EastEnders 23rd April 2025-n
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00:00I've... I've checked upstairs and he... he ain't here.
00:16Did he say anything else in the letter?
00:21It's just that, er...
00:24It's just that he don't want to be a burden.
00:27Listen, I've got to...
00:29I've got to find him, all right? I've got to find him.
00:46Please...
00:48Please...
00:49Please don't... don't hurt me again.
00:52Please.
00:57You, er...
01:01See Nigel?
01:02Earlier, yes.
01:03No, no, recently now. Last hour or so.
01:05Oh, what? Has something else happened?
01:07No, no, er...
01:09I just thought he might come in here. I know that he talks to you.
01:12Yes, it does.
01:16When we spoke earlier, he was still shaken by what happened at the egg hunt.
01:20He told me that everything was in hand, but I'm not sure I believe him.
01:24And I'm not sure I believe you right now.
01:27He's, er...
01:29He's been planning on taking his own life.
01:37Okay.
01:39You don't seem that surprised.
01:42Well, the way he was talking gave me cause of concern, even though he was trying to convince me that he is fine.
01:49Yeah, well, he ain't. And now he's got missing.
01:53Alright, I don't come with you.
01:55What are you doing?
01:56I'm coming. We need to look for him.
01:57No, no, no, please. Just stay here, yeah?
01:59He might... he might walk past, see the light, and then come in here.
02:01So, please, just... just stay here.
02:03And let me know if he does, yeah?
02:05Alright.
02:06Cheers.
02:07Phil! Phil!
02:18Oh!
02:19I was talking to, er, Nigel earlier, and, er, he said that he was worried that he was becoming a burden.
02:24He had a gold act, but, er, did he say anything about going out tonight?
02:27No. Why?
02:30Later.
02:33I think you should look after him better, Phil.
02:36Just saying.
02:38Phil?
02:42Have you tried calling?
02:43Yeah, of course I tried calling, but there's no answer.
02:45He's...
02:47Maybe he's done talking.
02:50You don't have to go in there, alright? I'll do it.
02:52No, no, no, no.
02:53If he's in there, this is on me.
02:56You don't have to do this or it's going to set you back.
02:59It won't.
03:06Okay.
03:07Okay.
03:08Okay.
03:11Oh!
03:12Oh!
03:13You're right.
03:14No, no, no, no, no, no, no.
03:17I can't wait here.
03:18I can't wait here.
03:19You're right.
03:20Alright.
03:21You're right, are you on?
03:22Go on.
03:23No, I can't wait here.
03:24No, no, no.
03:25No!
03:27It's hot now.
03:43We find him.
03:46We find him and we make sure he's on top of that.
03:51You know that night that he called the mental health people?
03:55I was... Well, I was angry.
03:58I was angry.
04:00He did the odd thing.
04:04He was trying to look after me. I understand that.
04:08Now, I'm going to do the same for him.
04:12I'm going to do the odd thing.
04:15And do what? Get him sectioned?
04:18He's a danger to himself, the same as I was.
04:21It's not the same, though. It's not the same at all.
04:23He wants to kill himself. He wants to die.
04:25Just like I did.
04:30No, finding...
04:30Finding his note coming in here is...
04:33It's probably all that, you know,
04:35what I...
04:37What I brought you all forever long.
04:41I am sorry.
04:43Sorry.
04:44I really thought I was going to find him there, you know, I thought...
05:02I thought I was going to walk through that door and I was going to see him laying there.
05:07I thought I was going to see him laying there just like I saw...
05:09My mum.
05:24Hello?
05:27Speaking.
05:30It's the hospital.
05:32Is he okay?
05:33Okay.
05:35Such good news.
05:36Yeah, we've been really worried.
05:37I found him, he's safe
05:40Thank God
05:52We were worried sick
05:55What happened?
05:57Is someone here?
05:59I fell
05:59Well that's not what the nurse out there said
06:02She said the person who found you thought you'd been mugged
06:05I fell
06:06So whatever happened, it should have been me they called, not Linda
06:10I washed my hands of you
06:13My memory ain't what it was, but I remember that
06:18Listen, you're angry with me and I don't blame you
06:21Stop
06:22Have they said how long you need to be in here?
06:28Well, I think I might have a...
06:31What's it called when you get a bang on the head?
06:34A concussion?
06:35A concussion, yeah
06:36And, um, don't let me leave on my own because of that
06:40Good
06:41Because if they did it, you'd just wander off on your own again, wouldn't you?
06:51He's just worried
06:52He, um, he told me what he said to you
06:56He was angry
07:00At the thought of you hurting yourself
07:03He won't say this because he don't know how
07:08But he really cares about you
07:12Do you mind leaving me now?
07:19I need to get dressed
07:20Listen to me, I know what I'm talking about, all right?
07:31This man is a danger to himself
07:32Phil, can I have a word?
07:34Yeah, in a minute
07:34Now
07:35Wait, what are you playing at, eh?
07:38Stopping you from making a mistake
07:39As I'm not standing by
07:41And letting another person hurt themselves?
07:43But trying to get him sectioned is not the answer
07:45And what happened to Peggy
07:48To you
07:49And what's happening to Nigel now
07:51And it's all got sort of jumbled up in your head
07:54Like it's part of the same story
07:55And it's not
07:56He told me
07:57He wants to kill himself
07:59No, Phil
08:00What he wants is not to get worse
08:02You know, Shirley's mum, Sylvie
08:07When she was at her worst, near the end
08:10I promised myself that if that was me
08:13I would not let it come to that
08:14So I understand
08:16You know, I may not like it
08:18But I do get it
08:20He's not depressed and in despair like you were
08:24He is not an alcoholic like me
08:26What he's got
08:28You can't recover from
08:31He is in despair
08:35Alright
08:36And he's frightened
08:38What am I supposed to do?
08:39Just throw my arms up in here
08:40Walk away and
08:41And let him end it all
08:43No
08:43Look, I don't know
08:46Just talk to him
08:49It's his life
08:56Listen, I'm sorry
09:07You know, for what I said before at the house
09:10I suppose you scared me
09:12So
09:13So where was you headed tonight?
09:17Uh, well
09:21After talking to Gene
09:23I got worried
09:24And, um
09:26I made arrangements to
09:28Rent a little park home
09:31Near the coast
09:32Coast?
09:33Are you talking about where on the coast?
09:35Kent
09:35Um
09:36I forget
09:37I can't remember the tone
09:38I've written it down somewhere
09:40That was always the plan
09:41Soon as I felt
09:45I was becoming a burden
09:47I'd go
09:49Live out the rest of my days
09:51In a
09:51Peace
09:53By the sea
09:55Probably should have done it sooner
09:57But
09:58I'd hope that
10:01Being in a familiar place
10:04With familiar faces
10:06Might bring back the good times
10:09Might even slow down the symptoms
10:13And I thought I was
10:15Doing some good
10:17You were
10:20You
10:20You were
10:22But what
10:24What you said, you know
10:26In your note about being a burden
10:28You
10:28You ain't a burden to me
10:31So come home, yeah
10:32We can
10:33We can
10:33Take it
10:34Day by day
10:35And, um
10:38What you said at the arches
10:41About you
10:43Needed me
10:44Well
10:44There's only the half of it
10:47How are you feeling?
10:55Yeah, yeah
10:55Better, thank you
10:56Well the doctor said
10:57You can be discharged
10:58As long as you've someone with you
10:59To keep an eye on you
11:00Is that the case?
11:03Yeah, yeah, yeah
11:04Um
11:04I'm
11:05Going back on the day
11:06Good
11:07Will I leave you
11:09To get your things together?
11:10Right, thank you
11:10Sorry
11:11You see all this stuff
11:13In the news
11:14About brain injuries
11:15And dementia
11:16I just wondered
11:18You know
11:19Could a knock to the head
11:20Make the condition worse?
11:22You'd have to speak
11:23To a specialist
11:24But
11:24I can't think
11:25It will have helped
11:26This tap
11:42I'm going to have to
11:42I'm going to have to
11:44Get the power around it
11:45You, uh
11:47You want to see a copper?
11:49Oh, cheers
11:50Yeah
11:50Right
11:50Who's that?
11:55Gene
11:55Listen, that video you made
12:00I know why you made it
12:01Well, now it's all out in the open
12:02We can talk about it
12:03You don't need it anymore
12:04So you might as well delete it, mightn't you?
12:07Yeah, yeah
12:08Right
12:08I'll delete it
12:10Now
12:13I'm still master of my own
12:16I said I'll delete it
12:18And I'll delete it
12:20In my own time
12:21Back in a minute
12:26Where's your going?
12:29Gene brought this round
12:30She wants it back
12:31What, now?
12:32That's what she says
12:33Well, I'll drop it back
12:35You need
12:35You need the rest, yeah
12:37I'll make the tea when I get back
12:39So if you can't answer
12:54If you get
12:56If you fail the test
12:58Then, uh
13:00You've got to take action
13:02Whilst you still can
13:04No ifs
13:06No buts
13:08Fail this test
13:10And you have to kill yourself, old pal
13:14What is it?
13:22What's happened?
13:23Uh, nothing
13:23Well, I didn't want to say anything earlier on
13:26But, uh
13:27Nigel went missing
13:29Oh, and you found him?
13:30Yeah, yeah, yeah
13:31He's fine now
13:31Well, you're right
13:33Yeah
13:34I've got to take
13:35Better care of him
13:36Anyway
13:38Here you go
13:39Oh, I gave him that
13:41As a present
13:41What, you said you, uh
13:43Said you wanted a bet
13:44How would he say that?
13:47Oh, maybe he's confused
13:49There's been a lot of that lately
13:50Thanks
13:52Question five
13:57Yeah
13:57In Smokey and a Bandit
14:00The dog
14:01In Smokey and a Bandit
14:03Specially chosen
14:04By Burt Reynolds
14:05What's his name?
14:07Or her name?
14:10Yeah
14:11I don't know
14:26I don't know
14:29What's your game?
14:39Eh?
14:39You should never ask for this
14:41I'm sorry
14:41You're trying to get rid of me or something
14:42Eh?
14:45You deleted that video yet?
14:48Nigel, I don't understand
14:50Alright?
14:50I thought we agreed
14:51You don't need it anymore
14:52You know that
14:52Things are going to get better now
14:54It won't
14:55They can't
14:57That's what you don't seem to understand
15:00Things are going to get bad
15:03And much quicker than I thought
15:05Where are you going?
15:06Where are you going?
15:06I told you
15:07The sea
15:07The house
15:08Yeah
15:09You don't need to go there anymore
15:10Nigel
15:11Nigel, you don't need to go there anymore
15:13Alright?
15:16It's locked
15:16Have you got the key?
15:19I've locked it
15:20Nigel, I've locked
15:24I've locked that one
15:25You can't keep me prisoner
15:26I'm not keeping you prisoner
15:27I'm trying to keep you safe
15:28No
15:29No
15:29You're doing what I'm most scared of
15:32Taking away my decisions
15:33Phil, please
15:37It's time
15:39You have to let me go
15:40Go where?
15:41Go where?
15:42Some crappy little caravan, eh?
15:45It's a park, huh?
15:46This is your home
15:48This is your home
15:48Nigel
15:48This is your home
15:49There's nothing you can do there
15:51That you can't do here
15:52It'd be worse there
15:53You'd be alone, wouldn't you?
15:55You need a place to spend
15:56The days you've got left
15:57This
15:58This is it
15:59What?
16:05Nigel, I think we're a bit past
16:06The cloak and dagger stage
16:07If you've got anything to say
16:09You can tell me
16:09I'm your mate, and I
16:11I failed
16:13The cognitive test
16:23I made for myself
16:24I failed
16:24I failed it just now
16:25It's just
16:26It's all right
16:27It don't mean nothing
16:27It means everything
16:29It's just some stupid question
16:30Questions that I rely on
16:32That I promised myself
16:33I'd act on
16:34Before it's too late
16:36You'll have to let me go
16:38Listen, you're stressed
16:38All right
16:39You don't know apples from oranges
16:40Right now
16:40You're just taking a massive blow
16:41To the head
16:42Yes
16:43Which has speeded everything up
16:45Like that nurse said
16:46No, she never said that
16:47Something's changed
16:50Nothing changes that quickly, Nigel
16:52All right now
16:53Now just park yourself up
16:54Because you ain't going anywhere
16:55Until you see sense
16:56I am seeing sense
16:59That's the whole point
17:01But in a week
17:02A month
17:03I might not remember
17:05I might not even care
17:08Then what?
17:08Then what does it matter?
17:09Hey, what does it matter?
17:13Because I care now
17:15And
17:18I want this
17:21Nigel
17:22To make the decisions
17:24This me
17:27Have you even ever thought
17:36What my life could be like
17:40When this disease takes hold?
17:44It's not
17:45It's not just a case of having a dodgy memory
17:47It's not been able to walk
17:51Or wash myself
17:53Or even right now
17:53On the backside
17:54Sitting in some home
17:58Being fed like a child
18:02By someone I don't even know
18:03I don't want to die like that
18:09I want to be me
18:13Right to the end
18:16Now do you understand?
18:21Phil?
18:31Phil
18:31Phil
18:36Phil
18:40You should
18:44You should call Julie
18:47Tell her what you're planning
18:47Because that's the least you can do
18:49No
18:54I don't want that for her
18:56I didn't want this for you
18:57Never want that to be a burden
19:00Weren't you listening
19:02Back at the hospital
19:03You ain't a burden
19:05Alright
19:05You never were
19:06You never could be
19:07Because
19:07Because you
19:09You saved me
19:11Anyone would have done
19:13What I did that night
19:14No not that night
19:14Not just there
19:16Here in this house
19:17Every day since I left the unit
19:19You
19:20You saved me
19:22Nigel
19:23Fred
19:24The name of
19:29The name of the best at home
19:30In
19:31Smokey and the Bandit
19:33I remember
19:33Fred
19:34I was about to do it
19:40I would have
19:42I would have done it
19:44Oh my god
19:46You know
19:50A while ago
19:53I spent the best part of the year
19:56Thinking I was 59
19:57Actually
19:57I was
19:58I was 58
19:59No dementia
20:01Or no dementia
20:02We all forget things
20:03We all make mistakes
20:04It doesn't
20:06Change things really
20:08This
20:08This disease is going to beat me
20:11In the end
20:12Nigel
20:13Nigel
20:14We all get beaten in the end
20:15You know
20:17You're worried about your future
20:20But the future
20:22That you imagined
20:23It don't have to go down like that
20:25Now I will do everything I can
20:28To change things
20:29So that you feel like
20:31That you're in control
20:33Yeah
20:33And if
20:35You know when the time comes
20:37For you to move on
20:38You don't have to live in some
20:40Boxy little shoebox
20:42You know
20:43There's places
20:44You can go
20:45Good places
20:46Full of good people
20:47Kind
20:48Respecting
20:49Caring
20:49People
20:50That will look after you
20:51Just
20:53Just think about it
20:56Yeah
20:57Oliver
21:15Cut the chair
21:27Cheese and have toasted
21:28By the way
21:28Oh
21:29I saw you as I was leaving the locker
21:31Did you find him?
21:33Yeah
21:33Orange?
21:34How is he?
21:35Well he's safe
21:37At least
21:37But I think the rest is going to take time
21:39Oh
21:39Yeah
21:41He's lucky to have a friend like you
21:43I don't know about that
21:44Well he's just about having a mistake in the book today
21:47But
21:47Well
21:48I think we might have turned the corner
21:49So what next?
21:52He don't like the look of what's coming down the line
21:54I can't say I blame him
21:55But
21:55Well I'm going to look into some
21:57Care homes
21:57Try and find him the best one I can
21:59And what is wrong with the home that he is in right now?
22:05Greater love has no one than this
22:07To lay down one's life for one's friends
22:11It's obvious that you care very much about him
22:16And it strikes me that
22:18Nigel is already exactly where he should be
22:21Can't get your drink from there
22:22Can't get your drink from there
22:25Yeah
22:25Tear my service
22:26Tear my service
22:27Tear my service
22:28Anywhere
22:58Sonia, it's me, Phil.
23:20Listen, I don't even know what time it is where you are.
23:24Jess.
23:25Listen, I've had this idea and I need you to tell me whether it's a stupid idea or not.
23:39All right.
23:39Hi there.
23:40All right.
23:43It's a hammer cheese.
23:45Oh, simple functions.
23:48Yeah.
23:49I've, uh...
23:51I've been thinking, you know, uh...
23:57about how we could make this work.
24:00Please, Phil, enough talking.
24:03Listen.
24:03If I don't say this now, then I'll never say it, all right?
24:08So just, just, just hear me out.
24:11I don't know how much time you've got left, you know.
24:14None of us know that, do we?
24:16But what time you have got, you know, don't have to, don't have to be like you said, you
24:20know, people looking after you that, that don't know you.
24:23Stay here and I'll look after you.
24:30Are you offering to be my carer?
24:33Yeah.
24:35Yeah, I suppose I am.
24:40What?
24:40I don't know.
24:43I'm, um, surprised.
24:47And I'm, I'm touched.
24:51But I can't let you do that, even if it were possible.
24:54Well, it is possible.
24:55I just spoke with Sonia.
24:55She said as long as we get some support in, we, we could do it.
24:58I don't want you to do that.
25:01Yeah, because you don't want to be a burden.
25:02And I, I understand that.
25:05But you ain't a burden, all right?
25:07You know.
25:07We've, we've talked before, haven't we, about, you know, how, what led me to the Arches that
25:19night and, well, you know, I've always, I've always had a purpose in life.
25:25Whether it was sticking a finger up to my old man or making money, looking after my mum,
25:30looking after family, I've, I've always had a purpose.
25:32But I ain't got them things anymore.
25:34I have.
25:36I have got you.
25:37Now here, you'll, you'll be safe.
25:41You'll, you'll be looked after and maybe, you'll be treated with dignity.
25:46I promise you.
25:51You have no idea how bad it could get.
25:55Well, whatever comes, you know, we'll, we'll prepare for it.
25:59We'll deal with it together.
26:00And, you know, on the plus side, you get to eat a few more cheese and ham toasties.
26:07Look, this, this ain't about me saving you.
26:14This is about saving both of us.
26:17And you, you commit to staying here.
26:20I will commit to looking after you.
26:23Till the end.
26:25Till the end.
26:34Till the end.
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