Coronation.Street.S66E053 May 5 2025
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00:00Hiya.
00:25I just, I wanted to share a few thoughts while I've still got the chance.
00:31While you're still paying attention.
00:35Now, I may be nobody whose sandcastle will wash away with the next tide, but I've got...
00:43I had a decent amount of insight into how people's hearts work.
00:50I learned a lot about love.
00:53Usually the hard way.
00:55But those are the lessons we don't forget, right?
00:59You know, some folk, they don't believe in the one.
01:03Rubbish.
01:04Because when you know, my God, you know.
01:09Might take five minutes or five years, but when that penny drops, you realise what your life is for.
01:17How it feels to care about someone else more than you ever care about yourself.
01:21But if you don't have that, if things have grown tired and functional...
01:28You know, like that pair of shoes that once took your eye, but you want to keep on now for the sake of your cones.
01:34Take a good, hard look.
01:37Because it will only curdle into disappointment and resentment.
01:42Travesty of love.
01:43And if you haven't found that special someone, don't fret.
01:48The chances are it'll happen when you least expect it.
01:51Happiness will not come ready-made.
01:53You'll need to make compromises, but not just on the small stuff.
01:57I mean, you might even have to change your entire life.
02:02But it'll be worth it.
02:05You know...
02:06Sometimes love can be so involuntary and overwhelming.
02:11But it's scary.
02:12It's an ambush, like you want to run away.
02:14But don't.
02:15Because that is a surefire recipe for regret.
02:19You know, you didn't expect it.
02:21So what?
02:22Embrace the surprise.
02:24And then, there's a love of things.
02:31Waste of time.
02:33It's the memories where the love really is.
02:36You know, that house, that car, that view.
02:39It only holds a special place in your heart because of the times that you had.
02:43Because of the journey that you went on with the people.
02:47Because, you see, it always comes back to the people.
02:52Lovers.
02:52Friends, friends, family.
02:57They're all that matters in the end.
03:02And I have been so blessed.
03:07Oh, filling up now.
03:10I'm sorry.
03:11I loved.
03:18And I was loved.
03:21Job done.
03:24So, uh...
03:26I best sign off now.
03:29But think on...
03:32And hug whoever you love...
03:35A little tighter tonight.
03:37Sorry I took so long, but I have your humbug smashing it.
03:55You know them scented tea lights I got for your birthday?
04:02What, the ones with the reduce sticker still on them?
04:05What about them?
04:06Can I borrow them?
04:06How do you borrow a tea light?
04:08Replace them, then.
04:09Want to do something special for Eileen tonight.
04:12Why?
04:13You know, being spontaneous.
04:16You!
04:17I see more spontaneity in a cold room slab.
04:22Is this about what Julie said?
04:25Are you cooking?
04:28I was going to pick up two frozen lasagnas from Dev's.
04:31Oh, and they say romance is dead.
04:35Right, I'll sort out the candles
04:36and I'll give you the recipe to me chicken fajitas.
04:40Oh, don't worry.
04:41It's idiot proof.
04:43All right, sweetheart.
04:45Come on, you're OK.
04:45I'm not right here.
04:47Oh, sorry.
04:49Oh, good job it wasn't two minutes earlier.
04:51It'd be like a chariot race from Ben-Hur, remember?
04:53My money would be on you with her driving.
04:55You can go off, people.
04:56Not when they're turning up.
04:58Oh.
04:59Oh.
05:00Hello, Baba.
05:02Hello.
05:03Yeah.
05:04Oh, I've never been so popular.
05:06You know what?
05:06She's been crying for the last 20 minutes, so well done.
05:09It's almost like she can sense that I'm...
05:12Oof.
05:16I gather you've not been having it easy recently.
05:19That's nothing compared to what you're going to do.
05:21Oh, don't.
05:22I know when it comes to sympathy cards, I've got four eighties,
05:25but I am very bored of winning that little game.
05:28Mm.
05:29She'll say that when she wants another cup of tea or control of the talent.
05:33Kids are out at the best of times, never mind what you're going through.
05:37Just don't want to get too close, you know?
05:40Won't be fair.
05:42You take my advice, you'll just go with your instinct.
05:45It's fairer for both of you.
05:46Let the future take care of itself.
05:51It's hard.
05:54Good morning, Beth.
05:57Okay.
06:03Hi.
06:04All right.
06:05Um, I left my jumper in the office.
06:09Just came to pick it up.
06:11Right.
06:11So, can I go through?
06:14Yeah, yeah, of course you can.
06:15All right.
06:17Wait!
06:25How's Laila doing?
06:26She's okay.
06:27She's with her mum today.
06:29That's nice.
06:30Is it?
06:33Things are complicated enough without confusing them any further.
06:36Yeah, what I meant was, um, spending a bit of time with the daughter might give Dee Dee some sort of closure.
06:44Or just the opposite.
06:47Besides, what's the point of getting close to someone if you're only going to lose them?
06:51Can't be helped sometimes.
06:53True.
06:54But sometimes it can.
06:56Sometimes it's a choice.
06:58A choice that can be hard to understand.
07:01You do know it's me you're going with and not Rock Hudson.
07:17My Doris days were always my best days.
07:20I wanted another one while I could.
07:21You'll get more.
07:23Maybe.
07:24Breathing's not the same as being.
07:26You did well with Dee Dee earlier.
07:31You don't think she'll think I was sticking my nose in?
07:34Well, what does it matter?
07:35I've spent my whole life worrying about what people think of me.
07:38Much good it's done me.
07:40No.
07:42I hope she gives herself the chance to love that child.
07:47You know, it's the one thing that I would have...
07:49I know.
07:50And that kid would have been the luckiest kid in the world.
07:53You'd have done a better job than me.
07:54Talk of the devil.
07:57Oh, yeah.
07:58Look, is everything all right?
07:59Danielle rang me this morning.
08:01Theo's missus.
08:02What does she want?
08:03Wanted to know if he was with me.
08:05She hasn't seen him for a few days.
08:07Oh, has he gone missing?
08:09I don't know.
08:10Don't care.
08:10It's not my worry anymore, is it?
08:13Looks like it.
08:14I mean it.
08:15No.
08:16You don't.
08:18Oh, Steve, you've got such a generous heart.
08:21You deserve happiness.
08:23I really hope you find it.
08:25If not with Theo, then with someone else.
08:28And if I get a say from the great beyond, then you will.
08:32Come.
08:34Oh, love.
08:37Watch the ribs.
08:39You're going to be here for a good while yet.
08:41Yeah, the cancer nurses in the hospital make sure of that.
08:44Oh, yeah, well, they've been fabulous.
08:46I couldn't have been better looked after.
08:49We should make tracks in a bit.
08:50You going out?
08:51Oh, we're going to Ellingworth Lake for the afternoon.
08:54If Parker tips up.
08:55Parker?
08:57Yeah, the chauffeur from Thunderbirds, otherwise known as your boss.
09:00Well, does that make one of us Lady Penelope?
09:02Oh, definitely you.
09:03Oh, I'm really looking forward to it.
09:07There'll be a lovely show of flowers there this time of year.
09:09If that's all you want, just go in the kitchen.
09:11Full of Brian's bouquets.
09:13Well, I'm not going to see the sun on the water there, am I?
09:16Well, it'll be night time if we don't get there soon enough.
09:24Hi, darling.
09:25Don't darling me.
09:26Where are you?
09:27Out.
09:28Out where?
09:29You're taking us to the lake.
09:31Oh, no.
09:33What?
09:35I forgot.
09:37I'm in town.
09:38Needed some fancy ingredients for Glenda's recipe.
09:41What recipe?
09:42What are you talking about?
09:44I was going to cook you a meal tonight.
09:47Wanted to surprise you.
09:48Oh, you've surprised me, all right.
09:50In fact, no, no, you haven't.
09:52You've let me down again, which is the least surprising thing I can think of.
10:00Got to be six o'clock somewhere, eh, pal?
10:10What?
10:11I like now better than getting on the pot, me, but time and a place, you know what I mean?
10:16Got a state of, yeah.
10:18He'd be alone.
10:19Oi!
10:20Watch it.
10:21You'll have more than a hangover to worry about.
10:24So you, er...
10:25You never get bored of that, eh?
10:27Can we get in?
10:29Yeah, all the old...
10:30big man...
10:31tough guy, I think.
10:33You need to wash your mouth.
10:35Yeah?
10:36Last time you stuck your nose in, I let it slide, but keep flapping them gums and you might not be so lucky.
10:40Well, aye.
10:41What are you going to do?
10:44Oh!
10:45Come on, man!
10:49Oh, thanks for coming at such short notice.
10:51And staff, you've got off some, perks.
10:53Anyway, this one's on the house.
10:54Oh, I just have to die more often.
10:56Hiya.
10:57Here you go, my love.
10:58Oh, thank you, sweetheart.
11:00They're even nicer than yesterday's.
11:02I shall put them with a rest.
11:04It's like you garden in our kitchen.
11:06Need a machete to get to the same.
11:08Oh, you've been so lovely.
11:11You reap what you sow in life.
11:13And you fill the world with colour and fragrance.
11:16And now you're getting it back.
11:17Oh.
11:19You off somewhere?
11:20Oh, Ellymouth Lake.
11:22I used to go when I was little.
11:23It's my favourite spot in the whole world.
11:25It was splendid.
11:26I'll just nap home and grab my tackle.
11:27I hear there's some decent fish to be had in there.
11:29Er, girl's trip.
11:32I, I...
11:33I'm so sorry.
11:34I promised sisters before miss this this afternoon.
11:37I don't want her to feel me right back.
11:39Oh, come.
11:40Oh.
11:40Thank you so very much.
11:43You're just a bunch of flowers.
11:45Yeah.
11:46You have so much more than that.
11:48I love you.
11:50I love you too.
11:52Enjoy your trip and, er...
11:53You can tell me all about it later.
11:55I will when I see you.
12:04Right, where to then, love?
12:07Well, that's the $64,000 question, isn't it?
12:12Hey, hey, hey, stop it.
12:28Well, you can see he's in no fit state.
12:29What's it to you, Vicar?
12:31Hey, come on.
12:32You don't really want to do this.
12:33Hey, he's the idea.
12:34Come on, finish it.
12:35Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey.
12:37Hey.
12:38Steady.
12:38You can wait your turn.
12:40This is between me and him.
12:42Yeah, well, if he were in any fit state to defend himself,
12:45we might leave you to it, but he's not.
12:46Look, just go off somewhere and just cool off, yeah?
12:52Next time I see you, I'll break you in two.
12:55That goes for you lot and all.
12:57You lay hands on me.
12:58Well, I'm standing here right now.
13:01Got nowhere else to be.
13:02I mean, it's what we're doing, eh?
13:05Huh?
13:08Yeah, I thought not.
13:14You all right?
13:16You should have let him do it.
13:19I've blown everything.
13:21I've ruined it.
13:23All right, come on.
13:23I'll get you a coffee.
13:24Give me one of those.
13:25No, no, no.
13:27See you.
13:28Oh, come on.
13:30Yeah.
13:31You know something?
13:56I don't regret you.
14:00I don't regret you one bit.
14:04Oh, yeah.
14:06You know, I don't think I can be who you need me to be.
14:12That's why I've got to do this.
14:14I hope you understand that one day.
14:18I can't believe I've forgotten.
14:30I love a camping chair.
14:32Hmm, I know what you mean.
14:34They mold to you, don't they?
14:35Like deck chairs.
14:37Deck chairs.
14:37Now you're talking.
14:39Do you know, I thought about putting one in my living room in front of the telly.
14:42You should have.
14:44Nobody's business but your own.
14:45Oh, can you imagine bringing a boat back?
14:47You understand, see, and I'll sit on the deck chair.
14:49I'd have been judged.
14:50In my experience, most of them do in the end, anyway.
14:56You've had your moments.
14:58Kirk, Brian, Dev, Brian again.
15:02Certainly know how to pick them.
15:05They all had their charm.
15:09But Brian was the one.
15:10I know not everybody saw it.
15:14I don't think everybody wanted to see it.
15:17It might not have been everybody's cup of tea.
15:21But he was three showers and plenty of milk to me.
15:25Just how you like him.
15:26Exactly.
15:29You will keep an eye on him for me, won't you?
15:32Yeah.
15:34When the time comes.
15:36Yeah.
15:36If that had been a baby I was carrying all those years ago, we'd have been so happy.
15:50They're beautiful.
15:51The flowers.
15:54We might not be here long.
15:56But they do make a difference while they are.
16:00I most certainly do.
16:04Oh, come on, you're going to have me blubbing into the lake.
16:07We're supposed to be having a nice time.
16:08I can't.
16:10I wouldn't be anywhere else right now.
16:13Or with anyone else.
16:18Oh, that's a lovely breeze.
16:20The police just kept saying I transferred the money willingly.
16:26Even so, by the sounds of it, what Daisy did definitely was illegal.
16:30Oh, yeah, yeah.
16:30Yeah, but they reckon there's no chance of getting a conviction.
16:34It's next to none.
16:36How could she?
16:38I loved her.
16:40Since when was that protection?
16:42Oh, well, even the people you love, they don't always make the best memories.
16:47They can make your worst.
16:48Well, bottom line is, I'm beat.
16:52Daisy, one, hands down.
16:54All I need now is for someone to come along and beat me out of this place.
16:58Oh.
17:00Hiya.
17:01Thank you for dropping in.
17:02Any excuse to coo over the baby?
17:04As long as you don't do it too loudly.
17:06Just got down for a nap with a little bit of help.
17:09You had a day of it?
17:11Oh, well, if you mean, has she been crying?
17:13Yes, definitely sometimes, but...
17:17But what?
17:19Well, I don't know, it's not been a problem.
17:23Being with her, I mean.
17:25That's great.
17:27Is it?
17:29I mean, she's not going to be my baby.
17:32Any feelings I develop just makes letting a girl a thousand times harder.
17:35Then maybe you ought to rethink your plans.
17:39What, and pull the rug from under my brother's feet?
17:42No.
17:44No.
17:45James is completely invested in the idea of adopting Layla.
17:48Dee Dee, you are more invested in her than anyone else ever could be.
17:54And if you backed out now, James would forgive you in time.
17:58But if you went through with it, you might never forgive yourself.
18:02But having you come into my life was the most wonderful surprise.
18:11I've never been described as that before.
18:18Well, that's because, like Brian, not everybody can appreciate you.
18:24Some people always find the good in others.
18:28No matter how hard it is to find.
18:32It wasn't hard.
18:34You might have a tough outer shell, but you're a right softy underneath.
18:39You might make me sound like a dress crab.
18:43No.
18:45You threw your sugars and plenty of milk.
18:50Speaking of which...
18:52Oh, my...
18:53Did you just do that?
18:55You want a cup of tea?
18:56Oh, if you don't mind.
18:58I know it's a bit of a slight back to the refreshments.
19:01Go on, then.
19:02Seeing as it's you.
19:05Kylie.
19:06Mm?
19:07I couldn't have wished for a better sister.
19:11Well, I'd wait until you taste your tea before you make a decision.
19:23Plenty of milk.
19:24I know!
19:29Hi, it's Eileen.
19:30I can't pick up.
19:31If you think it's important, leave a message.
19:33Otherwise...
19:34Oh, come on.
19:55Hiya.
20:14It's me again.
20:15This bit's just for you, sis.
20:22You've done so much for me.
20:26I need to do something for you in return.
20:29With the best possible intentions.
20:30Complacency, neglects, or...
20:37Sometimes it just runs its course.
20:40There's nobody to blame.
20:41No recriminations.
20:43Not if you end it in the right way, at the right time.
20:47And I'm...
20:49I'm so sorry to say this, but...
20:52I think that time has come for you and George.
20:56You need to go your separate ways.
21:01As do we.
21:03Sadly.
21:06Okay, sirrah.
21:07But you've been the best thing that's ever happened to me.
21:15Oh, you should have seen the cue.
21:18I wouldn't mind, but I've spilt half of it on the path because it didn't have any lids.
21:22Look on the man's face when I've poured half a pint of milk into yours.
21:26Not that I care.
21:26I mean, two pound for a cup.
21:29I'm going to put them down here.
21:32You two busy being eight years old to talk to me.
21:34I don't know I'd like to have known you when you were eight.
21:38You're hyperactive enough when you're an adult.
21:41Come on, sleepyhead.
21:43You're going to be stone cold by the time you have it.
21:46Julie.
21:51Are you okay?
21:59Oh.
22:01No, no, no, no, no, no.
22:02Julie.
22:20She's got cancer.
22:23Terminal, but she's got months left.
22:28We were just chatting.
22:29She was fine.
22:30I'm sorry.
22:31There's nothing we can do.
22:34She's got a DNR order in place.
22:36Do not resuscitate.
22:37I know what it means.
22:39Then you'll know there's nothing we can do for your sister.
22:43If you want to spend some time with her.
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23:03Yeah.
23:03Okay.
23:04and so why now i just had so much more to say
23:23diddy oh deb's hi hey how are you how are you after everything with me uncle i'm fine
23:31are you all right yeah because i know what your family's like they're not backwards
23:37at coming forwards where opinions are concerned well you get used to that but to be honest i
23:45i did need to understand how i felt about leila the only way to do that was to confront things
23:50head on and has that been okay well i'm hoping it won't be weird at first and it's definitely
23:58been hard work and for now i kind of enjoyed it actually well she certainly looks happy enough
24:07yeah touch wood she's not the only one now i think today is exactly what i needed no i really feel like i
24:28yeah another one i'll do you good you're assuming i want to do something's really better when you're
24:37drunk sorry i didn't ask him to call you i don't want you getting involved in all this a bit late for
24:44that besides danielle rang me she's worried about you you need to tell them that you're all right
24:49for the kids sake i'd probably better off without me i tried so hard to make it work but i just
24:57i just couldn't do it you know it's too much with this this thing what i am who you are not what
25:05you're just being true to yourself i don't know what the truth is i've been lying for so long
25:11you're not after you now it's got to be more healthy healthy come to face the fact i'm sick
25:20why i drunk you just happen to be attracted to people of the same sex like millions of other men
25:25and women it's not sickness it's not how it's meant to be i mean you should know that better than
25:31anyone well what i know is that god created the world he created todd and me and you they're not
25:41mistakes we're all part of god's design and i couldn't change it not that i want to more than the
25:48color of my eyes you can feel bad about telling lies and the way things unfolded but you can't feel
25:57bad about embracing your sexuality those days are gone thank the lord it's hard to thank him for
26:02anything i feel that i've been through she looks very peaceful like she's just nodded off she shouldn't
26:20have gone not yet we were chatting away just fine
26:32it's just how it happens sometimes well it's not what i expected i thought it would progress slowly
26:42that she'd go into weatherfield hospice and i'd be pushing around those lovely grounds
26:53that we'd have time
26:57i've no idea it was so close
26:59maybe it's a blessing
27:04i mean i know end of life cares moved on no end but can still be ugly
27:13she didn't die hooked up to machines or fighting for her last breath she was exactly where she wanted
27:21to be with the person she wanted to be with brian was the love of her life
27:28hmm i won't be so sure you meant the world to her i know that much
27:34i feel cheated cheated for her how so
27:41because we didn't get to say goodbye
27:43because she didn't get to say all the things she wanted
27:50and she'd lost so much i at least thought that she'd have that
27:54was that you and the rotor or another jenny have not the pleasure of mating yet take it up with the new owner until this place is sold i can do what i please
28:08and after that you're going to need some brass to live on and a home you need a plan
28:15why where do they get me every time i make a plan it's like poking fate in the backside with a cocktail stick
28:23oh well that's it then aren't you yeah daisy's delivered the knockout blow you're going to lie
28:29there till you're counted out i never said that good so get the cob off and put your thinking cap on
28:37fight back starts here my family were religious you know but uh like really religious the part of an
28:46independent church in the little village where we grew up singing was um a big part of it and every
28:56sunday we'd lift our voices to heaven and even if i was staring at the guy playing guitar he called my gears
29:05a few times he smiled he was stupid
29:11i was stacking chairs and i squeezed his hand that's all i did the sky fell in the parents so
29:21embarrassed he was eating me alive to see him in so much pain and so when the pastor suggested uh
29:30conversion practices i was all in
29:33they break you down peace by peace
29:42and then they put you back together right that's right
29:50people i'd know my whole life was screaming at me inside me i was uh a deviant
29:58disgusting if i was an offense to god and nature and yet come sunday it was all peace be with you and
30:06shaking my hand and tea and cake in the parish rooms no real christian would use language like that to
30:14describe another human being kind of worked though didn't it i mean i got married had kids
30:21it's fulfilled god's plan and i'm i was sort of happy and then you came along all the self-hatred
30:30came rushing back and flashbacks and all you know i've not slept in weeks
30:35i'm not slept in weeks
30:37but we need to get you some help
30:39you sound like them
30:44hey dear i couldn't face being torn apart again i just i couldn't face it
30:50i just want some peace
30:57winch your little smasher beautiful she couldn't fail to be with her mom's jeans
31:02i really appreciate you holding the fort with her oh well it's dede you've done the heavy lifting
31:09today thank you i know you've had mixed feelings oh it's fine i enjoyed it that's good to hear love
31:18it is but i know how busy you are i was thinking i must stick around for the next couple of days
31:23till danny's out of hospital i could take over with leila get to know even better before we leave no
31:28love you should take her with you today are you sure about this yeah yeah yeah he'll be easier for all of us
31:44indeed
31:58you know i've never told anyone about that before
32:08i need my parents surely they must have asked what went on
32:12i just wanted to forget it as far as they were concerned i was fixed
32:16ever seen my wedding album no one's wearing bigger smiles than me and mom and dad
32:21i'll be devastated well they do well to get into the 21st century take it you're not stopping with them
32:26literally the last place i go right now to where are you staying
32:31well i'll find some way danielle said she hadn't heard from you for a few days
32:36you're not sleeping rough are you no i'm i'm in my van but i'll be fine you can't live out the back
32:42of a van you can stay at mine at least until you get yourself sorted no no no no you'll be on the sofa
32:49alone well you should have a roof over your head i mean it just before one night it's fine go and get your stuff
32:56thank you are you sure that's a good idea
33:05are you sure that's a good idea i can't turn my back on him not now knowing all that
33:11shine some new light on it i suppose
33:15someone's popular eight missed calls and three messages
33:20i need to go home to myself i'll see you later
33:24i just wish i hadn't put things off what things
33:38telling her how much she was loved how much she'd come to mean to me she knew
33:43i don't know i hand out smiles like they're still on ration
33:48julie was demonstrative enough for the period
33:50i just wish she'd had a chance
34:03what are you doing i thought i saw julie's phone in here earlier
34:08i thought you know if folks start sending messages and not realizing here it is yeah i suppose
34:14i hope there's there's some sort of video here give it here
34:32you might want to wash your face what why because you've got guilt written all over it
34:38what's going on all right look
34:46when you weren't responding earlier i um look i tried texting julie's phone and it pinged here
34:53i noticed the video i saw that she'd left you a message a couple actually
35:01why didn't you tell me no i know no i should have done straight away
35:05but um but what but i'm not sure i wanted you to see him
35:13one of them anyway
35:17sorry
35:17i'm 50 plus i don't need a careers officer no you don't you need a hobnail boot no prizes for
35:34guessing where wow come on you're smart you're experienced there must be a job out there for you
35:42i think i've been my own boss too long to start taking orders of other folk now well start another
35:48business ow i'm potless the bank won't touch me with a barge pole i know you think i'm a pair of
35:55joggers away from being a total lush but i have thought about this oh you know in the old days i would
36:02have said marry a rich man and live off him i am done with men ah well i've heard that before no no
36:10no no no that catfishing business it broke me i really fell for him and they knew it i even told
36:17daisy proper opened up to her and all the time she was laughing at me hey come on you've got to get
36:22past that love you've got your health and your strength what would the likes of poor julie give
36:29for that hey now don't guilt trip me i'm not it's the truth it's time you left this place and all the
36:37misery that it's caused time to use your brain and chart a new path while you've still got the time
36:46you know i'm right the greater the love the greater the price some people reckon it's too high
36:58and right now i really really get that it's a pain no drugs can touch
37:07but it's been worth it so worth it and i wouldn't change a single thing
37:25i love you sis
37:33i'm sorry
37:38i know
37:42i just got scared
37:44everything just happened in a rush
37:47it's fine you're human
37:52some fellas would have deleted it to thank you no no don't don't
38:00bad enough that i hesitated
38:03i would never have deleted it never
38:07i know how much you thought of her
38:10oh i did
38:13and i'm so glad she felt the same
38:17but she cared enough to want what was best for me
38:20yeah
38:26but what's best
38:30well it's just an opinion isn't it
38:33honest maybe but um
38:37it doesn't mean it can't be wrong
38:40no no no it doesn't uh we need to let people know
38:47yeah no i can do that then i'm gonna find brian and todd
38:51i only realized what he had when it was too late
38:58maybe that's a lesson for us all
38:59to value what we've got
39:01to value what we've got
39:05maybe
39:05i'm so sorry
39:15Goodbye, Adolin, and you can take good care of him.
39:25Listen, don't feel you can't visit any time you want.
39:29I know.
39:30Dee just needs some time and space.
39:32Yeah, I thought she might come back and say goodbye to Layla.
39:37Don't judge her.
39:39None of us can imagine what she went through.
39:41Or how hard it must be.
39:45Anyway, don't be a stranger, will I?
40:09Some terrible drivers around, you know.
40:11I let this fella out, right?
40:12Nothing.
40:13Nothing. Not a flash of the lights or a flick of the hazards.
40:15Nothing.
40:16Ah, maybe he was in a hurry.
40:17Well, if he's in a hurry, that's all the more reason to be grateful, innit?
40:19Does it really upset you?
40:21Yeah, it does a bit.
40:22A little nod's the bare minimum.
40:24Though, generally speaking, that's how you should respond to a wave or a light flash.
40:28And I thought law was complicated.
40:30So, when you give your little nod, does the other driver have to acknowledge your acknowledgement?
40:36As long as you don't escalate it.
40:37It's not about one-upmanship.
40:38If I applied all Thor's rules to using a wheelchair, I would never make it to the end of my roads in the morning.
40:46No wonder the traffic's so bad with all these elaborate rituals going on.
40:50It's like a Japanese tea ceremony on wheels.
40:54Courtesy costs now.
40:56Oh, can I get you one in?
40:59Not just now.
41:01Did the girls have a good time at the lake?
41:03It's what I need to speak to you about, Brian.
41:08Might want to take a seat, mate.
41:09Is everything all right?
41:14Oh, no. Not Julie.
41:17Yeah.
41:18I'm afraid so.
41:19What are you trying to say?
41:23Did have a lovely afternoon by all accounts.
41:26It was very peaceful.
41:29She didn't suffer.
41:30Well, she seemed fine when I dropped her off.
41:34Yeah.
41:35Tell these things can be sometimes.
41:38I mean, that's a blessing in a sense.
41:41She was herself to the end.
41:44I should have been there.
41:46What was my hand?
41:50We've brought her back to the funeral parlour.
41:53You can see her.
41:55When she's in the chapel of rest.
41:58It won't be her, though, will it?
41:59She's gone.
42:10But think on and hook whoever you love a little tighter tonight.
42:17And hook whoever you love a little tighter tonight.
42:22Yeah.
42:25She always had a flair for the dramatic.
42:27I'm so glad she got to leave that behind.
42:34It's almost like she knew.
42:37It says it was recorded today.
42:39Earlier.
42:41There were two, that one, and...
42:43one just for me.
42:45And...
42:46was yours similar?
42:48The same vein.
42:49Sort of a goodbye.
42:50Does that not bother you?
42:53Bother me.
42:55I find it comforting.
42:57Is it?
43:00I mean, she just happened to make two farewell videos on the day that she died.
43:05She wanted to go to the lake, but only with you.
43:08Today, of all days, she sent you up for tea, and you came back and she was gone.
43:16And, frail or not, she hogged the life out of me earlier.
43:20What are you trying to say?
43:26It's not almost like she knew, Mum.
43:31I think she did know.
43:37I think Julie...
43:38...took her own life today.
43:41I think she did know.
44:11I think she did know.
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