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00:00So, I've been working on this movie for almost two years.
00:09There's been ups and downs, but I enjoyed it a lot more at the beginning, just figuring
00:13it out, writing.
00:16You have this big, grand idea of what the movie's going to be.
00:20In the back of my mind, it's just, you know, what's the best thing that I can say right
00:25now to service the movie, to make this thing better.
00:31And yeah, it's just funny because I've blurred the line so much less between the reality
00:38and the performance in terms of the movie, and more so in terms of my perception of self,
00:47I guess.
00:48I'm at a point where I have no idea where the performance stops, and I begin, and yeah,
00:59I don't know.
01:00I feel like I've just been searching for something.
01:09Scene IA, take one, shot one, marker.
01:12Are we doing it one at a time, or are we doing it one at a time?
01:15Either one.
01:16If you want to get in there with them, you can.
01:17Yeah, we can do it.
01:18I don't mind.
01:19Yeah.
01:20So, I mean, for all of this, like, you're totally fine.
01:26Just be casual.
01:27I just totally forgot.
01:28You don't have to be professional.
01:29Like, this is like, it's not, it's not.
01:32This part isn't going on.
01:35Oh my god.
01:40I've been spending so much time caring about whether or not this thing is impactful, like
01:48somehow drowning myself in this movie will make it better.
01:56I just feel like a film is a bit much to cover a whole town where the most popular commodity
02:07is meth.
02:08What's going to make people want to watch this film?
02:11I think I set myself up for failure from the beginning.
02:15What, was I supposed to come to some, like, conclusion by the end of this and be like,
02:19oh, I'm better now, and I don't have any of those qualities that I set out to criticize
02:25in the first place?
02:26You know, like, that was never going to happen.
02:43I need to do anything other than continue to sink myself into this because it's not
02:52doing anything for me.
02:54And here I am, still just, like, lingering, trying to think of something impactful to say.