good walkers.
44:31Lift their feet up high.
44:35See that little root there?
44:37He'll do it.
44:40Gotta.
44:41Keep.
44:42Up.
44:43My.
44:44Feet.
44:49Oh.
44:50That was not a soft landing.
44:55Alright.
44:56See what's left in the worm bag.
45:07You can sit down.
45:08I'm not feeling overly amazing.
45:11Because part of me so wants to just go home.
45:15But in my head, that's not my call.
45:19That's the medic's call.
45:22Nothing wrong with that offering, that's for sure.
45:27Time to send it out.
45:31When it comes to where I'm at physically, I'm just going to trust the medics.
45:35I've learned that throughout my sporting days and especially playing footy.
45:41When I've sustained an injury, it's not up to me to go, I can't go on.
45:46Take the decision out of my hands, you know.
45:49If I don't have a fight for you man, you're keen and you can help it out.
45:59Don't be down.
46:00No.
46:01No.
46:02No.
46:03No.
46:04No.
46:05No.
46:06No.
46:07No.
46:08No.
46:09No.
46:10No.
46:12No.
46:21No.
46:22No.
46:24No.
46:25No.
46:26No.
46:28No.
46:29No.
46:30Ow, ow, ow.
46:46Let's have a look.
46:50You still see it's sort of fat.
46:52You know, if I get a cute gout, well, I'm going to be immobilised.
47:03I won't be able to hardly move.
47:05I could probably crawl out and cook.
47:07But, you know, I won't be able to gather wood or go fishing.
47:10Like, it's that bad.
47:11It's just bloody horrible.
47:22How's that?
47:29Oh!
47:30Fit for a king.
47:39You look it up, it's one of the worst pains that a male can go through.
47:43And it just gets worse and worse and worse, and it's cruel.
47:47Ow, ow, ow.
47:54It would be so inept that you get taken out of this adventure with gout.
48:17,
48:23.
48:25.
48:29.
48:36This is the House of Swords.
48:37.
48:38This.
48:38This.
48:39This.
48:40This.
48:41This.
48:42That doesn't take a lot, but the fuck is being done.
48:43Six years old, and a man arrest his car in the middle.
48:44Just SER Dimensions
48:45.
48:46The weather forecast is mentally fine and mostly sunny.
48:59Physically, a body very much in decline.
49:03I've been so blessed to be physically strong and healthy my whole life.
49:10I've always been a big strong unit.
49:13I've had a big powerful body and now I do not.
49:19I can fit my thumbs like they're touching, you know,
49:25and the fatdest part of my thigh.
49:37Yeah, that's pretty skinny.
49:40It's pretty darn tootin' skinny.
49:46You can't keep writing checks that your body can't cash.
49:52I think that sounds like the body.
49:58Oh, boy.
50:00It is here.
50:02Oh, man, it's my heart pounding.
50:06Oh, man, it's my heart pounding.
50:19Hey, man.
50:20Hey, Will.
50:21How have you been?
50:22Okay.
50:23Um, mentally and emotionally not too bad.
50:28Physically, I've been getting pretty spent, though.
50:30Um, yeah, just getting pretty worn out at the drop of a hat.
50:34All right.
50:35I'll pop myself on if you could.
50:36All right.
50:37I'll stand there.
50:38Yep.
50:39There we are.
50:40How have you been?
50:41Yep.
50:42You all right?
50:43Yep.
50:44Take a deep breath and let me know when you're happy.
50:45You're a bit wobbly there.
50:46There you got it?
50:47Yeah.
50:48All right.
50:49Do you mind lifting up?
50:50Have a listen at the back.
50:51Big breaths.
50:52Big breaths.
50:53And down.
50:54Mm-hm.
50:55All right.
50:56All right.
50:57Let's stand up.
50:58Yep.
50:59All right.
51:00How are you doing?
51:01Yep.
51:02You all right?
51:03Yep.
51:04If you do your breaths, let me know when you're happy.
51:09You're a bit wobbly there.
51:11There.
51:12You got it?
51:13Yeah.
51:14All right.
51:15Do you mind lifting up?
51:16Have a listen at the back.
51:17Big breaths.
51:18And down.
51:19Mm-hm.
51:20And down.
51:21And down.
51:22Mm-hm.
51:23And again.
51:24Uber.
51:25And down.
51:26And last time.
51:33All right.
51:34Get yourself comfy.
51:35We'll just have a chat with the team.
51:41This is the...
51:42This is the big moment, whether...
51:45Whether I'm staying or going.
51:50But if Doc says, hey, you got a little bit in your tank.
51:53Part of me will be disappointed I'm not seeing my family sooner.
51:58Part of me goes, hey, still in the game.
52:04Might be a few...
52:06A few extra pages in this chapter yet.
52:08It may be.
52:09It may not be.
52:10Hey, Ben.
52:11Hey.
52:12Well...
52:13See, your blood pressure's dropped from a very healthy level to a very low level.
52:14And that's what's making you feel lightheaded.
52:15Yeah.
52:16Making you faint.
52:17Yeah.
52:18Yeah.
52:19I think it's unsafe if you just stay here any longer.
52:21I'm sorry if we're going to have to medically evacuate you.
52:25to a very low level,
52:27and that's what's making you feel lightheaded and making you faint.
52:30Yeah.
52:32I think it's unsafe for you to stay here any longer.
52:38I'm sorry if we're going to have to medically evacuate you.
52:51That's good.
52:53That's good.
52:53It's beautiful.
53:03Mentally, I'm good.
53:06Emotionally, spiritually, I'm cherry ripe.
53:09Never better.
53:11But I've found my physical limit.
53:15I was pulled on day 40, just like my Lord and Saviour, Jesus.
53:31Pretty special.
53:33And it was after those 40 days in the wilderness that he started the next chapter of his life.
53:41I am ready to go home and begin the next chapter.
53:52And to just embrace it with a smile on my face and joy in my heart and God by my side.
54:01And now, just looking back, I have been taught how to be a better man, a better husband, a better father.
54:11And I just can't wait to put that into practice.
54:16I feel so, so blessed.
54:20I feel so, so blessed.
54:50I feel so, so blessed.
54:51I feel so blessed.
54:52I feel so blessed.
54:53I feel so blessed.
54:54I'm not ready.
54:55Go home.
54:56Not now.
54:57Not here.
54:58Not here.
54:59All I want to do is just go home.
55:05Stump is frozen.
55:06It's all numb.
55:07I'm about there down.
55:08Frosbite.
55:09It's proper pain.
55:10I really hope my period comes soon.
55:11I want to have children.
55:12I don't want my reproductive system shutting down.
55:13It's stressing me out.
55:15There's a paddy melon.
55:16There's a paddy melon.
55:17It's fully inside of our tracks.
55:18Ah, yeah.
55:19That was so frickin' close.
55:20If only had it landed on the plate.
55:21Jesus.
55:22We're concerned.
55:23It's a risk you staying out here.
55:24After all this hard work, you know?
55:25We'll be at the end.
55:26I'll be at the end.
55:29I'll be at the end.
55:40I'll be at the end.
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