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00:00I think the biggest thing is whether or not you're able to process through it enough that you can be yourself again.
00:08Because you've been very, very angry.
00:11And I understand it.
00:12And I apologize and I understand that I've been in a bad place.
00:16Yeah.
00:17I'm sorry to you. I'm sorry to them.
00:20Plural marriage is hard.
00:22I thought from my myopic perspective, it was just hard on me.
00:25But I failed to recognize what a struggle this would be for my wives.
00:30I'm trying to move on, but I'm kind of arrogant and cocky about how I do it in order to fight the emotions.
00:37Like all that I said about not loving my wives and my exes was just like me trying to dial in how I felt about it.
00:46I was bull myself. I was like, oh, yeah, I'm not affected by this.
00:50Those mean women, they're gone.
00:52I never loved them anyway.
00:53I mean, this is really the crap I was spewing because that was only defense I had.
00:59Divorce just does that to you.
01:00It's not that any of them weren't worth it.
01:02It's that now that we're broke up, I'm like going, that wasn't worth it.
01:05And they're going, that wasn't worth it.
01:06I got my identity from them saying I was awesome and telling my kids I was awesome and having my kids tell me I was awesome.
01:13And now they're gone and they're saying that I'm a piece of trash.
01:17I don't blame them.
01:18I was saying they were a piece of trash.
01:20I was telling you that I didn't love them.
01:22It didn't work for a reason.
01:24And I tried to convince myself that I did this on purpose because I didn't love them.
01:31As much as I said I hated them or that I didn't love them, I love them.
01:36This situation, what we experienced is over.
01:39If it could be friendly, I would be very happy.