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00:02:14 >> I'm not sure you should be.
00:02:16 >> I'm fine.
00:02:17 Much better.
00:02:19 >> Okay, but do you have somewhere you can go?
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00:02:41 >> AIT.
00:02:43 >> Hi. I'm, I'm here for the meeting.
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00:02:54 >> Come on, come on.
00:02:56 Hand them over.
00:02:58 Dave, so glad you could make it.
00:03:00 Good to see you.
00:03:01 >> Well, it's not like I'm each of a fucking choice, is it?
00:03:04 >> Come on, Henry.
00:03:05 You know the rules.
00:03:06 >> Okay, speak to you later.
00:03:09 >> Henry, do we have to do this every week?
00:03:13 >> I don't know.
00:03:14 Do we?
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00:03:35 >> Cara, this is a surprise.
00:03:38 >> Hey, Ellen.
00:03:40 Been a while.
00:03:41 >> After last time, I honestly didn't think we'd see you again.
00:03:46 >> Didn't think I'd be welcome.
00:03:47 >> Depends.
00:03:48 You planning on causing trouble?
00:03:50 >> It's been a rough night.
00:03:52 >> More than that, I'd say.
00:03:54 >> I just wanted somewhere to come get my head straight.
00:03:56 If you don't want me here, then whatever.
00:03:59 >> Jesus.
00:04:01 Grab yourself a coffee, find somewhere to sit.
00:04:03 We start in 20.
00:04:04 And hey, don't make me regret this.
00:04:08 >> Thanks.
00:04:10 >> Takes nothing to fall off the wagon.
00:04:12 And a lot to walk back through that door.
00:04:14 Figure anyone with that much courage is worth my time.
00:04:18 >> Right.
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00:05:47 >> This shit.
00:05:49 Every week, this fucking shit.
00:05:54 You done?
00:05:58 Eddie, I said, are you done?
00:06:04 Eddie, I'm fucking talking to you.
00:06:08 >> Sorry.
00:06:09 I didn't mean to --
00:06:10 >> It's all right.
00:06:11 Just a spilt drink.
00:06:12 It happens.
00:06:14 Right?
00:06:18 Fucking junkies.
00:06:20 Wasting my time.
00:06:25 I had a commotion.
00:06:27 Figured it might be you.
00:06:30 >> Seth?
00:06:31 Sobriety suits you.
00:06:34 Who the fuck is that guy?
00:06:36 >> Dave.
00:06:38 Yeah, I don't mind him.
00:06:40 Used to be police.
00:06:42 Maybe still is.
00:06:44 He's probably busted everyone in the room at some point.
00:06:47 >> Yeah, I remember him.
00:06:49 >> Really?
00:06:50 What did he get you on?
00:06:52 >> Shoplifting.
00:06:54 And assaulting a police officer.
00:06:56 >> Jesus.
00:06:57 >> I know.
00:06:58 >> Well, now, here he is, sitting opposite you in a frigging circle.
00:07:04 Addiction, a great equalizer, right?
00:07:10 What about you, Eddie?
00:07:12 Thought you cleaned up.
00:07:14 >> I have.
00:07:15 I've just not been feeling too well.
00:07:17 I don't think I've calmed down with something.
00:07:19 >> Whatever, man.
00:07:20 Listen, if Ellen catches you, you're going to be out on your ass.
00:07:23 Okay?
00:07:26 Go.
00:07:27 Get straightened out.
00:07:28 I'll cover for you, all right?
00:07:44 You've all been there.
00:07:46 Trying your hardest, but the only time people seem to notice is when you're fucking up.
00:07:53 He'll get there.
00:07:56 >> Yeah.
00:07:58 >> Thank you.
00:08:02 Helps with the aches.
00:08:08 >> Thanks.
00:08:11 >> How long you been on the script?
00:08:14 >> A couple of weeks.
00:08:16 >> How much they got you on?
00:08:18 >> Not enough.
00:08:20 >> That sounds about right.
00:08:23 Look, it's tough, but try and get by about it.
00:08:31 So what's going on, Kay?
00:08:34 It's six months no one hears from you and then you just rock up.
00:08:39 What are you using?
00:08:42 >> Just a watch.
00:08:43 Nothing serious.
00:08:45 >> Just hospital serious, right?
00:08:48 Yeah, you don't use when you're on the script.
00:08:51 You of all people should know that.
00:08:53 >> Yeah, okay.
00:08:54 Okay, I fucked up.
00:08:56 I thought I could handle it and I couldn't.
00:08:57 Lesson learned.
00:08:58 >> Yeah?
00:08:59 What's the difference this time?
00:09:01 >> This time?
00:09:03 I want it.
00:09:06 I need it.
00:09:10 >> Come on.
00:09:12 Better get back inside, yeah?
00:09:16 >> Hey, Seth.
00:09:21 Do you ever think about stuff?
00:09:29 >> I don't think I've done you any good.
00:09:58 >> I'm sorry.
00:10:06 >> See your back already hanging off, Seth?
00:10:08 >> It's not like that.
00:10:10 >> Yeah, whatever.
00:10:12 He's been working really hard.
00:10:14 He's doing his steps.
00:10:15 The last thing he needs is distraction.
00:10:17 >> I guess you're the expert.
00:10:20 How long have you been clean now?
00:10:23 Red for 90 days.
00:10:25 Blue for six months, right?
00:10:27 What's black for?
00:10:29 Two years.
00:10:31 Any advice?
00:10:33 Don't get ahead of yourself.
00:10:35 I doubt you'll even be here next week.
00:10:40 Okay, let's get started.
00:10:45 Is everybody here?
00:10:49 God damn it, Annie.
00:10:51 You know some of us actually have places to be tonight.
00:11:07 >> All right, everyone.
00:11:09 Up on your feet.
00:11:10 Let's do this.
00:11:11 Come on.
00:11:33 >> I know we stand.
00:11:36 To know the difference.
00:11:46 >> We've all done things we're not proud of.
00:11:51 Those who have them, get out your lists.
00:11:54 Go on.
00:11:56 Hold them up in the air.
00:11:59 This is it.
00:12:01 All the people we've hurt.
00:12:03 People we knew.
00:12:05 People who cared for us.
00:12:08 People we'll never see again.
00:12:12 Knowing that is not enough.
00:12:14 We need to be ready to take the next step.
00:12:16 To make amends.
00:12:19 Tough, right?
00:12:22 Probably the toughest thing you've done.
00:12:24 But not the toughest thing you're going to do.
00:12:26 >> We're going to have to make good on it.
00:12:28 >> Yes.
00:12:29 But don't worry.
00:12:31 We're not there yet.
00:12:32 This is the past.
00:12:34 And recovery isn't just about the past.
00:12:36 It can be about the here and now.
00:12:38 About the future.
00:12:39 All right.
00:12:41 Tag meeting.
00:12:43 We're going to go around the group.
00:12:45 I don't want to hear the bad.
00:12:46 I want to hear the good.
00:12:48 I want to hear one thing.
00:12:50 One good thing you've all done recently.
00:12:52 Hey, come on.
00:12:55 It's 200 steps across that parking lot.
00:12:58 200.
00:13:00 These 12 should be a piece of cake.
00:13:03 Come on.
00:13:04 Who's up?
00:13:14 >> I've been helping out with my sister quite a bit.
00:13:18 She's got a kid.
00:13:20 And the dad's long gone.
00:13:21 You know?
00:13:22 So I've been taking him on evenings.
00:13:25 Playing football with him and that.
00:13:28 It's not much.
00:13:30 It doesn't pay the bills or anything.
00:13:32 But it's something.
00:13:35 I guess.
00:13:36 So, yeah.
00:13:41 Tag?
00:13:44 >> Okay.
00:13:46 Last week I had my first supervised visit with my son.
00:13:53 He's been living with his grandma.
00:13:55 I hadn't seen him for two months.
00:13:58 For about three years.
00:14:01 So I was nervous about going.
00:14:05 As soon as I got to the path, she was there.
00:14:08 The doors open, arms wide.
00:14:10 And for a split second I thought it was because she wanted to see me.
00:14:14 And then I realized it was that she didn't want anyone else to.
00:14:20 I guess there are some things you can't make right.
00:14:23 So I try.
00:14:28 Anyway.
00:14:29 Positive.
00:14:31 My son.
00:14:34 It's going well.
00:14:36 It's good.
00:14:41 Henry.
00:14:42 Tag?
00:14:44 >> Yeah, I'm not doing this.
00:14:46 >> Listen, I'll sit in a circle and I'll fucking nod and get my stamp.
00:14:50 >> What's your problem?
00:14:51 >> No cross talk, please.
00:14:53 >> Same as everyone else.
00:14:55 I got caught.
00:14:57 You think you're different.
00:14:59 Tag, fucking tag.
00:15:01 What have you done this week?
00:15:02 >> Yeah, that's it.
00:15:04 Keep pushing, sunshine.
00:15:05 >> Is that a threat?
00:15:06 Did you just fucking threaten me?
00:15:09 >> All right, okay.
00:15:10 Let's cut this off now.
00:15:15 >> Kara, why don't you go next?
00:15:19 >> You know what?
00:15:20 I'm not really feeling this whole.
00:15:22 >> We're not here to sit in judgment.
00:15:24 You have nothing to be afraid of.
00:15:26 >> Maybe I deserve to be judged.
00:15:28 Have you ever thought about that?
00:15:30 Maybe there's no coming back from what I did.
00:15:36 Yeah, this was a terrible idea.
00:15:37 I shouldn't have come.
00:15:38 >> Please, don't stay.
00:15:40 >> Knock it off, Charlie.
00:15:41 Come on.
00:15:43 >> Kara, please.
00:15:44 >> Yeah, I'm sorry.
00:15:47 Some things you can't make right.
00:15:49 So I try.
00:15:53 >> Interrupting something?
00:15:55 >> We're fine.
00:15:57 Can I help you?
00:16:04 >> It's A-A-T, right?
00:16:05 >> Yes.
00:16:12 >> My name's Jack.
00:16:15 >> Well, hello, Jack.
00:16:19 >> Hello, Jack.
00:16:27 >> I'm late.
00:16:32 >> I wasn't sure I was going to be coming, to be honest, but...
00:16:48 So how does this work, then?
00:16:49 We all sit in a circle, have a bit of a moan.
00:16:55 >> It's called taking inventory, mate.
00:16:57 It's a lot of hard work.
00:16:59 Appreciate if you took it seriously.
00:17:02 >> Yeah, I heard that commotion from up the hallway.
00:17:06 He pisses you off, you want to kill him, she wants to leave.
00:17:13 Sounds like moaning, if you ask me.
00:17:15 >> Don't think we did.
00:17:18 >> It is moaning, bitching, whatever you want to call it.
00:17:24 From the outside, maybe that's all it looks like.
00:17:27 >> Maybe that's hard to hear, but accepting ourselves means accepting we aren't perfect.
00:17:32 >> Speak for yourself.
00:17:34 >> When you accept that, you accept you can improve, move on.
00:17:38 >> And what if you're a monster?
00:17:41 You're just supposed to accept that.
00:17:44 >> That's not self-acceptance, that's self-judgment.
00:17:47 We don't do that here.
00:17:54 >> I wasn't talking about me.
00:17:59 >> Cool, right, so I'm going to go.
00:18:03 Not that this hasn't been weird and extremely awkward, but, yeah.
00:18:10 >> I ain't going anywhere.
00:18:18 >> Jack, Jack, you don't want to do this.
00:18:20 >> Shut up.
00:18:24 Turn around.
00:18:37 Look at me.
00:18:39 >> I haven't seen your face.
00:18:41 You could just walk out here and I won't say anything.
00:18:43 >> Look at me.
00:18:52 So you're the funny guy, hey?
00:18:54 Always telling jokes, never taking it seriously.
00:19:00 Not so funny anymore, is it?
00:19:02 >> Jack, you need to calm down.
00:19:06 Whatever it is that you want, this isn't the way to go about it.
00:19:09 >> No, I say it's exactly the way to go about it.
00:19:13 >> Well, let's talk about that.
00:19:15 Let's talk about what you want.
00:19:18 >> I want you to take this seriously.
00:19:23 You come in here, sit in your circle, talking about fucking higher powers.
00:19:28 Thinking that's enough?
00:19:33 You've no idea what real recovery is.
00:19:39 What it takes.
00:19:43 How much it fucking hurts.
00:19:53 And not just you.
00:20:04 >> I'm sorry.
00:20:07 >> I'm sorry.
00:20:10 >> I'm sorry.
00:20:12 >> I'm sorry.
00:20:22 >> I'm sorry.
00:20:32 >> I'm sorry.
00:20:42 >> I'm sorry.
00:20:52 >> I'm sorry.
00:21:12 >> I'm sorry.
00:21:22 >> I'm sorry.
00:21:32 >> I'm sorry.
00:21:42 >> I'm sorry.
00:21:52 >> I'm sorry.
00:22:02 >> I'm sorry.
00:22:22 >> I'm sorry.
00:22:42 >> Do you want something?
00:22:46 For the pain?
00:22:50 I'm sure someone here's got something.
00:22:55 Ask them.
00:22:57 You're dying.
00:22:59 No one would judge you.
00:23:05 Ask them.
00:23:11 Ask them.
00:23:22 Is someone else here?
00:23:29 Yes? No?
00:23:35 What am I going to find if I go out through there?
00:23:37 >> Nothing.
00:23:38 >> What was that?
00:23:39 >> Nothing.
00:23:42 >> We'll see about that.
00:24:04 >> Fuck.
00:24:14 Fuck.
00:24:24 Fuck.
00:24:34 Fuck.
00:24:54 >> Probably wondering why I'm here.
00:24:59 Who I am.
00:25:05 Believe it or not, I'm here to help you.
00:25:11 You come here every week looking for change.
00:25:17 Something to make a difference.
00:25:22 It is.
00:25:26 Your higher power.
00:25:32 >> Why are you doing this?
00:25:35 We haven't done anything wrong.
00:25:43 >> You sure about that?
00:25:47 Shit.
00:25:51 >> This is what we're going to do.
00:25:54 We're going to go around the circle, talk about what's in here.
00:26:00 What you've done.
00:26:06 And I want each of you to tell me.
00:26:14 Show me.
00:26:24 Why I should let you.
00:26:48 >> Don't look at them, they can't help you.
00:26:56 Do you want to tell them who this is for?
00:27:00 I think you do.
00:27:02 I think you want to tell us.
00:27:03 I think you want to get it off your chest.
00:27:07 Get it out in the open.
00:27:09 >> My son.
00:27:10 This is for my son.
00:27:12 >> Your son?
00:27:16 >> He's with you?
00:27:18 >> With my mother.
00:27:20 >> With your mother?
00:27:22 Why is he with your mother?
00:27:26 Why does he live with your mother?
00:27:33 >> I was a mess.
00:27:35 I needed to get by, so I left him in the house.
00:27:42 >> You left him in the house?
00:27:46 >> It wasn't going to be for long.
00:27:47 I thought he would be okay.
00:27:51 I just lost track of time, and when I got back, he was so brave.
00:27:58 He didn't cry for the first few hours.
00:28:02 And neighbors heard.
00:28:08 He's my son.
00:28:10 He belongs with his mother.
00:28:14 >> What would you say to him?
00:28:17 If he was here right now?
00:28:20 It's difficult, I know, bringing all this back up.
00:28:24 Okay, okay.
00:28:32 We're going to try something.
00:28:35 You're going to talk to me as if I was your boy.
00:28:40 It's an exercise.
00:28:41 He isn't here.
00:28:43 This way you can talk to him.
00:28:46 Get everything off your chest.
00:28:49 >> I don't know.
00:28:51 >> She doesn't have to do this.
00:28:52 >> She does.
00:28:55 I want you to apologize to me.
00:29:00 I'm your son.
00:29:05 Your son right now.
00:29:09 >> I'm sorry, Liam.
00:29:11 >> Why are you sorry?
00:29:14 >> I'm sorry for leaving you alone.
00:29:16 >> You had a choice.
00:29:18 Yes, you did.
00:29:19 Yes, you did.
00:29:20 You had a choice to be a mother.
00:29:24 You had a choice to be a mother or a smack head, and you chose drugs over me.
00:29:28 Why do you hate me?
00:29:30 >> I don't.
00:29:31 >> Yes, you do.
00:29:32 Ever since you found out you were not tough, you've hated me.
00:29:36 Ever since I was born.
00:29:38 Why do you hate me?
00:29:39 >> Please don't say that.
00:29:41 >> Why do you hate me?
00:29:42 >> I'd do anything for you.
00:29:43 >> Why do you hate me?
00:29:44 >> I don't hate you.
00:29:45 >> Why do you hate me?
00:29:46 >> Because you made me what I am.
00:30:00 I didn't mean -- I didn't mean --
00:30:12 Don't judge me.
00:30:13 Don't you dare judge me.
00:30:16 You're never fucking right.
00:30:18 None of you think you've done.
00:30:21 >> No one's judging you.
00:30:22 >> Fuck you, man.
00:30:23 She's right.
00:30:26 None of you has the right to judge anyone.
00:30:28 >> Henry, what are you doing?
00:30:29 >> Leave it.
00:30:31 Won't do you any good listening to him.
00:30:33 He's scared.
00:30:34 Talking shit.
00:30:36 Aren't you, Henry?
00:30:37 >> No, I'm talking complete fucking sense.
00:30:39 I'm not dying for you, you piece of shit.
00:30:42 This is your mess.
00:30:43 That's what this is about, right?
00:30:45 They've done something to you, fucked you over.
00:30:47 I get it.
00:30:48 You're pissed off.
00:30:49 Really, really pissed off.
00:30:51 But I'm not the guy you want.
00:30:53 >> That's so.
00:30:54 >> Henry, stop talking now.
00:30:56 >> Maybe the plastic cop got a bit too big for his boots, huh?
00:30:59 Arrested somebody he shouldn't have.
00:31:00 Wouldn't be the first time, would it, Davey?
00:31:02 >> Got some fucking balls, son.
00:31:04 >> And this bitch.
00:31:05 Some things you can't make right.
00:31:07 Her own fucking words.
00:31:09 And this guy, this guy.
00:31:11 You'll love this one.
00:31:12 >> Henry, you need to calm the fuck down, mate.
00:31:14 >> Steals a fuck ton of drugs from his dealer.
00:31:16 And lets his buddy take the rap for it.
00:31:17 >> You need to stop this now.
00:31:18 >> How many bin bags was it they found him in again?
00:31:20 >> You prick.
00:31:21 >> You fucking prick.
00:31:22 >> Yeah, it's caught up with you, man.
00:31:23 >> I'm not like these junkies.
00:31:24 These fucking liars.
00:31:25 >> What's he talking?
00:31:29 >> It's just hot air, isn't it?
00:31:32 A whole lot of nothing.
00:31:34 >> Oh, God, oh, God, oh, God.
00:31:36 >> You can't talk your way out of this one.
00:31:38 Not with me, Henry.
00:31:40 >> She didn't tell me she was married.
00:31:42 I swear to you, I swear.
00:31:47 I tried to break it off.
00:31:49 I tried, you know.
00:31:50 But she said she'd...
00:31:53 I didn't think she'd actually do it.
00:31:55 Otherwise I would have...
00:31:57 It wasn't my fault.
00:32:03 >> She wasn't my wife.
00:32:05 >> She wasn't?
00:32:07 >> No.
00:32:11 But she was somebody's.
00:32:15 Just like the rest of them, Henry.
00:32:18 You're a piece of shit.
00:32:21 Say it, Henry, say, "I'm a piece of shit."
00:32:25 >> I'm a piece of shit.
00:32:27 >> You're a piece of shit.
00:32:30 I feel like we're making progress.
00:32:34 [cell phone buzzing]
00:32:39 Right, who's next?
00:32:45 Fuck it.
00:33:06 Yeah, fuck you too.
00:33:17 [car door opens]
00:33:36 When I first came here, I couldn't help but feel that you were all laboring under the misapprehension
00:33:42 that you somehow didn't deserve this.
00:33:47 That you were decent people.
00:33:52 Well, I'm glad we've managed to come to an understanding on that front.
00:34:01 Well, some of you at least.
00:34:10 You've got a daughter.
00:34:14 It's not a question, it's an observation.
00:34:18 See, men with daughters have this look.
00:34:23 They want to protect them so they see everyone pretty much as a threat.
00:34:26 Isn't that right, Dave?
00:34:27 Careful!
00:34:29 You'll hurt yourself.
00:34:32 Or someone else.
00:34:37 I know you can frighten this lot.
00:34:40 Throwing chairs around.
00:34:42 Pointing that pop gun at people.
00:34:45 But me?
00:34:48 I've got your number, mate.
00:34:59 I really don't think you have.
00:35:08 I tell you what.
00:35:10 Why don't I make a start?
00:35:12 Just join in when you feel up to it, okay?
00:35:19 To Jenny, my daughter.
00:35:26 I've respected your wishes and kept my distance.
00:35:29 It hasn't always been easy.
00:35:32 You are and always have been the dearest thing in my life.
00:35:37 I wish you could say the same about me.
00:35:42 In the past, I failed myself.
00:35:46 I failed you.
00:35:50 I was worthless.
00:35:53 Not fit to be your father.
00:35:56 This is really good stuff, Dave.
00:35:58 Really riveting.
00:36:00 He channelled this into poetry or something.
00:36:05 I don't remember the things you said I did to you.
00:36:09 I want to believe that it wasn't me who did them.
00:36:13 That I couldn't do that to my own daughter.
00:36:18 But I know that's not true.
00:36:25 What did you do, David?
00:36:31 What did you do, Dave?
00:36:33 It was a drink.
00:36:36 Not me.
00:36:39 I didn't know what I was doing.
00:36:41 I didn't know what I was doing.
00:36:43 No, no, no!
00:36:47 She was your daughter, you sick bastard!
00:36:54 Oh, God.
00:36:56 Do it.
00:36:58 Just do it.
00:37:00 I thought this was about what's fair.
00:37:05 Please.
00:37:07 Now I know it's just about you getting your rocks off.
00:37:13 If you'd have read what was in here, you'd know he deserved that.
00:37:35 Some things you can't make right.
00:37:40 Makes you wonder.
00:37:42 You think you've got something?
00:37:44 Call the cops.
00:37:45 This is her first night here.
00:37:47 She doesn't have a letter, she doesn't know anything.
00:37:50 She came in here, she sat in that chair,
00:37:53 figured she'd got something to get off her chest.
00:37:56 Something she wants to tell us all.
00:38:02 You stole something?
00:38:05 Hurt someone?
00:38:08 Fuck someone?
00:38:18 Do that to yourself.
00:38:20 Well, whatever it is, you must really hate yourself for it.
00:38:24 I came here for the free coffee.
00:38:26 You came here because you've got nowhere else to go.
00:38:30 Do you want to take something from me?
00:38:33 Friends?
00:38:35 Family?
00:38:37 Self-respect?
00:38:39 I have nothing left for you to take.
00:38:42 You think you've hit rock bottom?
00:38:51 Well, guess what?
00:38:53 I bought a fucking shovel.
00:38:56 Hey, whoa, whoa, whoa.
00:38:57 What are you doing?
00:38:58 What the fuck?
00:38:59 Jack, what's he doing?
00:39:00 Where are you taking me, man?
00:39:01 Jack, you're talking to me, not him.
00:39:04 Nothing left for me to take, that's what you said.
00:39:07 So I guess I'll take it from him.
00:39:09 Oh, shit. Oh, shit.
00:39:10 No, don't do this, please.
00:39:12 I don't know what you want.
00:39:14 I want to know why you're here.
00:39:16 What you did that was so terrible.
00:39:19 I stole things.
00:39:21 What things?
00:39:22 What things?
00:39:24 Sir, sir, sir.
00:39:25 Try harder.
00:39:26 Okay, okay, just--
00:39:27 Try harder.
00:39:29 Okay, okay, just let me think.
00:39:32 Come on.
00:39:35 Ah!
00:39:37 Ah!
00:39:38 I swear to Christ, I will burn his fucking face off.
00:39:41 Ah! Ah!
00:39:43 Okay, what do you want?
00:39:44 I want to know why you're here.
00:39:47 What did you do?
00:39:49 What did you do that was so fucking bad?
00:39:53 [door creaking]
00:40:05 It was my fault.
00:40:07 What was your fault?
00:40:15 I--
00:40:21 No.
00:40:25 No, no, no, no!
00:40:28 If anything happens while I'm gone, anything I don't like,
00:40:32 I won't hesitate to shoot every last one of you.
00:40:35 Do you understand?
00:40:39 Good.
00:40:48 Oh, shit.
00:40:52 Oh, Christ.
00:40:57 What the fuck are you doing?
00:40:58 You heard what he said.
00:41:05 Eddie?
00:41:07 Great, the cavalry's arrived.
00:41:12 I managed to distract him.
00:41:15 I don't know for how long.
00:41:17 You've got to go.
00:41:19 You've got to go now.
00:41:24 You need a hand there, buddy?
00:41:27 No, everything's fine here.
00:41:29 I've got it under control.
00:41:34 Fuck, fuck, fuck!
00:41:35 He's fucking locked it!
00:41:37 Jesus, they really did a number on him.
00:41:41 Like I said, everything's fine.
00:41:42 Bunch of fucking animals around here.
00:41:44 Didn't always used to be like this, let me tell you.
00:41:48 Hey, you want me to call the police?
00:41:50 Oh, that won't be necessary.
00:41:55 It's good to see you, man.
00:41:58 He can't be here.
00:42:00 You can't be here!
00:42:02 If he finds you, he'll kill us.
00:42:04 He'll kill us all.
00:42:06 He'll fucking kill us anyway.
00:42:10 Fuck!
00:42:11 I can't.
00:42:12 It won't.
00:42:13 The phones.
00:42:14 The lockbox, the lockbox on the table.
00:42:21 The keys.
00:42:22 Where are the fucking keys?
00:42:23 I don't know.
00:42:26 He's got them.
00:42:27 Don't do this to me!
00:42:29 It's in the cupboard.
00:42:32 There's a phone in the cupboard to the left of the door.
00:42:35 Come on, Eddie.
00:42:36 That's a fucking shame.
00:42:37 See, the insurance companies, man.
00:42:39 Screw you, I let a police report.
00:42:43 You've done enough already.
00:42:45 Where is it?
00:42:46 Where is it?
00:42:47 Do you see it?
00:42:48 How do we even know it's there?
00:42:49 It's there.
00:42:50 Trust me.
00:42:51 I got it.
00:42:52 I got it.
00:42:54 Why can't I get a fucking signal down here?
00:42:56 Eddie.
00:42:57 It's time for you to take your phone to go home.
00:43:01 It's fine.
00:43:02 What?
00:43:03 You don't want your phone or you don't want to go home?
00:43:06 I just...
00:43:07 I don't...
00:43:09 Just what?
00:43:10 You don't what?
00:43:12 I don't want any trouble.
00:43:13 Please.
00:43:14 Eddie, the window.
00:43:17 It's the only place where you get any fucking signal.
00:43:19 Come on.
00:43:24 Please work.
00:43:25 Please work.
00:43:28 It's a joke.
00:43:30 Joke?
00:43:31 Yeah.
00:43:34 Joke.
00:43:35 Here.
00:43:36 Take it.
00:43:38 Get yourself half home.
00:43:40 Please work.
00:43:41 Please work.
00:43:42 Please work.
00:43:43 What was that?
00:43:46 It was nothing.
00:43:48 He's fine.
00:43:49 Oh, I should probably...
00:43:50 No, no.
00:43:51 No, no, no.
00:43:52 What was happening?
00:44:09 He's killed him.
00:44:10 Oh, fuck.
00:44:11 Oh, no.
00:44:20 Eddie.
00:44:22 Eddie.
00:44:24 You need to get back to the roof.
00:44:25 I can't.
00:44:26 There's no time.
00:44:27 Then you need to make the call.
00:44:28 You need to make the call now.
00:44:29 We're fucked.
00:44:30 We're completely fucked.
00:44:31 Well, we're not getting out of this on our own.
00:44:33 If he comes back and realises we called for help,
00:44:35 you think he's going to wait for the police?
00:44:37 He's going to put a bullet in each of our fucking heads.
00:44:46 We need to rethink this.
00:44:47 Don't listen to him, Eddie.
00:44:48 There's no time.
00:44:49 We're going to get us all fucking killed.
00:44:50 Eddie, you need to keep it together.
00:44:52 I'm not putting my life in this fuck-up's hands.
00:44:54 Back off, Henry.
00:44:55 Don't listen to them, Eddie.
00:44:56 Listen to me.
00:44:57 You can do this.
00:44:58 This is suicide.
00:44:59 Eddie, please.
00:45:09 It's 999.
00:45:10 How on earth are you fucking this up?
00:45:12 Do it.
00:45:14 Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck.
00:45:15 Do it.
00:45:16 999.
00:45:18 Yes, yes.
00:45:21 [gunshot]
00:45:23 [squeak]
00:45:25 [squeak]
00:45:27 [gunshot]
00:45:29 [squeak]
00:45:31 [gunshot]
00:45:33 [squeak]
00:45:35 [gunshot]
00:45:37 [squeak]
00:45:39 [gunshot]
00:45:41 [squeak]
00:45:43 [gunshot]
00:45:45 [squeak]
00:45:47 [gunshot]
00:45:49 [gunshot]
00:45:51 Here.
00:45:58 Amber fucking leave them all.
00:46:12 Jesus.
00:46:14 That's a lot of gear.
00:46:17 So you're like what?
00:46:19 A drug dealer now?
00:46:23 So how does that work then?
00:46:25 You keep close to the ones who look like they're struggling,
00:46:28 offer to help them out.
00:46:31 And all this time I was blaming myself.
00:46:34 I never gave anyone anything they didn't ask for.
00:46:37 Do you really believe that?
00:46:39 Or is it just something you say to make it easier?
00:46:44 It's funny, when I first came here, I actually felt safe.
00:46:47 Like for once somebody actually had my back.
00:46:52 Guess I know the truth now though.
00:46:56 What's that?
00:46:58 We're just a bunch of people,
00:47:00 sat in a circle waiting for our turn to talk.
00:47:10 Disappointing.
00:47:13 Not exactly unexpected, but still.
00:47:18 Disappointing.
00:47:23 I found this...
00:47:27 in the bathroom.
00:47:32 In the bathroom!
00:47:35 Just can't help yourself, can you?
00:47:39 You get this from him?
00:47:43 Sometimes.
00:47:45 Sometimes.
00:47:50 Does that sound like something a friend would do?
00:47:54 Someone trying to help you?
00:47:58 No.
00:48:00 You're in luck, Eddie.
00:48:04 Because I am your friend.
00:48:09 And I am here to help you.
00:48:13 When I was about 12, 13, I was a real shit.
00:48:20 Fights.
00:48:22 Girls.
00:48:25 Broken windows.
00:48:27 But one day my dad catches me smoking.
00:48:31 Usual teenage bullshit, right?
00:48:34 No problem, right?
00:48:37 Except, he'd watched his mum, my grandmother,
00:48:44 die of lung cancer.
00:48:48 And he'd be damned if he'd had the same thing happen to his son.
00:48:53 So...
00:48:58 he takes the packet
00:49:02 and tells me to smoke the entire thing.
00:49:08 I was sick as a dog, but I tell you,
00:49:14 I never smoked another cigarette.
00:49:20 (DISTANT SCREAMING)
00:49:24 (SNIFFLES)
00:49:26 You think your boy over there can tell us how much this weighs?
00:49:36 About an ounce.
00:49:39 About an ounce?
00:49:44 Didn't need scales or anything.
00:49:46 Are you serious?
00:49:48 Even half that would kill him.
00:49:49 Every day he's killing himself.
00:49:52 Every day.
00:49:54 Here.
00:49:57 Please.
00:49:58 Anything worth doing...
00:49:59 Please.
00:50:00 ..comes with a certain level of risk.
00:50:02 That's what my dad taught me.
00:50:04 You get through this,
00:50:07 I guarantee you'll never touch this shit again.
00:50:10 Don't...
00:50:12 Don't listen to him, Ed, all right?
00:50:14 He's just trying to fuck with you.
00:50:19 Oh.
00:50:20 You think they're looking out for you like I am.
00:50:22 Right.
00:50:24 Right, OK, OK, yeah.
00:50:26 One, two, three, four.
00:50:28 Why don't you help him out?
00:50:32 All this will boil his fucking brains, let's be honest, but...
00:50:37 ..a fifth of it, you might all just get through that.
00:50:41 Of course, that means going back to square one.
00:50:46 All those months.
00:50:49 Years of recovery, just...
00:50:52 ..poof!
00:50:54 Gone.
00:50:58 But I'm sure it's totally worth it, right?
00:51:09 Please, please don't let him kill me.
00:51:12 Don't let him kill me.
00:51:15 Please.
00:51:17 28 grams.
00:51:20 An ounce is about 28 grams, that's 5.6 each.
00:51:24 Jesus.
00:51:25 I had a mate do three once.
00:51:28 His heart was pounding like you wouldn't believe.
00:51:30 His temperature went through the roof, his muscles seized up.
00:51:34 Didn't even yell for help.
00:51:38 He couldn't.
00:51:41 You know, maybe, um...
00:51:43 Maybe we have more of a tolerance, yeah?
00:51:46 Maybe it's cut with baking soda or some shit, I don't know.
00:51:49 Maybe? How can you not know what's in there?
00:51:51 Look, I just sell it, all right? I don't know what it's fucking cut with.
00:51:55 Fantastic. So it could end up with a nostril full of ground glass.
00:51:59 Or baking soda. You really have no way of knowing what's in there.
00:52:02 If we don't do this, we might as well be pulling the trigger ourselves.
00:52:05 OK, you go first then.
00:52:07 Or him. Or her. I owe him shit.
00:52:11 You're a fucking coward, Henry.
00:52:12 I'll do it.
00:52:16 I'll do it.
00:52:19 We're a support group, right?
00:52:27 Yeah.
00:52:31 [coughing]
00:52:36 [coughing]
00:53:04 It's good.
00:53:07 Safe.
00:53:11 Carries on like this, you just might be in luck.
00:53:16 So what? What, we gonna do this?
00:53:23 Bit more. Bit more.
00:53:28 [breathing]
00:53:32 Oh, fuck!
00:53:38 Yes, God!
00:53:42 This guy! This guy!
00:53:46 This guy!
00:53:50 This guy!
00:53:55 [laughing]
00:53:58 Two years.
00:54:02 That's what black means, right? Two years?
00:54:06 I doubt they've got more than two years between them.
00:54:13 That's why it's so easy for them to throw it all away. But you...
00:54:17 You have a future.
00:54:23 A son?
00:54:24 Don't listen to him, Charlie. He's just trying to get inside your head.
00:54:28 You have to ask yourself.
00:54:33 Is he worth throwing it all away for?
00:54:37 [crying]
00:54:51 I can't. I can't do this.
00:54:55 What? No. Where are you going? She doesn't mean it.
00:54:59 Tell him you don't mean it. Tell him you'll do it.
00:55:03 I'm so sorry. I promised my son I wouldn't let him down.
00:55:07 I promised. I promised.
00:55:11 Well, she looks like you two have got your work cut out.
00:55:18 You bastard.
00:55:20 I didn't do this. Every decision, every choice, choices he made has brought him to this point.
00:55:26 No. That's not true. He is trying to get better. He is trying.
00:55:30 You think he's going to have some epiphany? He's going to stop.
00:55:34 Turn it all around. He's not.
00:55:41 If he doesn't die tonight,
00:55:45 he's dead in six months. A year tops.
00:55:49 Are we going to do this or what?
00:55:59 Well, go on then. What are you waiting for?
00:56:14 [coughing]
00:56:18 We're not finished yet.
00:56:41 Hey, hey, Jack, can't you see that she's had enough?
00:56:45 Yeah, I can hear her fucking heart pounding from here.
00:56:48 Cora? Cora, you're not going to save him.
00:56:52 Not like this. For fuck's sake, you're going to kill yourself.
00:56:57 What do I look like? Some kind of lightweight?
00:57:01 What is driving that engine of yours?
00:57:09 Oh, Jesus.
00:57:13 I think you've had enough for tonight, sweetheart.
00:57:17 Stop. Stop.
00:57:21 I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
00:57:37 Do you think she'd be saying that if she knew that this was all your fault?
00:57:41 Do you know...
00:57:47 I was hurting for so long.
00:57:51 But this...
00:57:56 it's given me freedom.
00:58:00 It gave me a reason to keep breathing.
00:58:04 You sent me this letter. You helped me.
00:58:08 All this...
00:58:13 was you.
00:58:17 It can't be. It can't be.
00:58:28 Yes, it can.
00:58:33 Going away present.
00:58:37 You earned it.
00:58:41 Hey. Hey, Jack.
00:58:48 You ain't got to do this.
00:58:52 Yeah, I can do some more.
00:58:56 We can all do some more if someone would fucking help.
00:59:00 You're done, man. You are too.
00:59:04 If you don't do this, they all die.
00:59:15 One by one, they all die.
00:59:21 It's all right.
00:59:25 It's my fault. I didn't...
00:59:29 I'm sorry.
00:59:34 [moaning]
00:59:38 [coughing]
00:59:47 [coughing]
00:59:51 Sorry.
01:00:07 You keep saying that.
01:00:13 Sorry for what?
01:00:17 Leave her alone. She's had enough.
01:00:21 No, she hasn't.
01:00:25 Do you know, if someone has lost everything...
01:00:29 I've never known anyone cling on as much as you.
01:00:33 What's your secret?
01:00:42 Oh, looks like we're having a breakthrough.
01:00:46 Mother.
01:00:54 Is that what it's come to, Mother?
01:00:59 Murderer.
01:01:04 Murderer.
01:01:10 Why can you not just appreciate
01:01:14 what it is I'm trying to do here?
01:01:18 You killed Ellen, Dave, Eddie.
01:01:22 You. You. You brought this on yourselves.
01:01:26 These lives you live, the things you do, the...
01:01:30 Fuck, you fucking know it. You fucking know.
01:01:34 Get off me! Get off me!
01:01:38 What do you think they're going to do to deserve this?
01:01:41 One, two, three... I mean, they really have to hate themselves for it, right?
01:01:46 Four, five, six...
01:01:50 So imagine you have a daughter.
01:01:55 A little girl.
01:01:59 She meant everything to you.
01:02:04 Imagine the people that were supposed to help her.
01:02:08 As you can see, we have a new face this evening.
01:02:15 My name's Beck.
01:02:19 Hi, Beck.
01:02:23 Take advantage of her.
01:02:27 Spread your toes. You don't want to leave any marks.
01:02:31 Drag her down to their level.
01:02:35 And they leave her there to die.
01:02:41 Kara? Kara? Kara, look at me.
01:02:45 Look at me, Kara. We need to get the fuck out of here right now. OK?
01:02:49 What do you think they deserve?
01:02:55 One cut?
01:03:00 How much to make that right?
01:03:04 Oh, my God.
01:03:10 Oh, my God. It's him.
01:03:14 What the fuck is this? What's going on?
01:03:18 What did you fucking do?
01:03:22 Beck, that's who we're talking about, right?
01:03:28 You know, she always said her dad was nuts.
01:03:32 Oh, yeah, right.
01:03:36 She'd fallen off the programme. She needed help.
01:03:40 So she came to you?
01:03:46 Yeah, 'cause she was scared of you.
01:03:50 Afraid of what you'd do in case you found out that she got kicked out the group.
01:03:55 Charlie spoke to me. I spoke to some people and got what she needed.
01:03:59 What she needed?
01:04:03 We were trying to help her through withdrawal.
01:04:07 A couple of days, that's all it was.
01:04:11 We'd take turns watching her. She didn't want to be alone.
01:04:23 Spread your toes. You don't want to leave any marks.
01:04:27 Kara.
01:04:34 Please don't go.
01:04:38 I know I wasn't strong enough.
01:04:42 Beck? Beck? Hey, Beck?
01:04:46 Beck, Beck, Beck. Kara, Kara, get the fuck up.
01:04:50 Look at me. Open your eyes. Kara. Kara, call a fucking ambulance.
01:04:54 What the fuck did you do? What the fuck did you do?
01:04:58 Kara, call a fucking ambulance.
01:05:02 I didn't know she was still on the script.
01:05:06 You left her in some fucking shithole.
01:05:10 My little girl.
01:05:14 It wasn't her fault.
01:05:18 I'm not saying that. It's not my fault.
01:05:22 I didn't do this. I don't deserve this.
01:05:26 It was my idea to dry her out. My idea to leave her there.
01:05:30 I sold it to her.
01:05:34 I thought that was the person that I wanted to be.
01:05:42 It wasn't.
01:05:46 I needed to find help.
01:05:50 If anyone deserves this, it's me.
01:05:56 No one else.
01:06:00 They didn't stop you. They didn't help her.
01:06:04 They didn't speak up. It wasn't like that.
01:06:08 If they'd have found out what we'd done, they wouldn't have let me see my son again.
01:06:12 I couldn't have stopped it.
01:06:16 Yes, you could. But you didn't.
01:06:20 You had a choice. Just like him.
01:06:24 Like her.
01:06:28 Look how it worked out for them.
01:06:32 Shut up!
01:06:36 When I came here, I said one thing above all things.
01:06:40 Prove to me you deserve to walk out that door.
01:06:44 The only thing you've proven
01:06:52 is that you're liars.
01:06:56 Junkies.
01:07:00 Cheats. Monsters.
01:07:04 One and all. That's not true.
01:07:08 Give me one good reason why I shouldn't fucking kill him now!
01:07:12 Seth takes his nephew out and plays football with him every weekend.
01:07:18 Every weekend.
01:07:22 And Charlie loves his son.
01:07:26 She loves him so much.
01:07:30 And Henry might be a prick, but he hasn't killed anybody.
01:07:34 He's never existed.
01:07:38 Go on, get the fuck out of here. He's going nowhere.
01:07:42 Come on, come on. Think about your boy!
01:08:02 Or maybe you didn't.
01:08:06 A life for a life.
01:08:14 Whose fault is it?
01:08:18 You? Or you?
01:08:22 Jack, we both know it's me.
01:08:26 No, it's Seth. It's not. It's my fault.
01:08:30 Jack, it's my fault. It's me.
01:08:34 No, Seth. No one else needs to get hurt because of you.
01:08:38 No, please. Please.
01:08:42 It's okay.
01:08:46 What do I do?
01:08:50 Just live.
01:08:54 It's not just enough to know what you've done.
01:08:58 (gunshot)
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01:09:04 Have you been any fucking better now?
01:09:18 No.
01:09:22 No.
01:09:34 No, I don't.
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