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Virgin Island - Season 1 Episode 2
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00:0012 virgins have traveled to a paradise island to take part in a unique experiment the word
00:14virgin people see it as a joke it's quite upsetting i'm 23 still a virgin i feel like
00:22there's something wrong with me in a world where sex is everywhere my god terrified
00:29absolutely terrified the truth is surprising there are more adult virgins than ever being a young
00:36adult in this day and age it's difficult social media dating apps influence tv shows porn porn porn
00:44porn is everywhere are you self-conscious about our genitals touching each other now yeah this
00:51radical retreat is offering a very hands-on solution oh yeah she's a miracle worker woohoo
00:59oh god yes overseen by a group of experts yeah like that i like that ready to do anything to help
01:07britain's virgins there's the clitters do you have any questions lose the one thing
01:16don't make you nervous they feel is holding them back i would love to have sex with you i do feel
01:21like there's a barrier between me and sex i want to lose my virginity it's now or never but when the
01:29moment arrives would you like to move to bed who will be ready i just don't want anyone to touch me to go
01:38in the first phase of the course the virgins tried to overcome the shame of sexual failure
01:56i didn't handle the rejection too well and started to express their sexual desires
02:02she pushed me down and i'd probably do something for her sex i don't know what i'm doing jason
02:07arrived on the island barely able to shake hands oh hello welcome thank you he panicked when things
02:14got touchy-feely feel too intimate a little overwhelming yeah yeah but zach leapt ahead i would like
02:24to go all the way i would love to have sex with you and there were early signs of attraction
02:29i uh i think you're really pretty thank you do you think ben likes me now things are set to escalate
02:37with the next phase of the course erotic touch nothing happens if you're not good at touching
02:46that's what creates all of the pleasure and sensation in our body and that's eventually what gets us to
02:51orgasm hello hello hello how's this from ben it's the morning of day three on virgin island
03:16have you guys read your letters no okay what is this and time for the group to discover what's in
03:24store for them over the next two days oh god the next phase of the course is all about touch
03:35great i mean i'm fine with like friendly touch but as soon as it becomes like an intimate touch i think
03:42it'll be more much more difficult for me i feel sick biggest fear of touch sexual and touching i've never
03:52done it like no that's not me god touch yeah that's really hard for me yeah nervous
04:04god knows what they have planned i have no idea probably just outright sex to start off with
04:16for this group the idea of intimate touch is terrifying oh here we go here we go but now
04:23it's time to face their fears hello welcome good morning oh my god what are we doing why is there a bed in
04:31this room i imagine all of them will be quite anxious but you can't learn how to give and receive
04:36pleasure by just talking about it you have to practice so this first exercise today is called
04:44touching for your own pleasure one of the problems is if you touch being worried about the other person
04:50and thinking oh are they okay am i doing it right then you get all performance anxiety in your head
04:56until you actually feel the sensation of touching for your own pleasure you can't get to that next
05:02level it's like the first step right who's ready to touch for your own pleasure
05:10in my childhood with my family we were never huggers i hated being hugged i just never liked it never
05:24have i'm not an intimate person at all in my adult life never kissed anyone but i'd like to be the
05:29opposite i'll pop on there okay the end goal is to actually try and lose my virginity and find a
05:37girlfriend be more intimate can i put it off can i do this see if you can take a deep breath down
05:43into your belly and connect your body with your hands think of your hands as like i'm gonna get
05:51pleasure out of her arms you know what i mean yeah for yourself i wank off your arm i'm sorry i
05:56wake up your arm sorry but tell me like i'm sorry i'm sorry see if you can breathe a little
06:03bit while you do it so that you actually feel the sensations
06:21for jason just a few seconds of touch is all he can handle
06:26but celeste isn't finished with him yet when i'm touching you i just want you to see like
06:32let yourself take it yeah just feel it
06:34that's good yeah good work
06:52good on you mate honestly yeah it's great one cloud nine okay who's next
06:58encouraged by jason's example the others get touchy too just explore the sensations in your hands
07:16see if you can take a deep breath down into your belly and connect your body with your hands
07:21do you feel the difference there yes that was amazing good work
07:32the session seems to be going well so celeste and danielle decide to turn up the heat
07:37something that helps touch get even better is sexual energy i want to invite ben and holly to
07:46demonstrate oh god 30 year old ben is the oldest in the group and has had more opportunities to get
07:53intimate than any of the others over the last 10 years i've been on dates of about 40 different
07:59women mostly when i've met on on just dating apps some it's just been one day uh and up to and
08:05including an ex-girlfriend of mine who was probably about you know 15 plus dates we did sort of try
08:10making out a couple of times but i wasn't comfortable doing stuff so it was we hit we hit a brick wall
08:15you know what i really needed someone to teach me this stuff i'm not very um not very good with the
08:20energy mumbo jumbo so you have to you have to guide me through i'll help you okay just remember a moment
08:26that you felt kind of excited about someone or excited about an experience yeah you holding a lot
08:33of tension in your mouth can you like open your mouth a little bit and then relax it yeah it's okay
08:42play with it you need to play with it it's okay let yourself feel it like oh here you go did you feel
08:48the squiver no okay i think it's just lack of experience and lack of success at reading sort of
08:57social signals you know there's probably occasions where i probably could have got physical or just
09:01kissed and they'd be they'd be absolutely fine in fact they may have even wanted it but i didn't
09:04because i can't read the signs i don't want a woman to think i'm a creep or that i'm handsy
09:09because that's just not me just let yourself enjoy holly
09:12fantastic you have very sexy energy right feels good okay you did it see if you want to work
09:30so tom taylor last up is taylor who after coming out as bisexual at university has always found the
09:39idea of intimacy with anyone agonizing anytime i've had something near in a sexual experience
09:45it's been so overwhelmingly negative that when it comes to it i freak out and i really don't want
09:50to do it and i get that feeling in the pit in my stomach that makes me stop that's why i'm here is
09:55to like trying to work out what it is that's holding me back and how to move forward with it
10:00because it would be really nice to just be able to have what everyone else has
10:06okay so i'm gonna invite you to feel into your desire tom
10:15this is really good keep it steady it's really good really good you keep it steady i'm gonna check
10:22what's with her okay if she can receive it great that's great let it let i touch your belly okay just
10:29to help you out sweetie okay good let it shake it's let it cry you're safe now okay you know you're safe
10:37but your body forgot okay yeah so i'm here despite danielle's reassurance the exercise still proves too much
10:47for taylor yes you're doing great taylor yeah let it cry that's enough i think that's funny can i hug you
10:57yes you did great i'm so proud of you sorry sorry it's not a you thing
11:04really proud of you okay thank you really proud of you good work we love you taylor i don't know what's
11:10wrong with me for the group the workshop has thrown up very mixed emotions
11:28ted why was the looking thing so hard for you i think as soon as it becomes a intimate sexual thing
11:35yeah it's shut down it sounds ridiculous because we're only looking at each other but
11:39that's something i clearly need to work on i usually run the opposite way if anyone looks at
11:43me like that but if you're not crying you're not doing it right louise did you catch his blanking comment
11:52i didn't do you know what i mean i didn't think okay i love that you haven't got a filter
11:58i feel absolutely fantastic i understand now where people like touch i'm not just saying that actually
12:04it generally does i can't really convey how good it feels now how did you find the whole thing as a
12:09whole um quite intense well i had i had lots of fun yeah when i was doing it i did feel like you'd feel
12:17the connection couldn't you really yeah yeah that's like new age mumbo jumbo it's a load of nonsense
12:23i'm quite a logical person and it's just a lot of some of that stuff it just doesn't doesn't connect to
12:27me all right do you want me to like try it and see if you can feel me yeah all right despite his
12:32skepticism there are some things ben is open to trying hi see you guys a little bit especially if
12:39it's with charlotte you open to receiving my energy yeah see you can feel it now what's it feel like to you
12:51the witching yeah many of the women here i find attractive i mean physically but there's something
13:01about charlotte i really like her and it's just i i like how we connect i mean i don't know if it's
13:06mutual or not but she's a very confident person and she's just got that thing about her i feel like
13:12i'm doing voyeurism just watching you enjoying that no i'm gonna walk away right sorry yeah
13:33they're jumping in all right you don't have much respect to have for you right now
13:38it's day one of the touch phase of the course and after an intense morning a chance for the group
13:50to unwind who's your celebrity crush i like quite a lot of like female celebrities i like charlie
13:56theron she's just stunning i like henry cavill but not as superman i like him as the witcher
14:02i really like henry cavill because he's really nerdy as well
14:08what do you think when you hear virgin because for me shame failure undesirable
14:17weird yeah it's definitely mostly negative connotations yeah
14:24a lot of people call me a virgin and it does feel like an insult i know it's not
14:27it's it's a matter of it's a matter of fact but it does feel like an insult when someone says it here
14:33it makes me feel weird i'm like a lot of people younger than me know more about sex than i do but
14:40um i'm hoping to change that
14:45jason's feelings about his lack of sexual experience haven't gone unnoticed by the experts
14:51anytime there was an increase in intensity he would resort to humor so that he could distract himself from
14:58what he was feeling we're going to work on that today actually staying with the breath as sensations
15:03rise yeah receiving is a huge thing for him
15:08now the experts want to build jason's confidence
15:11and joy has a plan to help him with his horror of hugging
15:14hello again hey come on in thank you and have a seat oh excellent
15:26oh what is it that happens when you're in a hug
15:31weird like alien to me when i see people hugging just freaks me out
15:35oh yeah i don't know why so we want to work towards a hug that feels really good yeah
15:42so let's let's stand here because it's a little more even
15:46i'm going to touch your arm first okay you want it yes go ahead
15:55and you feel me and you can put your hand on my arm yeah if you'd like yeah
16:05i feel sick no no not in a bad way i feel like in a good way like british slang as usual jason tries
16:13to mask his awkwardness with humor i'm quite robotic i feel like you're moving your hands
16:19yourself but i'm like yeah i just want you to receive okay so i can get a sense of what it feels
16:24like to be in this moment but joy perseveres yeah it's really nice
16:32before escalating intimacy can i come even closer if you want to yeah yeah like like that
16:42yeah you can move like that by just staying connected with your breath
16:47so you don't lose that sense of the moment
16:51yeah can i come even closer still okay yeah i can get closer yeah okay can touch your neck
17:07it feels good would you like to do a hug why not let's do it yeah let's do it
17:28how is this yeah awesome yeah come on yeah
17:42thank you thank you see ya
17:54that was great after the session jason's confidence is sky high
18:00and that's not the only thing that's up what happened so i was standing like this
18:04because as much as i was like that i had a bonus i was like
18:10that's really good dude i'm getting there i'm getting there
18:15i'm in a really great mood i feel like i'm glowing i didn't think i'd do this i'm really proud of
18:19myself on this page i'll be a sex god i mean yeah yeah we're going to leave here absolutely
18:25professionally trained sex demon while jason's conquering new heights
18:32i haven't really gotten much out of mind yet i just feel like i'm letting the team down
18:36taylor's still struggling after crying in this morning's workshop
18:41the experts feel there may be more to taylor's tears than meets the eye
18:46even though she was being emotional she wasn't actually letting go and going into her emotion
18:52i feel like she's hiding and that's probably been a survival tactic that has worked really well for
18:57her yeah she is so scared danielle wants to discover what makes taylor so anxious about intimacy
19:08so how do you feel with guys as opposed to women or girls they're a lot scarier do you ever see
19:19someone very chiseled and you're like i just want to touch the muscle i don't know i don't know i don't
19:24think so i like hair like i'm always like i want to touch people's hair like that interests me because
19:29it's soft but i'm not like i don't want to touch muscle i don't i don't prefer it when i was in
19:36secondary school i felt the shift into realizing that maybe i wasn't exactly the same as all the
19:42girls but being gay was like the worst thing so while i'm still in the process of like working out what
19:49i want all of these opportunities are passing me by it just makes me feel a bit a bit rubbish
19:58do you have women lovers or i had one really negative experience she got annoyed at me that
20:05i wasn't enjoying myself she did stop but she seemed really disappointed and she was like upset with me
20:09and it kind of ruined that friendship yeah i don't see myself as desirable
20:16right because i'm a lot what are you oh now we're getting there my love okay so there's a part of
20:27you that feels that people wouldn't want to be with you yeah yeah i get told a lot the time that i'm loud
20:36and i'm tall and i'm i take up a lot of space and yeah and that's what makes you so special and beautiful
20:50baby
20:57your feelings are so great sweetheart
21:04just talking about my experiences always makes me upset but i've had quite a few negative
21:09experiences and of course those are the ones i need to talk about for this to work
21:12thank you but i've had i've had a breakthrough i think thank you very much bye i left happier than i
21:23went in and forward is always good isn't it so as long as i'm going forward i'm happy
21:31you're nervous no no i mean other than falling off the cliff yes it's late afternoon on virgin island
21:45jesus yeah this is quite steep and celeste and danielle have hatched a plan to push the group further
21:52all right let's get a mat down we want them to start just getting comfortable with any kind of touch
21:57massage is something that a lot of people have experienced i'm hoping maybe they'll take off a
22:01piece of clothing to start to feel more relaxed around touch and maybe you know eventually nudity
22:08are you taking your cup off or go on i'll like lift it up for you through massage the experts can
22:13assess how comfortable the group are with exposing their bodies a little bit yeah and touching each other
22:22for pleasure you're very good at this thank you they have my skills all of them end with a z
22:32what's that my family does them uh we grew up giving each other massages you're shaking a bit
22:37you sure it's all right no no i'm fine no i'm fine okay i'm gonna actually you're like this
22:42relax relax yeah i need to be more loosey-goosey while uptight ben struggles to relax
22:48i'll whack this off the experts are keen for jason to build on his growing confidence around touch
22:54with the island's most outspoken virgin charlotte how's this it's fine yeah it just feels
23:03i don't know weird but in a nice way why do you use these horrible stretch marks i don't know all right
23:09it's just a hole did you what it's just it looks painful it looks like you just see my ass it's
23:14more on my ass okay i'm bored now yeah i'm bored now all right which arm first this one this one yes
23:27okay okay why are you focused in one area you need to go see okay do you want me to show you
23:33no no no no let's go i'll put more oil on like it on for jason intimacy with another member of the
23:40group is proving tougher than with an expert see more thumb more movement you need to be doing the
23:48whole like like that how about that like that i think it's all of it jesus christ what are you doing
23:53it's like wanking off your arm like that like that's how you do it but slower okay now i definitely want
23:59you to stop how was the monsieur oh so did you not like it that was a disaster i looked off my shirt
24:18and everything yeah cool stretch mark all right looking like there maybe not being berated a lot
24:28would have felt nice i've always hated my body my especially my back and the stretch marks i know
24:35it's a little thing but it's for me it's quite big although jason's suffering from over exposure to
24:44charlotte is yours yes basically you've already tried them on ben can't get enough of her
24:54i always find i end up getting very steep in the summer because of the hay fever tablets i take
24:59outside original i say i always get very steep in the summer it's called the hay fever tablets
25:03because they're drowsy ones the big question now is is the feeling mutual
25:08how many songs you can get anyway oh i have like a i have a thousand and seventy pretty good yeah
25:19i mean it's so great that we've like gotten to know each other and that we can you know we feel
25:24comfortable around each other but i'm not interested
25:31and so it's going to be tricky you know this is my friend this is someone i'm going to have breakfast
25:36with tomorrow and i'm going to have to be cruel to be kind and tell him that i'm not interested
25:50it's day two of the touch phase and the sessions are about to intensify
26:14really in order to have amazing sex you need to touch you won't be able to make any moves you won't
26:21be able to seduce someone if you're feeling anxious and worried that everything that you're doing is
26:25wrong a lot of people they're holding back all of those animal instincts they just need to open up
26:33i think it's one of those things where you've got to just keep on going and try and get yourself to
26:38the next step ideally without crying but we'll see i'm dreading the group activity it's just getting
26:45more intimate with touch i feel nervous after yesterday's massage catastrophe
26:53i'm not sure what would happen next for me um just being desired that's the key thing for me that's
26:57one of my sort of issues is you know being wanted and desired and i don't think i've had that a lot
27:01but um just you know see what happens and uh go with it i guess yeah it's getting first on the back
27:09row yes my plan exactly hello hello welcome back welcome back hello hi oh god he's our therapist
27:19so today we're going to go much deeper into touch and work on disinhibition and that means letting
27:34out a little bit more of your wildness a little bit more of your inner animal oh god we are wired for
27:41sex right we're wired to go after it and yet society says shame shame shame and it was you know and we
27:47shut down and the animal game helps people feel the passion and desire in their body
27:54so i know tom that you've taken some acting classes so i'm wondering if you would be willing to demo with
28:00me yeah sure yes so let's get on our hands and knees why don't you just start to feel your senses
28:11we close our eyes and we start to feel this animal inside of us and we let that animal go after the
28:17other person actually letting it move letting it out in our body
28:30tom may be finding his wild side but for the rest of the group
28:45it's too much to bear
28:58it was very jungle book and i was feeling very downton abbey
29:24and i was like it's lovely like they're really enjoying it but also
29:31so someone want to try it
29:40someone wants maybe 80 to try it
29:44the whole role planning thing just really like freaks me out
29:47yeah yeah yeah yay
29:55okay does someone want to try it with charlotte
29:58yeah i'll do it amazing
30:11you can change your mind yeah i wouldn't yeah i wouldn't do it yeah okay
30:15do you want to do it do you want me to do it okay
30:17i just always feel like i'm ugly and repulsive in some way and i know that objectively i'm not but
30:29i was bullied in school and i think the dating experience sort of just saying reinforce that i'm
30:34just not like good looking why would any girl be interested in me so i struggle to to sort of initiate
30:41uh you know contact or intimacy you know find a place on the rug your life is awkward unfortunately
30:50uh and you simply you know you just move on you know that's that's how that's how it goes and i'm
30:55just not very good at that start to notice that there's another animal here with you
31:01oh
31:26men are expected to make that first move and i think for guys like me
31:30he would just struggle with that making the move and reading the signs it's very hard
31:48that's my happy heart this is so hot
31:55did you feel any arousal i'm curious yeah i think some yeah yes
32:00like i could hear people like talking and giggling
32:07acting like a zoo animal that was not for me oh god that was just it was a bit rough
32:12that was cringe i found interesting then it's bringing up saying oh you've done drama so you've
32:16done this sort of stuff like i'm not sure i've gone quite that far in drama to be fair
32:21how did you feel a bit at all i flipped our instructor i noticed like i could hear people
32:29like talking and giggling that's oh you know and i had to kind of try to block that out yeah it was
32:34like watching a porno i felt like a proper pervert were you getting turned on no i was like oh i
32:40thought you'd be one of the first ones up jason no i absolutely hated that in the back of my head i
32:46had a bit of trepidation about a bit of fear about it so i didn't want to do that jason's massage
32:52experience has set him back and the experts have sensed that something's changed jason he's been so
32:59gung-ho and i thought he would be gung-ho today but he was way more reserved we did in our session
33:06uh have very close body on body but he wasn't able to then move the energy into something more
33:12sexual okay so maybe i can build on that yeah celeste decides jason needs to put his massage
33:19fiasco behind him in a one-on-one session to boost his sexual self-belief the only person if
33:26i had sexual experience with was my right hand i'd love to have more confidence i'd love to be able
33:31to be intimate yeah that's my goal to reach his goal celeste wants to try a different approach
33:38to unleash his inner animal so we had the animal game and the touching we did
33:43yeah seemed like the animal game was not doing my cup of tea no so i was thinking maybe trying
33:50some different connection positions to build confidence yeah maybe you like lying down and
33:56us like touching each other i'm here to try new things try yeah well let's try it so you can lie
34:01down like here on my back yeah lie down on your back like with your head down there i'm gonna like
34:07move in here maybe i'll take off my glasses see if you can like just connect with your sexy energy
34:16if you feel an urge to touch back feel free okay and there's like a little bit of intensity that
34:23we're gonna kind of try to build between us
34:37and you can touch i can't touch you back you can as his confidence builds
35:02i'm so kind of good celeste makes things harder now i want you to see if you can take your energy
35:11seriously now and look at me like i want to fuck you kind of
35:25okay
35:47so good
35:55Do you need a little break, or do you need a little break?
35:58Do you need a little break?
35:59OK.
36:00Woo-hoo!
36:01It's a lot.
36:02That's amazing.
36:07It's a lot different than hugging.
36:09A lot different than hugging.
36:10I know.
36:17That is your inner animal.
36:19When you take your desire seriously, it's very compelling.
36:25Whoa.
36:26Whoa.
36:27OK.
36:28I'll see you soon.
36:29Yeah.
36:30See you soon.
36:31Have a lovely day.
36:32You too.
36:33Bye.
36:39I'm feeling incredible.
36:40Absolutely incredible.
36:41She's a miracle worker.
36:43I was a virgin.
36:44Well, I am a virgin still, but I'm like a different virgin now.
36:47I'm closer to losing her.
36:51Ben.
36:52How'd it go?
36:53I kissed her on her cheeks.
36:55You're a cloud nine, are you?
36:56I'm lying down, yeah?
36:57And I'm there, cupping her breasts, squeezing her.
37:00I'm like, ah.
37:01How did that feel?
37:02Great.
37:03I feel like I'm glowing.
37:04I'm like, woo-hoo!
37:05Woo-hoo!
37:06I feel like Jason is a superstar.
37:07I cannot believe how much he has blossomed today.
37:12It is insane.
37:14He brought his sexual energy, eye contact.
37:18He really got what sex is all about.
37:20Who dance him?
37:23The touch base of the cost is drawing to a close
37:41Oh, whipped cream, chocolate
37:44Oh, strawberry laces, do you like strawberry laces?
37:46I do like strawberry laces, yeah
37:47And the group have been served up a tasty exercise
37:51Smallish bite, I'm not going to put it in too much
37:53There's something very sensual about feeding each other
37:57You know, the experience of putting food into someone's mouth
38:00Especially if you do it with, like, a little bit of flirtatiousness
38:02When you laugh, I know where your face is and I can slap it
38:08Technically, this will be the first act of penetration
38:12So I'm very curious how they put objects inside one another
38:17Put the whole strawberry in
38:20Open wide
38:22I'm not opening my mouth wide
38:24You can trust me, you can trust me
38:26Many of the group are throwing themselves in
38:28You've dropped it, Matt
38:30Have you ever faced something before?
38:33No
38:34No
38:34You're the first person
38:35But not everyone is feeling fruity
38:38I feel like this is probably not the most romantic
38:42So far on the course, it's Ben and Taylor who are holding back the most
38:51So the experts want to see if they can help
38:54Starting with Ben
38:56The animal game was really hard for Ben
38:58When he volunteered to help out Charlotte
39:02And she said no, that she didn't want that
39:05He was very sad
39:06He needs to understand rejection and, like, how you survive that as a man dating women
39:12After Celeste's breakthrough with Jason, she wants to help Ben find his sexy side
39:17But spontaneity is not his strong point
39:21I'm quite a logical person, I like to think things, I like to plan for things
39:24Probably the best example
39:25And this is going to sound quite sad
39:26But it's true
39:28I've got a spreadsheet on my PC at home of just, like, every date I've been on
39:31I see dating in the same way a football manager would see their team
39:35I like to analyse things and see what I can do better
39:38I think if you learn how to hold a little bit more flirtatious energy, like
39:53Yeah
39:54I'm going to do it now with you for a second, okay, and show you what I mean, like
39:57I'm really enjoying being here with you
40:02That's what I would do, to them
40:03Yeah, so as you talk to me, just at some point when you're talking
40:07Give me a touch while you're talking
40:10I mean, this is quite crude, but you are sort of my type, so it's sort of like, yeah
40:14That's not crude, that's a compliment, thank you
40:16I mean, yeah, you're quite attractive, so I mean, you know
40:18I usually go for the hair, actually, sometimes
40:20Yeah?
40:21Yeah, so it's sort of, I sort of do that, and yeah, it's, um
40:24That's actually my total weakness
40:27Really?
40:27Yeah, but I like it really, really slow, like
40:37And I feel like very precious
40:39Yeah
40:40Yeah
40:40So like
40:41And I think even if you go a little bit slower, so then it feels more like sensual
40:55I do feel tingly when you do that
41:01Yeah, um, well, maybe I'm better than I thought I was, but
41:05You know, it's, it's, it's not something I have sort of conscious control over
41:10Just sort of, you know
41:11That's what's good about it, is I feel like you're touching me just because you desire me
41:15And you want to touch me, not like you're thinking about it, and that's hot
41:19By losing himself in the moment, Ben's gaining a flair for the physical
41:26If you just want to, like, come in and, like, kiss me on the cheek, you don't have to
41:31But you can
41:32Yeah
41:35Oh my goodness, what?
41:41Look at you
41:41Makes me want to touch you back
41:49Wow
41:58You don't realise how much of a confidence booster this is
42:02So now I'm doing it good
42:04It's really great
42:06You're getting better every time
42:09Thank you
42:10Mmm
42:13It's baby steps
42:18But Ben's session has been a success
42:20Now the experts want to get to the bottom of what's troubling Taylor
42:26The furthest I've ever gone with a boy is
42:31Met a nice guy
42:32He was very attractive and very lovely
42:35Invited him back and I was like, right, you can do this
42:38I had convinced myself I was going to lose my virginity
42:41But I freaked out, hit that invisible barrier
42:45And I was just like, nope, I can't do it, that's it, I can't
42:48And he left
42:49And then I just felt so bad and disappointed in myself
42:52And, like, I'd let him down
42:54Because I couldn't follow through
42:56To clarify her thinking, the experts want to pair her
43:01With male surrogate partner therapist Andre
43:03So my role in this is to basically stand in as what could be a potential partner or a potential lover
43:14And I'm here to support you through the emotion, the communication, transparency
43:20Surrogate partners help by forming a therapeutic relationship supported by a clinical therapist
43:25I will leave the two of you to enjoy your time together
43:29Thank you very much
43:31I'll see you soon
43:32Take care
43:33I'm scared
43:43You're sorry
43:45It's okay
43:46I've got a lot of emotions about this whole thing
43:49And they're kind of trickling into everything
43:51There's nothing to be sorry about in displaying emotion
43:55So
43:57What could potentially be, like, a desired, like, goal or outcome?
44:03Less of this
44:04Okay
44:04Then we're on the right track
44:07Step on less of this
44:08And just feeling more comfortable, like, in a situation where
44:12I feel like any time it comes to a situation, sorry
44:15Where, like, sex is on the table
44:19I freeze up and I panic
44:20I just don't want anyone to touch me or anything like that
44:24Because I just feel wrong
44:26Mm-hmm, okay
44:28Well, that is exactly why I'm here
44:32And we can practice with one another
44:35We can explore the things that you came here to explore
44:43Oh, God
44:45Just want to see
44:52How you're feeling
44:54It feels like there's, like, a knot in my throat
44:57So it's generally, like, uncomfortable kind of a feeling
45:01Okay
45:02Is there anything I can provide for you?
45:05Do you like a hug?
45:07No, thank you
45:08Okay
45:08The therapy that was explained to me terrifies me down to the very depths of my cot
45:17Well, and if you'd like, you're welcome to head on now whenever you're, whenever you're ready
45:22Okay, thank you very much
45:24You're very welcome
45:25I don't know if I've made any actual progress because I just kind of get a bit weepy
45:30I really liked Andre and he was really lovely and I'd love to be his friend
45:35But I'm trying to work out why I'm so panicked
45:37I think it scares me, the fact that he's a man
45:42Sorry
45:48I just have one minute
45:51I think I'm upset about more things than I've got on
45:57Next time
46:01Jason gets back in the groove
46:04Just feel the pleasure
46:06I've got a bone
46:07Taylor tries a fresh approach
46:10This was such a relief to not feel scared at all
46:13This is my body
46:15And Emma reveals a secret
46:17Because you're so stronger than you think and wiser than you know
46:21As Ireland dates
46:23Does that make you nervous?
46:25A little bit
46:25Hotter
46:40Does that make you nervous?
46:55Hi, myhh
46:56A little bit
46:58A little bit
46:59A little bit
47:00When I shift
47:00You're camouflaging
47:01You're camouflaging