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I thought I was special. | dG1fMHhzUnRuQmVTNzA
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00:00In August 23rd, 2023, I no longer thought I was special.
00:10It was a rainy day in Gaza.
00:13I think the clouds knew that my tears had dried up and started to cry.
00:17I think today is the day when a new miracle was born for humanity.
00:22Because I became the blind man who sees,
00:24and the deaf man who hears,
00:26and the dumb man who speaks.
00:28And they were all the exceptions.
00:31This was the introduction to the last chapter.
00:48Every day, I was proving to myself that I was a prayer fighter.
00:52I overcame everything that could be a reason for me to reduce my determination.
00:56And most importantly, my passion.
00:58But, I think talent has no value without passion.
01:05Because my passion wasn't to impress people all the time.
01:09But it was a person.
01:12These days, I didn't find pleasure in anything I imagined or even did.
01:18And it became just a routine to convince myself.
01:24This psychological battle was born out of a relationship.
01:27It was one-sided.
01:29I built her dreams.
01:31I built her world.
01:33And in the end, I destroyed it.
01:36I remember people saying,
01:37Beware of your dreams, because they could be your end,
01:40if you immerse yourself in their delusions.
01:43I think that's true.
01:45Because every time I taste coffee,
01:47I taste it with my tongue.
01:49And I conclude my opinion about it.
01:51And it's like she's talking to me.
01:53It was her opinion that I was waiting to meet in every picture.
01:57And it's like I'm drawing the world that she loves with my eyes.
02:01Even in my books.
02:03It's the first five letters that I pronounce with my tongue.
02:06And I write it with my hand.
02:08To reach the highest level of perfection in any field that I could like.
02:13And now, my inspiration has become a dead end.
02:17I forgot how to fight.
02:19Unfortunately, it was the first battle I lost in.
02:22Because the battle was against myself.
02:25I lied to myself.
02:27Because I thought I was special.

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