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00:00:30Assalamualaikum.

00:01:00Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.

00:01:30Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.

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00:02:29Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.

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00:03:01Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.

00:03:03Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.

00:03:05Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.

00:03:07Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.

00:03:09And saya selalu nampak dia dalam diri saya.

00:03:12Oh ni aku macam ni dulu.

00:03:13Macam fun girl.

00:03:14Aw thanks.

00:03:16Sebenarnya macam mana seorang Illy Rosana ni

00:03:19melompat masuk ke dalam industri penyiaran ni.

00:03:22Boleh cerita dari mula tak?

00:03:23Boleh.

00:03:23So sebenarnya tahun 2017

00:03:25ada this radio competition.

00:03:28Tapi bukan dekat sini lah.

00:03:29Okay tempat lain lah.

00:03:30Tempat lain.

00:03:30Top 10.

00:03:31Tak tahu macam mana Illy menang.

00:03:33Lepas tu dapat my first radio show at 23.

00:03:36And guys Illy tak pernah menang apa-apa tau.

00:03:38Lucky draw tak pernah menang.

00:03:40Semua benda contest melukis-lukis ni tak pernah menang.

00:03:42So masa menang tu Alhamdulillah

00:03:43it really felt like Allah gave it to me.

00:03:45And then macam after that

00:03:46it was small sailing Alhamdulillah.

00:03:48Actually apa?

00:03:48You nak jadi sebenarnya.

00:03:50Masa kecil-kecil masa ada cita-cita.

00:03:51Yes.

00:03:52Cita-cita.

00:03:52Tak ada orang kata nak jadi DJ radio lah.

00:03:55Rasa-raga carang kan masa sekolah dulu.

00:03:57Tapi dia muda mungkin ada lah.

00:03:59Ya actually Illy masa tu umur 13

00:04:00Illy ingat lagi

00:04:01on the way to school

00:04:02dengan radio hari-hari

00:04:03Illy selalu rasa macam

00:04:04wait I suka cakap banyak

00:04:05best ni kalau boleh cakap banyak

00:04:07dekat Malaysia.

00:04:08Ya literally literally.

00:04:09Tapi masa tu Illy rasa macam

00:04:10ni hobi kot kan.

00:04:12Ya impossible lah

00:04:13cakap mustahil lah aku nak masuk kan.

00:04:15Sebab macam mana cara dia masuk

00:04:16tu tak tahu.

00:04:17Ya sebab Asian family pun macam

00:04:18my siblings pun like pilot

00:04:20accountant

00:04:21scientist.

00:04:22So memang Illy yang girl

00:04:23rasa macam macam mana nak jadi

00:04:24penyampai radio ni.

00:04:25You know macam confirm

00:04:26my parents would be like

00:04:27jangan jadi doctor.

00:04:28Did you ever share with your parents

00:04:29masa tu nak jadi apa?

00:04:31Masa tu I told them

00:04:32I wanted to be a

00:04:33pharmaceutical science person.

00:04:35Wow.

00:04:36So Illy actually buat satu semester

00:04:37pharmaceutical sciences.

00:04:38Tapi Illy rasa macam tengah

00:04:40study tu macam boleh ke duduk

00:04:42dalam lab 20-30 tahun.

00:04:44Macam bosan je.

00:04:46Ya so I told my dad

00:04:47macam pa tengah menangis

00:04:48pa please I tak nak buat ni.

00:04:50Sorry.

00:04:51Don't disown me.

00:04:52Tapi Alhamdulillah my dad

00:04:54dapat bagi yang I buat

00:04:55broadcasting.

00:04:56So after three years

00:04:57Alhamdulillah ada competition tu

00:04:59masuk.

00:04:59Maknanya you ambil sekejap lah

00:05:01pharmaceutical tu.

00:05:02Satu sem je.

00:05:03Satu sem sahaja.

00:05:04And then you tak pernah menyesal

00:05:05untuk ambil keputusan

00:05:07stop daripada tu semua.

00:05:09Tak tak tak.

00:05:10Wow.

00:05:10Alhamdulillah.

00:05:11Alhamdulillah.

00:05:11So maksudnya bila dah

00:05:12tak bekerja ni macam

00:05:13okay this is right for me lah.

00:05:14This is right for me lah.

00:05:15Aku memang nak kerja ni lah.

00:05:16Memang this is it.

00:05:17Yeah this is it.

00:05:18Macam ulam di cipta

00:05:20pucuk mendatang.

00:05:21Apa?

00:05:22Pucuk di cipta

00:05:23ulam mendatang.

00:05:24Saja je nak test FBI.

00:05:25Wow.

00:05:26Selamat tak test Eli.

00:05:27Tak kata.

00:05:28Betul?

00:05:29Betul kan?

00:05:29Tahu tak apa tu tadi.

00:05:30Pucuk di cipta

00:05:31ulam mendatang.

00:05:32Is it like macam

00:05:33when you have a dream

00:05:34and then macam

00:05:35benda tu

00:05:36jadi reality?

00:05:37Is that what it is?

00:05:38Yeah.

00:05:38Dia maknanya

00:05:39ada benda lain.

00:05:40Kita harapkan sesuatu

00:05:42sebenarnya.

00:05:43Daripada pucuk di cipta

00:05:44tapi tiba-tiba

00:05:44ada ulam yang datang.

00:05:46Oh.

00:05:47Okay.

00:05:48Betul ke?

00:05:49Eli tak rauh.

00:05:50Coba lah kan.

00:05:51Orang yang explain

00:05:52pun peningkan sikit.

00:05:54Betul lah.

00:05:54Kita harapkan sesuatu

00:05:55tapi yang lain yang datang.

00:05:56Okay.

00:05:57Betul.

00:05:58Sekejap aku cipta balik.

00:06:00Okay.

00:06:01Eli perjalanan awak

00:06:02di dalam ni

00:06:03awak cakap tadi

00:06:04bermula

00:06:05seawal

00:06:0623 tahun ya.

00:06:07Betul.

00:06:08Yes.

00:06:08Macam umur saya

00:06:09mula dalam penyiaran tu

00:06:10sebenarnya.

00:06:11So tahulah

00:06:12satu hari dia kat mana?

00:06:12Di Zayan.

00:06:15Dan orang-orang yang kita

00:06:16jemput kat Zayan

00:06:17sebenarnya dia ada

00:06:18satu cerita kan.

00:06:19Sebab

00:06:20of course

00:06:20this podcast

00:06:21is kita tak nak

00:06:21kuit cerita gosip ke

00:06:23cerita apa-apa ke

00:06:24kita nakkan inspirasi

00:06:25sebab kita nak

00:06:26encourage lebih ramai orang

00:06:27untuk melihat

00:06:28bila kita menuju

00:06:29ke arah kebaikan.

00:06:32Kebaikan ni

00:06:32bukan semua orang tak baik

00:06:33maksudnya

00:06:33ke arah

00:06:34Allah SWT.

00:06:35Betul.

00:06:36Because at the end

00:06:37dia kita tahu

00:06:37penghujungnya

00:06:39kita nak ke mana kan.

00:06:40Kita ada pilih dua je.

00:06:42Nak tempat panas ke

00:06:43tempat bad.

00:06:44So

00:06:45mungkin Eli boleh

00:06:47mulakan dengan itu

00:06:48sebab kita

00:06:48I tengok Eli

00:06:49I macam

00:06:49oh my god

00:06:50this girl is so cool

00:06:51I can relate to her

00:06:52sebab masa tu

00:06:52I macam

00:06:53sebab kita tidak

00:06:56zaman kita tu dah lepas.

00:06:57But how do you get

00:06:58your hijrah?

00:06:59Awal juga ni.

00:07:00Alhamdulillah.

00:07:02Alhamdulillah.

00:07:03So this happened

00:07:03last year.

00:07:05Actually

00:07:06okay

00:07:06so actually

00:07:07the real timeline

00:07:08guys

00:07:08is Oktober

00:07:092023.

00:07:12Ok

00:07:12Oktober 2023

00:07:13So actually guys

00:07:15my mum

00:07:15my mum dah meninggal.

00:07:16Ok

00:07:17so

00:07:17before she passed away

00:07:18she actually passed away

00:07:19from stage 4 cancer.

00:07:21Ok.

00:07:21So my mum actually

00:07:22she got

00:07:23first stage

00:07:24breast cancer first.

00:07:254 years later

00:07:26dia datang balik

00:07:27teruk sangat

00:07:28dia spread to the lungs

00:07:29teruk

00:07:30sangat-sangat teruk

00:07:31because

00:07:32I think like

00:07:33that year yang

00:07:33my mum

00:07:33under that stage 4 cancer tu

00:07:35very fast guys

00:07:35very fast

00:07:36macam

00:07:36today I nampak

00:07:37my mum tengah berdiri

00:07:38the next week

00:07:39my mum dah tengah baring

00:07:40the next month

00:07:41my mum macam

00:07:41tak boleh nak cakap sangat

00:07:42it was very fast

00:07:43very fast ok

00:07:45so Eli rasa

00:07:46my mum sakit

00:07:47cancer ni

00:07:48was the starting

00:07:49of my hijrah journey

00:07:50I know it's crazy

00:07:51to say that

00:07:52but it's true

00:07:53sebab I think

00:07:54macam my mum

00:07:54masa tengah sakit tu

00:07:56Eli macam banyak

00:07:57doang for my mum

00:07:57banyak solat for my mum

00:07:59like sometimes

00:07:59kita orang macam

00:08:00solat for somebody else

00:08:01doa for somebody else

00:08:02untuk make sure that

00:08:02journey diorang

00:08:03smooth lah kan

00:08:04insyaAllah Allah bagi

00:08:06senang for them

00:08:07tapi sebenarnya

00:08:08you don't realise

00:08:08journey tu sebenarnya

00:08:09for yourself

00:08:10dia tak sedar benda tu

00:08:12kan

00:08:12so

00:08:13masa my mum meninggal tu

00:08:14memang sedih

00:08:15memang koyak

00:08:16my mum passed away

00:08:172023

00:08:18February

00:08:20so that's about

00:08:212 years ago lah

00:08:222 years ish

00:08:23and I remember

00:08:24in my heart guys

00:08:25tiba-tiba

00:08:26masa tengah solat

00:08:27for my mum tu

00:08:27Eli rasa macam

00:08:29so at peace

00:08:30like I was so sad

00:08:31that my mum passed

00:08:32what do you mean by

00:08:32solat for your mum

00:08:33dia macam

00:08:34I just wanted to make sure

00:08:36that everything is okay

00:08:36for her

00:08:37you know

00:08:37masa tengah sakit ni

00:08:38macam uig

00:08:38memang confirm

00:08:39my mum akan pergi

00:08:40sebab there was a time

00:08:41doctors macam

00:08:42bagitahu kita orang

00:08:43masa my mum pergi

00:08:43hospital buat chemo kan

00:08:44doktor cakap macam

00:08:45guys actually

00:08:46I nak bagitahu korang

00:08:47yang

00:08:47maybe you should

00:08:49bring your mum

00:08:49home kot

00:08:50so kita orang macam

00:08:51what do you mean

00:08:51doctor what do you mean

00:08:52like takkanlah

00:08:53tak buat chemo dah

00:08:53my doctor macam

00:08:55sebab

00:08:56sebenarnya kalau

00:08:57my mum buat chemo

00:08:58memang

00:08:58takkan jadi apa-apa

00:09:00like the cancer

00:09:01will just come back

00:09:02so maybe she should

00:09:03be at home

00:09:03lip up with family

00:09:04and friends

00:09:05korang just lip up

00:09:06bagi dia makanan

00:09:07favourite dia

00:09:07that's when I knew

00:09:08guys

00:09:09that's when I knew

00:09:10oh doctor is trying

00:09:11to say that

00:09:11there's no more hope

00:09:12for my mum

00:09:12so I think masa tu

00:09:14macam Eli tengah

00:09:14solat for my mum

00:09:15to make sure that

00:09:16her journey

00:09:17to the next

00:09:18to the next part

00:09:19of our life lah kan

00:09:20it's easy

00:09:21solat hajat lah

00:09:22solat hajat

00:09:22make sure everything

00:09:23is okay

00:09:23tapi sebenarnya

00:09:24it was for me

00:09:25it was also for me

00:09:27so Eli tiba rasa

00:09:28macam

00:09:28tiba-tiba macam

00:09:30entahlah

00:09:31hati Eli rasa

00:09:31macam terbuka

00:09:32macam eh hijab

00:09:33macam best je

00:09:34I don't know

00:09:34how it happen guys

00:09:35but it just happened

00:09:36it just happened

00:09:38ibu Eli

00:09:40semasa sakit

00:09:41dalam masa tempoh

00:09:424 tahun tu

00:09:43Eli tengok

00:09:44semangat dia macam mana

00:09:45ok semangat

00:09:46my mum very very good

00:09:47actually very very amazing

00:09:48my mum is one of the

00:09:49strongest people I know

00:09:50so macam awesome

00:09:52so when the doctor said

00:09:53ok boleh bawa balik

00:09:54dia ada tanya

00:09:55eh kenapa eh

00:09:56kena balik

00:09:56I think masa tu

00:09:57my mum dah macam

00:09:58sebab the cancer

00:09:59was so bad

00:09:59so my mum dah

00:10:00already in a phase

00:10:01where like morphine

00:10:02is taking over her

00:10:03you know

00:10:04dia macam in and out

00:10:04to sleep

00:10:05so I think at that time

00:10:06macam my mum

00:10:06tak dengar sangat pun

00:10:07the doctor cakap

00:10:08kena bawa balik

00:10:08dia macam

00:10:09at that time

00:10:10but before that

00:10:11my mum macam

00:10:12cancer

00:10:13please lah

00:10:14saya katija binti

00:10:15moh makasih

00:10:15I got this

00:10:16like my mum was that person

00:10:17macam very strong

00:10:18and dia macam kelakar

00:10:19dia macam kelakar

00:10:20dia macam crack

00:10:21dia very positive lah

00:10:23dan mungkin

00:10:24Eli boleh ceritakan

00:10:26kepada kami

00:10:26apa mungkin

00:10:27kata-kata

00:10:28daripada your mum

00:10:29yang memang

00:10:30sampai sekarang

00:10:31you pegang

00:10:31you ingat

00:10:32betul-betul

00:10:33daripada dia

00:10:33lemah

00:10:35dia menangis

00:10:35actually guys

00:10:37sorry lah

00:10:38I think like

00:10:40Eli dah tak ada

00:10:41ok jap

00:10:42ok

00:10:43take a deep breath

00:10:44ok

00:10:46dah 3 raya

00:10:48tak ada

00:10:48my mum tau

00:10:49but this raya

00:10:50was the hardest

00:10:51I feel like

00:10:52this was the hardest

00:10:52I think sebab

00:10:54kita tak grieve kan

00:10:55immediately

00:10:55kita tak grieve

00:10:56we're trying to

00:10:57process that

00:10:58oh my god

00:10:59my mum dah tak ada

00:10:59but I feel like

00:11:00this raya

00:11:00was the hardest

00:11:01I think sebab

00:11:02this raya

00:11:02was like

00:11:03the most

00:11:04macam mana kata

00:11:05my siblings

00:11:05macam

00:11:06very together

00:11:08and I rasa sedih

00:11:09sebab mama tak ada

00:11:10tengok benda tu

00:11:11anyway

00:11:13kata-kata my mum

00:11:14is

00:11:15she always says

00:11:16kalau apa-apa

00:11:18berjadi to you

00:11:19in your life

00:11:19don't ever feel

00:11:21like you're alone

00:11:21sebab Allah ada

00:11:23and I feel like

00:11:24that is also

00:11:25part of the journey

00:11:25yeah

00:11:27ya Allah

00:11:27sorry

00:11:28it's okay

00:11:29yeah it's very sad lah

00:11:30because my mum

00:11:31macam very strong

00:11:31even towards her last day

00:11:32she was still

00:11:33very positive

00:11:34which is so

00:11:35macam wow

00:11:36macam I feel like

00:11:36I'm a pretty positive person

00:11:37tapi my mum

00:11:39macam positive guys

00:11:40so I feel like

00:11:40because of that

00:11:41Ilya akan ingat

00:11:42sampai bila-bila

00:11:42anything I go through

00:11:44just know that

00:11:45Allah got your back

00:11:46yeah

00:11:47Allah got your back

00:11:48yes yes yes

00:11:49semua tak mudah

00:11:51I think

00:11:51for you

00:11:52for your other siblings

00:11:53semua mesti tak

00:11:53tak mudahkan kehilangan

00:11:55orang yang tersayang satu

00:11:56and your mother kan

00:11:57so for you to

00:11:58get over it

00:12:00lama tak

00:12:01honestly guys

00:12:03I don't think

00:12:03I'll ever get over it

00:12:04macam my friend pun

00:12:05like

00:12:06dia punya father

00:12:06passed away

00:12:0710 tahun yang lalu

00:12:08sampai sekarang

00:12:09dia masih akan ada

00:12:10moments yang macam

00:12:10dia akan teringat

00:12:11bapak dia

00:12:11and dia akan nangis

00:12:12and for me kan

00:12:14I think I will

00:12:15never get over it

00:12:16sebab

00:12:16I feel like my mum

00:12:17sorang je in my life

00:12:19yang boleh cakap

00:12:20the right thing

00:12:21let's say like

00:12:22Ilya go through a breakup

00:12:23ke

00:12:23ataupun macam

00:12:24kerja tak best

00:12:25ke apa

00:12:25my mum selalu macam

00:12:26she knows what to say

00:12:27so I will go to

00:12:29moments yang macam

00:12:29Ilya rasa macam

00:12:30something is

00:12:31something to my life

00:12:32tapi my mum tak ada

00:12:34that's the worst feeling

00:12:35guys

00:12:35Ilya adalah anak yang

00:12:37paling kecil

00:12:38memang itulah

00:12:40rapat bonding

00:12:40dengan mak tu

00:12:41MashaAllah

00:12:42Allah

00:12:43Allah

00:12:43so sedih

00:12:44but to see you

00:12:46so chirpy in the morning

00:12:47I just so happy

00:12:49kan

00:12:49itu persoalannya

00:12:50ramai orang tak tahu

00:12:53macam mana penyampai radio

00:12:54menyembunyikan

00:12:55emosi mereka

00:12:56ya

00:12:57I think masa

00:12:57my mum sakit tu

00:12:58paling susah

00:12:59buat kerja

00:12:59masa tu kerja

00:13:01this was like

00:13:03of course

00:13:04not masa my mum

00:13:04critical lah

00:13:05I think it was like

00:13:06the year

00:13:06of like when my mum was sick

00:13:07kitorang jaga

00:13:08my mum kat rumah kan

00:13:09lepas tu Ilya buat show

00:13:09dengan Kianu

00:13:10so macam Kianu

00:13:11akan macam

00:13:12menangis dengan I

00:13:13off mic

00:13:13menangis-menangis

00:13:14so Kianu macam

00:13:14are you ready to do this break

00:13:16I macam

00:13:16okay jom

00:13:17buka mic

00:13:18ha ha ha

00:13:19gelak-gelak-gelak

00:13:19tutup mic

00:13:20nangis balik

00:13:21oh my god

00:13:22yes

00:13:23kekuatan

00:13:25Ilya

00:13:26dari

00:13:27of course your mum

00:13:27semangat dia

00:13:28because

00:13:28deep down inside

00:13:30you mesti rasa

00:13:30you ada letak harapan juga

00:13:31untuk dia kembali

00:13:32sihat

00:13:33of course

00:13:33yes

00:13:34of course

00:13:34100%

00:13:35tapi pernah lah

00:13:36sekali my mum

00:13:37this was when my mum

00:13:38masih macam

00:13:39I would say

00:13:39she still okay

00:13:40boleh berdiri

00:13:41boleh jalan

00:13:41masa tu dia tak sakit lah

00:13:42but she

00:13:43talk to me je

00:13:44she didn't talk to my dad

00:13:45atau my siblings

00:13:46she just said macam

00:13:47oh Ilya

00:13:48I just want to ask you

00:13:49something lah

00:13:50kalau mama stop

00:13:52chemo

00:13:53you okay tak

00:13:54masa tu Ilya macam

00:13:55Ya Allah

00:13:56kenapa mama nak stop

00:13:57chemo kan

00:13:57of course dalam hati

00:13:58macam sedih lah kan

00:13:59but I stayed strong

00:14:01and I said

00:14:01ma it's your choice

00:14:02it's your body

00:14:03you know

00:14:04like kalau mama

00:14:04nak stop chemo

00:14:06tak apa

00:14:06like up to you

00:14:07mama cakap

00:14:08tak lah

00:14:08mama fikir sebab

00:14:09chemo ni sakit lah

00:14:11very sakit

00:14:12so kalau mama stop

00:14:13you okay tak

00:14:14Ilya macam

00:14:14dalam hati

00:14:16of course

00:14:16tak okay right

00:14:17because she want

00:14:18her to be better

00:14:19but

00:14:20kita orang gelap

00:14:20memang lepas tu

00:14:21tak lah

00:14:22mama saja je

00:14:23mama saja je

00:14:24mungkin sebab dia cakap tu

00:14:25mungkin

00:14:25is she giving up

00:14:27like masa tu

00:14:28I think at that time

00:14:29it was really hard

00:14:30because I would say

00:14:31like anybody who has cancer

00:14:32is very hard

00:14:32yeah sure

00:14:33cycle dia banyak kan

00:14:36yes yes

00:14:37sebab my mom pun

00:14:37macam kalau pegang

00:14:38her badan pun

00:14:39dia tak sakit

00:14:40pegang softly

00:14:42pun dah macam sakit tau

00:14:43so she's like

00:14:45yeah she's still fighting

00:14:46I think for

00:14:47for you guys

00:14:48she fought

00:14:49she fought man

00:14:49she fought

00:14:50dan Ilya

00:14:51tadi adik ni

00:14:52Ilya ada cakap kan

00:14:53you

00:14:54paling

00:14:55paling sukar sekali

00:14:56raya tahun ini

00:14:57you kata

00:14:58you and your siblings

00:14:59were so together

00:15:01meaning

00:15:01before that

00:15:02before that

00:15:03macam mana

00:15:03tahun-tahun sebelum ni

00:15:05I think sebab

00:15:05before that

00:15:06macam when my mom was here

00:15:07dia akan selalu

00:15:08dengan her siblings

00:15:09macam masak-masak together

00:15:10dan kita orang macam

00:15:11maybe letak kuih raya je

00:15:12then after that

00:15:13macam okay

00:15:14whatever

00:15:15iso raya

00:15:15you know

00:15:16macam tu tau

00:15:16but sebab my mom

00:15:17tak ada

00:15:18I think the last three raya

00:15:19kita orang memang

00:15:19really macam okay

00:15:20we need to keep

00:15:21the tradition going

00:15:22kita kena masak

00:15:23apa yang mama selalu masak

00:15:24kita kena buat

00:15:25apa yang selalu mama buat

00:15:26macam tu

00:15:27so kita macam

00:15:28together-gather

00:15:28so macam oh

00:15:29kalau mama ada kat sini

00:15:30best juga

00:15:31boleh tengok kita orang

00:15:32macam together-gather

00:15:32so dia punya

00:15:34your auntie semua

00:15:35tak datang

00:15:35macam tu my auntie semua

00:15:36tak datang

00:15:37my cousins datang

00:15:37so kita orang rasa macam

00:15:39wow

00:15:39kita orang the next gen lah

00:15:41macam tu

00:15:41untuk meneruskan tradisi ini

00:15:42untuk meneruskan tradisi ini

00:15:44so sedih kat

00:15:45bapak you

00:15:47okay

00:15:47Alhamdulillah sekarang

00:15:48Alhamdulillah

00:15:49my dad is better

00:15:51sebab my dad ni

00:15:51dia pendiam sikit lah

00:15:53dia pendiam sikit

00:15:53dia kalau boleh

00:15:55tak nak cakap pun sangat

00:15:56tapi dia suka duduk

00:15:57with people

00:15:57so macam kalau

00:15:59tengok TV ke apa

00:15:59dia akan duduk

00:16:00senyap-senyap

00:16:01dekat tepi

00:16:01tapi as long as

00:16:02kita orang semua

00:16:03sekeliling dia

00:16:04macam tu lah

00:16:05tapi I think

00:16:06after my mom

00:16:06dia macam duduk

00:16:07dalam bilik dia lama

00:16:07kak

00:16:08kita orang macam

00:16:09papa you okay

00:16:10papa okay tak

00:16:11papa macam

00:16:11okay je

00:16:11padahal dalam bilik

00:16:12dah 5 jam

00:16:13so I think

00:16:14his way to grief kot

00:16:15tapi sekarang

00:16:16dia dah keluar bilik

00:16:17dia dah lepak balik

00:16:18so okay lah

00:16:19anak-anak tu

00:16:20sangat penting lah

00:16:21untuk memberikan sokongan

00:16:22dekat dia kan

00:16:23dan perjalanan

00:16:26Ili juga

00:16:27nak istiqomah

00:16:28untuk memakai hijab ni

00:16:29bukan sesuatu yang mudah

00:16:31bila cakap istiqomah

00:16:32tambah-tambah muda lagi

00:16:33dan berada dalam industri

00:16:35yang kita boleh macam

00:16:36sekejap ke sana

00:16:37sekejap ke sini kan

00:16:38so adakah itu

00:16:39memberikan satu cabaran

00:16:40yang besar

00:16:41ataupun

00:16:41dah ada dalam

00:16:42kekuatan Ili

00:16:43kat dalaman tu

00:16:44okay Ili faham

00:16:46cabaran dalam industri

00:16:47especially macam

00:16:48kita orang

00:16:49selalu rasa macam

00:16:50oh kalau free hair tu

00:16:51macam paling cantik

00:16:52paling macam

00:16:54boleh jual

00:16:54the standard lah

00:16:55the standard

00:16:56the standard mindset lah

00:16:58tapi alhamdulillah

00:16:59bila Ili pakai hijab ni

00:17:01Ili rasa macam

00:17:01banyak sangat opportunity

00:17:02yang Ili

00:17:03tak sangka boleh dapat

00:17:05and

00:17:06alhamdulillah

00:17:07Ili dah setahun

00:17:08pakai hijab guys

00:17:09Ili dah setahun

00:17:10alhamdulillah

00:17:11Ili so far

00:17:12tak pernah rasa

00:17:13kesusahan tu lagi

00:17:15Ili still rasa macam

00:17:17wow cantik ni pakai hijab

00:17:18Allah mudahkan

00:17:19yes Ili still rasa macam

00:17:21oh my god

00:17:21Hari nak pakai kelapa

00:17:22Iso nak pakai kelapa

00:17:23macam tu

00:17:23like tak pernah rasa macam

00:17:25alhamdulillah

00:17:26berat ni nak pakai hijab

00:17:27so far tak rasa lagi

00:17:28alhamdulillah

00:17:29doa

00:17:29supaya

00:17:30dah 60 koma

00:17:31sebab ada orang

00:17:31struggle dengan itu kan

00:17:33betul

00:17:33ramai yang kita tengok

00:17:34even few of my friends

00:17:35juga kan

00:17:36dah pakai

00:17:36and then dia buka

00:17:37adakah sebab

00:17:38do you think sebab

00:17:39for the wrong reason

00:17:41I mean of course

00:17:43you know

00:17:43everybody goes through

00:17:44a different journey

00:17:44Ili rasa macam

00:17:45perbezaan journey tu

00:17:46memang

00:17:46sangat getara kan

00:17:47like you might be

00:17:49going through something

00:17:49I might be going through

00:17:50something

00:17:51but I feel like

00:17:52kita semua ada

00:17:53some sort of journey lah

00:17:54mungkin Allah nak test

00:17:55dia orang kan

00:17:56tengok dia orang

00:17:56boleh tak

00:17:57macam rasa berat

00:17:58tapi boleh tak pakai lagi

00:17:59mungkin kita rasa senang pun

00:18:00ada test juga kan

00:18:01betul

00:18:02sebab rasa senang pun

00:18:03mungkin kita

00:18:04mungkin kita orang

00:18:05tak buat benda ni

00:18:05tapi kita orang tengok

00:18:06orang yang buka ke

00:18:08macam rasa macam

00:18:08lah

00:18:08faham tak

00:18:09kan

00:18:10manusia kan

00:18:11bersangka buruk

00:18:12bersangka buruk

00:18:13manusia terus

00:18:13susah sangat ke

00:18:14nak pakai

00:18:15faham tak

00:18:15rasa lebih mulia pula

00:18:17itu ujian juga tu

00:18:19ya itu ujian juga

00:18:20kita kena selalu

00:18:22husnuzon

00:18:23ya

00:18:23hari pertama

00:18:26masa pakai tu

00:18:26memang kat rumah

00:18:27memang dah ada

00:18:27simpan ke

00:18:28ataupun masa dah ada

00:18:29rasa memang dah

00:18:30start beli tudung ke

00:18:31okay Ili takut eh

00:18:32yang jarum-jarum peniti ni

00:18:33semua Ili takut

00:18:34sebab Ili macam

00:18:35macam mana boleh

00:18:35stay in place

00:18:37kalau terkeluar macam mana

00:18:38so Ili beli instant shawl

00:18:39right

00:18:40it's a shawl senang

00:18:41it's a shawl tu

00:18:42inner dia dah ada

00:18:43dengan hijab

00:18:44so pakai je

00:18:45that's it finish

00:18:47so I did that first

00:18:48tak terlalu pressure

00:18:49tapi sekarang dah

00:18:50mahir dah kan

00:18:51nampak macam sebab kita

00:18:52ada pin-pin

00:18:53ada pin-pin tu semua

00:18:54tapi mesti terkeluar-keluar

00:18:54kena pakai balik

00:18:56it's a shawl

00:18:56sebenarnya

00:18:56takpe nanti berlanjar

00:18:58dengan Kak Nana

00:18:59kita

00:18:59kita buat instant shawl juga

00:19:01Kak Nana buat tu

00:19:02buat one tutorial

00:19:03like tutorial episode

00:19:04insyaAllah

00:19:05insyaAllah

00:19:06okay that moment

00:19:07bila you pakai

00:19:08depan cermen

00:19:09masa tu

00:19:11at that moment

00:19:12you rasa apa

00:19:13Ili honestly

00:19:15Ili rasa macam

00:19:17why didn't I do this earlier

00:19:19why didn't I do this earlier

00:19:21which is so insane

00:19:22sebab guys

00:19:23kalau korang cakap

00:19:24dengan Ili

00:19:24just 3 tahun lalu

00:19:25Ili akan macam

00:19:27Ili takkan pakai kot hijab

00:19:28serious

00:19:29Ili takkan pakai kot hijab

00:19:30mungkin dah kahwin

00:19:31dah tua

00:19:31dah ada 5 anak cucu

00:19:33pakai kot

00:19:34serious

00:19:35sampai sekarang Ili macam

00:19:36I should have done it earlier

00:19:38I should have done it earlier

00:19:39I don't know why

00:19:40so Ili rasa macam

00:19:40this is truly who I am

00:19:42I don't know how to explain

00:19:43guys

00:19:44I've never felt so myself

00:19:47dengan hijab tu

00:19:48macam the missing piece

00:19:49untuk 2 orang

00:19:51nampak Ili ni dah awal lah

00:19:53Ili rasa harapkan

00:19:55lebih awal lagi

00:19:56sebenarnya

00:19:56harapkan lebih awal

00:19:58sebab masa tengok

00:19:59Ili pakai hijab kan

00:20:00masa tu stop

00:20:01kat saya minat dia

00:20:02I like you

00:20:04lepas tu dia release

00:20:05video clip

00:20:06you ada logo baru

00:20:07tapi video clip tu

00:20:08dah shoot

00:20:09dengan

00:20:09tak berhijab lah

00:20:11obviously kan

00:20:12now I was like

00:20:12oh ok

00:20:13I think

00:20:13sebab benda ni dah

00:20:15shoot lebih awal

00:20:16I think

00:20:17tapi you tak ada tunggu

00:20:18macam ok kita release dulu

00:20:20baru nak pakai tudung

00:20:20tak ada kan

00:20:21sebenarnya guys

00:20:22masa Ili nak

00:20:23sebab Ili buat muzik lah kan

00:20:24so lagu terbaru

00:20:25Shady

00:20:26masa tengah shoot

00:20:28masa tengah plan shoot tu

00:20:29Ili dah rasa tau

00:20:30tapi macam

00:20:32I wasn't sure

00:20:33even masa tengah shoot tu

00:20:35free hat

00:20:35Ili rasa macam

00:20:36something is wrong

00:20:37macam oh my god

00:20:38should I stop the shoot

00:20:39should I like

00:20:40postpone it

00:20:41serious

00:20:41so masa dah habis shoot tu

00:20:43Ili dalam hati

00:20:44dia macam

00:20:44alamak confirm pakai

00:20:46sebelum release

00:20:46serius

00:20:47dah rasa dah benda tu

00:20:48patut follow instinct lah

00:20:50tapi untuk I tengok tu

00:20:52so macam

00:20:53ok

00:20:53I

00:20:54some sort dapat rasa

00:20:55macam ok

00:20:56mungkin dia terpaksa juga

00:20:57release ni kan

00:20:58iyalah sebab dah

00:20:59dah macam dah buat

00:21:00semua benda

00:21:00kan

00:21:01dah bayar semua orang tu

00:21:01sebab ni lah

00:21:02sebab doa daripada

00:21:03mak dia ni sebenarnya

00:21:04amal daripada

00:21:06ibu tu sebenarnya

00:21:07yes yes

00:21:08jadi Ili

00:21:09awak berada di satu

00:21:10stesen radio in Greece

00:21:11yang kita memang tahu kan

00:21:12hits ni memang

00:21:13dia punya vibe

00:21:14dia lain macam lah

00:21:15event pula macam

00:21:18iyalah

00:21:18you kena pergi

00:21:19sana pergi sini

00:21:19macam mana

00:21:20you mengawal benda tu

00:21:21I mean

00:21:21dalam keadaan

00:21:22you nak istiqomah tu

00:21:24Ili rasa macam

00:21:25ok so

00:21:26I always have this idea

00:21:28macam

00:21:28not to say

00:21:30macam pakai hijab ni

00:21:31restriction

00:21:31I feel like pakai hijab ni

00:21:33it's just a part of my identity

00:21:34but I still feel like myself

00:21:36of course lah

00:21:36kita kena jaga words kan

00:21:38sebab kita

00:21:38we are representing

00:21:39the religion

00:21:40Ili tak pernah rasa macam

00:21:43Ili kena change myself

00:21:44dengan the radio

00:21:46sebab Ili rasa macam

00:21:47memang this is me

00:21:47and so far lah

00:21:49Alhamdulillah

00:21:49Ili tak pernah lah

00:21:50cakap kata-kata yang macam

00:21:51tak senonoh ke

00:21:53so far so go lah

00:21:54so far so go guys

00:21:55stesen radio berbahasa apa

00:21:57pun perlu jaga kata-kata

00:21:58tapi daripada segi

00:22:00sekeliling itu

00:22:01rakan-rakan yang

00:22:03you bergaul

00:22:04suasana yang you pergi

00:22:05untuk event

00:22:06macam mana

00:22:06ok so Ili rasa macam

00:22:08Alhamdulillah Ili ada

00:22:09kawan-kawan yang macam

00:22:10sama mindset with me

00:22:11Ili ada

00:22:12group of friends yang macam

00:22:13dia orang pun going to

00:22:13their hijab ni

00:22:14Keanu pun

00:22:15masa Ili tengah buat night show

00:22:16dia pun macam

00:22:17kind

00:22:18dia pun pakai judul

00:22:19kan tak dia

00:22:19eh dah

00:22:20dia kalau boleh

00:22:21dia akan

00:22:22Ili rasa keanu

00:22:23kalau boleh dia akan

00:22:24Ili rasa macam

00:22:27ok lah

00:22:28kawan-kawan media

00:22:29of course there are

00:22:30some things yang

00:22:31Ili dah tak nak buat dah

00:22:31ok

00:22:32there are some things

00:22:33yang Ili dah tak nak buat

00:22:34yang mungkin

00:22:35dia orang tak faham

00:22:36mungkin dia orang rasa

00:22:37macam oh Ili dah lain

00:22:38Ili dah pakai tudung ni

00:22:39Ili dah lain lah

00:22:40very sad lah

00:22:41tapi Ili rasa

00:22:42benda tu macam

00:22:43penapis

00:22:43kan

00:22:44so mungkin Allah

00:22:45macam nak jaga you

00:22:46daripada orang-orang

00:22:47yang tak sepatutnya

00:22:48kita lepak with

00:22:49lama-lama

00:22:50so

00:22:51mungkin

00:22:52dalam personal life

00:22:53Ili pun ada

00:22:53kawan-kawan Ili

00:22:54yang dah 10 tahun

00:22:55kawan

00:22:55tapi lepas pakai hijab

00:22:57dah tak kawan lah

00:22:57so I think that's just

00:22:59part of the process

00:23:00I think Allah

00:23:01wants to test us

00:23:02bukan kita tak

00:23:02tak nak berkawan

00:23:04dengan dia orang

00:23:04bukan bermusuhan

00:23:05betul tak

00:23:06tak ada apa-apa pun

00:23:07it's just distance lah

00:23:08cuma dah tak sama

00:23:10wavelength

00:23:10value dah lain

00:23:12value dah lain

00:23:13kan

00:23:13wavelength dah lain

00:23:14mungkin tempat lepak

00:23:15dah lain

00:23:16betul

00:23:16macam mana you nak

00:23:18tepaskan

00:23:19kata-kata tu

00:23:21kalau

00:23:22dalam group ke

00:23:24ataupun you terdengar

00:23:24daripada third party ke

00:23:26you nak

00:23:27buang tu macam mana

00:23:29kita

00:23:30kita just macam

00:23:31kita husuzon lah

00:23:32satu benda tu

00:23:33kita husuzon

00:23:33and kita kena macam

00:23:34faham dari segi

00:23:35like

00:23:36dia orang mungkin

00:23:37tak faham what

00:23:37we're going through

00:23:38sebab memang

00:23:39kalau korang

00:23:40like I said lah

00:23:41kalau korang tanya

00:23:42Ili

00:23:42eh you pakai hijab tak

00:23:43in a year

00:23:44I would say no

00:23:45I would say no

00:23:46tapi sebab

00:23:46things change kan

00:23:47Allah boleh je

00:23:48masuk dalam hati you

00:23:49buka your hati

00:23:50and something

00:23:50will happen right

00:23:51and I feel like benda tu

00:23:52macam kalau kita

00:23:53boleh faham yang kita

00:23:54boleh tukar

00:23:55kita kena faham

00:23:56yang mungkin orang lain

00:23:57tak ready untuk tukar

00:23:58so mungkin

00:23:59dia orang takkan

00:24:00nampak lagi

00:24:01bukan nak kata

00:24:02dia orang macam

00:24:03takkan nampak benda tu

00:24:04insya Allah

00:24:04mana tau dia orang

00:24:05pun dalam 5 years

00:24:05akan jadi benda tu

00:24:06so

00:24:07it's just a journey lah guys

00:24:09do you think tak

00:24:10pakai tudung ni adalah

00:24:12satu mungkin

00:24:14benda yang susah

00:24:15untuk kita buat dulu

00:24:16mungkin kita suka

00:24:17fashion

00:24:17tapi

00:24:18for you

00:24:19hijrah ni

00:24:20bermula dengan

00:24:21you pakai tudung

00:24:21ataupun dia bermula

00:24:22even before

00:24:23actually

00:24:24masa saya pakai tudung

00:24:26masa saya pakai tudung guys

00:24:27sebab

00:24:28at first

00:24:29Ili ingat

00:24:29oh ok

00:24:30ini adalah satu

00:24:31perintah Allah

00:24:32kita kena tutup

00:24:32alright

00:24:33tapi sebenarnya

00:24:34semua benda

00:24:34mengenai

00:24:35mengenai diri Ili

00:24:37lain dah tukar

00:24:38macam cara Ili fikir

00:24:39cara Ili cakap

00:24:41cara Ili rasa

00:24:43macam dulu

00:24:44macam Ili cepat terasa tau

00:24:45kalau ada orang

00:24:46cakap something ke

00:24:46Ili cepat terasa

00:24:47betul-betul nangis lah

00:24:48macam

00:24:48betul-betul

00:24:49tengah trigger lah

00:24:50betul-betul gosip

00:24:50menggawal lain

00:24:51tahu tak

00:24:51dia cakap apa

00:24:52tapi sekarang macam

00:24:53bila something happen

00:24:54oh ok

00:24:55tenang

00:24:56tenang

00:24:57tenang

00:24:58sushi so crazy lah guys

00:24:59emang

00:25:00Ili rasa benda ni

00:25:01gila sangat nak cakap

00:25:03betul-betul

00:25:03sebab tak sangka

00:25:04boleh tukar dalam juga

00:25:05susah nak

00:25:06susah nak gambarkan

00:25:07rasa tu sebenarnya Ili

00:25:08yes

00:25:08tapi saya cemburu

00:25:10apabila Ili mengatakan

00:25:11sebab Ili

00:25:12baru berusia

00:25:13berapa tahun

00:25:1431 tahun kan

00:25:1531 tahun

00:25:16itulah dipanggil

00:25:18satu

00:25:18hidayah Allah

00:25:20yang Allah

00:25:21kurniakan kepada

00:25:22kita kan

00:25:23Ili

00:25:23tapi untuk

00:25:25mereka yang

00:25:26di luar sana

00:25:26yang mungkin

00:25:27kita boleh doakan

00:25:28yes doakan

00:25:29kita doakan

00:25:30sebab kita pun tak tahu

00:25:31bila mereka berubah

00:25:33nanti contohnya

00:25:33Allah bagi hidayah

00:25:34mereka mungkin

00:25:35lebih baik daripada kita

00:25:36betul

00:25:37betul

00:25:38kita tak tahu

00:25:39kita tak tahu

00:25:39sebenarnya

00:25:40one of my best friends

00:25:41dia memang

00:25:42ok

00:25:43she is a buddhist

00:25:44dulu

00:25:45ok

00:25:45she is a buddhist

00:25:46and

00:25:46dia memang

00:25:48nak kahwin lah

00:25:49dia nak kahwin

00:25:50dengan this

00:25:50muslim guy

00:25:51so of course

00:25:52kat Malaysia kan

00:25:52kena convert

00:25:53and stuff kan

00:25:54tapi

00:25:54alhamdulillah

00:25:56sebab masa dia nak

00:25:57convert tu

00:25:58dia pun rasa macam

00:25:59dia macam

00:26:00nak lagi dekat dengan Islam

00:26:01dia nak belajar

00:26:02macam mana nak solat

00:26:03dia sekarang tengah belajar

00:26:05al-fatihah

00:26:05baru hari tu

00:26:06dia masuk Islam

00:26:07and sampai sekarang

00:26:09dia macam

00:26:09like

00:26:10for her senang

00:26:11and Eli tengok dia

00:26:12sama macam

00:26:13FI

00:26:13Eli tengok dia pun

00:26:14rasa jealous

00:26:15macam

00:26:15macam mana dia

00:26:16yang tak

00:26:16berada di agama

00:26:18Islam pun

00:26:19boleh lagi

00:26:20macam

00:26:20dari lahir

00:26:21boleh macam

00:26:22masuk Islam

00:26:23and rasa

00:26:23nak belajar

00:26:24macam

00:26:25oh

00:26:25maksudnya

00:26:26memang semua orang

00:26:27boleh change

00:26:27semua orang

00:26:28can get to this

00:26:28macam suami Nana

00:26:29dia pergi umrah

00:26:31sekarang ni

00:26:31walaupun isteri dia

00:26:33tak ada

00:26:33kerana rasa

00:26:35kerana rasa

00:26:37itu yang dia nak pergi

00:26:38tak perlu ada isteri

00:26:39tak perlu

00:26:39tujuan tu

00:26:42it's not easy

00:26:45juga

00:26:45kalau kita tengok

00:26:46ramai kawan-kawan kita

00:26:47yang nak berubah

00:26:48tapi selalu cakap

00:26:49tak kuat lah

00:26:50tak kuat lah

00:26:51malu lah

00:26:52nanti orang cakap

00:26:53tiba-tiba

00:26:53boy boy you

00:26:54dah pakai tudungnya

00:26:55macam kau

00:26:55film kau baik

00:26:56ada tak orang macam

00:26:59kenapa tiba-tiba

00:27:00ataupun

00:27:00I pernah tanya kan

00:27:03kau tak rasa malu ke

00:27:04dulu ke kan lain kan

00:27:05yes

00:27:06of course kita tak boleh

00:27:07erase

00:27:07so you pernah tak

00:27:11kalau orang tak cakap

00:27:12pun you sendiri

00:27:13cakap oh malunya aku

00:27:14kalau tengok balik

00:27:14yang lama

00:27:15okey lah

00:27:17Ili bukanlah nak kata

00:27:18malu tengok

00:27:19Ili yang dulu

00:27:19tapi macam

00:27:20Ili happy yang Allah

00:27:21bukakan hati Ili sekarang

00:27:23daripada nanti

00:27:24you know

00:27:24and that's the thing

00:27:25orang tak sedar

00:27:26yang sebenarnya kan

00:27:27ramai orang

00:27:28yang masuk janah ni

00:27:29sebenarnya pernah buat dosa

00:27:31but faham tak

00:27:32dia orang tak perfect

00:27:33that is not a perfect

00:27:34Muslim

00:27:34Allah sebenarnya

00:27:35nak kita datang

00:27:36untuk ask for forgiveness

00:27:38so kita siapa

00:27:39nak cakap

00:27:40oh dulu kau

00:27:41eh dulu kau

00:27:42tak pernah macam ni

00:27:43asal tiba-tiba kan

00:27:44sebab memang

00:27:45that is just

00:27:46part of the process

00:27:47so kita kena bersangka

00:27:48baik dengan semua orang

00:27:49kita kena always realize

00:27:50yang kita semua

00:27:51ada a past

00:27:52kan

00:27:52kita semua ada

00:27:53masa silam kita lah

00:27:54masa silam kita

00:27:55kalau disingkat banyak

00:27:57sebenarnya

00:27:57tak payah google

00:27:59google lah

00:28:00nanah mazan dulu

00:28:01semua

00:28:01payah

00:28:02contoh

00:28:02lagi satu

00:28:05kita mungkin

00:28:06macam saya

00:28:07to be honest

00:28:07saya rasa macam

00:28:08malu sikit

00:28:08tengok dulu

00:28:09ya Allah

00:28:09nanah

00:28:09kan

00:28:09macam ni kan

00:28:10but then

00:28:10syukur

00:28:11kita dapat hidayah

00:28:12kita insyaAllah

00:28:13kita doa untuk

00:28:14selesai sekumah

00:28:14tapi kalau ada kawan

00:28:16pergi dekat

00:28:17Ili

00:28:18cakap Ili

00:28:18aku nak lah

00:28:19Ili

00:28:19tapi malu lah

00:28:20Ili

00:28:20macam mana Ili

00:28:21malu

00:28:22malu dengan orang

00:28:23punya

00:28:24persepsi

00:28:25persepsi

00:28:26untuk nak hijrah ni

00:28:27Ili akan tanya

00:28:28soalan yang pertama

00:28:30you nak hijrah ni

00:28:31untuk siapa

00:28:31untuk orang sekeliling

00:28:33ke untuk Allah

00:28:34itu nombor satu

00:28:35sebab kalau kita

00:28:36buat benda untuk Allah

00:28:37orang lain semua

00:28:37will not matter

00:28:38peduli apa

00:28:39peduli apa

00:28:40sebab intention tu

00:28:41sangat penting

00:28:42kita buat ni untuk Allah

00:28:43sebab kalau kita

00:28:44buat ni untuk orang

00:28:45orang memang

00:28:45akan disappoint

00:28:46orang memang

00:28:47akan make you feel

00:28:48small

00:28:49ataupun bersalah

00:28:50and like

00:28:51katana rasa malu kan

00:28:52actually rasa malu tu

00:28:53is a gift

00:28:54katana

00:28:54ya rasa malu tu

00:28:56sebenarnya is a gift

00:28:57sebab macam Allah

00:28:57nak you rasa malu

00:28:58from that version

00:29:00of you

00:29:00because he is so proud

00:29:01that you are this version

00:29:02so jangan rasa macam

00:29:03dulu malu

00:29:05tapi sebenarnya

00:29:05it's a gift

00:29:06so I think

00:29:07kita kena tanya

00:29:08soalan tu

00:29:08kita nak hijrah ni

00:29:10untuk siapa sebenarnya

00:29:11bila kita dah tahu

00:29:12untuk Allah

00:29:13semua akan easy

00:29:14insyaAllah

00:29:14ada satu kata-kata ni

00:29:16saya nak

00:29:17tahu macam mana

00:29:18Ili react

00:29:19untuk mereka yang

00:29:20ada faham

00:29:21Allah

00:29:21pakai tuduh

00:29:22untuk belum tentu

00:29:23tak buat dosa

00:29:24uff

00:29:25like I said lah kan

00:29:27sebab dalam Islam ni

00:29:28the number one thing

00:29:29yang kita tak boleh buat

00:29:30and Allah dah cakap

00:29:31terang-terang

00:29:31kita tak boleh judge

00:29:32kita tak boleh judge

00:29:34so

00:29:35Ili akan doa je

00:29:36untuk diorang

00:29:36Ili akan macam

00:29:37ok faham

00:29:38faham yang korang

00:29:39rasa macam tu

00:29:40tapi insyaAllah

00:29:41korang akan rasa

00:29:42apa yang Ili rasa

00:29:43so bila korang dah sampai

00:29:44where I'm at

00:29:45there's so much more

00:29:46to learn of course

00:29:47bila korang dah sampai

00:29:48korang akan faham

00:29:49macam

00:29:49ish

00:29:49dulu I tak baik

00:29:50mana yang tak guna

00:29:51untuk kita berdebat pun

00:29:51memang tak guna

00:29:53tak payah

00:29:54tapi zaman sekarang

00:29:55memang

00:29:56kalau you bagitahu

00:29:57apa pun

00:29:57you dapat respon juga

00:29:59sama ada

00:29:59melalui komen ke

00:30:01atau

00:30:01ialah

00:30:02netizen yang bercakap kan

00:30:03benda itu bukan senang

00:30:05untuk menjadi

00:30:05ialah macam Ili cakap tu

00:30:07sebab kita akan

00:30:08sentiasa balas

00:30:09balas

00:30:09balas balas

00:30:10you take on

00:30:10senario sekarang ni

00:30:12especially dalam

00:30:13social media

00:30:14apa you rasa

00:30:15sebagai orang muda

00:30:16ok Ili rasa kan

00:30:17culture-culture kecaman ni

00:30:19Ili tak suka

00:30:20sebab

00:30:20at the end of the day

00:30:22kita semua buat dosa

00:30:23kan

00:30:23kita semua tak tahulah

00:30:24dosa-dosa sendiri kan

00:30:25tapi kita semua

00:30:26kena faham yang

00:30:28ok mungkin

00:30:28dia cakap macam tu

00:30:29sebab dia tengah project

00:30:30dia punya insecurity

00:30:31mungkin dia nak jadi

00:30:33macam orang tu

00:30:33tapi dia tak boleh

00:30:34so dia bawa orang tu

00:30:36turun

00:30:36faham tak

00:30:37so I feel like

00:30:38kita tak boleh

00:30:39affected sangat

00:30:41dengan social media

00:30:42sebab Ili tahu

00:30:43Ili tahu

00:30:43kalau korang

00:30:44nampak these people

00:30:45yang cakap pasal benda tu

00:30:46dekat you online

00:30:47depan-depan muka

00:30:48confident tangan gambar

00:30:49confident tangan gambar

00:30:50eh

00:30:51eh kat nampak

00:30:52IPI nak gambar

00:30:53mungkin dekat komen

00:30:54lah

00:30:55bagus sangat ke

00:30:55tapi dampak depan mata-mata

00:30:57eh nak tak gambar

00:30:58serious

00:30:58so I think actually

00:31:01diorang

00:31:01projection kot

00:31:02dan diorang

00:31:03rasa macam bebas tu

00:31:05sebab apa

00:31:05berselindung di sebalik

00:31:07yes

00:31:07diorang rasa protected

00:31:09orang tak boleh cakap

00:31:10apa-apa kat diorang

00:31:10depan muka

00:31:11so

00:31:11Ili rasa macam

00:31:12try not to

00:31:13kalau boleh lah

00:31:14jangan tengok

00:31:15sangat bad comments

00:31:15sebab

00:31:16bad comment tu

00:31:17mungkin orang tu

00:31:18cakap macam tu je

00:31:19dah terlupa

00:31:19mungkin kita akan ingat

00:31:21tapi macam kita

00:31:22kena try lupa juga

00:31:23kita nak control people

00:31:24kan jangan waste our energy

00:31:25for

00:31:25benda yang tak bagus pun

00:31:26ok macam ni Ili

00:31:27kekal istiqamah

00:31:29apa you belajar

00:31:29you belajar kat mana

00:31:30dia pergi ustrah ke

00:31:31untuk

00:31:32menebalkan lagi

00:31:34yang surrounding

00:31:35pengetahuan

00:31:36Ili

00:31:37suka

00:31:38follow

00:31:39hijabi stars

00:31:40dekat tiktok

00:31:41especially the ones

00:31:42yang macam

00:31:43always macam

00:31:43motivate pakai hijab

00:31:44macam

00:31:45diorang macam

00:31:46very positive

00:31:46about hijab

00:31:47sebab

00:31:47I think

00:31:48the definition

00:31:49of beauty

00:31:50pakai hijab tu

00:31:51kena lain

00:31:52kan

00:31:52kita kena tengok

00:31:53kita pakai hijab

00:31:54rasa cantik

00:31:55macam Allah

00:31:56macam

00:31:57it's as simple as

00:31:58cuba imagine

00:31:59Allah tengok you pakai hijab

00:32:00sekarang

00:32:00mesti dia rasa

00:32:00you cantik sangat

00:32:01macam wow

00:32:02Allah rasa cantik

00:32:03macam tu

00:32:04and stuff like that

00:32:05and I feel like

00:32:06it's the friends around you

00:32:07you kena ada support system

00:32:08yang sangat-sangat baik

00:32:09sangat-sangat bagus

00:32:10yang akan accept you

00:32:11for who you are

00:32:12no matter what you do

00:32:14and I feel like

00:32:15my friends memang baik

00:32:16like

00:32:16a lot of my friends pun

00:32:18ada yang free hair

00:32:19tapi diorang macam

00:32:19Ili cantik lah hijab

00:32:20hari ni best lah

00:32:21I still color styling

00:32:22pun tak buat tutorial lah

00:32:23padahal diorang

00:32:23sahaja-sahaja nak try

00:32:24yang tu pun dah

00:32:25good for me

00:32:26so I think it's the support system

00:32:27and also what you consume

00:32:29online

00:32:29itu sangat penting

00:32:30memang tak ada khusus

00:32:31pergi mengajik

00:32:32mengajik belajar

00:32:33so far belum lah

00:32:34mungkin Ili patut start

00:32:35kanan-anah kalau ada

00:32:36boleh

00:32:36tolong join

00:32:37dia ada usrah

00:32:39setiap minggu

00:32:41setiap bulan

00:32:42insyaAllah ada satu

00:32:43Alhamdulillah

00:32:44buatlah kerap sikit

00:32:45buat kerap sikit

00:32:46baik

00:32:46alamak ni kena tegur

00:32:48tegur sekarang

00:32:49boleh kita ajakkan

00:32:51kawan-kawan kita

00:32:52yang ada kat sini

00:32:52sebulan ok

00:32:53tapi kalau

00:32:54sebab hati kita ni

00:32:55memerlukan

00:32:56sentuhan

00:32:57pengisian

00:32:57sebab apa kita punya

00:32:59iman ni kan

00:33:00oh ya

00:33:01turun naik

00:33:02dan mencakap

00:33:03pasal Kianu

00:33:04alah

00:33:05kenapa

00:33:06akan jadi

00:33:08partner saya je kan

00:33:08nanti

00:33:09adakah awak

00:33:09merindui

00:33:10Kianu

00:33:11yang satu masa dulu

00:33:12berapa tahun bersama dengan dia

00:33:13dua tahun

00:33:15tapi kita orang dah kawan sebelum tu

00:33:16tujuh tahun

00:33:17kita kawan Khalid

00:33:19tujuh tahun

00:33:20so bila buat show tu

00:33:21dua tahun

00:33:21memang senang

00:33:22kan

00:33:23dah lama kenal

00:33:23so that means

00:33:24sembilan tahulah

00:33:25ada kenal dia

00:33:25lama tu

00:33:27dia dulu

00:33:29dan dia sekarang

00:33:30adakah dia sedikit

00:33:31semangat mempengaruhi juga

00:33:32awak hijrah

00:33:33of course

00:33:33100%

00:33:35bila Ili kenal Kianu dulu

00:33:36dengan sekarang

00:33:36macam

00:33:36memang he went through a journey

00:33:38tapi Ili suka Kianu

00:33:40sebab Kianu adalah

00:33:41seseorang yang

00:33:42tak pernah

00:33:43paksa orang

00:33:44buat benda baik

00:33:45dia tak pernah

00:33:46macam eh

00:33:47you tak boleh buat lah benda tu

00:33:48salah lah

00:33:48dia akan buat benda-benda baik

00:33:50jadi kita tengok

00:33:51dia pun kita rasa terpengaruh

00:33:52macam eh

00:33:53Kianu buat macam ni

00:33:54I pun lah nak solat subuh

00:33:55macam tu

00:33:56oh Kianu selalu

00:33:57tak tinggal solat lah

00:33:58I pun nak try

00:33:58dia macam tu

00:34:00tapi Kianu tak pernah

00:34:01cakap apa-apa ke Ili

00:34:02tak pernah macam

00:34:02advice ke

00:34:03tak pernah

00:34:03he just

00:34:04he was just a really good

00:34:06Muslim

00:34:06and I saw that everyday

00:34:08so

00:34:09literal example eh

00:34:10literal example

00:34:11so you pun rasa macam

00:34:12eh kalau dia boleh buat

00:34:13I pun boleh buat kot

00:34:15apa susah

00:34:15macam tu

00:34:16which is so nice

00:34:17Alhamdulillah

00:34:17so Kianu pun macam

00:34:19dia dah nak tenangis

00:34:20masa Ili nak beritahu dia

00:34:21eh Kianu

00:34:21Ili rasa nak pakai hijab lah

00:34:22dia macam

00:34:22serious lah

00:34:23siapa suruh

00:34:25tak tak

00:34:26I rasa serious lah

00:34:27you're so excited

00:34:28Ili tahu tak

00:34:29masa kali pertama

00:34:31saya jumpa dia

00:34:32dia yang tegur lah

00:34:33alamak

00:34:34dia yang tegur

00:34:35sebab dia

00:34:35dia

00:34:36masa tu

00:34:37jumpa dalam surau

00:34:38lepas tu dia

00:34:39saya Kianu

00:34:42daripada

00:34:42hijab dan semua

00:34:43dia tahu tak

00:34:44permulaan

00:34:45bila

00:34:45dia cakap

00:34:46yang dia pun dalam

00:34:47fasa berhijrah

00:34:48dan dia tunjuk

00:34:49dekat Iji

00:34:50I tengah ni

00:34:51dengan Ili

00:34:52yes yes

00:34:53nampak Ili tu

00:34:54dia kata

00:34:54masa tu

00:34:55you masih free hand

00:34:56dan dia kata apa

00:34:56tolong doakan untuk dia

00:34:58oh Kianu

00:34:59Kianu dia suka

00:35:01bagi I nangis tau

00:35:02sebab hari tu pun

00:35:03masa kita buat show together

00:35:05mak dia tengah

00:35:06mesej I

00:35:06oh Ili

00:35:08by the way

00:35:08Mak Kianu mesej Ili

00:35:09mak Kianu

00:35:10kita dah bested

00:35:12so hard

00:35:13kan kawan-kawan

00:35:14memang sampai

00:35:15family

00:35:16so mak dia

00:35:18mesej Ili macam

00:35:19oh Ili

00:35:20thank you tau

00:35:21selalu layan

00:35:22Kianu perangai-perangai

00:35:23dia semua

00:35:24you tahu tak

00:35:24Kianu selalu beritahu I

00:35:25dia cakap kat I

00:35:27oh I selalu

00:35:27berterima kasih

00:35:28dengan Allah everyday

00:35:29sebab bagi Ili

00:35:30dekat hidup dia

00:35:31Masya Allah

00:35:32Ili macam

00:35:32kenapa Kianu macam ni

00:35:34nak bagi orang nangis

00:35:35this is the sweetest boy

00:35:37he is the sweetest boy

00:35:37thank you Kianu

00:35:38tapi dia tak tahu

00:35:39sebenarnya Ili pun

00:35:40thank Allah everyday

00:35:41for him

00:35:41my life juga

00:35:42kita sama-sama lah

00:35:44kita sama-sama

00:35:44kita memerlukan

00:35:47kita memerlukan

00:35:48kawan yang macam tu

00:35:49kita nak kena kerja

00:35:50dengan orang-orang

00:35:51macam tu

00:35:51tapi bukan senang

00:35:52nak jumpa

00:35:53betul

00:35:53bukan senang

00:35:54and Ili rasa kan

00:35:55tak ada coincidence kan

00:35:55dalam Islam kan

00:35:56semua orang yang

00:35:57dalam hidup you

00:35:58semua benda yang berlaku

00:35:59memang diaturkan

00:36:00semua Alhamdulillah

00:36:00Allah

00:36:01thank you Allah

00:36:01for bagi I Kianu

00:36:02tapi kalau setakat Kianu

00:36:05seorang kawan

00:36:06kalau teman

00:36:07pasangan hidup

00:36:08okay so Ili dah cakap

00:36:10dah dengan Kianu

00:36:10tapi Kianu macam

00:36:11kita kawan je kot

00:36:12pernah cakap

00:36:14nice and sweet to reject me lah

00:36:15are you sure?

00:36:17yes

00:36:17kenapa Kianu cakap

00:36:18satu tu

00:36:19tak nak korang cerita

00:36:21Kianu memang

00:36:23dia cakap kawan je kot

00:36:24but you actually

00:36:26bukanlah

00:36:26bukan buat tu

00:36:27bukan macam

00:36:28eh jomlah kita

00:36:29dating

00:36:29you tak

00:36:30secara tak serious

00:36:32sahaja-sahaja lah

00:36:33macam tu

00:36:33you really like him lah

00:36:34sahaja-sahaja lah

00:36:35I mean I really like him

00:36:37as a friend

00:36:37you memang sayang dia

00:36:38sangat-sangat

00:36:38but when we really

00:36:40macam duduk together

00:36:41and bersemang-semang

00:36:42serious pasal benda ni

00:36:43kita orang-orang macam

00:36:44tak boleh lah

00:36:45kita kawan je kot

00:36:46kalau kita try

00:36:47mungkin dah tak kawan dah

00:36:48so kita tak nak berapa tu kan

00:36:50bohap tau

00:36:50sometimes

00:36:51kita kena kawan je

00:36:52kita tak boleh

00:36:53more than friends

00:36:54right

00:36:54which is okay

00:36:55which is fine

00:36:56which is okay

00:36:57mungkin sebab

00:36:58satu konti kot dulu

00:36:59itu yang susah kan

00:37:01apa yang susah

00:37:02susah nak

00:37:03macam awkward sikit lah

00:37:04sekarang ni mungkin

00:37:05dah tidak

00:37:05mungkin sekarang ni dah

00:37:06terpisah sikit

00:37:07okay

00:37:07kita tinggalkan

00:37:09pasal Kiano

00:37:09siapa sebenarnya

00:37:11yang menjadi

00:37:12ciri-ciri

00:37:13yang menjadi

00:37:14idaman

00:37:15lah

00:37:16ini bukan gosik

00:37:18ini tanya je

00:37:19bukan

00:37:19tapi sebenarnya kan

00:37:21soalan ni sangat-sangat

00:37:22menarik

00:37:23sebab sebelum

00:37:24I had a different version

00:37:26of the man

00:37:27yang Ilina

00:37:27tapi sekarang dengan

00:37:28hijau je ni

00:37:29sangat lain

00:37:30first thing

00:37:31memang kena

00:37:32kena bercinta

00:37:33disebabkan Allah

00:37:34like kita kena kahwin

00:37:36sebabkan Allah

00:37:37sebab tu I feel like

00:37:37I'll be single

00:37:38for a while lah guys

00:37:39tapi ada je orang

00:37:40ada

00:37:41Ili ada

00:37:42believe

00:37:43have faith

00:37:44yeah yeah

00:37:44have faith

00:37:45betul

00:37:45have faith

00:37:45kena selalu datang Zayan

00:37:46sebab banyak

00:37:47calon-calon yang

00:37:48kat arah itu

00:37:50eh

00:37:50kan

00:37:50sebab kalau Allah

00:37:52boleh bukakan hati

00:37:53ini untuk pakai hijab

00:37:54takkanlah tak ada orang

00:37:55untuk ini

00:37:55apalah sangat

00:37:57aku kata

00:37:59tukar stesen ke Zayan

00:38:00sebab tetamu-tetamu kita

00:38:02tetamu-tetamu lah

00:38:06so that's the

00:38:08yeah but that's the first one

00:38:10I think

00:38:11but at the end of the day

00:38:12Ili nak sama dia

00:38:13Ili boleh gelak-gelak

00:38:14ketawa-ketawa bersama

00:38:15kan

00:38:16nangis bersama

00:38:17ketawa bersama

00:38:17mungkin benda tu

00:38:18macam klise

00:38:19but I just want

00:38:20a best friend

00:38:21like actually

00:38:22macam Kianu

00:38:23serious macam Kianu

00:38:24tapi ada rasa cinta tu

00:38:26bukan Kianu

00:38:28saya

00:38:28kita kena doakan

00:38:29Kianu je lah

00:38:30yelah

00:38:31why not

00:38:32ya Allah takut dia

00:38:33saya pernah

00:38:34tanya benda ni

00:38:35kepada Syamiel

00:38:36Syamiel and I Zakri

00:38:38oh ok

00:38:38oh yes yes

00:38:39Syamiel and I Zakri

00:38:40yes

00:38:40mereka berdua masa tu

00:38:41berduet je

00:38:41sampai menang

00:38:43apa

00:38:43juara

00:38:44apa semua

00:38:44dia saya tanya

00:38:46dia tak nak

00:38:46apa-apakah dengan ni

00:38:47eh

00:38:48tak nak ada

00:38:49saya jumpa

00:38:49inilah jawapan dia

00:38:51sebenarnya

00:38:52dia tak boleh

00:38:53tak boleh jumpa kan

00:38:55tapi

00:38:55bila Allah nak bagi tu kan

00:38:58dia akan dorongkan

00:38:58tiba-tiba

00:38:59ok kita call Kianu sekarang

00:39:00eh

00:39:00ok kau

00:39:01Kianu

00:39:02Kianu what do you think

00:39:03esok lah

00:39:04sebab ada

00:39:05dia pernah

00:39:06dia pernah ada pengalaman

00:39:07sekali satu konti

00:39:09dia akan tahu dia

00:39:10apa perangai dia ni

00:39:11sebenarnya

00:39:12jadi

00:39:13ayah sebenarnya

00:39:14bukan apa

00:39:15ini

00:39:15ayah sebenarnya

00:39:16ayah tak boleh nak tengok

00:39:18awak tu single

00:39:19lama-lama

00:39:19ok

00:39:20ok ok

00:39:22tanda dia dah ada

00:39:23dah lah

00:39:24tak ada

00:39:24belum jawab lagi

00:39:26ok satu yang pertama adalah

00:39:27kena bercinta kerana Allah

00:39:28kahwin dengan Allah

00:39:29yes

00:39:29lagi ciri-ciri lain

00:39:30yang boleh bergelak ketawa

00:39:31nangis sama

00:39:32yes nangis sama

00:39:33dan

00:39:34honestly

00:39:35somebody yang passionate lah

00:39:37somebody yang passionate

00:39:38and driven

00:39:38somebody yang macam

00:39:40nak ada

00:39:40dia punya own thing

00:39:42macam itulah

00:39:43actually simple-simple ke

00:39:44dia kena tinggi ke

00:39:45dia kena bekerja

00:39:46sebagai doktor ke

00:39:48lagi tinggi beri ililah

00:39:49kalau boleh

00:39:50ini Hanuk S61CM

00:39:52kalau Hanuk S1

00:39:53kena tinggi sikit kan

00:39:53kena tinggi sikit lah

00:39:54kena tinggi sikit lah

00:39:55kena tinggi sikit

00:39:560-5

00:39:57semua ciri-ciri tinggi

00:39:58apa yang disebut tu

00:39:59untuk kena

00:40:00sebab

00:40:00sebab di kadangan kami

00:40:02rambut pendek kan

00:40:03rambut

00:40:05kena

00:40:06rambut tak kisah

00:40:07takde

00:40:08takpe kan

00:40:08ini sama dengan kena

00:40:11tak

00:40:11sama tak dengan kena

00:40:12macam tak fit in dalam

00:40:13kena

00:40:14kena

00:40:14I want everything

00:40:15kena

00:40:16tapi bukan kena

00:40:16yes

00:40:17tapi bukan kena

00:40:17kena

00:40:18no lah

00:40:18jodoh kan

00:40:20jodoh

00:40:21kita pun tak boleh

00:40:22nak

00:40:22paksa-paksa juga

00:40:23bagi ili

00:40:24tidak ada

00:40:25hard umur

00:40:25tidak ada

00:40:26apa kata-kata

00:40:27yang

00:40:28aku ni

00:40:29terlewat kahwin

00:40:30apa semua

00:40:30tidak ada

00:40:30benda tu

00:40:31tidak ada dalam

00:40:32kamu hidup you

00:40:32you target

00:40:33certain age

00:40:34untuk you

00:40:34kahwin

00:40:35I think masa kecil

00:40:36ada

00:40:36ili memang

00:40:37rasa macam

00:40:37ok kita kena kahwin

00:40:38by 25

00:40:39by 27

00:40:40kena ada 2 anak

00:40:41you know

00:40:43ada je

00:40:43tapi

00:40:44ili dah

00:40:45belajar yang

00:40:46sebenarnya

00:40:46perkahwinan tu

00:40:48rezeki

00:40:48kan

00:40:49kalau Allah tak nak bagi lagi

00:40:50kita kena redor

00:40:50kan

00:40:51kita boleh minta doa

00:40:52usaha

00:40:53kita boleh usaha

00:40:54Laila Tu Kodar ada

00:40:55kan

00:40:56Kodar kita boleh tukar

00:40:56sekalaulah kan

00:40:58kalaulah in this life

00:41:00ili sebenarnya

00:41:00tak boleh kahwin

00:41:01insyaAllah Laila Tu Kodar

00:41:03akan bagi ili kahwin

00:41:04kita pun tak tahu kan

00:41:04tapi always have faith

00:41:06always minta doa

00:41:06sebab

00:41:08mana tahu esok

00:41:09jodoh ili weh

00:41:10kan

00:41:10kita tak tahu

00:41:11mungkin esok-esok

00:41:11Keno datang

00:41:12tetap

00:41:15Keno gurau je

00:41:16Kakak gurau je

00:41:17I love Keno

00:41:17we love it as well

00:41:18ok

00:41:19dan bila

00:41:20ok

00:41:20ada

00:41:21satu

00:41:22satu video yang viral

00:41:23bercerita tentang

00:41:25perkara mistik

00:41:26berlaku kepada

00:41:27kita

00:41:29dalam dunia zaman

00:41:34sekarang ni lah

00:41:35kan

00:41:35teknologi

00:41:36AI

00:41:37semua yang memang

00:41:38maklumat di hujung jari

00:41:39apa semua kan

00:41:40ramai yang tak percaya

00:41:42benda tu

00:41:42faham

00:41:43bagaimana seorang ili

00:41:44yang masih muda

00:41:45you boleh bangkit

00:41:46you boleh

00:41:47bercerita

00:41:48berkongsi benda tu

00:41:49secara terbuka

00:41:50mungkin dia cerita sikit lah

00:41:51benda mistik macam mana

00:41:52kan

00:41:52benda ni kan

00:41:53ok so basically

00:41:55untuk summarize lah kan

00:41:56ili masa tu umur 18

00:41:57kawan my friend

00:41:59nampak ada benda

00:42:00tengah ikut ili

00:42:00everywhere I went

00:42:01dan tengok-tengok

00:42:02bila dia cakap

00:42:03dengan benda tu

00:42:03benda tu cakap

00:42:04I am your husband

00:42:06and I want to have

00:42:08baby with you

00:42:08that's what the

00:42:09thing said to me lah

00:42:10dalam konteks lah

00:42:11ili faham

00:42:13sebab sebenarnya

00:42:14orang tak percaya tu

00:42:15ili pun faham

00:42:15so ili sendiri pun

00:42:16tak boleh percaya

00:42:17cerita tu

00:42:18tak bukan sampai sekarang

00:42:19pun tak percaya

00:42:19tak sampai sekarang pun

00:42:20bila ili fikir balik

00:42:21macam serious lah

00:42:22benda tu sangat-sangat

00:42:23macam movie

00:42:24cerita

00:42:25apa

00:42:26dongeng macam tu lah

00:42:27macam cerita dongeng

00:42:28tapi

00:42:29I mean benda-benda ni

00:42:31memang ada lah

00:42:32ada

00:42:32kita tak boleh deny

00:42:33benda-benda ni ada

00:42:34I'm just glad I'm okay

00:42:35tapi tak apa

00:42:37ili faham

00:42:38bila orang-orang online

00:42:39bila cakap macam

00:42:39usia ke

00:42:40budak ni betul ke

00:42:41dia ni penyampai radio

00:42:42tak dia pun nak buat

00:42:43cerita

00:42:43ada orang cakap

00:42:44dia pun nak buat

00:42:45cerita guys

00:42:45jangan percaya

00:42:45ni konteks kereta

00:42:47tapi ili okay je

00:42:48sebab ili faham

00:42:49benda tu sangat-sangat

00:42:50bizarre

00:42:51it's very bizarre for me

00:42:52but I feel like

00:42:53alhamdulillah

00:42:54ili okay

00:42:56sekarang

00:42:57sebab kalau benda tu

00:42:59datang balik ke apa

00:42:59takut lah guys

00:43:00sebab benda tu

00:43:01bukan nak kata

00:43:02benda tu boleh mati

00:43:03sebab benda tu

00:43:03dah mati kan

00:43:04so sebenarnya

00:43:05benda tu ada

00:43:06benda tu dah mati

00:43:07like if you think about it

00:43:09I don't know

00:43:09it's not here

00:43:10it's not here

00:43:11it's not here

00:43:11dia bukan meta verse kita

00:43:12dia bukan dalam kita punya verse

00:43:14ah right

00:43:15yes

00:43:16tapi perkara tu berlaku

00:43:17lama ke ili

00:43:18since

00:43:19so the thing is

00:43:21so dalam cerita yang ili cerita ni kan

00:43:22satu indikasi yang benda ni

00:43:25memang sangat real

00:43:26is ili mimpi

00:43:27ili sentiasa mimpi

00:43:29macam

00:43:30oh tak sabar lah

00:43:31for my husband tu balik rumah

00:43:32since umur berapa

00:43:3310

00:43:3410 tahun mimpi ni

00:43:3510 tahun

00:43:3610 tahun mimpi husband

00:43:37yes

00:43:3710 tahun dah mimpi husband

00:43:39dah mimpi nak masak untuk husband

00:43:41dah mimpi pregnant

00:43:42oh

00:43:42tapi

00:43:43benda ni berlaku

00:43:44masa ili umur 17

00:43:45masa 17

00:43:47my mom's friend

00:43:49so maksudnya 10 sampai 7

00:43:507 tahun

00:43:517 tahun

00:43:52ada mimpi ni

00:43:53tapi memang ili memang tak percaya

00:43:55yang mimpi ada maksud ke

00:43:56kan

00:43:57di sebalik tu tak ada apa-apa

00:43:59so tapi bila my mom's friend tu

00:44:01tanya ili pernah tak mimpi

00:44:03macam ni macam ni

00:44:03did you share your mimpi

00:44:04with anybody

00:44:05yeah

00:44:05no

00:44:06i didn't share with anybody

00:44:08until that moment

00:44:09that moment dia tanya tu

00:44:11i macam

00:44:11tapi kau maknanya

00:44:13your mom

00:44:13your dad semua tak tahu

00:44:14semua tak tahu

00:44:15tak ada siapa tahu

00:44:16sebab my family memang

00:44:16tak pernah rasa apa-apa

00:44:18tak pernah ada indikasi

00:44:19yang macam

00:44:20lain ke

00:44:20nampak you tengok macam lain

00:44:20tak ada lah

00:44:21tak ada

00:44:22tak ada

00:44:22alhamdulillah

00:44:23ili rasa macam Allah

00:44:23memang jaga ili

00:44:25sampai umur 17

00:44:26and then kawan

00:44:27my mom tu datang

00:44:28baru nampak

00:44:29yes

00:44:30bila benda tu

00:44:31okay your mom's friend

00:44:33yang nampak

00:44:34of course your mom pun tahu

00:44:36my mom

00:44:37i mean my mom

00:44:38my mom tahu same time lah

00:44:40your mom tahu

00:44:41your dad tahu

00:44:41ada tak you

00:44:42tanya diorang

00:44:43kok-kok ada kena-mengena

00:44:44dengan keturunan

00:44:45ataupun keluarga ke

00:44:46tak ada

00:44:47tapi masa tu

00:44:48i think my mom dah fikir jauh dah

00:44:49my mom sebab dia macam

00:44:50terlalu overthinker

00:44:51dia macam

00:44:51kita ada saka ke

00:44:53kita ada ni ke

00:44:54kita punya

00:44:55great-great-great-great-great-granda

00:44:57macam mama sabar

00:44:57sabar

00:44:58i think masa tu

00:45:00it just benda tu

00:45:01memang ikut ili masa kecil

00:45:02mungkin kita pergi

00:45:03camping ke

00:45:04kan tempat-tempat

00:45:05hutan ke

00:45:06kita tak tahu

00:45:06dia datang dari mana

00:45:08tapi dia dah ada kat situ

00:45:10so i think masa tu

00:45:10the step is to just

00:45:11what can we do next

00:45:13tapi daripada 10 tahun

00:45:14sampai 17 tahun tu

00:45:15memang ili tak ada rasa

00:45:16sakit ke

00:45:17ada berat kat bahu

00:45:19tak pernah

00:45:20tak ada eh

00:45:20malam-malam rasa macam

00:45:22ada orang tengok

00:45:22tak ada

00:45:23tak ada

00:45:23mimpi je

00:45:24tapi mimpi tu

00:45:26sangat-sangat ketara

00:45:27like ili boleh

00:45:28ili boleh nampak

00:45:29dalam mimpi tu

00:45:30how frequent is the mimpi?

00:45:32maybe like

00:45:32every few nights

00:45:33every few nights

00:45:35and then

00:45:35my mom's friend cakap

00:45:36dia sebenarnya nak

00:45:37you mimpi

00:45:37sebab dia nak

00:45:38communicate dengan you

00:45:39so mungkin benda ni

00:45:40macam try other ways

00:45:42to communicate with me

00:45:42tapi macam

00:45:43tak boleh

00:45:44so dia masuk lah

00:45:45dalam mimpi ili

00:45:46it's a

00:45:48sebenarnya

00:45:50dia tidak menyakitkan ili

00:45:51sebenarnya sebab

00:45:52dia nak jadi orang yang

00:45:53paling rapat

00:45:54dia nak jadi husband

00:45:54tak sangka eh

00:45:57dalam universe tu

00:45:58ada pula husband

00:45:59dalam universe ni

00:46:00tak ada husband pula

00:46:01macam mana eh

00:46:02kita nak husband

00:46:04in real life

00:46:05eh

00:46:06eh

00:46:07eh

00:46:07tapi nampak tak

00:46:08muka dia

00:46:08tak nampak

00:46:10tak nampak

00:46:11tapi ili boleh rasa

00:46:12like

00:46:12rasa rindu

00:46:14dalam mimpi tu

00:46:15pelik

00:46:15macam

00:46:16rasa macam sayang

00:46:17dalam mimpi tu

00:46:18pelik

00:46:19yang tu yang pelik

00:46:21sebab masa kecil kan

00:46:22kita tak faham

00:46:23mimpi sangat

00:46:23so macam masa ili kecil

00:46:25ili rasa macam

00:46:26ah mimpi je lah

00:46:26mimpi tu adalah sama

00:46:27tiap kali

00:46:28mimpi tu sama

00:46:29tapi macam different

00:46:30different variation

00:46:31dia macam

00:46:32maybe ili pregnant

00:46:33tunggu husband balik

00:46:34maknanya ok

00:46:34ok maaf saya bertanya

00:46:36adakah dia termasuk dalam

00:46:37apa sampai ke

00:46:39masuk ke hubungan intim

00:46:40dan sebagainya

00:46:40ada tak

00:46:41hubungan intim

00:46:42so far

00:46:43ili tak ingat

00:46:44ili tak sure

00:46:45mungkin ada kot

00:46:47masa high school ke apa

00:46:48tapi ili tak ingat sangat

00:46:49yang ili paling ingat sekarang

00:46:50is like macam

00:46:51ili tunggu husband balik

00:46:53ili tunggu

00:46:53ili tengah masak

00:46:54dekat dah apa

00:46:55pregnant

00:46:55tengah masak

00:46:56tunggu husband balik

00:46:57macam

00:46:58eh umur 10

00:46:59so umur 15 tahun

00:47:01mimpi pun lebih kurang sama

00:47:02lebih kurang sama

00:47:0316 pun lebih kurang sama

00:47:04mimpinya

00:47:05tapi dalam hati macam

00:47:06mimpi je ke

00:47:07like tak pernah

00:47:07ili memang takkan fikir

00:47:09langsung

00:47:09yang benda-benda ni

00:47:10sebenarnya

00:47:11benda-benda

00:47:12mahluk halus ke apa

00:47:13tak pernah

00:47:14zaman sekarang

00:47:16masa apa nak percaya

00:47:17satunya

00:47:17kita pun tak percaya

00:47:19juga dulu kan

00:47:20tapi dia bukan

00:47:21nak kata tak percaya

00:47:22dia memang tak terfikir pun

00:47:23tak terfikir

00:47:23mimpi tu boleh jadi benda ni

00:47:25sama lah

00:47:26sama lah

00:47:26scary

00:47:27so bila kawan

00:47:29mak ili nampak

00:47:30benda tu

00:47:30of course

00:47:31semua orang akan terkejut lah

00:47:32ya ke

00:47:33sebab aku tak rasa apa-apa

00:47:34because dia nampak

00:47:34exactly

00:47:35so kenapa tiba-tiba

00:47:37dia boleh nak

00:47:38nak tanya

00:47:39sebab dia nampak tu

00:47:40dan adakah benda tu

00:47:41mengganggu ke

00:47:42takde pun kan

00:47:42takde

00:47:43tapi I think

00:47:44sebab

00:47:44my mom's friend ni

00:47:45dia memang

00:47:46hijab ni memang terbuka

00:47:47dia memang boleh nampak

00:47:49kalau ada orang

00:47:50in trouble

00:47:50ataupun dia boleh nampak

00:47:51macam ada orang ni

00:47:52macam

00:47:53kena ada pertolongan

00:47:54so I think

00:47:55the reason why

00:47:56dia bagi tahu tu

00:47:56sebab dia tahu macam

00:47:57oh

00:47:58this thing nak

00:47:59bagi dia pregnant

00:48:00so I kena stop benda ni

00:48:01I think that's why

00:48:02I think that's why

00:48:03macam my mom's friend

00:48:04merasa nak stop

00:48:05benda tu nak bagitahu

00:48:06sebab dia macam

00:48:06kalau I tak bagitahu

00:48:07Allah mu'alam

00:48:09anak kecil ni

00:48:10akan pregnant

00:48:11tak tahulah orang

00:48:11nanti fikir apa

00:48:12tapi sebenarnya

00:48:13benda ni mahluk

00:48:14macam tu

00:48:14so kalau ada orang

00:48:16tak percaya

00:48:16dia tak percaya pun

00:48:17apa orang tu cakap

00:48:18betul

00:48:19dia kata

00:48:20kau nak meripik

00:48:20lah dan sebagainya

00:48:21ya

00:48:22so dia kena melalui

00:48:24beberapa treatment lah

00:48:25masa tu

00:48:25yes

00:48:26one of it is

00:48:27Ili literally

00:48:28kena masuk

00:48:29position labor

00:48:30kan bila orang

00:48:31bila orang nak

00:48:32nak

00:48:33apa

00:48:33melahirkan anak

00:48:34kan dia orang kena

00:48:35baring atas katil

00:48:36kaki dua atas katil

00:48:38macam tu lah

00:48:38Ili tak nak lupa sekarang

00:48:39macam tu lah

00:48:40Ili kena macam tu

00:48:42masa tu memang rasa

00:48:43sangat-sangat

00:48:45ok what kind of treatment is that

00:48:46dia ada macam

00:48:47dia ada ritual dia lah

00:48:49bukan ritual apa

00:48:50bacaan dia lah

00:48:51macam mana

00:48:52ok so

00:48:52benda ni dia tak jadi

00:48:54in front of me

00:48:55so masa tu Ili kan

00:48:56masa buat pharmaceutical science tu

00:48:57jay datang balik

00:48:58pharmaceutical science tu

00:49:00sebab Ili kan dekat

00:49:01semenye

00:49:02ok

00:49:02so ni masa summer break

00:49:04takde orang

00:49:05so Ili sorang je

00:49:06dalam bilik Ili

00:49:07dalam labor position

00:49:08my mom's friend

00:49:10remotely

00:49:11buat treatment untuk Ili

00:49:12dari jauh

00:49:12ok

00:49:13dia bukan kat situ

00:49:14tapi on the phone

00:49:14on the phone

00:49:16and dia akan tanya

00:49:16every five minutes

00:49:17oh Ili okay ke tu

00:49:18rasa sakit tak

00:49:19rasa sejuk tak

00:49:21so you put on speaker lah

00:49:22on speaker

00:49:22padahal Ili macam

00:49:24ah

00:49:24nak buat apa

00:49:25balik

00:49:26summer break

00:49:27semua orang takde kat sini

00:49:28tapi guys

00:49:29yang paling scary is

00:49:30masa tengah buat treatment tu

00:49:31takde orang kan

00:49:32Ili dekat fourth floor

00:49:33and that floor

00:49:35ada banyak-banyak

00:49:35dorm yang lain

00:49:36mungkin macam

00:49:37sepuluh lagi pintu

00:49:38sebelah Ili

00:49:38and Ili ingat lagi

00:49:40masa tengah buat treatment tu

00:49:41pintu semua

00:49:42buka tutup

00:49:43yang tu memang Ili

00:49:44macam ok

00:49:45betul kot

00:49:46angin kuat

00:49:47kan still tak nak percaya

00:49:48still dia nunggu kan

00:49:49tak kot

00:49:50tapi yang tu memang

00:49:51Ili rasa seram

00:49:52tu first time Ili macam

00:49:52eh kenapa ada

00:49:54semua pintu buka pintu

00:49:55tutup

00:49:55buka tutup

00:49:56sebab

00:49:57takde orang

00:49:57semua orang balik

00:49:59itu memang scary lah

00:50:00but after that

00:50:01ok alhamdulillah

00:50:02Ili masih berhubung

00:50:03dengan kawan mak tu

00:50:04masih berhubung

00:50:06kita orang

00:50:06let-let

00:50:07kita orang chill-chill

00:50:08dia tak boleh cakap apa

00:50:08dia tak

00:50:09dia tak nampak apa-apa dah lah

00:50:11so far so good

00:50:12so far so good

00:50:13alhamdulillah

00:50:14kalau dia nampak satu

00:50:15Ili dia macam

00:50:15alhamdulillah

00:50:16please lah

00:50:16not okay

00:50:17kita kena ada orang

00:50:19yang macam tu juga

00:50:20yang selalu beritahu

00:50:21kita sama ada

00:50:22I'm okay or not

00:50:23yes

00:50:24and then satu lagi

00:50:25ia adalah satu peluang

00:50:27untuk kita sebenarnya

00:50:27nak jaga amalan tu

00:50:28faham

00:50:30amalan kan

00:50:31sebab benda tu sebenarnya

00:50:32memang akan senang

00:50:34masuk kepada kita

00:50:35kalau kita tidak ada

00:50:36pendinding ni

00:50:37faham

00:50:37sebab tu lah

00:50:39adakah amalan-amalan khusus

00:50:41amalan khusus

00:50:41ada tak diberikan kepada Ili

00:50:44takde

00:50:44I mean

00:50:46macam

00:50:46of course lah

00:50:48macam my mother

00:50:48cakap okay

00:50:49jangan tiga solat

00:50:50baca air kursi

00:50:52dan sebelum tidur

00:50:53baca air kursi

00:50:54kalau boleh

00:50:54ambil uduk

00:50:55sentiasa

00:50:56walaupun

00:50:57awak tak solat pun

00:50:57ambil uduk

00:50:58then stay dalam uduk

00:50:59macam tu

00:51:00protect yourself lah

00:51:01kalau nak ikutkan

00:51:02amalan ni

00:51:02pelbagai

00:51:03orang ni

00:51:05ada masalah

00:51:05ini amalan ni

00:51:06amalan ni

00:51:07masalah ni

00:51:07sebab tu kita kena ada

00:51:09seorang yang

00:51:10boleh

00:51:10memantau kita lah

00:51:11tapi

00:51:12takut juga Ili

00:51:13kadang-kadang

00:51:14ada yang pergi

00:51:15kepada salah orang

00:51:15kena macam skamer

00:51:17asyik nak suka datang

00:51:19bayar

00:51:20datang

00:51:21bayar

00:51:21habis

00:51:22takde apa pun

00:51:23sebenarnya kan

00:51:24takde apa pun

00:51:24kita pun ada

00:51:25satu hal juga

00:51:26so kita berbalik lah

00:51:27kepada

00:51:28agama kita lah

00:51:29buat apa

00:51:30kita try

00:51:30amalkan apa yang terbaik

00:51:31betul

00:51:32okay after this

00:51:33that incident lah

00:51:35dah clear

00:51:36jumpa dengan

00:51:37your friends

00:51:37mungkin boleh

00:51:38datang nak tengok

00:51:39orang FBI macam mana

00:51:40ada ke

00:51:41tiba

00:51:41are you guys sure

00:51:42nanti ada something

00:51:43saya

00:51:44macam mana

00:51:45saya dah ada dah

00:51:46orang yang saya rujuk

00:51:47dah ada dah

00:51:47Nana tak ada kan

00:51:48okay kami bawa

00:51:50kami punya dua

00:51:51tengok Nana

00:51:51takut

00:51:53tak apa lah

00:51:54sebab tak ada apa-apa pun kan

00:51:55tak ada aku kan

00:51:56tak ada aku kan

00:51:56are you sure

00:51:57eh takut

00:52:00okay

00:52:01if you could

00:52:04turn back time

00:52:06if I could turn back

00:52:08bila

00:52:09bila

00:52:09dan kenapa

00:52:10bila dan kenapa

00:52:13probably

00:52:15at a time

00:52:16yang my mom

00:52:16masak chili crab

00:52:17sebab my mom

00:52:18punya chili crab

00:52:19paling sedap

00:52:20boleh jual

00:52:21dapat duit

00:52:22but yeah

00:52:23I think

00:52:24I think just a time

00:52:25untuk lepat dengan

00:52:26my mom lagi

00:52:26cakap-cakap dengan my mom

00:52:27so jadi

00:52:28kepada semua yang ada lagi

00:52:29ibu bapa

00:52:30tolong call your mom

00:52:31call your dad

00:52:31sebab kita tak tahu

00:52:32mungkin esok

00:52:33your parents

00:52:34takkan ada dah

00:52:35bukan mungkin dia orang

00:52:36tapi mungkin kita juga

00:52:37mungkin kita

00:52:38tapi kan

00:52:39Ili selalu rasa

00:52:39kita tak patut pergi dulu

00:52:41Ili rasa

00:52:41mak bapa kita patut pergi

00:52:43sebab

00:52:43macam sedih pula

00:52:44mak bapa kita

00:52:45macam tengok kita membesar

00:52:46lepas tu kena

00:52:47tanamkan kita

00:52:48macam

00:52:48ush

00:52:49macam kesian pula kan

00:52:50but never know

00:52:51tu semua rasa Allah kan

00:52:52betul juga

00:52:52so jadilah anak

00:52:54yang terbaik

00:52:54daripada ibu bapa mereka

00:52:55selagi hayat kita ada

00:52:57yes

00:52:58betul

00:52:58kalau mak masak

00:52:59apa chili crab kan

00:53:00Ili boleh masak apa sekarang

00:53:01daripada

00:53:02mewarisi mak tak

00:53:04ada tak

00:53:05Ili tak boleh masak

00:53:06apa-apa

00:53:06Ili boleh buat kek lah

00:53:08ok tak

00:53:09cheese kek boleh

00:53:10Ili tak boleh masak

00:53:12apa-apa

00:53:12tak apa

00:53:14Kiano boleh masak

00:53:15ayam masak ni dah

00:53:19dia sedap

00:53:19Ili pernah terang

00:53:20dia macam compliment

00:53:24each other

00:53:25yes

00:53:26but we're just friends guys

00:53:27kita just kawan

00:53:29kita doa untuk kita

00:53:30amin

00:53:31amin

00:53:31yang Allah

00:53:31ramai tengok-tengok ni

00:53:32amin

00:53:32doakan

00:53:33Kiano dan Ili

00:53:35satu pasangan yang bagi saya

00:53:36secocok sangat

00:53:38yang penting mereka bahagia

00:53:40betul

00:53:40sama ada bersama-sama

00:53:42ataupun

00:53:43separately

00:53:44tak esat

00:53:45kan

00:53:46Ili

00:53:47awak masih muda

00:53:4931 tahun

00:53:51memulakan karier

00:53:52pada umur 23 tahun

00:53:54dalam radio

00:53:55ada tak

00:53:56awak rasa

00:53:57burn out

00:53:57ataupun rasa

00:53:58penat untuk kerja

00:54:00di radio

00:54:00selalu

00:54:01sentiasa

00:54:02tapi I think

00:54:04sebab kita kena

00:54:04take breaks lah

00:54:05kita kena take breaks

00:54:06sebab

00:54:06rutin ni

00:54:07sebenarnya

00:54:08bila kita dalam rutin

00:54:09yang sama

00:54:10lama-lama

00:54:11mungkin akan

00:54:11rasa macam

00:54:12ush

00:54:13bila I nak keluar

00:54:14daripada this loop

00:54:15kan

00:54:15so

00:54:16memang akan rasa

00:54:17burn out

00:54:18tapi always remember

00:54:19kenapa you started

00:54:19kan

00:54:20sama juga dengan

00:54:21kita punya

00:54:21hidrogen ni

00:54:22always remember

00:54:23why you started

00:54:24so bila rasa macam

00:54:25tak nak buat dah

00:54:26tak nak buat dah

00:54:27ingat balik

00:54:27kenapa you ada

00:54:28dekat sini

00:54:29sebab setengah orang

00:54:29nak kerja you

00:54:30kan

00:54:31kita kena

00:54:32what's the one

00:54:33I'm looking for

00:54:33kita kena grateful

00:54:34guys

00:54:35sebab setengah orang

00:54:35tak boleh kerja pun

00:54:36bersyukur

00:54:36setengah orang

00:54:37tak boleh kerja pun

00:54:39setengah orang

00:54:39tak boleh naik kereta

00:54:40pergi kerja pun

00:54:41so kita kena

00:54:41kadang-kadang

00:54:42change our mindset

00:54:43but also

00:54:44take a break

00:54:44kita pun manusia

00:54:46kita kena charge

00:54:47kan

00:54:47kita macam

00:54:48kita punya phone

00:54:48charge juga

00:54:49so take a break

00:54:50and then

00:54:51insyaAllah bila datang balik

00:54:52baru kita akan rasa macam

00:54:53eh best lah kerja

00:54:54maknanya take a break

00:54:55to

00:54:56macam Nana

00:54:5712 tahun

00:54:5812 tahun

00:54:59saya 9 tahun

00:55:00so korang

00:55:01korang ok tak ke

00:55:02korang rasa korang burnt up

00:55:04masa tu

00:55:04masa

00:55:05korang break 12 years

00:55:07yes

00:55:07that is a long time

00:55:09long time

00:55:09very long time

00:55:09so you sanggup

00:55:11you sanggup

00:55:12untuk break

00:55:12selama itu

00:55:13ini rasa kita break

00:55:1512 hari je

00:55:1612 hari

00:55:17ambil cuti je lah

00:55:18ambil jubi ni

00:55:19ambil bantai

00:55:20apa kan

00:55:21you punya idealnya break

00:55:23apa

00:55:23oh my ideal break

00:55:24is just to

00:55:26lepak with my family

00:55:27mungkin pergi beach

00:55:28pergi bantai

00:55:29lepak-lepak

00:55:30i think kita semua

00:55:31suka makan

00:55:32so kita semua suka

00:55:33pergi tempat yang

00:55:34sedap

00:55:34makanan sedap

00:55:35and then

00:55:37your

00:55:37ok

00:55:37your next target

00:55:39dalam hidup you

00:55:40my next target

00:55:42orang kata

00:55:43dalam radio ni

00:55:43kita tak nampak lain lah

00:55:44kita mungkin akan

00:55:45nampak mic kita je

00:55:46tapi satu hari

00:55:47kita tak tahu

00:55:48saya pun satu hari dulu

00:55:49tak pernah rasa macam

00:55:50aku akan

00:55:51take a break

00:55:52sampai 9 tahun

00:55:53yes betul betul betul betul

00:55:54sebab tak rasa

00:55:55pun akan datang balik

00:55:56faham tak

00:55:56when we

00:55:57orang kata

00:55:58decided nak berhenti tu

00:56:00kita tak rasa macam

00:56:00kita akan datang balik lah

00:56:01for me lah at least kan

00:56:02yes yes yes

00:56:03sebab kita dah break

00:56:04sebab kita ada

00:56:05pasar dalam kehidupan yang lain

00:56:07tapi

00:56:08Eli punya ke mana

00:56:09Eli menuju

00:56:10macam when you see yourself

00:56:11in like

00:56:1110 years time

00:56:12in 10 years time

00:56:13I mean

00:56:13Eli memang

00:56:14sebab Eli pun dah broadcasting kan

00:56:15so Eli selalu

00:56:17imagine

00:56:17Eli direct movie

00:56:18that is something I want to do

00:56:20direct a movie

00:56:21so insya Allah lah

00:56:23dalam 10 tahun

00:56:24korang will be the first people

00:56:25Eli invite

00:56:26to my first movie premiere

00:56:27wow

00:56:28invite to

00:56:29to watch premiere

00:56:31ataupun

00:56:31to act

00:56:32alamak

00:56:33kali 10 tahun

00:56:34nampak umur berapa

00:56:35ini tahu dia cakap apa

00:56:38ini takut

00:56:38ini macam

00:56:39laju kau eh

00:56:41tak sebab saya pun tahu

00:56:42saya dah tak mampu

00:56:43dah mungkin masa itu

00:56:44tak apa kita ada

00:56:45kita ada role yang sesuai

00:56:47untuk abang-abang

00:56:48boleh

00:56:50Faizan Hussein pun boleh berlakon

00:56:53ya

00:56:54betul

00:56:55ini

00:56:56walid 2

00:56:57faizan Hussein lah pula

00:57:05Allahuakbar

00:57:06faizan Hussein

00:57:07faizan juga namanya

00:57:10ay

00:57:10ay balik

00:57:11nak masuk kaki tak

00:57:12tak boleh lah

00:57:15ini

00:57:16ok

00:57:16ok ok

00:57:17yes yes

00:57:18ok

00:57:19mungkin ada

00:57:20nasihat

00:57:21ataupun

00:57:22from sisters

00:57:23to another sisters

00:57:24ataupun to

00:57:25another brother juga

00:57:26macam untuk kuat

00:57:28to make this decision

00:57:29to hijrah

00:57:30tak senang

00:57:31sebab you nak keluar

00:57:32daripada your comfort zone

00:57:33daripada apa yang you used to do

00:57:35oh my god yes

00:57:35to change

00:57:36bukan

00:57:36ok orang kata pakai tudung je

00:57:38tapi

00:57:38banyak benda yang kita kena ubah

00:57:40betul

00:57:40like you said

00:57:41cara you fikir

00:57:42cara you interact with people

00:57:44benda-benda yang you kena tinggalkan

00:57:45sacrifice-sacrifice yang you kena buat

00:57:47sebab you decide

00:57:48I wanna pursue Allah

00:57:50I wanna go to

00:57:51his heaven

00:57:52insyaAllah kan

00:57:52so

00:57:53insyaAllah

00:57:53nasihat

00:57:55Ili kepada mereka

00:57:56yang mungkin ada ketakutan itu

00:57:57ok

00:57:58to take the first step

00:57:59Ili rasa

00:58:00ok

00:58:01kalau macam nak advice

00:58:02to my hijabi sisters

00:58:03ataupun my

00:58:04free hair girlies

00:58:05yang nak

00:58:05try pakai hijab

00:58:06cuba try pergi

00:58:08supermarket je

00:58:09dekat rumah

00:58:09pakai

00:58:10I think that was my first step

00:58:11Ili pakai

00:58:12untuk pergi

00:58:13macam

00:58:14kedai 7E ke

00:58:15nak ambil barang

00:58:16rasa macam

00:58:17oh

00:58:17ok je

00:58:18tak ada hal

00:58:19so kalau korang takut

00:58:20korang kena try

00:58:21kalau takut nak keluar pun

00:58:23pakai kat rumah

00:58:24jalan-jalan

00:58:25tengok korang rasa apa

00:58:27and kalau korang memang

00:58:28rasa takut tak boleh

00:58:29jangan risau

00:58:30I feel like

00:58:31take it one step at a time

00:58:32yes

00:58:33take it slow

00:58:34sebab

00:58:35I think Allah nak kita

00:58:36rasa senang

00:58:37kan

00:58:38Allah nak make it easy for us

00:58:39so kalau korang rasa takut

00:58:40korang rasa macam

00:58:40takpelah kita buat je

00:58:41mungkin intention tu

00:58:43akan lain pula

00:58:43so

00:58:44take it one day at a time

00:58:46and jangan

00:58:47don't be so hard on yourself

00:58:48I want to say

00:58:49don't be so hard on yourself

00:58:50because insya Allah

00:58:52one day

00:58:52you akan tengok diri you

00:58:54and you akan macam

00:58:54wow

00:58:54I dah buat banyak progress lah

00:58:56Alhamdulillah

00:58:57so just

00:58:58take it one step at a time

00:59:00and

00:59:01yang kepada semua

00:59:02tolong eh

00:59:03Ili nak nasihat

00:59:04janganlah kecaman-kecaman online ni

00:59:06kan

00:59:06kalau lah ada orang nak buka hijab ke

00:59:08ataupun ada orang macam

00:59:09mungkin diorang macam

00:59:11at one point

00:59:11hijab je ni diorang bagus

00:59:13sebab tu tiba-tiba macam mungkin

00:59:14dia going to a different journey

00:59:15kita tak boleh judge

00:59:17jangan kecam-kecam orang online

00:59:19sedih tetap sedih lah sebenarnya

00:59:20yeah

00:59:20sedih memang sedih

00:59:21kita doa

00:59:22kita doa

00:59:23and

00:59:23Ili rasa macam

00:59:24kalau kita semua

00:59:24encourage semua orang

00:59:26untuk be better

00:59:26lagi bagus daripada

00:59:27korang judge

00:59:28dan korang macam

00:59:29maki-maki

00:59:30atau beritahu orang

00:59:31macam tak boleh

00:59:32tak boleh help anything

00:59:32ya

00:59:33kan

00:59:33tak membantu orang tu

00:59:34untuk

00:59:35pakai balik pun kan

00:59:36ya

00:59:37so just be better

00:59:38together

00:59:39let's go

00:59:41let's go

00:59:42last but not least

00:59:44wow

00:59:45pesanan you

00:59:48kepada Kianu

00:59:49alamak

00:59:50Kianu

00:59:52I tengah tunggu

00:59:53open house invite

00:59:54untuk raya

00:59:56bila

00:59:57I nak makan rendang

00:59:58open house aja

01:00:00apa lagi nak open

01:00:02hati dia ke

01:00:02open confession

01:00:05Kianu

01:00:06kalau lambat

01:00:07walid menanti

01:00:08diorang memang nak

01:00:11diorang nak pergi wedding kita

01:00:13Kianu sebenarnya

01:00:13diorang nak pergi

01:00:14amin

01:00:15amin

01:00:15kita boleh post that day

01:00:16no problem

01:00:17cakap war

01:00:18ha

01:00:18end of the year lah

01:00:20yes

01:00:20adakah kena

01:00:21kianu tiada janggut

01:00:23yes

01:00:23insyaAllah lah

01:00:24kalau Allah izinkan

01:00:26kita akan

01:00:26kita ragu

01:00:27Roger

01:00:27kita ragu Roger

01:00:28kita ragu Roger

01:00:30kita kat sini

01:00:31macam one big

01:00:32happy family

01:00:33yes

01:00:33seronok

01:00:34walaupun kita

01:00:35different radio station

01:00:35thank you so much

01:00:36thank you

01:00:37kita harapkan

01:00:38apa yang

01:00:39Ili kongsi hari ni

01:00:39dapat dimanfaatkan oleh

01:00:41penonton

01:00:41pendengar

01:00:42dan sedikit sahaja

01:00:43menggerakkan hati mereka

01:00:44mungkin rasa susah

01:00:44mungkin rasa macam

01:00:45maybe not today

01:00:46maybe tomorrow

01:00:47at least rasa macam

01:00:49ok berat

01:00:50maybe

01:00:50dan kita harapkan Ili

01:00:51juga akan setiasa bersama

01:00:53dengan kami

01:00:53shift pagi sekarang ni dah

01:00:55kan

01:00:55pagi

01:00:56bukan apa

01:00:56bila jumpa

01:00:58kita dapat pesan

01:00:59memesan

01:00:59ya betul

01:01:00ada apa-apa masalah

01:01:01untuk kita kongsikan

01:01:02kita nak mengkongsikan

01:01:03sama-sama

01:01:03dan itu akan memberikan

01:01:05satu kita

01:01:05support system yang baik

01:01:07sebenarnya

01:01:07yes yes yes

01:01:08betul-betul

01:01:09dan juga roti chanak lah

01:01:10gilir-gilir

01:01:10belanja

01:01:11belanja lah

01:01:12tapi tak pernah nampak Ili kat bawah

01:01:13Ili lepas habis tu balik eh

01:01:15balik kerja

01:01:16tak adalah balik

01:01:17kita dah pergi ofis sejak

01:01:18meeting

01:01:19nampak dia gilir-gilir

01:01:20yang terlalu balik tu

01:01:21tak payah bercakap

01:01:22kita tengok bawah makan

01:01:24kita jumpa lagi

01:01:29terima kasih banyak-banyak Ili

01:01:30terima kasih

01:01:31terima kasih

01:01:32jadi jangan lupa untuk

01:01:35menonton YouTube

01:01:36Zaya Spotify

01:01:37apa podcast

01:01:38dan juga aplikasi

01:01:39Shok

01:01:40jumpa lagi

01:01:41untuk ruang cerita Zaya

01:01:43episode yang akan datang

01:01:44bye-bye

01:01:45insyaAllah

01:01:45bye

01:01:45assalamualaikum

01:02:02assalamualaikum

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