First broadcast 18th January 2015.
Whilst the surgeon can save her baby, Flora, it is too late for Kate and Celia supports her daughter at the funeral, where biological father Greg also offers support.
Sarah Lancashire ... Caroline
Nina Sosanya ... Kate
Dean Smith ... William
Colin Heywood ... Vicar (as Daniel James)
Louis Greatorex ... Lawrence
Michelle Hurst ... Ginika
Anne Reid ... Celia
Derek Jacobi ... Alan
Josh Bolt ... Raff
Felix Johnson ... Angus
Marcus Garvey ... Greg
Tony Gardner ... John
Nicola Walker ... Gillian
Katherine Rose Morley ... Ellie
Nicholas Goh ... Chris
Dean Andrews ... Robbie
Rupert Graves ... Gary
Cara Theobold ... Holly
Zohra Bhatti ... Supporting Artist
Whilst the surgeon can save her baby, Flora, it is too late for Kate and Celia supports her daughter at the funeral, where biological father Greg also offers support.
Sarah Lancashire ... Caroline
Nina Sosanya ... Kate
Dean Smith ... William
Colin Heywood ... Vicar (as Daniel James)
Louis Greatorex ... Lawrence
Michelle Hurst ... Ginika
Anne Reid ... Celia
Derek Jacobi ... Alan
Josh Bolt ... Raff
Felix Johnson ... Angus
Marcus Garvey ... Greg
Tony Gardner ... John
Nicola Walker ... Gillian
Katherine Rose Morley ... Ellie
Nicholas Goh ... Chris
Dean Andrews ... Robbie
Rupert Graves ... Gary
Cara Theobold ... Holly
Zohra Bhatti ... Supporting Artist
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00:00I now pronounce you spouses for life.
00:06I meant what I said about helping out financially.
00:09I've got a half-brother.
00:10I've got a son.
00:11I am sorry.
00:13Perhaps it's time I met him.
00:14Celia, tell me about your family.
00:16Do you really want to marry me?
00:18I've wanted to marry you since I was 16.
00:20Are you sure about this?
00:21Why don't you come and get on with your work?
00:23I'll only be home for an hour, 40 minutes.
00:25What's happened?
00:26Kate's been hit by a car.
00:28Do you want to come through here now?
00:30We'll have a chat.
00:58Flora.
01:24Really?
01:25Don't you like it?
01:27It suits her.
01:29It's up to you.
01:30It's not up to both of us.
01:31Yes, of course, but you're, you know.
01:34You've got more say in the matter.
01:37You've got to like it.
01:38I don't dislike it.
01:40Flora Grace, OK?
01:43You don't sound thrilled.
01:44No, I am.
01:46What would you call her?
01:48I like that name.
01:50Sweet.
01:51Good.
01:53So you don't like it?
01:54No, I do.
01:55It's going on me.
01:56It suits her.
01:57Well, it suits her now, but will it suit her when she's 14
01:59and got opinions?
02:01I really like it.
02:02Well, then that's all that matters.
02:03I think you're just saying that.
02:04I wouldn't do that.
02:05If I thought it was really abhorrent, I'd say so.
02:07As opposed to mildly abhorrent.
02:08Kate, we're calling her Flora.
02:10Flora.
02:12Flora Grace.
02:14Grace of Margarine called Flora, I thought.
02:17You've put me off it now.
02:18No, I haven't.
02:20Don't talk to me like that.
02:21That's how men talk.
02:25So you do like Grace.
02:26I like Flora.
02:28You really don't, it's obvious.
02:33She's your baby.
02:35She's our baby.
02:37Mum.
02:45The hearse has arrived.
02:48It's outside.
02:51Right.
02:57Do you want me to take the baby?
02:59No, I'll...
03:05Thanks.
03:20Thanks.
03:37To everything there is a season,
03:40and a time to every purpose on earth.
03:44A time to be born,
03:47and a time to die.
03:51Here, in this last act,
03:56in sorrow but without fear,
03:59in love and appreciation,
04:03we commit Catherine Abiki Mackenzie Dawson
04:10to a natural end.
04:14Baby crying.
04:18Little girl.
04:20Little sweetheart.
04:26You're going to have to decide on a name for this baby.
04:29Flora.
04:31I decided just before we set off.
04:33It's Flora Grace.
04:35That's beautiful, Catherine.
04:40Jennifer.
04:42Do you want to...
04:52That's the father.
04:54Don't look.
04:55Which one?
04:56Pudgy, pale, face hair.
04:58Twelve o'clock.
04:59Keeps looking this way.
05:01Used to be called Greg.
05:03Probably still is.
05:05He's an idiot.
05:07They often are.
05:09And here's another one.
05:11John, have you met Ginica, Kate's mother?
05:15She's a professor of economics.
05:17Ah.
05:18At Columbia.
05:19Gosh, how do you do?
05:21Terrible, tragic, awful situation.
05:24I lecture in English at the University of York.
05:27Not to be confused with York University,
05:30which is in Canada, apparently.
05:32So you've flown in?
05:34No, she got on a steam packet.
05:36You're Caroline's ex?
05:38You must be devastated, heartbroken.
05:40I'm so sorry.
05:41You write novels?
05:42Well, yes, I've published one or two.
05:44Jack Brothero, Private Detective, Lost Soul.
05:47Yes, you've... Have you read...?
05:50Oh, a long time ago.
05:52My favourite is The Haunted Man.
05:55It's entertaining, it's interesting, it's insightful.
05:59You're very clever.
06:01Gosh, well, that's...
06:02Dad, Dad, you need to move your car.
06:05You've locked someone in.
06:07She's left her handbag at the crematorium.
06:11Would you excuse me?
06:12Sure.
06:16Little lady's day.
06:18You don't like him.
06:20I didn't like Kate's husband, Richard.
06:23My mother didn't like my first husband, Douglas,
06:27the one with Alzheimer's.
06:29Maybe it's normal, maybe it's a thing.
06:33Did your mother like your first husband?
06:35Kenneth.
06:37She thought the world of him.
06:40She wouldn't have done if she'd known the things I knew about him.
06:45I like Caroline.
06:47Oh, I was very fond of Kate.
06:50She'd come round and play Scrabble with me sometimes in the evening
06:53when I was on my own.
06:55I found it difficult at first.
06:58And I wasn't always as kind as I might have been.
07:03But...
07:04It was a surprise.
07:05Well, not entirely, if I'm being honest.
07:08Kate was very happy with Caroline.
07:14Most of the time.
07:15I know.
07:20So, Flora Grace.
07:23Flora Grace.
07:25Well, I know for a fact Kate would have liked that.
07:34Hello.
07:35Sorry.
07:36I know we didn't hit it off,
07:39but I couldn't not come.
07:41We were college buddies apart from anything else, so...
07:46How's, um...
07:48I know I'm not supposed to ask,
07:50but...
07:51How's the baby?
07:52She's fine. She's fine.
07:55The girl?
07:56Yes.
07:57I couldn't have a look at her, could I?
08:00That wasn't the plan, was it?
08:02No.
08:05What's going to happen to her?
08:06She's going to be fine.
08:07Are you...?
08:08I'm looking after her.
08:09Is that...?
08:10Official, yes.
08:12I'm on the birth certificate as her parent.
08:14No, I was going to say, is that what you want?
08:17Yes, of course it is.
08:21It must be tough.
08:22I mean, it's not what you thought you were buying into, is it?
08:26You didn't want her to have a baby,
08:28and now you're the one left with it.
08:30I didn't not want her to have a baby.
08:32Sorry. I must have misunderstood.
08:34No, I wanted what she wanted.
08:36She said you weren't as keen as she was.
08:38I wasn't, but I wouldn't have stopped her.
08:41I'm sorry.
08:43I'd better go.
08:44I've got to get the train back to Manchester.
08:48I just...
08:50I wanted just to say...
08:53..I can see you've got a lot of help and support,
08:56but have you just wanted someone to look after her for a bit?
08:59And as I say, under any other circumstances,
09:02I wouldn't be offering that I'd have backed off.
09:04I wouldn't even be here.
09:06That was the deal, and I'm aware of that.
09:08But if ever there was anything,
09:10I'm flexible, I'm self-employed, I can work anywhere.
09:14So I wouldn't want you to feel like you couldn't ask
09:16or that it would be inconvenient,
09:18cos chances are it wouldn't be.
09:22That's all. OK.
09:25Well, thank you.
09:27Have you got my number?
09:29It...
09:32It'll be on Kate's phone.
09:40She's in the kitchen with...
09:43..my mum or Kate's mum, if you want to have a look at her.
09:49I shouldn't have asked.
09:51It's up to you.
09:56OK.
09:59Erm, the thing is...
10:01..is she's with Kate's mother,
10:04and, erm, Kate's mother thinks I'm an idiot.
10:08Erm, a teaspoonful of baking powder,
10:11a splash of milk,
10:13a drop of vanilla essence.
10:15This is your uncle.
10:17Mum.
10:18Jennifer.
10:19This is Greg. Hi.
10:22Greg's the florist.
10:25Biological.
10:27Hi, Mrs Mackenzie.
10:29Haven't been Mrs Mackenzie in 20 years, Greg.
10:32Of course. Divorced.
10:34Gosh.
10:37Greg wanted to, erm...
10:46..sport her head.
11:00Have you seen Alan?
11:02Alan?
11:03Er, he, er...
11:05He went into the garden to have a cigarette with my head of mats.
11:08Alan doesn't smoke. No, I didn't know Chris did either.
11:11Can you just let him?
11:12Well, he has a heart condition.
11:18Well...
11:21Of course, they've built the M6 toll road since then, so...
11:27Well, I've no idea if that's any more efficient.
11:30Oh, shit.
11:34Are you smoking?
11:36You were smoking.
11:38I wasn't.
11:39Why else would you be standing out here in the drizzle?
11:42I just...
11:44Did you know he has a heart condition?
11:46This is Chris. Hi.
11:48You'd think a mathematician would know better.
11:50How could I have you sat giving cigarettes to a man with a heart condition?
11:54Yes, I'm Caroline's mother.
11:56It were only the one.
11:58I didn't know you smoked.
12:00I don't. I used to.
12:02I just like the very occasional one now, every...
12:05Look, last one I had were millennial.
12:07Now, when were that?
12:08I thought I knew you.
12:10You do.
12:11Women's cigarettes.
12:13How would you like it if I started smoking?
12:16I wouldn't.
12:17Well, I think I might.
12:19Can I have a cigarette, Chris?
12:21Sure.
12:22See how you like it.
12:23You don't have to smoke a cigarette to prove a point.
12:26And at a funeral as well.
12:28You're going to let this drop.
12:32There you go.
12:33I think I might go back inside.
12:36Don't let me stop you.
12:37I don't want your cigarettes.
12:39Right, well, I'll...
12:47Here, shall we meet?
12:49You want showing off.
12:51Only because I care about you.
12:53But only an excuse to get a bit of fresh air.
12:57Seriously?
12:58Do you smoke?
13:00No.
13:03No.
13:07No.
13:11Do you fancy a show, then?
13:16Are you all right?
13:19I don't know how off these people are.
13:21I went to the wedding.
13:23Mind you, we didn't invite very many people to the wedding.
13:26No?
13:27Well, we did, unofficially, but no, some couldn't come.
13:30No, I'm sorry we were busy.
13:33It doesn't matter, it was all a bit...
13:36Last minute, we only did it for her, really.
13:40He's the father.
13:42The biological father.
13:44And Jenica's...
13:46The grandmother.
13:47The biological...
13:50..case mum.
13:55And I'm not actually anything.
14:00She's got a colic.
14:01Oh, Jesus, you don't need that.
14:03She seems OK at the minute.
14:05Oh, you wait till six o'clock.
14:08It's like flicking a switch and then it can go on till about...
14:13..three o'clock in the morning. It's terrible, it's like...
14:23It's like she's crying for her mother and I know it's colic.
14:28That's what it feels like.
14:31SHE CRIES
14:37All it does is cry.
14:40It goes on till three or four o'clock in the morning and you can't do anything else.
14:44You can't concentrate on anything else and it's ridiculous.
14:47Yeah, no, it must be.
14:49Yeah, well, it's worse for mum.
14:50No, it isn't. She wanted it.
14:52I don't even know what it's for. What does it do?
14:55It just cries and shits.
14:57That'll do.
14:58It's not even ours.
15:00And you're not even here, so shut up.
15:02Yeah, and you're old enough to start trying to help her and support her
15:04instead of just behaving like a self-centred little dick all the time.
15:07Piss off.
15:08Oh, you piss off.
15:09Stop it.
15:11Mum's got enough on her plate without you.
15:14Oh, I thought you were having a lie down.
15:17Yeah, but I couldn't sleep, so...
15:19She's fine. She's fine.
15:21I'm just going to take her out for a bit of fresh air.
15:23No, you don't have to.
15:24I want to. We're in love. We've bonded.
15:27Hands off.
15:29She's thriving. That's meant to be good.
15:31Colicky babies.
15:33Um, she got something I can wrap her up in?
15:35Yeah, she's got a lovely little pink velour coat
15:37and a matching hat that Alan and me bought her.
15:39It's the vibration and the sound.
15:42It's like being in the womb.
15:43Obviously, it's all very D.H. Lawrence.
15:47The pushchair's in the hall, love.
15:49And there's a blanket.
15:51I'll be an hour or so.
15:54You get some rest.
15:55Thanks.
15:57Yeah, I'm going to have to sit down.
16:00I've done what I can.
16:02Oh, Alan, you go in there. I'll bring you some tea.
16:04Are you all right, love?
16:06Yeah. Yeah.
16:14Where's Kate's mum?
16:15Um...
16:18She's having a lie down as well, I think.
16:20Is she all right?
16:23No, of course she's not. It's not meant to happen, is it?
16:28One of your children going before you?
16:38I can't stand her crying.
16:40I can't either.
16:43Do we know any more about what's happened to the idiots that knocked her down?
16:47How did I not tell you?
16:49How did I not tell you?
16:50Well, you said there were charges of car theft, reckless driving and manslaughter.
16:54They were released on bail the day before yesterday.
16:57No!
16:59And you laugh at me when I say we should bring back hanging.
17:06I'll go and see if Lawrence is all right.
17:11You go and sit down in there with Alan and I'll bring you both some tea.
17:14Are you sure?
17:17Yeah, go on. Off you pop.
17:26There's a tea towel there.
17:28Yeah, actually, I might pop out and get a bit of fresh air as well.
17:34You're transparent. You do know that, don't you?
17:41Mum's making the tea.
17:44She caught me smoking.
17:46Ah, that was my fault.
17:49So, I'm in bother again.
17:52I'm glad you got over that, Sam.
17:56Other thing.
18:00I'm not entirely sure we have.
18:02I think it's been put on hold.
18:05And there are no other skeletons, are there, in the cupboard?
18:10I know it's none of my business, but she's my mum.
18:13No.
18:15No more skeletons.
18:17I won't lie to you, Dad.
18:20Well...
18:22Except...
18:24I won't do it, if I were.
18:26What do you mean?
18:27Not different women.
18:29Just...
18:31I did love Eileen.
18:34But then, the slow dawning realisation
18:38that you'd settled for someone that you knew all along
18:42wasn't really what you wanted.
18:46When she became pregnant with Gillian, I thought it was what I wanted, but...
18:53Actually, it frightened me.
18:56Delighted me, but...
18:59frightened me, like, is this it?
19:03I'm sorry, I'm sounding like I'm making excuses, but...
19:07No, it never happened again, so...
19:12Oh, sorry. Sorry.
19:14I shouldn't have started talking about that. Not now.
19:17It wasn't all that, my darling.
19:19No. No.
19:21No.
19:22Right.
19:24Who wants to be mother?
19:26You do.
19:28I caught him smoking, did I tell you?
19:31Yes, it was me. I'm sorry.
19:33What are you apologising to him for?
19:35He's 76. If he can't have one single, tiny cigarette
19:40without being made to feel like a six-year-old...
19:43We'll find out he's been spying for the Russians next.
19:46Well, we've all got our shortcomings, haven't we?
19:49He smokes, you read the Daily Mail.
19:51I don't smoke.
19:53Only for the telly page.
19:55Of course, you're perfect, aren't you?
19:58Ish.
20:00There you go, love.
20:03John's gone after Gillian.
20:06I told him I said you're transparent.
20:14Sorry. Hi.
20:16Yeah, I know.
20:18Predictable. Boring.
20:20Transparent.
20:23How are things? Fine.
20:25Good. Good.
20:28I wanted to, um...
20:31Look, I know this is difficult, it's awkward,
20:35but, you know, we're adults.
20:38We can... Me and Moggy's getting married.
20:41I told you he'd asked me, and now I've said yes.
20:44I said yes two weeks ago, only we've not told anyone yet.
20:47We were just waiting until after the funeral to announce it properly.
20:52So, you're the first to know.
20:55OK. Well, that's...
20:58Good. That's...
21:01The thing... The thing I wanted to say
21:04was that given what's happened with Kate,
21:06I think she needs me here.
21:08Caroline.
21:10I think she needs me here for Lawrence, probably.
21:14So, I, er, obviously...
21:17Me offering you financial help with the farm, as I did,
21:21might be something that I can't... That's fine.
21:23..can't do anymore. That's fine.
21:28Still, if you're marrying Robbie... Yes, it's fine.
21:34Are you sure he's... Yes. ..really what you want?
21:36Yes, I am. Yes.
21:38Good.
21:42I didn't take it very seriously, anyway.
21:44No? No.
21:46Good.
21:49Well, that's all I wanted to say.
21:51Thank you for... Sure. ..being so understanding.
21:54It's no problem.
21:58I do think it's a mistake, Robbie.
22:03I don't care what you think. He's so...
22:07No. No, I don't suppose you do.
22:10We haven't told anyone yet about us getting married.
22:14What with Kate.
22:16So don't go repeating it.
22:27DOG BARKS
22:58She's asleep, believe it or not.
23:00Don't know how long for.
23:02Left her in the pram.
23:04Thanks.
23:08She's a sweet baby.
23:10I mean, when she's not screaming Bloomer.
23:13Screaming her head off.
23:15Do you know what I think?
23:17I think I'd prefer them when they get to about 15.
23:20Has everyone gone?
23:22Mum and Alan are next door. They'll be asleep.
23:25Mum and Alan are next door. They'll be asleep in front of the telly
23:28and Kate's mum's in bed.
23:30Poor woman.
23:32Hmm.
23:34Poor you.
23:36I'd better be making tracks myself.
23:38Sure.
23:43Listen, I wanted to talk to you about something.
23:47Now might not be the time,
23:49but I don't want you to hear it from my dad or your mum
23:52and get the wrong end of the stick.
23:54OK?
24:06I've started...
24:11I've been seeing Robbie again
24:13and I know you think that's bad,
24:16given what...
24:18the thing I told you.
24:20But he's good for me. He's right for me.
24:23He stops me being a pillock and now he's asked me to marry him
24:27and I've said yes.
24:30Caroline.
24:33Caroline.
24:38Caroline.
24:40I can't think about that now.
24:42No, I know. I just...
24:44Like I said, I didn't want you hearing it from anyone else.
24:49What's going through your head? Anything?
24:52I don't know. I guess if you can live with it, that's your business.
24:57Can you?
24:58Can I what?
25:00Do that.
25:01Live with someone, sleep with someone,
25:03knowing you murdered his brother.
25:06I don't think I could.
25:08I think it's just something I'd avoid.
25:10I had a lot to put up with.
25:12With Eddie.
25:14I did ex...
25:16I did tell you that.
25:18Yes, I know.
25:19I like Robbie.
25:20I've always liked Robbie.
25:22He likes me.
25:24He loves me.
25:26It's him I should have married all those years ago
25:29and then none of this would ever have...
25:31I'm sorry, I can't think about it now.
25:33No, sure.
25:35You know, you were the one that night saying that's why
25:38it could never be a good idea, you and Robbie.
25:40What I said the next day, I was just agreeing with you.
25:43I have no memory of that.
25:45Well, no, but...
25:48You did?
25:49Yeah, well, he's asked me and I've said yes.
25:52I can't... I can't let him down again.
25:55I thought we said we were going to pretend
25:58you never told me about Eddie.
26:00Yeah, yeah, we did.
26:02All right, then.
26:04Right.
26:05So you do what you like,
26:07you do what you feel comfortable with.
26:17I'm going to need your permission.
26:35BABY CRIES
26:48MUSIC PLAYS
27:10Morning.
27:12Hiya. How was it?
27:14How was it?
27:17How was Caroline?
27:19Quiet, tired.
27:23I don't know why you wouldn't let me come with you.
27:26Sweet little baby.
27:30So sad, so heartbreaking.
27:34Was that feckless streak of oily shite there?
27:38Oh, John. Yeah, yeah, yeah.
27:41So, probably a good job you weren't there.
27:44Did you talk to him?
27:46No.
27:48No longer than necessary.
27:50Can you imagine going to your ex-wife's girlfriend's partner's funeral?
27:54He's just... He's got no...
27:57I don't know, decorum.
27:59Yeah, well, you know what middle-class people are like.
28:02They fall out and get divorced
28:04and they're still speaking to each other
28:07just to show how grown up they all are.
28:10Yeah.
28:12But she were all right, Caroline?
28:14She's got colic, the baby, flora.
28:17So, on top of everything else, she's just exhausted.
28:21Was everything all right here yesterday?
28:23Yeah. I didn't see much of them, to be honest.
28:26Raff were over at Gary's place all day again.
28:29I nearly took calamity to her mother's.
28:31I've got no idea how that went.
28:33I sought at sheep and then I got called in for some overtime.
28:36I had to cover her three tens.
28:39Are we going to tell them about us, you said, after the funeral?
28:45Yeah.
28:46So, today?
28:51Today.
28:54Then we need to start thinking about what sort of a do we're having
28:57and where, and who we're inviting.
29:00What sort of budget do you think we're looking at?
29:03Cos, you know, I've got very little.
29:06I mean, my dad might stick his hand in his pocket, but...
29:09And you're Gary.
29:10I'm not asking Gary for anything.
29:12We're only known in five minutes.
29:14I'm joking.
29:19How did Raff get on with him yesterday?
29:21Great time. Sun shines out of his trousers.
29:24Gary is God. It's official.
29:28Um, registry office, not church?
29:31Then we can have, like, an hog roast up at Sportsman's.
29:34Like a barbecue and a buffet.
29:36We could get a marquee.
29:38Steady on.
29:39And a band.
29:40What sort of band?
29:41Well, a DJ, anyway.
29:43Oh, I don't know. I think about it.
29:45And a honeymoon.
29:47We're definitely going on a honeymoon.
29:49And for two weeks, two whole weeks.
29:52Or longer.
29:54Why don't we go for four?
29:56Four weeks, somewhere really exciting, like...
30:00Australia.
30:01You could go and meet all your cousins.
30:03Yeah.
30:04You can look after sheep.
30:06Who can?
30:07You can.
30:08When?
30:09When me and your mum go off on a zunnymoon.
30:15Robbie's asked me to marry him, and I've said yes.
30:20Really?
30:21Yeah.
30:22No, really.
30:23Yeah.
30:24No, seriously.
30:25Yes!
30:27Good luck, buddy.
30:28Shut up.
30:29No, nice one.
30:31I mean, you probably need your head examined, but...
30:33Will you?
30:34I'm joking.
30:36Well, I'm not.
30:37Congratulations.
30:38When?
30:39Soon as.
30:40Are you inviting people from work?
30:42Like, um...
30:43Well, everybody except Cheryl, yeah.
30:45We don't mention that name in this house.
30:50You're mad.
30:51Both of you.
30:52But...
30:53very happy for you.
30:56Oh, Gary says, why haven't you rang him?
30:58Rung him?
30:59That's what I said.
31:00He thinks you fell out with him.
31:02Fallen out with him.
31:04Why?
31:05Yeah, you and me grandad.
31:06Why?
31:07I don't know.
31:08Why do you think that?
31:09I'm just passing a message.
31:18I'll pop round in a few minutes, see how she's getting on.
31:22Hmm.
31:24Hmm.
31:29Hmm.
31:34Hi, grandad.
31:36Guess what?
31:37Mum and Uncle Robbie are getting married.
31:39Did you know?
31:40No, I damn well didn't.
31:42She must have told that John tosser to F off.
31:47I hope Caroline is OK.
31:49Gary says, why haven't you rang him?
31:52No breath.
31:55Married?
31:56Well, well.
32:01I will do everything I can for you, OK?
32:03But it would really help if you could stop doing all this crying at night.
32:08I know you can't help it.
32:09I know you haven't got a clue what I'm talking about.
32:17Your mum would have been so thrilled with you.
32:20With every tiny, tiny little bit of you.
32:25Right.
32:26Well.
32:28We've got options.
32:31Just interrupt me if I say anything you like the sound of.
32:35One, and this is the big one,
32:39is that I take her at retirement.
32:43I'd have to sell this place probably,
32:45but on the plus side I have got a not insubstantial pension going on.
32:50I am nothing if not a smart cookie.
32:52You shouldn't get used to that.
32:56The flaw in that plan is that I am still not without ambition.
33:02In the old career department.
33:07Which brings me on to option number two.
33:12We ask other people to get involved and help out.
33:17This is my mother.
33:21My mother. Have you met my mother?
33:25Oh, and then there's John, the ex.
33:27Yeah, I've met John several times.
33:30He's the one who was going on about Rudyard Kipling the other day
33:33when I was trying to have a nervous breakdown.
33:35He's an idiot.
33:36Well, he's not an idiot.
33:37He's just someone who never got the hang of being one of the grown-ups.
33:41Which you could say is part of his charm or not.
33:46But he was very good with my other two when they were little.
33:51Well, he was and he wasn't.
33:53And then, of course, there's always the nanny option.
33:58But I know what your mum would think about that.
34:00That's not happening.
34:02Yeah, she'd hate it.
34:04She'd say that was never part of the plan.
34:06Well, it wasn't.
34:08No, I know.
34:10But you not being here wasn't part of the plan either, was it?
34:14She's talking to herself.
34:15She's talking to the baby in knob.
34:17Is that the sort of language they teach you at Oxford?
34:19Well, he is a knob.
34:20You're a knob.
34:21Knob.
34:22Is Kate's mum up?
34:23No.
34:24Not seen her.
34:25He cried again till, like, 20 to 3 this morning.
34:29Have you tried using earplugs?
34:31You can still hear it.
34:32Her.
34:33It's not even ours.
34:34He's got to stop saying that, Gran.
34:35He's going to upset Mum.
34:36Well, she's no-one else's, love.
34:38Who's its father?
34:39It was that, um...
34:40It was here yesterday.
34:42Which one?
34:43Tall, pasty-faced, gingerish.
34:45Got, like, a bit of a beard thing going on.
34:47Gavin.
34:49Gareth.
34:50Gilbert.
34:51Gandalf?
34:52Greg.
34:53It's Greg.
34:55You'd never think he'd be Kate's sort, still.
34:58Yeah, well, why can't he take it?
35:00God, you really know how to make yourself popular, don't you?
35:02Has anybody taken your mother a cup of tea?
35:06Can I come in?
35:08Hello.
35:24It won't last forever.
35:27Feeling like this.
35:30It won't last forever.
35:33Feeling like this.
35:36I know it's hard for you to imagine that just now.
35:41When did you ever feel like this?
35:43Not when my dad died?
35:45No, no, it was when my dad died.
35:48I cried for an entire week, solid.
35:52As I worshipped the ground he walked on.
35:5659 years old.
35:59He's been dead 47, 48 years now.
36:041966.
36:07The year you were born.
36:10I thought I would never smile again.
36:15And then you came along.
36:18And you looked just like him.
36:22Do you think it's weird being dead?
36:26Well, we all get to find out eventually, don't we?
36:32I doubt it.
36:34I reckon once you're gone, you're gone.
36:37I think it's more weird for the people left behind.
36:44Do you think some people linger longer than others?
36:50I suppose it can feel like that sometimes.
36:54I think it's more in your imagination, isn't it? That sort of thing.
36:59I thought it helped.
37:02Worrying.
37:06Imagining what she did and didn't know when she got hit.
37:10What she went through, what she was thinking, however quick it was.
37:15So frightened she must have been, wondering what the hell was happening to her.
37:20And she was such a peaceful person. She was so calm, she was so kind.
37:24And then to die like that, so violently.
37:29It's just so...
37:33It's not in many years as how it should have happened to her.
37:36It's very unfair.
37:40But I'm afraid love life can be very unfair.
37:45You...
37:47It'll be tough for a while.
37:51But you'll come out the other side. You will.
37:55Eventually.
37:57You know you will.
38:01Cos you're...
38:03You're resilient.
38:06You're clever.
38:14Yeah.
38:29Oh, sweetheart.
38:45Did you take Janika some tea?
38:48Yes, I did.
38:50Is she all right?
38:52I think so.
38:54I've been thinking about options.
38:57I really don't want to give up my job. I'd resent it.
39:00And that wouldn't be good for either of us. Any of us, would it?
39:03No.
39:04Would it?
39:05No.
39:06And I can't go part-time as the headteacher. It's just...
39:09Not even for a few months?
39:11Well, not even for a few months.
39:13That's not fair on the school.
39:16Well, what was Kate going to do?
39:18Well, she was going to take a year off and then she was going to come back part-time.
39:22It's easier for teachers. It's completely different.
39:26And the thing is...
39:31She'd hate it if I employed a nanny whilst Flora's so tiny.
39:35Mm-hm.
39:37So, the thing is...
39:40I'll do what I can, though, for you, but...
39:44You know, with the best will in the world, I'm 76.
39:47I know. I wasn't...
39:50Sorry. I wasn't going to ask you to do anything full-time.
39:54But if I could balance a few options, could you...
39:58You and Alan, could you...
40:01I don't know.
40:03Do the odd...
40:05shift?
40:08Yes, yes, of course we could.
40:16Gillian and Robbie are getting married.
40:19We just had a text.
40:21Yes, I know. She told me last night.
40:23I think he could be a very good thing for her.
40:26She was married to his brother.
40:29Yeah. Well, not a herd of.
40:33No.
40:35Who's it?
40:37What's up?
40:40You don't fancy her, do you?
40:42Do you mind? Well, I just...
40:44We're friends. I know, right?
40:46Ish. She's not behaving like a twit.
40:51You know, people do have nannies from being this tiny.
40:55I know.
40:58It'll just be a matter of finding the right person.
41:02Gosh.
41:04Just say no. No.
41:05It's a stupid idea.
41:07No, it's...
41:09And you've got no reason to want to help me.
41:12No, it's intriguing.
41:15It just occurred to me because you seem to want to be involved
41:19after you lost... Yeah.
41:22Two deaths and...
41:25Yeah, yeah.
41:27Yeah.
41:30No, you're right. It's a stupid idea.
41:34I don't know why I thought of it. I get it.
41:37I could try and help you out, maybe.
41:42One afternoon a week for an hour or so.
41:46And then if Celia did a couple of days a week or more...
41:50She's 76.
41:52Sure. Sure.
41:56It's not...
41:59It's not really what Kate would have wanted me, is it?
42:05I mean, obviously I'd be happy to do the occasional, but...
42:10Realistically, on a regular basis, I don't think...
42:23You're still intending to buy a flat or something close by, aren't you?
42:27So you can spend more time with Lawrence.
42:29Sure. Sure.
42:31You actually started looking?
42:33Um... No.
42:37But I will.
42:40And I will help you, Caroline. I will.
42:42I'll do what I can. I'll help you out as often as I can.
42:45But I think...
42:47You've got to be realistic.
42:49You've been dealt a terrible blow. It's awful. It's...
42:53But the point is...
42:56You have to see that this is life-changing.
43:00And you can't pretend it isn't.
43:03You're either going to have to employ a full-time, proper person...
43:07Who knows how to look after people this tiny...
43:10Or give up your job. At least temporarily.
43:14I can't do that. I can't give up my job. I'll go mad.
43:20You're going to drive me to the station?
43:22Sure. I'll do it.
43:26Yes.
43:32Ring me, text me, and let me know you've got back safely.
43:36I'll look after you, son.
43:41Bye-bye, baby.
43:44She's your sister. You know that, don't you?
43:47You will think of her as your sister.
43:49Course I do.
43:51Course I will.
43:54See you. Bye-bye, love.
44:13Now what?
44:15God knows.
44:18You're doing really well, you know.
44:20No, I'm not.
44:21I think you are.
44:23Talking to myself, that's usually a sign of madness.
44:28You could always ring Greg.
44:30I'm not ringing Greg.
44:31You did offer.
44:32I'm not ringing Greg.
44:34Maybe he isn't as big a twerp as you think he is.
44:37I think as twerps go in the twerp department, Greg goes off the deep end.
44:41You just don't like him.
44:42No shit, Sherlock.
44:44Don't swear in front of Laura.
44:45Sorry.
44:46You never use that phrase anyway. You know that, don't you?
44:48Yeah.
44:50You do realise, as well, that Greg is the only person on the planet
44:57who's likely to feel as protective towards Laura as you and my mum do.
45:02What use is my mum going to be?
45:04She's winning it back to the States on Tuesday.
45:10Would you really hate it if I got a nanny?
45:12A good nanny. A really good, expensive, proper nanny.
45:15I wouldn't speak to you, Caroline.
45:16Look...
45:17If you've got Mary Poppins in your head, that nanny doesn't exist.
45:20Let me ring some of those numbers. We might both be pleasantly surprised.
45:23I promise, I promise I won't do anything you'd hate.
45:26Look, I love this kid too, not as much as you would have done,
45:29but I do, I do. I love her.
45:31And I will do everything I can for her, but I've got to deal with it all.
45:48What confuses me, though, Mother, if I'm being honest...
45:51Disingenuous.
45:53What does that mean?
45:54He knows.
45:56Is it less than two weeks ago, John stayed?
45:59Yeah, but nothing happened.
46:01We slept in your room.
46:02That doesn't mean out.
46:03Usually does.
46:05He crashed out, OK?
46:08I feel sorry for John.
46:10He's like a lost little...
46:13He's in his 60s.
46:15No, he isn't.
46:17Is he?
46:18What about Cheryl?
46:20You know about Cheryl.
46:22Cleared out and gone.
46:24Robbie only went with her in the first place
46:26because he was reacting against me being a...
46:28Being a...?
46:30Twit.
46:33So, you and John, that's all over and done with?
46:37I don't even like John anymore.
46:39Like forever?
46:40I'm not sure I ever did.
46:41Till next time.
46:42Well, no, I don't dislike him.
46:44I just think he brings out daft, stupid stuff in me
46:47and I don't want to be like that anymore.
46:49OK?
46:51Yeah, when Robbie's asked me and...
46:54You know...
46:55Well, you like him, I like him.
46:58It's a no-brainer.
47:00Right up your street, then.
47:01Oh, you're so funny.
47:03So witty, so sharp.
47:05Yep.
47:06He's got all cocky since he started working at Gary's.
47:09And God knows why.
47:10It's only a Saturday job.
47:11Cock up midden.
47:13It's so cool having an uncle who's the boss.
47:16People falling all over themselves being nice.
47:18To me.
47:19Cock a dunghill.
47:20Did you ring him?
47:21When have I had time?
47:22Oh, he said to ring him.
47:24And I don't want to hear any smart-ass, shit-stirring comments
47:27about John in front of Robbie, right?
47:30Hiya!
47:32Supper will be ready in a quarter of an hour.
47:34Fantastic.
47:35Perfect.
47:37Can I do anything? Set the table?
47:39No, you're all right, love, I've done it.
47:41Are we inviting Gary to wedding?
47:43Sure.
47:44No.
47:45Why not?
47:46Why aren't we?
47:47We might as well.
47:48I think he'd be a bit pissed off if you didn't invite him.
47:51Oh, dear.
47:52Why aren't we inviting him?
47:55I was joking.
47:57Of course we're inviting him.
47:59She don't like him.
48:00She's jealous of him.
48:01Why am I jealous of him?
48:03Being so successful.
48:04And nice.
48:05Yeah, whatever.
48:07Well, he knows about wedding anyway,
48:08because I've texted him and told him.
48:09And Grandad.
48:10I think Grandad were a bit bemused
48:12about how come you'd not told him yourself.
48:26Don't you like him, Gary?
48:28Of course I like him.
48:30Yeah, but what?
48:32Their son?
48:33I don't know.
48:34I don't know.
48:36I like her.
48:38Felicity.
48:39She's round the flaming twist.
48:43She's funny.
48:46What then?
48:51He's a good man.
48:53My dad.
48:55He made a mistake.
48:57He did something he shouldn't have.
48:59But I can't crucify him.
49:02Gary's great.
49:04What a lovely man.
49:06How lucky are we?
49:10I don't know.
49:15My dad's so fascinated by him.
49:18Like he's the successful, suave,
49:22wunderkind he should have always had.
49:25Rather than the feckless knob that he ended up with.
49:28Your dad's not said that.
49:29Of course he's not said it.
49:32Is that why you didn't text your dad either?
49:37Well, if it's any consolation,
49:40I think you're perfect.
49:48I'd better ring him.
49:50See what he wants.
50:02Mate.
50:03Sorry.
50:04It's okay.
50:06Can I have some tea?
50:10Thanks for meeting me.
50:11It's nice to see you.
50:12Is it?
50:14Why wouldn't it be?
50:15Well,
50:17Alan hasn't called me for two weeks.
50:19He's been in Harrogate.
50:20Yeah.
50:21It's all been pretty traumatic for everyone.
50:25Sure, but then you didn't ring me either.
50:28Till Sunday.
50:31Well, I've been a bit snowed under myself as well.
50:34Of course, of course.
50:35It's just that I'm paranoid.
50:37Are you?
50:38Not normally.
50:42How's Raf doing?
50:44Really well, yeah.
50:45He loves it.
50:46He's great.
50:47He's such a nice lad.
50:49Yeah, he can be,
50:50when he's not being a cocky little dick.
50:56I mean, listen,
50:57you haven't been getting on very well lately.
50:59Oh, really?
51:00Sorry, that's just...
51:01No.
51:02It's, I mean, since all this,
51:04it's probably all my fault.
51:06Why?
51:07What do you mean?
51:09I suddenly
51:12felt very angry
51:14after we'd been over for lunch the other Sunday.
51:17Why?
51:18How's Caroline?
51:20She's coping.
51:23Why did you feel angry?
51:24I don't know why.
51:27It's not...
51:28Angry with...
51:29With everything.
51:30Why my parents never told me.
51:33That's a conversation that I can never have with them now.
51:36Yeah, I know.
51:37I understand.
51:38I do understand,
51:39because I feel the same.
51:40And I'm remembering things,
51:41things that happened in the past,
51:42and I'm wondering whether
51:43they did think more about our Adam
51:45as my brother than they did about me.
51:47He's younger than...
51:48Yeah, yeah,
51:49and my dad was his dad,
51:50his proper dad.
51:51And I've never,
51:53never thought like this before.
51:55I've never felt angry or jealous before.
51:59Well, not like this.
52:00I know.
52:02It changes the past, almost,
52:04even though it doesn't.
52:06But it, yeah,
52:07it colours the past.
52:10And yeah, that's difficult, but...
52:11And then nobody rings me up
52:13after that Sunday.
52:15So I've got all this shit in my head about my real parents,
52:17and I'm thinking,
52:18oh, and now he doesn't really want to get to know me.
52:20No, that's...
52:21Yeah, but I'm the one who always has to do the ringing up.
52:23No, Gary, honestly,
52:25you're reading too much into it.
52:28It's been an odd few weeks.
52:30You're getting married?
52:33Yeah.
52:35You are invited.
52:37Really?
52:39Just ring me dad up
52:41if you're worried you've not heard from him.
52:43Yeah, but I'm...
52:44What?
52:45I don't.
52:46Him?
52:47Gary Jackson.
52:49Yeah, but that doesn't mean anything.
52:51I don't want to end up feeling like I'm being a nuisance all the time.
52:54My dad would never think like that.
52:57Your dad?
53:00Yeah, my dad.
53:01Your dad.
53:02Whatever.
53:03But he is interested in me, isn't he?
53:05Yes, absolutely.
53:06He thinks you're fantastic.
53:08And seedy like me.
53:10She loved you.
53:11Sorry.
53:13Don't.
53:14I'm not like this.
53:15It's just been such a shock, Gillian.
53:19It's like it's only just sunk in properly.
53:22I know.
53:23All the implications.
53:24I know, I do know.
53:25Sorry, I guess.
53:27I get obsessed and I look a bit weird about stuff.
53:29That's just me.
53:35Is she even bringing me some tea?
53:37Calm down.
53:38Yeah, yeah, yeah.
53:40Calm down.
53:42Okay.
53:56I'm going to email you the second I'm home.
53:58Yes, please do.
54:00And I'm going to be back for the summer.
54:02Good.
54:03For two whole weeks.
54:06And I'm going to bring you so much stuff.
54:10And then you and Mum.
54:14This month.
54:15Are going to visit me.
54:16We are.
54:17That's right.
54:20Celia.
54:23You have a safe journey.
54:25Ellen.
54:30You've both been so kind.
54:32And you keep in touch.
54:33With us two, as well as these two.
54:35I will.
54:36Of course I will.
54:39I love you.
55:10Are you all right?
55:12Yeah.
55:23Dr. Elliot?
55:26Holly?
55:27Is this...
55:28This is 46 Conway Drive.
55:30I'm looking for Dr. Mackenzie Dawson.
55:32Yes, that's me.
55:33Is it?
55:34Yeah, I...
55:35I got married.
55:37Gosh!
55:39Well...
55:40The agency sent me and I'm ten minutes early.
55:42But I can go away and come back if you like.
55:44No, no, no.
55:45Don't do that.
55:46But you went off to Sussex to read sociology.
55:48I dropped out.
55:49And the surname when the agency rang.
55:50That was...
55:51I dropped out and I got married too.
55:53And now I'm a nanny.
55:54I never wanted to go to Sussex.
55:56It was my parents.
55:57Bless them.
55:58And you.
55:59So ambitious for us all.
56:00But all I ever really wanted to do was this.
56:02And now it's what I am doing.
56:04And I couldn't be happier.
56:05Honestly.
56:06Oh, Holly.
56:07This is my mother and this is my stepfather.
56:10How do you do?
56:11Celia.
56:12Alan.
56:13Hello.
56:15This is Flora.
56:16Ah, I know.
56:17Flora.
56:18Oh, my goodness me.
56:19Aren't you pretty?
56:20What beautiful skin.
56:22I'm not a biological mother.
56:24Did, um...
56:25Did the agency explain my situation to you?
56:27No.
56:28Not...
56:29Not entirely.
56:31Would you like some tea?
56:33I'd love some tea.
56:35Come inside.
56:37What a gorgeous house.
56:39Gosh, look at those irises.
56:41That's my absolute number one favourite colour.
56:43Wow.
56:44Is that your car?
56:46Oh, no.
56:47It's really good for you.
56:49I think if I could choose a car, I'd choose that one.
56:51Seriously.
56:52Except we're scared to drive it.
56:53I think I'd just rather look at it.
56:56Gosh, that's a nice hallway.
57:00Today we might take a picnic to Nairnspress.
57:02We've just had a phone call from the police in Bradford.
57:04They've got Flora.
57:05The police have got Flora?
57:06I told you I didn't want a baby.
57:08I said I didn't want a baby.
57:10I'm lying.
57:11Saying I never told anyone.
57:13Hi, this is Greg.
57:14Hi.
57:15Bye.
57:16It's less than six weeks since Kate died.
57:18Well...
57:19Are you seriously asking me that question?
57:21Then you've failed.
57:22Oh, you're gonna take this the wrong way.
57:35I'm sorry.
57:36I'm sorry.
57:37I'm sorry.
57:38I'm sorry.
57:39I'm sorry.
57:40I'm sorry.
57:41I'm sorry.
57:42I'm sorry.
57:43I'm sorry.
57:44I'm sorry.
57:45I'm sorry.
57:46I'm sorry.
57:47I'm sorry.
57:48I'm sorry.
57:49I'm sorry.
57:50I'm sorry.
57:51I'm sorry.
57:52I'm sorry.
57:53I'm sorry.
57:54I'm sorry.
57:55I'm sorry.
57:56I'm sorry.
57:57I'm sorry.
57:58I'm sorry.
57:59I'm sorry.
58:00I'm sorry.
58:01I'm sorry.
58:02I'm sorry.
58:03I'm sorry.