Hiiii :) Happy Sunday! SO excited to be back. Meet Dot, a mini Q&A - the birth, how I'm feeling and how motherhood so far! Can't believe she's here!
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00:00hi guys i'm back it's been a little while
00:03i don't know why this feels so weird because
00:06it's been a few months but i feel like my whole
00:10world has changed last time i was filming
00:14it was literally a day before we had Dottie i uploaded and then was like
00:18see ya um and yeah i thought the best way to come
00:24back and say hello would be to just do like
00:27a little catch-up video i put a question box on instagram the other day
00:31i had lots of lovely messages so i thought i'd just
00:34answer some of them and yeah say hello i'm gonna keep it quite light
00:39and top line because i think it would be nice to do like
00:43a specific pregnancy q a and then maybe one about motherhood so far
00:48as well so this is more just like a little catch-up
00:52um a little hello and then yeah if you want me to go into more detail about
00:57any of the like experiences then just let me know in the comments because
01:01i was too unwell to properly talk about the pregnancy
01:05during the pregnancy so i feel like maybe it would be nice to do like
01:10a reflective uh q a now before we start the proper questions
01:14i just wanted to say thank you i started youtube
01:18back last march um a year ago how mad um when to be honest i was in
01:25a really unhappy and sad space and
01:30i just wanted to start something new take my mind
01:34off of things um we just had our fourth embryo transfer which um failed
01:41and i just needed like a creative outlet that was
01:45new and fresh and i had no idea that i was gonna
01:49love it as much as i have and do the fact that i
01:52started documenting the pregnancy without even realizing that i was
01:57pregnant and then brought you along on the journey
02:00with me um will just always be like the most
02:04special thing to me and the community you are just the
02:09loveliest group of people the most supportive even when i
02:14honestly like filming was really really challenging at times when i
02:18was so unwell um but yeah you were always just so
02:22kind and thoughtful and yeah i just want to say thank you
02:26so much for all of the support over the last year and specifically like
02:31throughout my pregnancy journey because yeah it was just so lovely to have so
02:37thank you so lots of questions about the birth and
02:40recovery again i'm not going to go into like
02:43huge amounts of detail but i ended up having a plan c section
02:49overall it was a really positive experience
02:53um i felt really anxious on the day i was so nervous but i think my way of
03:01kind of like coping with everything was to not
03:06read up on stuff which sounds a bit odd but
03:09i had like a few friends um give advice but then i kind of left at that
03:15because for me i wanted to just turn up on the day
03:19listen to what the doctors told me was going to happen
03:24and then just kind of deal with it in that moment
03:27it was a bit like fight or flight as you can imagine
03:31we've waited so long for this moment and it was very emotional and
03:37yeah i just kind of wanted to just be really in the moment and try and be as
03:42calm as possible and yeah it was a really positive
03:48incredible experience um i think the only way i can describe it is to just
03:55say i was so relieved like i think me and shaun just looked at each other i've
04:00said i'm not gonna cry in this video by the way
04:02which you know you know me but i've said i'm not gonna cry
04:05um we just looked at each other and i think
04:09that we just felt the biggest sense of relief when she was here it was like i
04:16could breathe again it honestly felt like the last five years
04:20and it was five years to the month since we started trying for dotty
04:24or for our baby um and i just felt like i could breathe
04:30again i feel like it was just this
04:34weight emotionally and physically that was just like
04:39lifted in terms of the actual operation i felt so looked after by the doctors
04:45and the anaesthetist oh my god he was amazing
04:48um the whole team was just incredible and i did actually end up having a
04:54hemorrhage um and dotty had to be pulled out with
04:58forceps and bless her she had quite a lot of
05:01bruising and a cut on her chin um and that moment was quite scary but
05:06she came very quickly after that was happening um so i didn't really
05:10have like much time to be scared and then she was
05:14here and all we could think about was her so
05:18it was all very quick but overall it was really really positive and yeah i felt
05:24really looked after and then in terms of the
05:27recovery at home i'm in an incredibly lucky position where
05:33i have sean here with me and he doesn't have
05:36a job out of the house to go back to um so i felt really really lucky that he
05:43could kind of like look after me and i know that that was a
05:48massive part of why the recovery was so positive because
05:52he was here to help and my family um i took it really slow
05:58like really really slow i didn't push myself
06:01i'd say it took the full like six to eight weeks to feel like
06:07mostly healed and more myself um but there were many times when
06:12you know we tried to go for a walk drive somewhere get out the car and i'd be
06:16like this is not happening and i just really
06:19tried to listen to my body and just be like don't do what you can't
06:24do um my mind was ready like so much
06:28sooner than my body was to do things i just tried to lean into not doing
06:33anything being at home being in our baby bubble
06:37and just really concentrating on recovery itself and yeah i'd say after
06:43a couple of months was when i was like okay i'm feeling really good um
06:48and yeah i just took it very very slow also lots of questions
06:52asking how i am which is really kind so thank you
06:55um i'm really good really really good obviously i had no idea what to expect
07:02and how i was gonna feel but like i said before i think the only way i can
07:07describe it and i feel like maybe people who have
07:10had a really you know challenging journey um to
07:14parenthood will get it is that i have just felt
07:20like this sense of relief and this weight
07:24lifting and i just feel the most me i have felt in years and
07:31the first few weeks were very hormonal and
07:35emotional i used to just look at her and cry with happiness but
07:39you know it was crazy um still do just not as much but yeah i'm really good
07:45i think it's just been such a journey to get here
07:51that it doesn't feel real still and i just feel like the luckiest person
07:58in the world i'm totally aware that i probably sound like a complete broken
08:02record by the way always talking about our journey to get
08:06dotty and how grateful i am and how lucky i am to be here but i think
08:13when you've been through something like that
08:15it does just feel so surreal and honestly i will always talk about it i
08:20will always talk about how we got here i will always talk about how grateful i
08:25am because every day just feels like the most
08:29surreal experience and i am just so grateful to be here so
08:34i'm sorry if i do sound like a broken record but
08:38i'm never gonna stop because i need to like shout it from the rooftops of
08:43yeah how grateful i am um okay next question how to change the
08:48camera battery so i hope this looks kind of the same next question is about
08:53her name how did we come up with the name
08:55dotty um it's quite a simple and quite boring answer really but
09:01me and sean have been together 16 17 16 i think years this january just
09:07gone and i would say we're trying to work this
09:11out the other day i would say dotty has been top of our
09:15list for maybe 10 years genuinely
09:20crazy we didn't know how we would feel about it
09:23if we were pregnant with a girl like if we would still love it as much or if
09:27we'd be like oh no that doesn't make any sense anymore
09:30but we just love it always have and we were like 99% sure throughout
09:36the pregnancy once we knew she was a girl um but
09:40when she arrived we were just like it's dotty it's always been dotty
09:47it was meant to be dotty and yeah we just
09:50love it and then her middle name is Maeve which is an irish name
09:54sean's family irish so we knew we wanted to have an irish middle name
09:59and we just think it works really nicely with dotty so
10:03that's her little name story take baby hello so this is dotty
10:10sean has a rainbow attached to his head they're doing some sensory
10:14she looks like a mini sean she has blue eyes
10:17and loads of hair i had no hair as a baby so we were
10:21in shock actually no they did tell us on a scan didn't they
10:24they said oh we saw it on the scan yeah yeah
10:27um but yeah this is dotty are you a happy baby
10:31we always say she looks like a little frowny frog right you're gonna go back
10:35and carry on playing with your dad yeah come here then chicken
10:39next question is what are my favorite things about dotty
10:45oh guys where do we start i mean she's just perfect love
10:51experiencing the world through her eyes like seeing her change
10:57every day and seeing her like respond to us as her mum and dad
11:02um yeah it's all just the most like magical thing and i just love
11:10how like smiley she is and happy and yeah in the middle of the night when i
11:15go in to like look in the cot now she's just looking up
11:19at me like you should be asleep but you're so cute
11:23now she's three months i think i wasn't expecting her to be so
11:28like engaged i think in my head a three month old even though i've been around
11:32babies a lot so i don't really know why i thought this
11:35um but i think i thought a three month old was just like
11:39a big newborn um that she's absolutely not like in her wake windows now
11:46she wants to like play and be entertained and be talked to and sung to
11:50and it's so lovely um just having her so like aware of the
11:56world and everything around her and seeing her
12:00taking new things and experiences and like new toys or sensory classes
12:06or seeing different people she's really started to like
12:10smile at my mum dad like and know our family
12:14and know people who she like loves it's just
12:18yeah basically everything is that an answer
12:22i'm gonna just have to say everything the next is what has surprised me
12:26about motherhood um i've definitely been more anxious than i thought i would be
12:34um i have anxiety so i knew that things might
12:38pop up or new things might appear but i think having a winter baby i
12:44didn't really think about the fact that i might be anxious about her catching
12:50a cold or being unwell and the first month especially
12:55maybe even two months actually i was really quite anxious
13:01and i wasn't expecting that and hadn't thought about that
13:05i've definitely become more relaxed now um
13:09but yeah that is one thing that i just hadn't thought about pre-baby
13:13that that might be something that um
13:18i would feel anxiety over another thing that comes to mind
13:21is about like being a people pleaser i'm quite a people pleaser
13:25in my like nature and i kind of knew that this
13:30was gonna happen but i didn't really uh appreciate how it would feel
13:35um i like to be on time and like do things in a certain way
13:42and having dotty now you just realize that nothing else matters
13:48you know sometimes you can't be on time sometimes things don't go to plan
13:53one day you'll wake up and the day is great you've had loads of sleep you feel
13:58amazing and you're like yeah we've got this
14:01this is like been so smooth today and then the next day you've had half
14:06the sleep than you're used to um you feel exhausted and you're running
14:10late and i think it's really teaching me just
14:14to like go with the flow more and lean into life
14:19and just relax because there is no other way if she's napping
14:25or needs something needs feeding um yeah nothing else matters and
14:33it's been quite interesting from that perspective
14:36um and i think actually it's really good for me i think
14:40it's made me feel like i should just let things unfold throughout the day
14:47and that's what we've been different another thing that comes to mind about
14:51being surprised is how having a baby
14:57just demonstrates like how quickly time is changing because you have this
15:03physical tiny person who's changing so much
15:06every day you can't help but feel so like aware of time before i would be
15:13like oh okay like three months ago or three
15:17months have passed or oh i look different a year ago or three
15:21years ago but now it's like you're so aware of
15:24every day or i'm so aware of every day because
15:27she is changing so much every day it could literally be like oh she can blow
15:31bubbles today you're like oh my god she can blow
15:34bubbles today like she's three and a half months old like
15:38it's just crazy that you can like see time moving in front of you that's how
15:44i feel i also didn't expect to feel so
15:49emotional already looking back at her growth so like i will look
15:56at newborn photos or videos and miss that stage already even though
16:02she's still a tiny baby and she's only three
16:05months old but i'll look back at that stage
16:07and like miss it i don't know if that's because of our journey to get here
16:13um and i don't know if we'll be lucky enough to ever experience this again
16:18but i look back at her as like a baby baby
16:24and yeah i just i didn't expect to feel that way i didn't expect to be like
16:30already looking back at her and thinking about how much she's changed
16:34when she's still such a like tiny baby so next is best thing about
16:39being a mum after all the obstacles my neighbour is banging so i'm really
16:46really hoping you can't hear that i touched on this in some of the other
16:50answers but i just can't explain
16:56it's it's basically made me realise how trapped and sad
17:03and desperate i have felt for so long
17:10and it's like i'm seeing the world again like from a fresh
17:16perspective it's like i'm getting me back
17:21and i know again that sounds like dramatic but
17:24we went through a lot and we had a lot of heartbreak over
17:28a long span of time and it just feels like every day
17:35i become more like me again i don't want to get emotional
17:39i can feel myself getting emotional but it's like i'm getting me back
17:44but a new version which is the best version i've ever felt i knew i
17:51would cry in this video oh my god also it doesn't help that
17:55this is literally where i sat to tell you guys that i
17:58was pregnant and now we're back here and she's here
18:02and yeah so it's less actually about motherhood motherhood has been
18:08everything i hoped it would feel like and be
18:12and more but it's more about like how i've personally felt after
18:19the journey to get here i think i didn't realise how much i had
18:25been putting on the front for so long and i'm just so
18:32thankful to be in a position where i can like rediscover myself
18:36and just lean into this new chapter and i'm just so so excited
18:45about the future and all the memories we're going to make
18:48and being with sean he is the best dad like sean is just
18:56the most gorgeous dad and i'm just so lucky to have him
19:00and yeah i'm just so excited for all that's to come
19:04and to bring you guys along right i'm gonna leave it there
19:07i hope you've enjoyed this video um it's a bit different for me
19:11doing like a little sit down q a um actually let me know in the comments if
19:16one you enjoyed this style video and also if you'd like to see more maybe on
19:22specific topics i get a lot of questions about our
19:26trying to conceive journey um maybe the pregnancy journey as well
19:31and maybe one more and specifically like motherhood so far when i've
19:36experienced a bit more of it um yeah let me know
19:40and thank you so much for watching and i'm just so excited to bring you guys
19:45along for this new chapter new life chapter um yeah
19:51i will see you next week and i hope you have
19:55a lovely one