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00:01:50In this town of make-believe, the truth behind the scenes is also filled with drama.
00:02:02This is a realistic documentary of how one young actor struggles with life.
00:02:08The glamorous town itself doesn't breed this strange new type of actor.
00:02:13He is probably the product of a tense world in an age of power.
00:02:19Against this Hollywood backdrop of fantasy, yesterday's teenager, now growing up,
00:02:25faces tomorrow, still searching for kicks, but deeply searching for meanings.
00:02:35At the hangout for coffee sessions, their world revolves around the stage.
00:02:40And with people whose work is pretending, realism is confusing.
00:02:44It is easy for the very young to become frustrated.
00:02:49Our story deals with the motivation of a young star obsessed with death.
00:02:54Perhaps it is God's way.
00:02:56But herein, real actors and actresses in this lost and lonely world give an honest portrayal,
00:03:02not on the great sound stages, but on actual location,
00:03:06telling a sympathetic story of a sensitive youth.
00:03:10He will be known as John Dennis.
00:03:13I've known Johnny since he first hit pictures.
00:03:15We were... friends.
00:03:18But I never really understood him.
00:03:20Nobody can understand him.
00:03:23What about Tanya, his dramatic coach?
00:03:31I've told you before, Doctor, Johnny has every reason to be happy.
00:03:36He's bound to be a star with his first picture.
00:03:39He has money.
00:03:41Could be a fine artist, too.
00:03:44The latest thing he did was a portrait of himself.
00:03:47Half alive and half dead.
00:03:50Why, Doctor?
00:03:52Now, why does he bring death into his paintings?
00:03:55I just don't understand him anymore.
00:03:58Tanya, there is nothing I can do.
00:04:02I can't possibly help this boy unless you bring him to me.
00:04:07I know.
00:04:09I'll try again.
00:04:11I'll try again.
00:04:13I'll try again.
00:04:39Hey, Johnny Big Shot, what are you trying to make the headlines?
00:04:42Take the lead, hard man. I'll teach you how to drive.
00:05:06You picked a great spot.
00:05:08Hey, buddy, would you mind...
00:05:10Out of the way!
00:05:40Out of the way!
00:06:10Out of the way!
00:06:40Out of the way!
00:07:10Out of the way!
00:07:33Too bad all that energy being wasted.
00:07:36Forget it, wise guy.
00:07:38I don't know, honey. I got too good a memory.
00:07:41Come on, pig, let's sit down.
00:08:01So he asked me what kind of parts can I do.
00:08:03So I asked him what kind of parts does he have.
00:08:06So he ends up by telling me I got to make up my mind.
00:08:09What's there to make up? All I want to do is act.
00:08:12I'm not particular, you know what I mean?
00:08:14A day here, a day there, and I can pay the rent.
00:08:16Hi, Pinky.
00:08:18So who needs swimming pools, huh?
00:08:20If I want to swim, I'll go to Santa Monica.
00:08:22One of these days, the worm is going to turn.
00:08:24And when it does, that strip casting director is going to be on the other side of the fence.
00:08:28You know what I mean?
00:08:30Walt, do you ever feel you might be using the wrong approach?
00:08:33Who's going to learn you don't get parts by breaking down the door?
00:08:36If I had your figure, doll, somebody would open the doors for me.
00:08:39Hey, look at her, pig.
00:08:41If you were stacked like that, you could walk in anywhere.
00:08:44You ever run out of dialogue?
00:08:47Not when I'm talking to a dish like you.
00:08:49Hey, I'll buy you a cup of coffee.
00:08:50With what?
00:08:51I got four bits.
00:09:00Ooh, money.
00:09:02Yeah, well, I didn't notice your T-bird parked out back.
00:09:05I walked to my hell.
00:09:10I've heard.
00:09:12So how's ballet's gift to the motion pictures, huh?
00:09:15Cut it out, Walt.
00:09:16Goddess.
00:09:17You know something?
00:09:18Someday somebody's going to slap you right in that pretty nose of yours and make a mess of it.
00:09:23So I'll do monster pictures.
00:09:24There's more money in it, you know what I mean?
00:09:27Hey.
00:09:29Why don't you come up from behind some of that paint, huh?
00:09:32You know, some things are cheap in this town.
00:09:35Especially phonies.
00:09:37Who's a phony?
00:09:39Listen, doll, one of these days I'm going to be big.
00:09:41Big.
00:09:43So you better be nice to me because somebody's going to have to take care of you in your old age.
00:09:47Excuse me, buddy.
00:09:48The smog's getting worse.
00:09:52Have a nice trip.
00:09:53Mind if I sit down?
00:09:54I'm kinky.
00:09:55Not at all.
00:09:56I'm Darlene.
00:09:57This is Buddy.
00:09:58How do you do?
00:09:59Sit down, Buddy.
00:10:00The breeze isn't as strong over here.
00:10:03Still too close.
00:10:04You kids talk.
00:10:05I left my new records over on the counter.
00:10:08Hiya, doll.
00:10:09I hear you just got in from New York.
00:10:11You, uh, got a name?
00:10:12My name is Darlene.
00:10:14Welcome to the morgue.
00:10:15I'm Walt.
00:10:16The more you see of him, honey, the less you'll want to see.
00:10:23When are we going to get that coffee you so rashly ordered?
00:10:26Big twinkle toes, will you?
00:10:27Cut it out, Walt.
00:10:28Are you an actor?
00:10:29Oh, that was the wrong question, honey.
00:10:32Well, is he?
00:10:33You want me to quote something?
00:10:35Excuse me, pig.
00:10:36There's a lovely creature of the opposite gender in need of my help.
00:10:46Resign yourself, honey.
00:10:47It's practically painless.
00:10:49Never fear.
00:10:50Daddy's here.
00:10:51How long you been in town?
00:10:52Since the beginning of the week.
00:10:54I took a room on Hayworth.
00:10:56Nothing much.
00:10:57Just to get by for the first month.
00:10:59I plan to be working right away.
00:11:03I'll make it.
00:11:04Everybody says I will.
00:11:06I did a lot of good TV parts back east.
00:11:09Our town is crawling with entertainers that came out from back east.
00:11:12But I can act.
00:11:14I understand out here everybody just walks to their parts.
00:11:17Nobody has any fire.
00:11:19Maybe we all better go to New York and get a little of this fire.
00:11:23You know, TV pays the rent.
00:11:25I figure that would be a good way to get into pictures.
00:11:28I got news for you, honey.
00:11:30Don't count on anything.
00:11:31Nobody watches TV out here.
00:11:33They spend their days at the beach and their nights in the bars.
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00:14:20Nobody's very encouraging around here.
00:14:22We like being miserable.
00:14:24Excuse me, I have a dance lesson.
00:14:26Hey, you still taking ballet?
00:14:28Ever since I was 10.
00:14:29When are you going to learn the steps?
00:14:31You're a very funny man, Walt.
00:14:34Here, Pinky.
00:14:35Watch my records, will you?
00:14:39Why don't you lay off him, Walt?
00:14:41Oh, he's a very nice boy.
00:14:43Remind me to ignore him.
00:14:44If you ask me, he seems a little odd.
00:14:47Back in New York, I never knew any dancers.
00:14:49Just actors.
00:14:50We kind of stay together.
00:14:52Well, out here we mingle.
00:14:54It makes for better maladjustment.
00:14:56Whoops.
00:15:05Have you seen Johnny?
00:15:06He hasn't been around all day.
00:15:07Isn't he out of town?
00:15:08No.
00:15:10He's back.
00:15:14I've often wondered why she and Johnny
00:15:16should be such good friends.
00:15:18He can certainly do better than that.
00:15:20Well, he's playing it cool.
00:15:21The oddball bit.
00:15:22Makes people talk, you know what I mean?
00:15:24I don't go for that.
00:15:25He's not the type.
00:15:26He hates publicity.
00:15:28Who are we talking about?
00:15:30A guy named Johnny Dennis.
00:15:31Just got his big break.
00:15:33A leading role in a picture
00:15:34after doing bits for years.
00:15:36Oh, really?
00:15:38And who is she?
00:15:39His dramatic coach.
00:15:40Her name is Tanya.
00:15:41She tucks him in at night.
00:16:00What's the matter?
00:16:01Your boy wonder ignoring you?
00:16:02Huh?
00:16:03I don't think that's any of your business, Walt.
00:16:06Maybe not.
00:16:07But, uh...
00:16:08Johnny's a funny guy.
00:16:09He doesn't keep friends very long.
00:16:11No.
00:16:12I've known Johnny three years.
00:16:15Three years.
00:16:16Well, I guess your term's just about up, then.
00:16:19I gotta give you credit, though.
00:16:20Three years is a long time.
00:16:24Now that Johnny's made the grade...
00:16:26What are you driving at, Walt?
00:16:30We were just talking about Johnny.
00:16:31Mm-mm.
00:16:32You were talking about Johnny.
00:16:34Hey, uh...
00:16:38Did he really stand you up again?
00:16:39Huh?
00:16:40You fascinate me sometimes, Walt.
00:16:42Right now, you're talking like the reporter
00:16:44of one of those cheap magazines.
00:16:46I could fill several issues, you know what I mean?
00:16:48I'm sure you could.
00:16:54However, put that little evil mind of yours at ease.
00:16:58Johnny and I are not...
00:17:00How would you put it?
00:17:01That way, about each other?
00:17:04I'm just a teacher.
00:17:05Yeah.
00:17:08You're one of the prettiest I've seen.
00:17:11Well, thank you.
00:17:13Coming from you, it's completely out of character,
00:17:15so I'll take it as a compliment.
00:17:18Nevertheless, I'm still a teacher.
00:17:20I thought all teachers were old maids
00:17:23and wore their hair piled up on top of their heads, huh?
00:17:26You've been reading comic books, Walt.
00:17:28My father was a teacher at the age of 23
00:17:31in one of the most important schools in Europe.
00:17:36My only interest in Johnny is his career.
00:17:40Is it?
00:17:42Yes.
00:17:43Disappointed?
00:17:45Doesn't bother me in the least.
00:17:48Well, I suppose Johnny won't be taking any of your classes now.
00:17:52That's up to Johnny, of course.
00:17:55But a good actor never stops studying.
00:17:59Well, I suppose I'll be going now.
00:18:01Goodbye.
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00:18:19Maybe you could use another guy, huh?
00:18:22For what?
00:18:24To, uh, teach.
00:18:27I'm always open to suggestion.
00:18:29Do you know someone with talent?
00:18:31Yeah.
00:18:32Who?
00:18:34Me.
00:18:36You?
00:18:38Fortunately, Walt, I'm in a position to choose my students.
00:18:43What's the matter? Ain't I good enough for you?
00:18:45I'm as good an actor as Johnny Dennis.
00:18:50All right.
00:18:53So he got his break.
00:18:55Well, if I'd have gotten that break instead of him, I'd be driving the fancy sports car right now.
00:18:58And he'd be sitting around here like the rest of his bum in coffee.
00:19:01Walt, I am not in the sports car business.
00:19:04Okay.
00:19:05I don't need you.
00:19:06I don't need anybody.
00:19:08I'll make the grade, and I'll make it without one of Tonya's diplomas.
00:19:10Walt.
00:19:12You need something I couldn't possibly give you.
00:19:15Talent.
00:19:42I...
00:19:45You didn't call me.
00:19:47No, I didn't call you.
00:19:49I was hoping you'd want to talk to me.
00:19:52Why?
00:19:55Johnny, since when have you and I needed a reason to be together?
00:20:00I worry when I don't hear from you.
00:20:02Don't.
00:20:04I could have left you.
00:20:08Johnny, I...
00:20:09I don't understand you, Johnny.
00:20:12Who does?
00:20:14Two coffees.
00:20:15Black.
00:20:18If you're interested, I've been in the library.
00:20:21For two days?
00:20:23I got lost.
00:20:24It's a big place.
00:20:27It's a good place to be lost.
00:20:29Not for long.
00:20:31Well, then why did you go there?
00:20:33I had to look up something.
00:20:36Is that all you did?
00:20:37Yeah.
00:20:54Don't you want to know what I read?
00:20:56If you want to tell me, you tell me.
00:21:03I read a book.
00:21:04I couldn't take it out.
00:21:06I didn't have a library card,
00:21:07so I just stayed and read right there.
00:21:11It was all about the human mind.
00:21:15The book called it
00:21:17A Dark Continent of Motive and Desire.
00:21:23It was about guys like me.
00:21:28Did you ever know that
00:21:29some people go around wishing they were dead?
00:21:31Some of them love to attend funerals.
00:21:35And some of them just think about it.
00:21:39Did you find out why they do such things?
00:21:42I'm not sure.
00:21:45Sick of living, I guess.
00:21:47Johnny, you are not sick of living.
00:21:50No.
00:21:51Well, then why do you read such a book?
00:21:53Because it was in the library.
00:21:57Johnny.
00:21:59Johnny.
00:22:01What's wrong? Are you mad at me?
00:22:02Oh, no, no.
00:22:03Can I get you something?
00:22:04A sandwich?
00:22:06Hi, Johnny.
00:22:07What do you know?
00:22:08I'll see you around.
00:22:11Bye.
00:22:13How come you're sitting back here all alone, huh?
00:22:15We were alone and we'd hoped to keep it that way.
00:22:18Everybody else is up in front.
00:22:19I noticed. That's why we're back here.
00:22:23Well, it's not much of a star's dressing room, is it?
00:22:26How would you know?
00:22:28Temporarily, I'll overlook that crack.
00:22:30What do you mind? Tanya and I are talking.
00:22:33Something private?
00:22:34Kind of an interview in the star's dressing room?
00:22:38What's bothering you, Walt?
00:22:40Nothing. Nothing's bothering me.
00:22:42Just that you've kind of been ignoring your gang lately, huh?
00:22:45I've been busy at the studio. Does that bother you?
00:22:48Oh, not particularly.
00:22:50Because I plan on being there very soon myself, you know what I mean?
00:22:53But when I get there, I won't go around snubbing my friends.
00:22:55Nobody's snubbing you, Walt.
00:22:56No?
00:22:58You know, somehow I get the feeling that you've got a chip on your shoulder.
00:23:02Yeah?
00:23:04Well, if you have, forget it. I don't get mad very easily.
00:23:06Well, is this part of the new Johnny?
00:23:08Better beat it, Walt.
00:23:10Please, Johnny, ignore him.
00:23:11That's right.
00:23:13You're a big star now. You can't be bothered, huh?
00:23:17You just take the madam's advice.
00:23:19See, you're not.
00:23:21Come on, let's leave.
00:23:26Walt's at it again.
00:23:28Do they do this often?
00:23:34Look out!
00:23:50Oh, Johnny, Johnny, come on. Let's go to my apartment.
00:23:53Huh? Let's leave.
00:24:20Ah.
00:24:50Come on.
00:25:21Go lie down, darling.
00:25:23I'll get some ice for your head.
00:25:25Suit yourself.
00:25:51I'm sorry, Walt. It's so crude.
00:25:57He's terribly jealous of you, you know.
00:25:59Here, put this on your head.
00:26:08You shouldn't have hit him, really.
00:26:11No, I shouldn't have hit him.
00:26:13I remember he asked for it.
00:26:16Well, he's mean. That's all. He's mean and frustrated.
00:26:20Isn't?
00:26:21Isn't what?
00:26:22Frustrated.
00:26:24Vanya, for Pete's sake, you want me to get over this headache, go away and leave me alone.
00:26:29Oh, if a bad temper is a requisite, you're bound to be a star.
00:26:39Sometimes I think a good spanking would be the best thing for you.
00:26:42Really getting into a fight.
00:26:45I should lock you up in my closet.
00:26:47Take the key with me, then I know where you were.
00:26:51Are you listening to me?
00:26:54Now, what if you were making a movie right now?
00:26:57What kind of a performance do you think you'd give in this condition?
00:27:00You want to know something? I don't really care.
00:27:07Right now you look like a female dragon.
00:27:10Matter of fact, you sound like one, too.
00:27:21You're much prettier as a woman.
00:27:27How did your mother ever put up with you?
00:27:30She didn't.
00:27:32Oh.
00:27:33What's the matter?
00:27:34I don't know. Pings out through my whole arm.
00:27:37Well, you probably have some bad bruises. Let me see.
00:27:40Sit down.
00:27:51You can't expect to fight without getting bagged up a little.
00:27:53Oh, quiet.
00:27:55Now, you tell me if anything hurts.
00:27:57Don't.
00:27:59I'm sorry.
00:28:00But it serves you right.
00:28:02A star can't afford to be hurt, you know.
00:28:04That sounds like Walt.
00:28:06Walt is jealous of you. Can you understand that?
00:28:09Jealous.
00:28:15So, I make a picture. What's that got to do with anything?
00:28:17I feel more alone now than I ever have in my life.
00:28:24Johnny, I don't understand you.
00:28:26What's with you?
00:28:27Every time we start talking, you say,
00:28:28I don't understand you, Johnny.
00:28:30What's there to understand? Am I so complicated?
00:28:34Well, you're different.
00:28:36From what?
00:28:38From the Johnny I thought I knew.
00:28:40I'm sorry.
00:28:42I'm sorry.
00:28:43Please sit down.
00:28:45Tomorrow night is your premiere.
00:28:47I know.
00:28:48Aren't you thrilled?
00:28:50I'm not going.
00:28:51What?
00:28:52I said I'm not going.
00:28:53Why do I have to repeat everything?
00:28:55Well, they expect you there.
00:28:57I suppose so.
00:28:58Well, then you've got to go.
00:29:00Why do I have to go?
00:29:01Who says so?
00:29:03What's so special about a premiere?
00:29:05Everybody stares at you.
00:29:07I'm sorry.
00:29:09I'm sorry.
00:29:11I'm sorry.
00:29:12Everybody stares at you.
00:29:14They yell a lot.
00:29:15That's about all.
00:29:16What's so special about a premiere?
00:29:18Johnny, this is your first picture.
00:29:20Everyone says you're good in it.
00:29:29So I'm good.
00:29:31It will make you a star.
00:29:34Oh, you know how lucky you are.
00:29:37What's luck got to do with it?
00:29:39Listen, I ride in this town for almost three years.
00:29:41And now I make a picture.
00:29:42That's luck?
00:29:44I'm not any better now than I was then.
00:29:46Listen, what's so special about me now?
00:29:48Can you tell me?
00:29:50Well?
00:29:52There's nothing special about you, Johnny.
00:29:54You're just a very ordinary guy.
00:29:57Or would you rather I tell you the things you want to hear?
00:29:59Shut up, you hear? Shut up!
00:30:03Maybe I'm going on a trip.
00:30:05Location?
00:30:06No, not on location.
00:30:08I wasn't talking about making another movie.
00:30:11I don't understand anything.
00:30:14Johnny.
00:30:15People don't live forever.
00:30:16I might be dead tomorrow.
00:30:18Why do you read things that depress you?
00:30:21Some people live to be 100.
00:30:22I don't want to live to be 100, understand?
00:30:24Johnny, this is not up to you to decide.
00:30:27Don't worry.
00:30:30I gotta go.
00:30:32Johnny!
00:30:34Forget about the book.
00:30:35You've got everything to live for.
00:30:37It's easy enough for you to say.
00:30:38Did you ever try it?
00:30:39Don't forget that you nearly starved to death for five years.
00:30:44Thanks for the cobalt towel.
00:30:46I guess I should use more of them.
00:30:49Bye, baby.
00:31:09Bye, baby.
00:31:40Hi, Clint.
00:31:45I'll see you later, Helen.
00:31:47Say hello to Dad.
00:31:48Okay.
00:31:49Bye.
00:31:50Bye.
00:31:54Remember me?
00:31:56Wait, please wait.
00:31:59It's noisy, isn't it?
00:32:01A little.
00:32:03I want to talk to you just for a minute.
00:32:05Please.
00:32:07All right.
00:32:09Would you step into my office?
00:32:19It's kind of there.
00:32:20My furniture hasn't arrived yet.
00:32:23A lot of fuss for nothing.
00:32:25Oh, I don't know.
00:32:26It's kind of exciting to the right people.
00:32:28Maybe we're not the right people.
00:32:31You look like you're hiding from someone.
00:32:33Who's hiding?
00:32:34I'm watching the premiere.
00:32:36You like movies?
00:32:37I could take him, believe me.
00:32:39This one has a new actor.
00:32:41Yeah, I know.
00:32:43They say he's tremendous.
00:32:45What's his name?
00:32:47Johnny Dennis.
00:32:48What?
00:32:49Johnny Dennis.
00:32:50No, that's not it.
00:32:51It's Jerry or Ronnie or something like that.
00:32:55Take my word for it.
00:32:56It's Johnny Dennis.
00:32:57Okay, okay.
00:32:59I read a lot about him in the magazines.
00:33:01They say he's kind of strange.
00:33:03Who says?
00:33:04The magazines.
00:33:05It seems he's not very cooperative.
00:33:07Of course, he's probably entirely different than they say.
00:33:09Maybe not.
00:33:11You can't tell until you really know someone.
00:33:13Don't I know you?
00:33:15I'm sure I've seen your face before.
00:33:18I wanted to apologize for yesterday.
00:33:20I didn't mean to scare you.
00:33:22Honest.
00:33:23Well, you did.
00:33:24I was furious.
00:33:25You almost ran over me.
00:33:27But later on, I forgave you.
00:33:29You looked so serious with that book in the library.
00:33:31I just couldn't be angry.
00:33:33I guess I am.
00:33:35I act kind of odd sometimes.
00:33:37You're not a criminal, are you?
00:33:39No, but I'll give it my consideration.
00:33:43I've seen your picture before.
00:33:44I know I have.
00:33:46Turn your face a little bit.
00:33:51You're him.
00:33:52Who?
00:33:53Him, him.
00:33:55Johnny Dennis.
00:33:57That picture.
00:34:00Don't tell me you're not, because I'm never wrong.
00:34:02Okay, you're never wrong.
00:34:05That's your first picture.
00:34:07And you didn't go.
00:34:09You got scared.
00:34:10What?
00:34:11I got scared.
00:34:12Do you mind?
00:34:18Don't laugh.
00:34:19I'm sorry.
00:34:20It's just so funny.
00:34:21All those people over there waiting to see you,
00:34:24and you're not even going to be there.
00:34:27I just don't like crowds.
00:34:30You're a movie star.
00:34:32I only made one picture.
00:34:36I better go.
00:34:37Wait, don't you want my autograph?
00:34:39What for?
00:34:40Well, someday I might be famous.
00:34:42Okay, never mind.
00:34:44Why do you have to go in such a hurry?
00:34:46Why?
00:34:47I go every Thursday night.
00:34:48What for?
00:34:49A swim.
00:34:50I like to swim.
00:34:51Do you mind?
00:34:52Well, don't be hard to get along with now.
00:34:54I'm not going to bite you.
00:34:55I'm not the one who's afraid.
00:34:57Yeah, that's right.
00:34:59Is everybody in movies as crazy as you are?
00:35:02I don't know.
00:35:03I haven't been in movies long enough to find out.
00:35:06My car's right over there.
00:35:07Do you mind if I drop you off?
00:35:08It's only a few blocks.
00:35:10No charge.
00:35:11Delivery guaranteed.
00:35:13Why don't you go over to the premiere where you belong?
00:35:16It's more fun over here.
00:35:17Come on, I'll have you there in one minute flat.
00:35:19You probably don't even know where it is.
00:35:24Well, all right.
00:35:25Let's go.
00:35:26As well.
00:35:30You know, I really shouldn't be doing this.
00:35:32Why not?
00:35:33Daddy wouldn't like it.
00:35:35You're not afraid.
00:35:36Remember?
00:35:38You're impossible.
00:35:40Well, it's the secret of my split personality.
00:35:43I'd hate to meet the other guy.
00:35:45Oh, he's very well adjusted.
00:35:47Let's go.
00:36:06It doesn't scare me when it's standing still.
00:36:09Will I be safe?
00:36:10As safe as you'd be in your own bedroom.
00:36:13It sure is pretty.
00:36:15It's paid for.
00:36:27The Y is back there.
00:36:29I can't hear you.
00:36:31I can't hear you either.
00:36:33Can't hear you.
00:36:40Let me out!
00:36:51Where are we going?
00:36:54Still can't hear you.
00:37:03Where are you taking me?
00:37:08Can't hear a thing you say.
00:37:32I can't hear you.
00:37:48If I had a rock, I'd use it right now.
00:37:51You should have seen your face when...
00:37:53Hey, where are you going?
00:37:54Looking for a rock.
00:37:57Well, see if you can find a soft one.
00:37:59I'd like to bash your head in.
00:38:00You tricked me!
00:38:01I'm sorry, there was no left-hand turn.
00:38:04You were supposed to take me to the Y.
00:38:05Is this the Y?
00:38:07Here, give me that.
00:38:09Right now, you look like a tiger ready for the kill.
00:38:12There's nothing funny about being kidnapped.
00:38:15I figured you could use the fresh air.
00:38:17I had a date at the Y to go swimming.
00:38:19You want to go swimming? We'll go swimming.
00:38:21My date was with my girlfriend.
00:38:24I'm sorry, it was just one of those things that jerks like me are always pulling.
00:38:28You know, I like this bus driver I read about the other day.
00:38:31He had the same bus route for 20 years.
00:38:34Then one day he got to the end of the line and just kept on going.
00:38:37Didn't you ever want to do that?
00:38:39What, drive a bus?
00:38:41No, keep on going.
00:38:53You're just about the weirdest character I've ever met.
00:38:59Now what are you doing?
00:39:01I'm looking for my swimming trunks.
00:39:03Don't bother.
00:39:05Here, hold these.
00:39:14I found them. Let's go.
00:39:16Hey, where's your bathing suit?
00:39:18I have it on.
00:39:20Please, won't you take me back?
00:39:23That's silly. What do you want to go to the Y for?
00:39:25We've got the whole lake to ourselves.
00:39:26Does your keeper know you're out?
00:39:28No, he climbed over the wall. Come on.
00:39:41I'll be in the men's dressing room.
00:39:52The only thing I can figure out is you want to go to the Y.
00:39:54The only thing I can figure out is you must be a mental case.
00:39:58Thanks.
00:40:00I'm not trying to be nice.
00:40:03I am.
00:40:08Hey, you started doing dress yet?
00:40:10No.
00:40:12Well?
00:40:15Okay.
00:40:16Okay.
00:40:23You're a nice kid. Do you have a job?
00:40:27I work at the drug store.
00:40:29Across the street from the theater.
00:40:33I don't even know your name.
00:40:35I know yours.
00:40:37You're Johnny Dennis, the famous movie star.
00:40:42What are you trying to do?
00:40:44Spoil my whole evening?
00:40:46Well, are you going to tell me your name or do I have to make one up?
00:40:52Hey!
00:40:57Are you going to talk to yourself or go swimming?
00:41:00You want to play, huh?
00:41:01Huh?
00:41:15Come on, slowpoke.
00:41:32Oh, wasn't that better than the Y?
00:41:34It sure was.
00:41:37You mean you don't have a swimming pool in front of your house?
00:41:40No, that's for poor people. I live alone.
00:41:43Somebody better have a talk with you.
00:41:45They have. I don't listen.
00:41:48I'm sorry.
00:41:50I'm sorry.
00:41:52I'm sorry.
00:41:54I'm sorry.
00:41:56I'm sorry.
00:41:58I'm sorry.
00:41:59I don't listen.
00:42:01You live alone?
00:42:03No, with my dad.
00:42:05He hasn't been too well.
00:42:07What kind of work does he do?
00:42:09Aircraft. He's a welder.
00:42:11Nice job.
00:42:13Not when you have to work all night.
00:42:15Yeah, it must get lonely for you.
00:42:17I have my job at the drug store and my friends.
00:42:21You're lucky.
00:42:23He likes them.
00:42:25A kind of screwball.
00:42:27Meaning I'm a screwball?
00:42:29Let's swim.
00:43:00It's cold.
00:43:08I still don't know your name.
00:43:10Well, my last name is Preacher and my first name is Helen.
00:43:16Hiya, Preacher.
00:43:19The name is Preacher.
00:43:21What's wrong with calling me Helen?
00:43:23Well, everybody calls you that.
00:43:25So?
00:43:27So, I'll call you Preacher.
00:43:29Being an individualist, huh?
00:43:31Why not?
00:43:36See you, pretty.
00:43:41Johnny, I think we'd better go home.
00:43:48Okay.
00:43:52Hey, pig, dig this.
00:43:55Although it is his first picture,
00:43:56the general opinion in theatrical circles is that
00:44:00his performance will warn an Academy Award nomination come spring.
00:44:05Academy Award.
00:44:07What?
00:44:11Hey, pig, you want to go for a ride?
00:44:14Huh?
00:44:19Give me some money, huh?
00:44:21Give me some money, huh?
00:44:25Two beers, huh?
00:44:39Last stop, end of the line.
00:44:41What conductor? I have a transfer.
00:44:43I'm sorry, sir. All transfers have been canceled for the night.
00:44:46Then I'll just have to use my railroad pass.
00:44:47I'm sorry, but passes are no good west of La Brea.
00:44:50You mean I'm stranded?
00:44:52Until the next bus comes along.
00:44:54I don't mind missing one bus.
00:44:56Okay. You can come in for a little while.
00:45:18What do you do when you're not in the movies?
00:45:21Look.
00:45:23Must be nice.
00:45:25Not when you're bored.
00:45:27Why should a young guy like you be bored?
00:45:30Why shouldn't I be?
00:45:32It's like being suspended in space.
00:45:34You get tired of it.
00:45:37Cut yourself down and fly away.
00:45:41I've thought of that.
00:45:42Where was your home, Johnny?
00:45:44Pennsylvania.
00:45:46A little town. You never heard of it.
00:45:48I'd like to live in a small town.
00:45:50I was born in New Orleans.
00:45:52Dad brought me here after Mother died.
00:45:55Big towns can be lonely.
00:45:57Little towns can be lonely, too.
00:46:00I guess it depends on the people.
00:46:02I guess.
00:46:07No, no, no, no.
00:46:09No, no, no, no.
00:46:11No, I knew a professor back home.
00:46:14Funny old fellow.
00:46:16He built himself a chicken house for a hobby.
00:46:18He was retired.
00:46:21Then he asked me to help him out in the evenings.
00:46:24It got kind of tough for him.
00:46:26So I used the money to buy a bicycle.
00:46:31I was about 12 years old then.
00:46:34Every night after we got through feeding the chickens,
00:46:36we used to sit around and talk.
00:46:37He talked about everything under the sun.
00:46:40It made me kind of happy just to listen to him.
00:46:49And one day his wife came around to our house.
00:46:52She told me she had some bad news for me.
00:46:55I told her I knew.
00:46:58He had died.
00:47:00I cried for an hour.
00:47:03I still miss him.
00:47:05I guess.
00:47:07I guess we all have somebody when we're young.
00:47:14I'd like to take you back to Pennsylvania with me, Paige.
00:47:17It's green.
00:47:19And it's got hills and woods and cricks
00:47:21that make a lot of noise.
00:47:24It's the same picture.
00:47:26No, it's not the same.
00:47:28Funny how you forget.
00:47:30Every so often I find myself walking along the street
00:47:32and I look up and I see a tree.
00:47:35You ever really look at a tree?
00:47:37You ever notice the leaves?
00:47:39They make a funny little laughing sound.
00:47:41Especially in the wind.
00:47:44You can almost feel it.
00:47:47It hurts.
00:47:49Yeah, you know.
00:47:51You know how it feels.
00:47:54Yes, I know how it feels to be lonely.
00:47:59Want a Coke?
00:48:01Yeah.
00:48:02Thanks.
00:48:18Hiya, Paige.
00:48:20Johnny?
00:48:22You don't know it, but you're just about as homesick
00:48:24as anybody I've ever met.
00:48:26Why don't you go back home?
00:48:28Forget all this movie stuff.
00:48:30I gotta stay here.
00:48:31And be miserable?
00:48:33Oh, after a few years, I'll get used to it.
00:48:35I'd never get used to it.
00:48:37Everybody's so busy going places.
00:48:39They're all gonna be movie stars.
00:48:41Everybody can't be a movie star.
00:48:43Even I know that.
00:48:45Oh, some of them give up and settle
00:48:47for being waitresses or bellhops.
00:48:49Why don't they go home?
00:48:51They can't.
00:48:53They only bought a one-way ticket.
00:48:55That doesn't make sense.
00:48:57Pride never does.
00:48:59But what have they got to be so proud of?
00:49:01Trying, I guess.
00:49:03Trying to be something big.
00:49:06Here.
00:49:08Thanks.
00:49:16Seems to me it'd be better to stay in a small town
00:49:18and raise chickens for a hobby.
00:49:20Do you think you'll ever do that?
00:49:22I don't think I can squeeze it in.
00:49:24I'd rather make another movie.
00:49:26You don't make sense either.
00:49:28You don't like Hollywood, yet you don't want to leave it.
00:49:29I'm kind of like Teddy here.
00:49:31His name is Toby.
00:49:33I've had him since I was a baby.
00:49:35Then he's as old as you are.
00:49:37So?
00:49:39So someday he's gonna get wounded
00:49:41and all his sawdust is gonna fall out.
00:49:43I won't let it happen.
00:49:45Oh, but it will.
00:49:47It happens to the best of teddy bears.
00:49:49When all the sawdust is gone,
00:49:51there'll be nothing left but a limp old rag.
00:49:53Really?
00:49:55Just a limp old rag.
00:49:57Nobody will remember you.
00:49:59Nobody but Preach.
00:50:01That's the way coke affects you.
00:50:03You remind me not to give you anymore.
00:50:05You can give it to Toby.
00:50:07He's gonna be a limp old rag.
00:50:09He won't need it.
00:50:11Will you, Toby?
00:50:13Toby says to shut up and drink your coke.
00:50:15Toby's a slob.
00:50:17Well, he can see through you and so can I.
00:50:20You're starting to feel sorry for yourself.
00:50:22That's your trouble.
00:50:24So I feel sorry for myself.
00:50:26We're not all great big martyrs
00:50:27who go around carrying the world on our shoulders.
00:50:29Who wants to?
00:50:31I'd rather be happy with someone I really liked.
00:50:34So would I.
00:50:36Well, then why don't you find someone then?
00:50:38Instead of going around with that
00:50:40pained expression on your face.
00:50:42What am I supposed to do?
00:50:44Run an ad in the newspaper?
00:50:46I suppose you expect to stumble over her
00:50:48or have her come up and ask for an autograph.
00:50:50I noticed you didn't.
00:50:52When I want it, I'll ask for it.
00:50:54How long is that gonna take?
00:50:55You'll be too busy feeling sorry for yourself
00:50:57to even notice.
00:51:07Daddy!
00:51:09Oh, hello, General.
00:51:11What are you doing home so early?
00:51:13I felt a little tired and sick.
00:51:15Let me take this.
00:51:17Foreman told me to take the rest of the night off.
00:51:19You better sit down.
00:51:23Who's your friend?
00:51:25This is Johnny.
00:51:27Johnny, this is my father.
00:51:29How do you do, Mr. Preach?
00:51:31Johnny?
00:51:33I don't know what came over me.
00:51:35Everything got dark and I couldn't see.
00:51:37I'll get your medicine.
00:51:39She's a sweet girl.
00:51:41I'm mighty proud of her.
00:51:43You know the right to be.
00:51:45When the mother dies, it isn't easy.
00:51:47The General kind of raised herself.
00:51:49She's done a good job, too, hasn't she?
00:51:51Preach is Thompson.
00:51:53Preach?
00:51:55It's cute.
00:51:57You work down at the drugstore, too?
00:51:59No, sir.
00:52:01Just friends?
00:52:03Just friends.
00:52:05Well, you look like a good boy.
00:52:07Nice, clean cut.
00:52:09I'm glad to know you.
00:52:11The General needs company.
00:52:14Here, let me help you, sir.
00:52:16Thank you, son.
00:52:19Why do you call her the General?
00:52:21That's a little joke between us.
00:52:23The fact is, she bosses me around.
00:52:25I don't look after her.
00:52:27She looks after me.
00:52:29Must be nice.
00:52:31Not many fathers have a daughter like mine.
00:52:33Well, what have you two been talking about?
00:52:35You, of course.
00:52:37I suppose I've got to take this.
00:52:39This is the most awful tasting stuff.
00:52:41Stop complaining and drink it.
00:52:43You didn't take it this afternoon, did you?
00:52:45You've got spies.
00:52:47She's got eyes in the back of her head.
00:52:49I surrender.
00:52:51I think he didn't want to get well.
00:52:53Why should he with a nurse like you?
00:52:55Well, sir, go to bed.
00:52:57Right now?
00:52:59Right now.
00:53:01I'd hate to be in your regiment.
00:53:03I'd be on KP all the time.
00:53:05Well, good night, son.
00:53:07It's nice to have met you.
00:53:09Good night, Mr. Pager.
00:53:12He tells me he calls you Preach.
00:53:14Go to bed.
00:53:16I'm going.
00:53:18I'll be in to check on you.
00:53:20I know you will, General.
00:53:23Daddy's playing hooky.
00:53:26He does it every so often.
00:53:28I think he likes you.
00:53:31Come here.
00:53:40What about you?
00:53:47I haven't made up my mind yet.
00:53:50Why don't you put up with me tonight?
00:53:52I don't know, John.
00:53:54You could have told me to mind my own business.
00:53:58You know that.
00:54:01Well, say something.
00:54:22I've decided to take the job as a carhop.
00:54:25Just temporarily, of course.
00:54:27A carhop?
00:54:29Well, what's wrong with that?
00:54:31Lots of stars got discovered in drive-ins.
00:54:33I didn't mean to get personal, honey, but I think...
00:54:35But nothing.
00:54:37I know what you're thinking, Pinky.
00:54:39But it's just until I get established
00:54:41and make the right decisions
00:54:43that I'll be able to take the job as a carhop.
00:54:45I don't know what you're thinking, Pinky.
00:54:47I don't know what you're thinking, Pinky.
00:54:49But it's just until I get established
00:54:51and make the right decisions
00:54:53that I'll be able to take the job as a carhop.
00:54:55You have my contacts.
00:54:57Have it your own way.
00:54:59Steady job will pay the premiums, Pinky.
00:55:01Premiums on what?
00:55:03Your work insurance.
00:55:05Feel, looks, I know an easier way.
00:55:07Why don't you find yourself...
00:55:09I'm not interested in getting married.
00:55:11I came out here for a career, and I'm going to have one.
00:55:13Nothing's going to stop me.
00:55:15Nothing?
00:55:17Okay, but there's no rule against having fun
00:55:19while you're waiting, is there?
00:55:21about this in the right way I get what I want out of this town and I don't have
00:55:25to settle for room and board where are you going out that while fixing his car
00:55:31don't tell me you were just friends that's the most satisfactory arrangement
00:55:37a girl can have lots of friends I thought you hated his insides he's a
00:55:42little mixed up boy if he talked to me the way he talks to you I'd slap his
00:55:47face I've done that no there's something about him he's a phony but he's a good
00:55:53looking phony you can't expect everything in a man
00:56:17what does the studio executive have to say this evening well I can't start my
00:56:25next picture until I find the right blonde she has to be so tall and have a
00:56:30good suntan I spend two hours in the Sun every day with nothing on but a
00:56:34sunlamp better than vitamins no I haven't found the right blonde what are
00:56:44you doing oh you wouldn't understand even if I drew you pictures why don't you
00:56:49get a car that works Cadillacs don't break down you can afford Cadillacs I
00:56:53know a lot of people who drive cabs yeah I'll bet your agent isn't one of them
00:56:57start a pig okay cut it you bleach your hair again I'm a natural blonde oh come
00:57:09on get off it everybody knows you're a natural brunette
00:57:13start the motor pig
00:57:18okay cut it
00:57:24get lost will you I'm busy busy hiding from Johnny Dennis I don't hide from
00:57:29nobody least of all Johnny Dennis and if he thinks he can slug me and get away
00:57:33with it he's off his lid because nobody pushes this little boy around see if
00:57:37there's any pushing to be done I'll do it so I noticed the other day what it's
00:57:43the truth isn't it you picked a fight and Johnny not just silly shut up why
00:57:48should I it's the truth okay stick around Johnny will be here pig and I are
00:57:53waiting for him you got yourself a ringside seat what makes you think you'll
00:57:57be here today he always meets Tonya here doesn't he Tonya's not here no look over
00:58:03there we'll see how good your ex is in the fresh air you're scared of them while
00:58:11you're just talking as usual stick around you heard him and I'll call the police
00:58:21side you want he's a nice guy that's all just a nice guy
00:58:25why'd they ever get mixed up with a bum like you that's right that's right sell
00:58:36tickets make a big production out of it
00:58:47well if he runs it'll be easier big brave movie star you know we might even get a
00:58:55newspaper plug out of it relax will you pig
00:59:04a pig lean under the dash and see if you can feel this wire where you.
00:59:06I Johnny I didn't figure you'd be talking to me now what's one sort of job
00:59:26between friends and that was a real cool switch you pull the other night not going
00:59:30your own premiere real cool but you got
00:59:34a press agent or something wall yeah yeah you're going to be
00:59:44a big man Johnny couple more oddball stunts like that put you right up on top of
00:59:50the heap you know what I mean I might not be around to see it I might not live that
00:59:55long you know one of these days somebody's going to stick a pen and you let all that
01:00:00hot air out. Stay out of this careful Johnny I told you to stay out of this I'll
01:00:07get back inside. I didn't mean to hurt your feelings for
01:00:14a minute there I forgot who you were tell me what you write home every week you get
01:00:19a list of the pictures you're in which one of you supposed to be doing now you got
01:00:24a house in the hills I suppose that piece of junk over there is really
01:00:28a continental and say how about your kid sister does she really sell pictures of you
01:00:33back home. We're going to bug me Johnny like I say Walt one of these days somebody's
01:00:41going to stick a pen in you and you're going to melt down to nothing but
01:00:43a stain a stain on the sidewalk don't put print some concrete for you Walt just
01:00:48a stain you know what I mean.
01:00:50To. Stop it you do.
01:01:50You.
01:02:20You.
01:02:34Johnny Johnny Johnny away leave me alone Johnny you. Look at me look at me Johnny
01:02:42you're hurt I'm hurt. Listen listen to me I'm listening Johnny you've got to do
01:02:49something for me. Take. Never mind you see the address.
01:03:00Can you please just deliver the letter yes where are you going. No Johnny you're
01:03:07hurt. Deliver the letter. Is it that important to see that
01:03:15Helen preacher gets nobody else understand. She's someone you know.
01:03:24From Pennsylvania. You know.
01:03:34Right. Johnny I'm afraid. For
01:03:41a second. You look like that horrible painting.
01:03:45You know.
01:04:45Thank you. Yes I'm Helen preacher.
01:04:55I am Tony up to no. Mutual friend asked me to deliver something to you from the
01:05:02drugstore. The drugstore where I work oh no no
01:05:09Johnny Dennis Oh you know Johnny won't you come in.
01:05:45You.
01:05:50But why should Johnny write me
01:05:52a letter. Perhaps he had something to say that well that he forgot to tell you the
01:05:58last time he saw you. I was only with him one. Didn't you know him in Pennsylvania.
01:06:05You know the farthest east I've been is Louisiana.
01:06:10Oh I see. I really should go I have
01:06:15an acting class this evening. Johnny was one of my favorite students you know you
01:06:20don't have to ask. Now that was something he was born with.
01:06:27I'm afraid. It was very little I was able to give John. What I
01:06:34get that he didn't need very much. Johnny was always
01:06:39a very self-sufficient person. I'm very glad to have met you in this picture you
01:06:45are very different from most of Johnny's friends thank you. You better read your
01:06:51letter and don't bother I let myself. Thank you. To buy
01:06:57me. Just call me time.
01:07:04To buy time.
01:07:05And.
01:07:24You're pretty. I was never much for letter writing but what I have to say I could
01:07:31never put into words. Maybe I can put some of it on paper.
01:07:38Last night when I came home I I couldn't sleep. I kept staring at the ceiling
01:07:44seeing your face. We spent only a short time together preach so I I can't
01:07:50understand why it should affect me so. But it does. With you
01:07:57I saw myself. You were
01:08:00a mirror that showed me what I am. Scared. If only we had met somewhere else
01:08:09say back in Pennsylvania we would have gone for walks in the woods in the fall
01:08:14you'd like that we wouldn't care what day or year it was but we know we belong.
01:08:22That's how it might have been.
01:08:26If. You ever know that some people go around
01:08:35wishing they were dead. They call it
01:08:38a death wish. People
01:08:52forever. Johnny not up to you to decide.
01:09:04I've never said this to anyone before but. I think I love. Nothing seems important
01:09:12without you. I want so much for you to like me. To remember me.
01:09:22I. Don't
01:09:31want to. Put you right up on top of the you know I mean I might not be around to
01:09:36see it I might not live that long.
01:09:37But.
01:09:50I mean.
01:10:08Johnny I'm afraid. For
01:10:15a second. You look like that horrible painting.
01:10:37You know.
01:11:08Until last night I never cared how much I hurt everyone who was.
01:11:17Self pity and selfishness have become such
01:11:21an intolerable way. I just couldn't find the strength to struggle free.
01:11:28But I know. I know I love.
01:11:34Done. I know.
01:11:50And so with an actor's dramatics John Dennis comes to
01:11:54a crossroads in life knowing that of man's inner conflicts the greatest struggle is
01:12:00with reality. Understanding this he can find himself and the beginning of life.