Beck has returned to share a 2024 update and is ready to open up about the relationship with Amberlynn. Some topics that come up include the stress of the GoFundMe situation surrounding Beck’s mom, current relationship with Eric and Rickie, Amberlynn pressuring Beck into a relationship in 2017, the engagement and breakup of 2021, the hunger for money, Wifey’s introduction to the Amberverse and their apartment, the pets they shared and Amberlynn’s lack of connection to Rarity, Amberlynn’s ultra strength and mobility, and finally Beck’s fast track to marriage.
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00:00what do i think of amber calling me money hungry and trying to capitalize on my live streams that's
00:05what she was doing with me like the whole time will becky appear in future videos when she moves yes
00:12yeah i'm probably gonna have my own videos by then i was being used
00:16for live streams you want to read some now yeah okay i'm gonna take a little break
00:23will you read some yeah a second i'm feeling distracted no you can read some
00:30know why you're distracted that's a lie all right becky it's now on you i've officially closed it
00:35oh so now it's just up to you however long you want to stay on um i got stuff i gotta do so how
00:40about three minutes three minute moment three minutes guys uh amberlynn just peaced out on y'all
00:46becky's hello time i'm dead i've been doing this the whole time i'm proud of myself okay if you
00:50only want to hear from becky this isn't the channel to be at because this is my channel
00:53yeah this is amberlynn reed and that ties into the next question did i ever get paid from the
00:58live streams i did with her no i didn't this is the most awk live stream i've ever seen becky's in
01:02a weird headspace but no this is her job now i'm doing something y'all i pay her monthly now
01:07i'm doing something i'm proud of myself and i'm proud of her it is what it is she helped me with
01:12this like it honestly hands down if it wasn't for becky i don't know if i could continue live
01:17streams like she honestly helps me like it feels like a comfort thing too and i don't get as much
01:23anxiety and i'm able to like take breaths and like so she helps me a lot and she deserves to
01:27be paid so okay i have to read this good evening every to everyone except becky lol jk but here's
01:33my question how is it that becky dumps amber but has an entire audacity to still become a paid
01:38employee of hers that's messed up well well if you know how much i paid her you wouldn't think
01:41it was messed up pay becky to sell them since you're her boss now so what it's true what are
01:47we talking about my clothes that's actually a really good point becky what you did sooner if
01:51money wasn't a thing money is still not a thing it's never been a thing yeah because with what i
01:58pay her she could literally live by herself and literally i don't know what that noise was that
02:02was weird that's literally what i'm paying her i'm proud of my accomplishments ma'am man i said ma'am
02:10i said man i'm not a man well becky still did the lives when she moves out no can we talk about that
02:16camera because i'll still pay you don't you want extra all you do is sit here and talk
02:24i don't know man we need to find a contract see what i'm like real professional with this
02:28we'll see what i'm up to because i know how you'll get to you'll be like
02:34i don't have items and i need you to go to the store to get them amberlynn it's like 11 o'clock
02:40i'm tired so i'm your boss that's a fucking law she just lied i'm just saying i don't want to be
02:48like that she's lying it's not me when i'm like becky has been there when i and she tries to help
02:57me sorry i'm like i get mad i got mad because obviously i don't drive and i don't even know
03:09if this is something i want to be honest about but it's like
03:14i just get very angry if i don't get my way during a and i feel like i'm being
03:19possessed by somebody because it's not who i am and i remember after the which was
03:28i regret it but i remember after the becky was like you were really mean to me because i kept
03:33saying no and i was like i don't even remember that i'm not like that like when i'm not do you
03:42get what i mean i'm upset that i did that but then it's like i'm also proud that it's only been twice
03:49this month oh my goodness it's my favorite she's just lying all through through this live stream
03:54like wanting that was hypothetical you still paying becky for lives yes amber how are you
03:59gonna live stream without becky she's not gonna be in some because i'm literally paying you yeah
04:04like that's some part of her income you know i mean eventually whenever i like move out and stuff
04:08i don't think i can i can but you know she said that all of that money had to go toward all the
04:14bills honestly it's because amberlynn thinks i'm just so fun and everybody thinks i'm just so cool
04:21and they love me that that's why she pays me to be on the live show oh no no no it's true i told
04:28becky i'm just so cool that she has to pay half the bills i'm the best person in the world
04:34okay who married i told becky she has to pay half the bills and that's that that's on that because
04:40we're not together anymore so i chose to make her a i chose to make myself a boss
04:49i'm joking the only thing she does the only thing she does is live stream like she doesn't do
04:52anything else she just sits on these live streams with me because it helps i know you guys love her
04:55and the vibe and the whatever's and it helps me maybe i'm being selfish i really don't care
05:01but it helps her to do in the long run let's be real yeah so and it's not a permanent thing this
05:04is just no for now def not i just i don't know i didn't want becky to come on here and be doing
05:11it for free i didn't feel right with that if it wasn't for our lease then no we probably would be
05:19more actively trying to move on with our lives right amber do you want becky to move out asap no
05:26i hope she can move out like i hope that she waits until the lease is up i have no problem with her
05:30being here it's crazy like i get it i get it you know i will start doing my own lives please do
05:36please do man then that means i'm gonna have to do not only your lives but my own lives that's
05:41a lot of lives that's a lot of money it is it's a lot of lives though it's a lot of working i don't
05:45even know how much she got i have no idea i don't even know how much i was supposed to get if i was
05:50supposed to get half i have no idea i was just told you do these live streams with me you'll get
05:54money but then she was like you gotta pay bills so no i didn't see anything from it how did i support
06:00or inspire becky i mean i did support her i'm sure i didn't inspire her in any sort of way
06:06at all you should give becky money anyway you're the reason she had to quit her job she never wanted
06:10to be on youtube since the beginning can you answer that please what was it you should give
06:14becky okay anyway you were the reason she had to quit her job she never wanted to be on youtube
06:18since the beginning um it was hard coming on youtube for sure and being part of it especially
06:26whenever you know people started getting really personal and trying to get into my family life and
06:30whatnot but um we overcame that my job was physically taxing uh i worked in a factory
06:37and i have knee problems and back problems and i know it has to do with the really bad
06:43wreck i was in my weight and the job i was doing so actually doing youtube with amberlynn
06:53helped with the whole you know i'm not breaking my back for a dollar
06:57type of deal because like i'm seeing all over now these fast food places oh we'll
07:02hire you at fourteen dollars an hour and i'm like i was busting my butt for 12 hours a night
07:07at a hot factory getting splinters all up in my hands and stuff breathing in sawdust for 11
07:14dollars and 15 cents are you kidding me yeah her job was hard to say hard and i thought
07:22i could support you i love you i'm in love with you so why not why not like when i'm in a
07:28relationship with someone that's just how i am i'm just very giving and like especially when i like
07:34fall in love with you like yeah i feel like i don't feel like i give too much to be honest
07:42but that's just how i am like that's my love language like my output i'm also very affectionate
07:46and i also really love words i love it all but i just like i don't know i just always want to
07:52do things for the person i'm in love with so i did feel like i couldn't see my family as often
07:58as i was led to believe at the beginning when she told me to quit my job that i would be able
08:04to see my family more becky are you considering starting memberships on your channel um
08:10i don't know because i mean i don't want it to make i don't want to make it hard on people who
08:13can't afford it that's the only thing that's making me like i don't know if you can't if
08:17someone can't afford it then they they won't afford it like they won't do it you know give
08:21people opportunity who can't afford it like he's leaving like no no bye guys i'm sorry i think
08:26whenever we broke up and i moved out i think she gave me like a hundred to two hundred dollars and
08:31that's how i ended up getting the u-haul i think something like that um did you let her spend your
08:36money freely i did because i believed that the money that i made was also hers because a we were
08:41in a relationship b she was in some of my videos and it just made the most sense to me no she did
08:46not have an allowance how many shirts do you think becky bought while with you for the whole four
08:49years tell me why i was thinking that same question like two days ago i saw this a meme
08:54moment on facebook where it said why can't we get like taxes back for all the money we spent on our
08:59exes and when i tell you i lol'd because it's so true like i was sitting there and i was just
09:03like you know how much money i would have if i got like that money back like it's just like a funny
09:06meme okay calm down um i was thinking about her shirts too which is so funny because she collects
09:11shirts i love it for her this isn't a bad thing like please don't take this it's just funny
09:14i love it yeah it's such a lie oh my god that is not becky has a go fund me for car needs am i
09:20gonna donate um am i gonna donate to her go fund me no whenever i broke up with my last girlfriend
09:27my ex you guys know who that is hi i pretty much started fresh started brand new she decided that
09:33we would split bills so all of my live stream money went to the bills so i didn't actually
09:37have any of that to fall back on um she did give me 300 but that also went to um some bills and
09:43that was obvious i believe and that was the last time i did a live with her i was encouraged by a
09:47few people who knew of my situation to make a go fund me and so i did that i knew the possibility
09:52of people turning it into something that it's not and i didn't respond the way that i should have i
09:56responded defensively responding defensively and angrily is something i am personally working on
10:01and i'm sorry for doing that i felt attacked and back into corners and people judging my character
10:06saying i scammed people that i didn't use the money as intended whenever i made this go fund
10:10me it was a shot in the dark all i knew was that my car wasn't doing so hot i hadn't had it looked
10:14at yet but i knew there was something wrong with it so i knew i was going to need help and people
10:18were willing to help and so so appreciative of that because had it not been for that i don't
10:21know what i would have done i'm doing a lot better now there were some commissions that i like
10:25finished and they backed out on some job opportunities that fell through it's just been a really
10:30hard last few years i just keep feeling like i just keep getting kicked and kicked and kicked
10:34that's just what it feels like just constantly being kicked that being said when i made the go
10:39fund me i randomly put in 2000 because i was thinking sure that could get me something my nephew
10:43he is a mechanic he actually ran diagnostics on it after all was said and done he was like okay
10:47it's definitely the o2 sensor he's like there's some other codes popping up but we're gonna start
10:50with the o2 sensor because he knew my financial struggles he knew that i wasn't doing okay this
10:55job market i know so many people who have tried to put in places even people with college degrees
10:59and can't get jobs i had a friend who had a dent like a dental assistant degree and couldn't get a
11:03job for that these people these places say that they're hiring but they don't want to call i was
11:07sat back i stopped using all of uh amberlynn's like netflix hulu hbo max i don't have to pay
11:12that stuff anymore um i do still owe for um one month of netflix but it's not that pressing and
11:16i don't have that extra money right now um but i had paid it in the past from my live stream money
11:20and whatnot of course because that's what you do whenever you are splitting bills with someone so
11:25with certain money prospects falling through i was left scrambling and made the go fund me
11:30i'm not did i send her money last night on venmo to help her yes i did because i feel like i i
11:36don't know i feel like if i don't like okay if i have someone in my life who needs help and like i
11:42have the means to help them to like a certain extent like i'm not trying to have you use me
11:46because trust me i've had people in my life who can use me i'm not about that then i'm gonna like
11:52help you know obviously but i personally don't want to talk about this anymore i don't want to
11:57talk about becky's financial i don't want to talk about my financial i don't want to talk about
12:00anything regarding that like it's actually nobody's business that's no one's business that is no one's
12:03business when you really like think about it boils down to being no one's business
12:09yeah that's such a lie oh my god that is not yeah um but
12:17no i'm definitely not money hungry for trying to do my own live streams that was just i had periods
12:25where i wanted to come back and i had all these great ideas i still have videos on my phone of
12:30like um ghost adventures hiking me and my sister went to uh the natural arch i've got videos from
12:36that that i haven't uploaded i became so depressed i couldn't even work anymore my sister and logan
12:41had to take care of me they were the only ones who were were there for me during that period of time
12:47no i wouldn't say i was money hungry money is still not a thing it's never been a thing feel
12:53to be replaced by wifey so quickly did i know amber has admitted to talking to wifey before
12:58your breakup what are your thoughts on this i honestly didn't care that i was replaced so quickly
13:04because i was already over her before the breakup even happened it was like you know just whenever
13:10i realized that i wanted to break up with her it was relief and after we broke up it was just even
13:15more relief and it was just like you know now that the focus is off of me that's just where i was
13:20with that and i don't care that she was talking to her before their breakup because it's like you
13:25know maybe she sensed it wasn't gonna last and i did too like you know we had no business getting
13:31engaged i don't look at it as emberlyn is moving on already what do you look at look at it as
13:41you should have been broke up a long time ago oh i'm talking about loyal with everything i'm
13:46talking about i get that card no no you weren't loyal to me yes i was emotionally yeah i wasn't
13:52with anyone i'm not i'm not spilling my secrets and everything being shady towards me saying things
13:59i'm telling people things i don't want them to know same thing i'm gonna eat your finger i hope
14:02you do we moved on from each other before we broke up yes point blank period the end so everyone
14:07thinking constantly that i've moved on so quickly it's like we done we're already moved on we just
14:11were stuck so yeah well the rest of the thing said uh wifey was already deeming her just to turn
14:17around and claiming that she never really was in love with becky and how she faked all of it
14:20i don't think that's what she said though it's not what happened it's not what i said
14:24amberlynn the amount of times you've lied is staggering you never loved becky your own actions
14:28have proved how much you gotta read this stuff bro somebody told you ignore the the mean superchats
14:34did wifey message you before after the breakup after i thought wifey was a troll for a long time
14:40okay and she knows that when she first messaged me she said that she didn't really know who i was
14:45she didn't know i had a youtube channel and stuff like that but it turns out she did know
14:50and she didn't want me to think that she was a troll which i totally understand like she didn't
14:54she also didn't want me to think that she was talking to me just because i'm like amberlynn
14:57reid or whatever um so yeah she did know about my youtube um i don't consider her a liar like
15:05i understand where she is coming from like a hundred percent because like i do think everyone's
15:11a troll i really do like everyone is a troll she could still be trolling who knows even though
15:14we're on facetime like 24 7 but um it is what it is you guys can yeah think what you want but
15:23how did wifey know to message you about romance if she didn't watch your channel first you said
15:27she didn't know about your channel how did she find your insta that's kind of like a longer story
15:32so let's just not get into it so you don't at all question the motives of someone hitting on
15:35you the very day you announced your breakup it wasn't the very day it was like two weeks
15:42wait yeah it was about 12 days after we broke up dang you have that memo because we just looked
15:46it up yesterday yeah i couldn't remember the date i broke up with you yeah it was like two weeks
15:50after this timeline isn't adding up becky broke up with me on the 26th 27th the 27th i guess i'm
16:01gonna go ahead and just say it um we had broke up it happened sunday and it was initiated by me
16:11i'm breaking up with you i can't do this anymore whatever i'm over it i'm over it too i'm done
16:17you're seeing the breakup right now you didn't get this with destiny i got a message from this girl
16:24on the 9th and we didn't start like we were just like talking like friends like i have a lot of
16:28friends on instagram that i talk to now and um that's all it was and then just like slowly you
16:33know i ended up giving her my cell phone number and we were just like friends and then slowly
16:37feelings grow like it just happens like i don't understand what's the issue like if i'm happy why
16:42are you guys tripping like for real people are really harassing her who don't ever let them know
16:46who who wifey is yeah you guys are crazy like hands down person i'm talking to is five years younger
16:54than me i'm literally 30 and she's 25 so i don't know where that rumor started so
17:02love that gross can wifey explain why she lied about knowing amber are you sure wifey isn't
17:06using you no no because she didn't even she said that she didn't even know about my youtube channel
17:14so and i believe her how long has wifey been watching you um i don't know i think like last
17:22year or something she saw some videos of mine with her friend it's because she didn't want me
17:26to think she was a troll even though i already thought she was a troll because i was like how
17:29can someone this attractive like like me it's so weird someone said look up love addiction you have
17:33all the symptoms i'm looking this up i'm looking this up there's a such thing hold on love addiction
17:39symptoms i'm living for this is this really a thing confuses love with obsession
17:47did you hear that one no because you know what i mean she always says you're obsessed with me
17:51yeah okay that one that one's funny having litter and no boundaries becomes obsessed desperate
17:57whatever i'd rather be obsessed with love or addicted to love than something else i don't
18:04have any of these symptoms love is just indescribable like i don't even know how to explain it
18:09but it feels so good especially like when you love someone and they like genuinely love you back
18:14that's a good feeling yeah becky wish i could show you real love
18:18i'll i'll experience someday amber have you ever been a single adult without a romantic
18:23interest if not does that concern you um i'm single right now
18:31so yeah i'm single right now so yeah she is single and ready to mingle aren't we all i'm just gonna
18:37let you answer for just a little bit is that okay becky i found someone that makes me happy
18:43like we're not in a relationship but amber how do you always find a new girlfriend
18:46they always message me they always message me i was watching a random video and amberlynn
18:52was in the suggestions and i'm like okay sure the comments were so freaking terrible i'm like god
18:56this girl's gonna kill herself i'll kill you i messaged her and i'm like you're so pretty and
19:00beautiful and that's how we started talking she talked me into finally meeting up because i was
19:04super nervous about it i really wanted to meet you wifey maybe one day will be my girlfriend
19:08messaged me i don't know they just messaged me and then we vibe and then the rest is history so
19:13amberlynn any other positive updates in your life okay positive updates losing weight
19:18no seeing a therapist tomorrow i'm in love i'm just joking
19:26just kidding she is single and ready to mingle um what else just happy
19:34yeah i'm just happy like what is going on i'm just a happy person lately so love that for me
19:41pasta is good that's really freaking rude you can't sit there and tell me i have low standards
19:46because i dated amberlynn this is high standards she said high standards she she is high maintenance
19:53she is um really pretty uh becky is really funny you know she's got a lot going for her
20:01why is that low standards um well as somebody i take compliments so awkward
20:09i'm so awkward thank you i appreciate that becky you're welcome so do you agree or disagree that
20:13becky was an enabler i'm just gonna say how i feel and i'm gonna say yes she was 100 i would
20:18support her and her thoughts and what she wanted to do and her diets and stuff i was always like
20:23you know trying to push her to stick to it and all this stuff but whenever she made up her mind
20:27i knew i couldn't change her mind so i just allowed her to fail instead of forcing her
20:33and this person seems to be able to get in here and make everything make sense it's more so like
20:39she's getting into here oh like she's literally like getting into my like i can't explain it and
20:44i'm just whatever because people judge me becky knows she sees yeah you see how me and her vibe
20:50yeah you guys vibe really good i know and i could tell you one thing right now if i was anything
20:54like the way that you guys thought i was wifey would not be with me that she's not she she has
20:59plans in her life wifey meal prepped for me well us and i'm just like why are you so perfect you
21:05guys genuinely every day we get closer like becky you need to eat sorry i'm just like so
21:13wait what are you talking about over there huh i wasn't even listening to you what were you talking
21:17about i have no one's listening to me i'm in my own little like a land right now are you all right
21:20are you i'm fine i'm great okay fantabulous she looks fantabulous
21:30what kind of food did wifey meal prep that's sweet i don't know but man it smells so good
21:34i was in my bedroom like chicken salad moments not like not chicken salad with like mayo and
21:40stuff it's the lettuce i was gonna say veggies with chicken then she makes this honey garlic
21:45chicken that's probably what i was smelling oh it's so good and she did like um draw a blank
21:50but yeah just really healthy meals because i really want to order food out but it's better
21:55just not to like if she tells me no like i can't do it because have you noticed i like always
22:02listen to her yeah to be honest it's that you act like wifey is so much better you act like
22:07becky did nothing for you and act like you never cared about her and learn respect it's not that
22:10i literally sit here and i tell you guys i love becky and i care for becky she is literally family
22:15to me i'm not trying to act like anyone's better than anyone it's i think that maybe you're reading
22:21into it too much becky has been there for me for over four years and she supported me in ways that
22:27wifey has not and wifey has supported me in ways that becky hasn't i mean it's not that hard to
22:31understand and to communicate and if becky had a girlfriend and she was saying the same thing i
22:35would be like you're totes right i think that people are just reading into it too hard um
22:40i don't know what else to say about it why did becky move out so fast i miss her
22:44um you don't have to ask her that the reason i suddenly decided to move is because it doesn't
22:48serve my higher being staying where i am at now it's just i keep getting caught in these weird
22:54situations where it's like i can't go home yet you know becky moved in with rafe reviews and
23:01rafe is just fine being in the spotlight hello everyone and let's get started let's do it
23:10i love rafe race my friend so um i can see becky moving reviews i can see that because
23:16it adds more entertainment becky is saving herself for me so we can break that dry spill
23:21she hasn't been dry
23:22shut up okay wait no you know how bad i want to say something but i won't for you you're not i
23:32won't for you in the name of twinkie you can get your hand off of me right now and hush wait you
23:39don't like my hand no more well because i know what you're trying to talk about over there y'all
23:44a hootenberry happened and i will not tell you the hootenberry happened but i give it about a
23:47month and she'll let me oh so just be holding on then it just happened too soon it was like a few
23:52ever let it slip i will fight for custody for twinkie and she'll be mine her face okay would
23:59you have taken rarity and twinkie the animals if i could do i miss them have you ever seen
24:04amber mistreating them i would have taken the animals if i could have we talked about me taking
24:09i think rarity at first because we didn't know she'd be able to take them if she was gonna move
24:13but she ended up not moving at the time and not needing me to take one of them so i didn't really
24:20get to and you know it was really hard at first but i mean it's a whole lot better now have i seen
24:27her mistreat them no it's just like you know she has a hard time taking care of herself sometimes
24:34like i've struggled with that too there were times that she wasn't taking care of them and it would
24:39all fall on me and then there was that one year where i couldn't take care of myself this is my
24:4529th birthday i don't remember anything about it
24:51the completed food slice of cornbread the soup beans i like putting raw onion on mine it tastes
24:57so good happy birthday to you look at her going in all right becky you ready yeah eric almost fell
25:10what happened babe my face fell apart
25:19she looks happy and it's sugar free thank you brave hopefully you like it
25:29i don't remember any of it so i know they probably weren't being taken care
25:32of exactly as they should have been but other than that no they were never hurt
25:36i think she's gonna want you okay take her that's currently happening
25:42do you want to get her if you want me to have i seen amber have incidents with me or anyone
25:49no she didn't but i always wondered if she had been more mobile maybe she would have amber never
25:56gets up or moves anymore would you like to reply to that comment she cleaned the house
26:02while i was gone like of course i cleaned the house no i mean like you deep clean becky doesn't
26:09want to repeat at the time your mobility cart broke down in walmart and you started yelling
26:12at her for being in the bathroom and not getting you a new scooter asap hey asap you guys know how
26:15i use a scooter in the stores so we were at target last night and my scooter died
26:21my scooter literally died and i was just like okay okay this is cool and we were way in the
26:28christmas area so that's way in the back i'm like okay hmm interesting what am i gonna do
26:34becky had actually went to the bathroom so i ended up texting her literally i have the text message
26:40let me read it to you this is like literally so true hold on my friend text me so many texts okay
26:45i said this is like so embarrassing i could like die from this i said my cart died can you bring
26:53me another and she was just like okay and i was like this sucks i'm literally just stuck in an
26:58aisle with my scooter in your cart because she had a car and i was using a scooter and she's like i'm
27:05trying but the bathroom was farther than i thought it was and i was like someone just made an annoying
27:09sound like they saw me like they were shocked at how fat i am which is true um it was so embarrassing
27:15i do get a lot more stares and more mean gestures now that i've gained you know weight she replied
27:23with ignore that and i was like i did i ended up getting out of the scooter there was actually a
27:29worker near me who was putting up christmas stuff putting more christmas stuff out on the shelf she
27:34was actually really really nice she was like you know if that cart's dead or that scooter's dead
27:38you can just you know leave it there and i was like oh okay so i ended up getting out of the
27:45scooter taking becky's cart and i was waiting for her and i think it was up most about
27:52five or six minutes and i couldn't breathe my back was hurting it was just kind of felt like
27:58i stood up you know and i was holding like all this weight on me and it just kept getting harder
28:05and harder and harder to hold that is just like the best way to describe it i was just like please
28:10hurry my back because a lot of people like you can walk in the store you don't need a scooter
28:15i do i've gotten to the point where i need a scooter so yeah that's never happened
28:22that's a situation that truly did happen you better get off her
28:29people are gonna think i'm serious that's why i'm not even flinching because i'm just like
28:33amberlynn just tried to hit becky no she didn't
28:43like back in the day you were really kind of crazy in moments you know what do you mean
28:47you know me and you we had our crazy moments i would have told them amber i mean i would
28:52have told her amberlynn was bipolar same yeah but so she yeah see so it's so perfect but it's so
28:59perfect jade was verbally abusive to her jade had like pushed her to the floor and flipped on her
29:05because she landed on jade's clothes basket and then she claims that she had to pull a knife out
29:10of jade's hand she choked jade she slapped jade she tore up jade's work desk did jade and amber
29:16really have a mutual breakup or did jade initiate the whole thing uh personally i just think jade
29:21was fed up with everything and was like i don't really care about the narrative that you tell
29:26your audience i just want to get out of here but either of you change anything from your
29:31relationship no no i guess everything happened the way it's supposed to yep show did how i'm doing now
29:40i am doing very well i am extremely happy i have a life completely different than the life i had
29:49the last time i talked to you guys you know you get that feeling where you just want to up and
29:54leave and start over well that's kind of what i did i up and left and started over and i'm engaged
30:00to the love of my life and i'm happy for the first time in a really really long time it's nice to
30:07wake up and not feel so depressed like i used to it's a great feeling to feel like life is
30:14mattering and like what i'm doing what i'm going to work for matters as far as healing and recovering
30:21my self-esteem yeah i do feel like i am healing i still have a hard time with you know my mom
30:29especially you know it being not too long ago that it was the anniversary i've definitely
30:34definitely already healed from everything in my past
30:40like i'm nothing none of it hurts anymore i'm completely over things tell us about the new
30:46girlfriend i hope she treats you well um i will tell you about my fiancee uh she treats me very
30:53well she treats me the best i've ever been treated in a relationship ever it's actually kind of um
31:01culture shocky in a way that you know i didn't know that i could feel the way that i do as strongly
31:08as i do it's definitely a very nice feeling and it's definitely nice to feel like i deserve her
31:15she makes me very happy i'm different now she says she's different now
31:45you
32:15you
32:45you
32:50would either of y'all be with people with kids i love kids so yeah probably
32:55that's a hard one for me i'm really good with kids has emily's daughter met amber yet
32:59no but they facetime it seems like every time i get into a relationship
33:03like i just go downhill does that make sense
33:16do we did not just do that at the same time
33:21quirky